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| Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
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9:54 am - well, that was quick!
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Hubby and I started TTC in July, and I'm now preggo!!! I'm supposidly about 5 weeks. I'm going to go today to get a test done and sign up for insurance, so I'll find out for sure today. Of course, I feel like I'm not really pregnant yet.. no morning sickness or anything, just more tired than usual, and that bloated/gassy feeling. I thought I'd be more worried about it, but I'm not stressign just yet about finances, and rather worrying that I'm providing a good environment for baby. We just moved here to Richmond VA last wednesday, and hubby will be starting seminary school as a full time student, and I'll be starting a nanny job within the next few weeks, so we'll be super busy until baby comes. (And hubby will be after too!) but we and our families are pretty psyched, Thank God. (of course, my mother is happy but SUPER upset that she will not be around for my pregnancy. I understand that, but we were not going to wait another 3-4 years until we would even potentially move back around them to start our family!
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7:11 am - ENOUGH WITH THE LABOR DAY JOKES
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I am totally over the "Labor" Day jokes. Haha. Yes. You're very funny. I was in the car with my husband as he drove me to work this morning (I'm a nanny for my brother in law), and they had women call in with where they started labor- in the car, at Christmas dinner, at a sports game, etc and it was physically painful to listen to. Especially since I was induced with my only baby and I was in the hospital when I started labor, and the birth wasn't exactly what I would've hoped for...
*stabs eyes out* I'm watching country music videos on CMT because it seems like every morning news show thinks they're O SO CLEVER and jokes about it. And my favorite web comic (www.twolumps.net) had one too. AHHHHHH. ENOUGH ALREADY.
Oh, and I saw five, count them, FIVE pregnant women at the mall the other day. And literally all I did there was walk in, find the Hallmark store, and walk out. I didn't even go near the maternity store they had there. And my other SIL is seven months pregnant. I think Salt Lake City must be hell for clucky people.
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| Monday, September 1st, 2008
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8:50 pm - BABIES!!!!!
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peanutbuster
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I don't know how much longer we can wait! We both want a baby so bad, to start our own family. I am sick of having to correct family members about my pregnancy status, in a different way. I keep having to explain that no, I am not using any form of birth control, not even pulling out, so no, it won't go like this: 'oh, but I had a friend that was like that, it was easy for her, so it will probably be easy for you when you start trying'. We have effectively been trying every day, for a few years, with a break in there before we got married over a year ago. So yeah, I'm pretty sure I can't get pregnant on my own.
We feel like the only thing holding us back from having a baby is money, but Andy will be graduating next spring, so if we had a baby next fall...
But then what if it takes a long time for us to be able to have a baby? What if meds don't work? Argh! I am so scared that I won't be able to have a child of my own, to be able to feel the little one growing inside of me... my mind keeps jumping from one thing to the next.
also posted to cluckymarried
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| Saturday, August 30th, 2008
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11:01 pm
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I posted recently about all of my dreams being right-- yes my SIL is pregnant! We know for sure now. I'm feeling better about it now. My initial reaction was one of upset, but I was just a little overwhelmed. I wasn't upset at all last October when she got pregnant. I think my reaction was just a combo of us TTC now and being worried for her since she miscarried her last. I also think i was still feeling echos of my weird dreams and how inexplicably I upset I was in them. But yay, going to be an aunt! Trying to recapture the excitement of last year for them. Also, the baby should be an aries, like me. :)
We aren't actually supposed to know, but I guess I can talk about it here. I thought she might not be telling us yet because it's so soon, but it seems (so his mother said) that it may be because she was worried we'd be upset. I'm glad their father let the cat out of the bag, though, so we can just be excited for her when she tells us.
If anything, her getting pregnanr has spurred me to get on insurance already. They're facing a pregnancy without insurance and, especially given my history of coplications, I don't want to end up in their shoes. Mine lapsed recently and I'm getting on my husband's in the next few weeks.
Ugh.. do you ever feel like the people closest to you are being unsupportive? I told my mother what was going on and her reaction was, "She's only 6 weeks! Why is she even telling people?" Well, I can see it being nice to have people to support you-- she certainly needed it last time (miscarried at 10 weeks, fetus stopped developing at 6 weeks). We're also not just people, we and the grandparents-to-be are close family. We are probably going to wait a little while to tell folks ourselves, but if I do miscarry again, I'd like to be able to rely on my mother for support. :/ I'd really like to wait until like 12 weeks, but i known myself and that that'd be difficult. My mom is a bit shy about this kind of thing I guess because she had 2 miscarriages herself. She said with her first succesful pregnancy she waited until 4 months to tell people. I had difficulty talking to her about my SIL without telling her we're TTC.
x-posted to cluck ttc and clucky married
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11:21 pm - Today made my cluck go crazy....
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I've held only a couple babies in my life. From the time I was little I was afraid I was holding them wrong, I'd look stupid to "adults", etc. That feeling carried over to adulthood, I've held a baby maybe 7 or 8 times. I always feel a little silly or feel like I look awkward. Today I was finally comfortable holding a baby!
It was my little cousin's 7th birthday today and a friend of the family was there with his three kids, the youngest being a 8 month old named Noah. He was SUCH a good baby. My aunt asked me to hold him while she ate and my mom sort of gave me a look like "yeah right" because she knows I don't hold babies. So I went over, picked him up, stuck him on my hip to walk back. I always hold my dog on my hip and figured a baby wouldn't fit quite as well..but I gotta tell ya, I have good hips to hold a baby!
Then I sat down with him on my lap and my aunt handed me the mushed up potatoes he was eating and I got to feed him. I've NEVER fed a baby before. I felt awkward and like I was doing it wrong, but I was in heaven. And I got to learn first hand that babies grab everything, hah. He even grabbed the plastic fork out of my hand and almost stabbed himself in the eye...whoops. So I skipped the fork and just fed him with my fingers
He was an amazingly good baby. And I was shocked at how natural it felt for me to hold him and feed him even though I'd never done that before. It made me sooo clucky.
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5:26 am
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psychoticcourt
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Yup so we were set on TTC next March.... after pushing it back twice. Why I got my hopes up is beyond me---- but now hubby has pushed it back another year and a half... I was planning on trying at 23... having two being done right at 25.... now its pushed back to ttc at almost 25 :(i was sooo upset :(
Makes me not want any now!!!!
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| Friday, August 29th, 2008
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12:08 am - sdflkjasd;fj *vent*
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So this week marks the 6 month mark since my daughter was born. Happy as ever, healthy and growing fast. I'm 12 lbz away from my post baby weight with no exersize, yet. My problem is:
I WANT ANOTHER SOON! I'm so wrapped up in the preggy realm that I can't stop thinking of it. I want to be pregnant again horribly bad. My husband is wanting to wait like 3 years maybe 4 but I want them to be close... I know now would be insanely close, but... I could handel it. We could handle it... say if they were 18-24 months apart? I'd love that.
Blah... it's eating at me so bad... it's like an itch inside that wont go away. LOL
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| Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
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12:08 pm - Different standards
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I desperately want a baby. My fiance insists he does, too-- but the problem is, our standards of "when we're ready" are very, very different. This is what I think we need:
*sigh* It's just so frustrating. I remember realizing how badly I wanted to have kids when I was twelve. This isn't really fair. :( For either of us.
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8:41 am - we aren't quite there yet....
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So with the recent events we decided last night that we would begin preping ourselves for TTC. Weight loss, health, and vitamins will be focused on for the next year. This is when we will see where we are at and what we want to do. I have a project. I have a goal. And I AM EXCITED. Anyonr know of a good place to begin looking for ways to get ready for ttc?
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| Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
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3:20 pm - hmmm
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Anyone else notice that their cluckiness seems to be related to their cycle at all?
I'm in my 4th month off birth control (which I was on for 3 yrs+) so I'm getting to know my normal cycles again, and I'm going through weird stages of being really glad that we are waiting a few more years, to OMG MUST HAVE BABY NOW! It seems like I'm the worst around the time I ovulate, although I'm not charting so that's just an estimate/intuition. Then there is about a week of my heart aching for a little one, and I convince myself that something must have happened and I am in fact pregnant, haha. Then, a day or so before my period starts, it gets a little more bearable and I go back to being okay (sort of) with waiting. It's WEIRD! I was just curious if anyone else has noticed this...
In other news, I went to the wedding of a friend who lived with me for a year in high school this past weekend, and she has a 2 month old. It was terrible for my cluckiness...I got to hold him for quite awhile, and it was like my heart was finally content for those few moments. It made it really hard to hand him back over! It doesn't help that my husband and I have been discussing future children a LOT lately and he's lost that superscared look he used to have. We both agree that it wouldn't be a tragedy if we got pregnant now, but to be the best parents possible it's probably better to wait. (Too much debt, not enough money and school to finish!) Meanwhile I torture myself reading pregnant communities and watching A Baby Story much too often....somebody stop me!
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2:38 pm
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fleckerbug
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So all those dreams about my SIL?
Yup, just found out she's probably pregnant (whatever that means.. I know you're pregnant or you're not, but haven't heard it from her, "probably pregnant" was from my FIL).
Good news for us, though. My husband may be getting a position at one of the local high schools. We're subs, but a position would mean insurance and more pay.
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4:38 pm - And Im not
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9:54 am - conversations...
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laughingcat
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I wanted to take a class in screen printing so I signed up, paid my fee, and got all excited. After looking up some details it turns out the solutions actually cause miscarriages and birth defects. We're not trying but when I said I wasn't sure what to do, drop the class or take it since we're not trying...He said "Drop the class. We'll prolly be having kids sooner than you think."
SQUUUEEEEE!!!!!!
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| Monday, August 25th, 2008
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6:41 pm
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8:49 am
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fleckerbug
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Why am I so emotional??
I just found out that my cousin had her baby. I thought they were going to name her Erin Elizabeth. A little weird since Elizabeth is my mother's middle name and I want to use it, but figured what the hey, it's a family name and just a middle name. But now they've gone and used my mother's entire name-- Catherine Elizabeth. And to top it off my mother sent an email saying how wonderful it is they named the baby for her (I don't know if they actually really named the baby for her as they're family names).
The women in my family pass on their names. My maternal grandmother was Margaret Mary as is my mother's sister. My mother is Catherine Elizabeth, named after her maternal and paternal grandmothers, Catherine and Elizabeth (lol, can you tell we're Irish? {well, I'm 4th gen anyway}).
Believe me, I don't think people own names, this isn't one of those, "how dare she?!" moments, but I am just so unexpectedly upset. I actually started crying. Everything has been making me cry lately.
*edit* I feel so stupid now. Apparently I misread my mother's email and they did name her Erin. She wrote it like this: Catherine Elizabeth and was apparently just making a little joke about the baby being named for her.
Now I feel even dumber for letting my emotions get the better of me. Maybe part of my upset is that there's another little girl grandbaby in the family. There's actually like 30 on that side from my Mormon uncle's kids, but I've always felt more closely related to my mother's sister's kids than her brother's.
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11:25 am
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*deep breath*
My SO and I had a few wonderful talks this weekend. I was really upset about being in debt and not having enough money and just feeling really down on myself. My boyfriend reassured me as best he could. He's the sweetest guy I know.
This talk...well...one thing led to another and we ended up having the sex talk again. We aren't having sex right now because we don't want to run the risk of me getting pregnant. I know protection is a great thing, but we're being extra careful (and a just a wee bit paranoid) right now. I finally asked him, "Would it be so bad if I got pregnant?" He told me that he would be really surprised, but he would also be really happy about me being pregnant with our child. Having a child would be hard at this point, but we'd manage. We then talked about children and our future for the next hour or so. You would think that my cluck would be on severe overdrive, but I think it's toned down a little now that I know my SO feels the same as I do (which I suspected and even knew, but just wanted to make sure for the 50th time).
Oh, I almost forgot! My boyfriend knows my feelings on having an unmedicated birth (possibly at home with a midwife) and he's a little nervous, but is fine with that for the most part. He also asked me, "I assume you'll be breast-feeding?" *grin* He's also completely in agreement with raising our children as vegetarian even though he loves his bacon. I'm a vegetarian and he wants to give our kids the healthiest start possible, as long I don't try to convert him.
current mood:  chipper
current music: "It's a great day to be alive"
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| Sunday, August 24th, 2008
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10:18 am - sorry.. my posts always end up longer than I mean them to
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fleckerbug
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Ugh.. more baby dreams. Well, first I dreamnt that my husband and I found this wonderful little furniture consignment shop. Everything was really ornate and all made of real wood. We noticed it at first because there was stuff on the curb for free. After we put that stuff in the car we went inside and they had tons of great stuff, all for under $100. There were so many pieces that we thought would be perfect for when we have a baby. Then, after I skied home since there wasn't room for me in the car, we got to his parents house (which was really my mom's old house, and no, we don't live with either of them) and found that his sister had just had a baby! She hadn't told anyone she was pregnant and was being kind of weird about it. This time it was a boy and looked exactly like my daughter did at about 4 mo. (which looks more like 1 or 2 mo.)
( My daughter how the baby boy looked in my dream )
Why do I keep dreaming that my SIL is pregnant? I hate this. She's TTC too, but not having much luck. I don't think I'll be upset if they get pregnant first, but I know I'll be jealous. Also, and believe this if you will or not, but my dreams often come true. I dream in surprising detail things that happen soon after. And, without going into it, I think this makes sense from both a scientific and spiritual point of view. But anyway, I keep wondering if this means they'll get pregnant soon. They've been trying longer, but we're older and have been wanting it longer, just put off trying til we got married and that's just a long story that some of you know and I don't want to go into. They also say they're not trying-trying, but what can you call not using protection? They waffle back and forth on whether they're actually trying, but they don't change what they're doing. If anything, I'd be more worried and proactive if I were her. They've been having unprotected sex for almost 2 years and have had one pregnancy which ended in miscarriage in November. That's their business, she just doesn't seem overly concerned and I'd be going crazy! I think it might be harder for them because he is not as clucky as her and he's definitely the reason they keep going back and forth. I was really obsessive when we first started TTC in June, but now that work and school (I teach full-time and attend college full-time) have started back up, I'm doing better with not obsessing on it. It's hard knowing that you have fertility issues, but you've only been TTC 3 mo. and don't want to seem crazy. And I can't help thinking about the fact the next few months would be the best time to get pregnant-- I'd be due about the time that my classes and my job are over for the summer and then have 3 mo. to adjust before my nursing program starts next fall. I'm kinda giving myself til Christmas before I give myself rein to start being more obsessed, but I saw something online today that said it was 17 weeks 3 daysish until Christmas and I couldn't help but thinking, "OMG! If I got pregnant now I'd be 17 weeks by Christmas!". And I remember that Christmas 5 years ago when I was 12 weeks pregnant. :/ Another possibility that appeals to me is finding out in November or so and surprising everyone at Christmas. ARRRRRGHH!!
I feel kinda bad that I'm almost as upset that the furniture store doesn't exist, lol.
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
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9:52 am - I know....*cross posted in clucky married*
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There are certain things I know. Such as someday I want to have children, or it will be sunny tomorrow. It is southern california, after all. But then there are intangables...I may not be able to have children, what if I am an awful parent, what if the things that happened in the past affect my babies, what if my baby has fibro?
A constant is the fact that my hubby does not want babies soon. He prevents it as much as possible and we have never had 'an accident'. But suddenly he doesn't care and now we have a very long 4 week wait. Now he is assuring himself, cause it really can't be for me, that 'nothing will come of it anyways'.
I'm muddled. I am about to make a career switch and he is astarting his MSprogram tomorrow. I'm crying at 12:26 at night because I'm not sure if I should be excited or unhappy about the whole situation.
In about 3 weeks I'm going to be flat broke from all the pregnancy tests I buy only to find out taht I'm not pregnant. I will end up a mess crying myself to sleep for a week, hoping that someday I'll have babies. Save me from my insanity.
Sometimes I think I should give up and resign myself to a 5 year waiting period. *sigh* at least I wouldn't be disappointed.
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| Friday, August 22nd, 2008
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4:26 pm - *cluck cluck cluck*
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10:31 am - Toooo funny!
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roseredhoofbeat
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One of my friends is TTC and is going through the awful two week wait. She IMed me today with:
"SOMEBODY STOP ME."
And I replied, "DON'T TAKE THE TEST YET!!"
And she goes, "....How did you know?!"
Because we have a sick, sick hive mind and I know that I will be exactly the same way when I TTC.
Ahh, fun times.
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12:07 am - Wow...
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meghan_lj
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My husband bought a Pack and Play. Actually went to Target while I was out, bought the Classic Pooh Pack and Play we saw and both fell in love with, cleaned our spare bedroom up...and set it up.
I am in complete shock! I go out for two hours and come home to a Pack and Play in our spare bedroom! Ah!
xposted to cluckymarried
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2008
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12:54 pm
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Please tell me I'm not the only one who has this issue. It feels as if, the more I want to get pregnant & the more we TTC, I feel like I'm getting farther away from pregnancy. The more I want it, the farther away I get.
Also, it feels like everyone else in the world can have children (all the celebs) at the drop of a hat and I can't seem to conceive one.
I am due for the big red in hardly a week, and I'm so not ready for it. Usually I'm like 2 - 3 weeks late. The last time I had a normal period was January. I was about two days late, ha.
TTC is so depressing...lol
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| Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
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5:54 pm - Over
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My cluck is in overdrive and I'm going crazy. I'm actually getting depressed over the fact that I'm not pregnant right now and won't be anytime soon. I've been clucky for a long time now. Now I'm dating the love of my life and he wants kids some day. I think that I'm really clucky right now because being married to this man and having kids with him is a definite thing.
However, it'll be a couple of years until we get married and start TTC. I'm not in the best financial situation right now. I'm trying to dig myself out of debt and working two part-time jobs with a third job starting in the spring. I'm starting graduate school next summer and it'll take two years to get my MLS. After that, I want to be settled in a job with benefits for at least a year. Of course, life happens and if I got pregnant sooner than that, we would manage.
A couple of questions for fellow cluckers:
Has anyone had a baby while going through graduate school?
Also, do men ever get the cluck? I was talking with my boyfriend last night and telling him how badly I wanted kids. He gave me all the love and sympathy he could, but said that I just have the mommy hormones right now and that's something he could never get since he's a guy. He wants kids in the future, but I can tell he's nervous about us having kids because he's an only child and hasn't been around babies much at all. He does comment on the cute kids that come into his workplace and he said that he sees the little girls and he would want a daughter one day. He has names already in mind. I've gotten caught up in the idea of having two boys. Two's the limit for the number of kids we're going to have.
I'm so glad that this community here and that there are other people who feel the same way I do. I'm 26 (27 in February) and my boyfriend just turned 27 and I have a fear of just getting more clucky as time goes on. My former co-worker brought in her two kids today. Her son is almost three and her daughter is seventeen months. They were very active and vocal and I got to play with them. Oh, the cluck!
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4:16 pm - Green Parenting
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So..... I updated not too long ago-
And I found out---- hubby said we are NOT TTC and it was a one time thing and will NOT happen until next year :( I knew I was getting my hopes up for NOTHING. :(
*sniff sniff*
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2:22 pm
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Hello all. My name is Cat or Jinx. I've been married for over a year now...
I'm not sure if I'm in the right place or not. My husband and I are off and on TTC. Our story is, about 10 months ago...We were coerced into adoption, and gave up our son. Ever since then, we've been trying very hard to get pregnant. In Feb/March I got pregnant and 3 days after I found out, I had a miscarriage. The last few months have been horrible, I've been getting false PG symptoms. I have had them every month since my son left, so every month I feel pregnant. I know that it could be PMS.
I'm really not sure if I'm in the right place, if not just delete me.
I think I might have hit the mark this month, I felt like I was ovulating...so wish me luck.
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11:36 am - Is there any hope left?
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First an intro, then my story.
Age: 24
Occupation: Soon-to-be teacher
Pets: Mona (cockapoo) and Isabel (kitten)
How long have you been clucky?: years
How long until you TTC: Maybe a year, maybe more? Depends on my husband's mood :(
Fertility Issues/Fears: Nothing concrete, but I'm a worrier.
Birth Method: Whatever is best for the baby when it comes to it.
Names, or Names-to-Be: Changes constantly :)
Will you be a Working or Stay-at-Home parent: I'd like to stay home for a while, but as a teacher I'll still have lots of time at home with them.
Breast or Bottle-Fed: Breastfeeding freaks me out- a lot. I am still trying to convince myself that I need to do it.
Boy or Girl: Both!! My husband is a triplet and wants to have twins so they can have the bond he had with his brothers (aww!)
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8:15 am - Strange Happenings...
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Last night was a step foward. We have been very careful up until now. I mean obsessively so. It's mostly for him but last night neither of us really worried about anything. I don't think anything will come of it, except perhaps being more comfortable with the idea of eventually having kids. The funny thing is we learned a lot of things lately that would prolly put our TTC date off until we know more. Family issues, need I say more? I'm assuming that he knows this and it's not bothering him. *smile* This is a great step in a direction I like. LOL now if I can talk him into a puppy, we'll be in business. lol Hope everyoneis having a wonderful day.
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| Tuesday, August 19th, 2008
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9:30 pm
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So I just got married this past Friday. And though we don’t plan on TTC for AT LEAST a year – I can imagine our preventing methods will probably be a little more lax than they were.
I was thinking of starting to take pre-natal vitamins now. I know it’s suggested to start taking them before you’re pregnant, but I didn’t know if there was such thing as taking it too early. (But in the same token, if I do end up pregnant before planned ttc – I want my body to be as ready as possible.)
I’ve been told that it’s just a multi-vitamin with a lot more of what a pregnant woman needs, so it would be completely safe to start taking it.
I just wanted to get some other peoples opinions first.
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10:36 am - Changing work hours....
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I was recently hired as an Administrative Assistant for a large chain of child development centers. I have been there about a month. I was hired with the hours of 7am-4pm, with a 1 hour lunch. I commute an hour each way. The last Admin. Assistant who trained with me worked 7am-1pm, or 7-11am or 7-12pm. It seems basically she got to choose her own hours. Now that it is officially the last week of summer, our busiest time, I want to switch my hours to 7am-1pm, with no lunch break. It would still be full time and really only 2 hours less than I'm working now. It would just allow me more time in the evenings to do what I need to. My hubby and I are also currently TTC baby # 1 and hopefully if I get preggo this cycle, I will need the afternoons to rest/prepare for baby/dr's appt.
My question is....how do I approach this subject with my boss? I know I can get all of my work done in those 6 hours. My boss is reallyyyy nice and understanding. I am such a non-confrontational/shy person. It took me 4 hours to hype myself up enough to ask for 3 days off to visit my dying grandmother.
HELP ME!
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6:54 am - cluckymarried?
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breedertales
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I'm not sure how to contact the maintainers through lj (if anyone can tell me how, that'd be spiffy), but I've tried to join the group twice and keep getting declined. I'm over 25, I'm in a six year relationship... I'm not sure how I'm failing on this one. Thanks!
EDIT: Just wanted to say that you guys rock - thanks for the feedback and pointing out the obvious mod link that I missed on the comm. Y'all rock!
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| Monday, August 18th, 2008
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11:02 pm - Last nights dream
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I've been very clucky at the moment its starting to invade my dreams. Last night's dreams is was just one in many.
I was talking to my boyfriend about kids the usual stuff, and casualy asked if he wanted a small present. I gave him a box with a positive pregency test result in it, I woke up before his reaction. It made me feel so empty though when I woke up, I kept stroking my stomach wishing there was a little person inside me.
Oh well , one day maybe.
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11:57 am - "not so bad..."
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I think I looked sad yesterday. Our neighbor, a very pretty woman with one kid and ready to bring #2 into the world sat outside sunning herself on the wall with Grayson (child number 1) pointing out the fishies. He grabbed my arm and showed me 3 big Koi swimming lazily in the pond below. I laughed and looked up to see matt watching me. It always makes him uncomfortable that I get so excited about kids. He once told me it was because he felt like he was being selfish not wanting kids right now.
We fell asleep, waking intermitently throughout the night. At one point Matt was sitting up and reading, we are poor sleepers. I asked sleepily if he thought it would be bad if we had kids soon, and matt looked at me and smiled. "It won't be so bad...not so bad." He smiled, kissed me and told me to go back to sleep.
Today I find myself repeating the phrase over and over in my mind "It won't be so bad..." What does he mean?
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| Sunday, August 17th, 2008
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9:59 pm
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We're getting our house rewired. My husband and two of his friends are doing the work, and then we are going to have a master electrician come in, inspect everything, and sign off on the paper work. I get to paint everything soon, which I'm so excited about it. I keep thinking about our second bedroom though.
I want it to be our nursery. I want the jungle to be our baby theme so I'm not sure what color to use. A jungle green? A light brown? Would lavender be bad for a boy? We're not even pregnant and I'm worrying about the color.
We already have names picked out. Sebastian Pierce and Clementine Mae or Clementine Rose.
Oh! And we also both got gainful employment, as my MIL likes to say, in the past 2 weeks. It has been tough here in Georgia, finding decent jobs, but we both did, yay! If we can get caught up on bills and create a decent savings, we'll be doing really well, and maybe I could be a stay at home mom like I want to be.
This is cross posted to ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) cluckymarried btw!
current mood: chipper
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1:14 pm - ~*Send me baby dust!*~
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psychoticcourt
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Hey all! So last time I updated a few weeks ago that my husband said that we would TTC next March----
Forgive the TMI...
Well he has always been real careful and all about pulling out-condoms etc...for the past 6 years....
Last night he suprised me and " let loose" Haha.... I couldn't believe it. We didn't discuss it- nothing- he just did it and then smiled and that was it. Now I don't know if this means we are "TTC" or if it was a one time in the mood thing....
BUT I was happy and will be happier if I do turn out preggars...... It technically is around the OV. stage....
Throw me some baby dust!!! :)
current mood:  ecstatic
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| Saturday, August 16th, 2008
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10:01 pm - 60 to 0 in 0.5
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I was in a relationship until last week and whilst I amnot sad that relationship has ended (rarely saw each other) but it has left me weird. I keep feelinglike I am never going to meet a guy that I will settle with and thus have the nuclear family that a lot of people around me have. I want kids I want settled and I don't seem to be having that.
I was expressing to a friend the desolation I was feeling this feeling time was running out, that would never have the family I want, that I will die old and alone. All the while is this damned clucky feeling that when feel this way becomes harder to deal with. A feeling that is taunting me say c'mon you want a kid right? Whilst the realist side of my brain is feeling a total lack of hope telling me ; get real nobody wants you. What makes you think you're going to have kids with anyone!
Does anyone or has anyone feel this way or has anyone felt this way and come out te other side?
current mood: blah
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11:19 am - Baby dreams
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kyalesyin
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I feel like I'm going insane. Like, properly insane.
I always get baby dreams when I'm ovulating. Normally happens around the full moon. How about that, huh?
Normally, I wind up dreaming that I'm pregnant, and then waking up suddenly and panicking because one minute I'm a few days away from dropping, and then suddenly, no bump, nothing. Occasionally, I dream that I've already got kids, which is even more distressing when I wake up. These go on for three or four days, I feel like crap for a week, and then they fade off. I can [kinda] deal with those.
Lately though, I've been put on Citalopram. It's an antidepressant.
Since I've been on it, the baby dreams have gotten insanely bad. As in, I'm getting looping dreams so I feel like I've woken up, but I've actually woken up into another dream, so when I think I've woken up I get this huge elation that I am actually pregnant, and then I actually wake up and it's all gone. I've woken up half a dozen times because my baby is crying, and then when I wake up I can still kinda hear it, in the same way that if you get hurt in a dream it's still kinda there, and I end up having to check my flat to make sure there really are no kids. I can't shake them off. Unless I get up and stay up after them I just fall asleep and fall back into them. They've been going for almost a week now, and showing no sign of slowing down.
Please tell me that this is normal and it'll go away. I can't take constantly dreaming like this. It's going to be years before we're ready to even start thinking about starting a family.
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| Thursday, August 14th, 2008
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10:30 pm
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9:56 pm - Yay!
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sim_puyo
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I'm a dad! My daughter is perfect. My heart is overflowing with joy. Being a father is a million times better than I thought it would be, and you can tell your reluctant spouse I said so. :P
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2:29 am - sorry a little long-winded; my painkillers make me chatty!
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We're coming out of summer and I'm actually feeling a little calmed down on the baby front. I want very much to get pregnant, but I haven't been testing twice a day (ugh.. I know, but in my defense I was usually doing an OPK and just adding in an HPT for the heck of it). I'm wondering if maybe I'm not testing as much because I'm on Metformin and now more likely to ovulate. Really I shouldn't bother since I can tell when I'm pregnant! I also feel like maybe OPKS just don't register for me, so I'm getting less interested in using them. I also did a test with my ovuscope-- I am having such dififculty with it because I always appear to be ferning, so I tested my husband's salive-- ferning!
I think I'm also feeling less stressed about TTC because I'm going back to work and school again. My college courses start this coming Monday and then I'm back to teaching at the end of the month. My husband and I have also made some big decisions about my education path lately, and I'm excited to get started! I'd been taking classes at the local community college for awhile with the plan of getting into a master's nursing program, but I've recently decided that I'd also apply to the nursing program the community college offers as well. It's a really good 2-year RN licensure program. You don't graduate with a degree, but get an RN just like you would with a BSN. I can get through the program they offer more quickly and I won't have to commute. We want me to be home with the (future) kids at least half-time and I just can't stomach the thought of spending well over $100,000 for my MSN only to immediately stay at home with the kids. Three ohe big selling points for me are 1-- I'm confident that I'll be able to handle the program even while pregnant (unlike with a master's program; I worry I'd have to take a leave of absence), 2-- I'll be able to work at least part-time while doing the JC program, and 3-- aside from books, the JC program should be free (tuition waived). The idea is I'll get my RN licensure, work and possibly stay home with our kids full- or part-time and then go back for my Master's when all of our children are in school. And with this schooling, when I do decided to go back for my Master's it should only take me one year instead of two or three! :D And luckily the prereqs for both programs are very similar, so if I don't get into any of the JC programs in my area (they're impacted and less than half get in by lottery), I can still apply to the Master's progam.
Babies!!
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| Wednesday, August 13th, 2008
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9:40 pm - Oh gosh...
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chickyboo
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Today I met with an adviser to go to school & get my certification in medical billing. If I wasn't excited to go into this before, the adviser mentioned that after you established a reputation with your employer, the company often times they will let you do your work from home. My heart skipped a beat and the first thing that came into my head was "work from home and take care of the baby!"
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4:21 pm
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lucyinthesky08
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So, I was sitting here reading pregnant and decided to take a test, not thinking it would be negative. But it didn't even take 20 seconds for it turn positive! OMG!!! I was really excited and hyped up but it kinda died down now and I'm like . . . "ummm maybe it lied." I don't know. I got a BFP!!! :D X-posted to cluckyttc and clucky
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| Monday, August 11th, 2008
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7:20 pm - Clucky as ever
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moonlightlilly8
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How bad is this:
* When I went to Linens and Things last week I found a new bathrobe that I liked. I tried on the S/M and it fit nicely but they also had a L/XL. I tried that one on and the first thought that went through my mind was "if I get the larger size I can wear it when I get pregnant." And to top it off I stood there with the robe pulled out to see how far it would go and still close. So I bought the larger size!
*At Kroger today I noticed they had some books 50% off so I stopped to take a look. Found a great cookie book for $3 and they had a book on how to decorate baby nurseries for $4. I bought it and just put it down (I read it cover to cover, word to word). I thought I had ideas before. Now I want to decorate 20 nurseries!
Lord help me!
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8:29 pm - My body is trying to make me go crazy
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So, while we are happy for any blessing that comes along, my husband and I were 'planning' to wait until next Aprilish to start TTC.
So, after having a couple picture perfect cycles (it was lovely to have a 15 months break plus the 9 months of pregnancy of not having a period), my last one has gone walk about. Not only has it been a month and half since my last period (and now just over a month since I was suppose to ovulate), but I'm still not getting a positive pregnancy test (as of yesturday).
My body is officially trying to make me completely insane - first the back and forth from feeling it would be 'best' to wait and wanting to just let things happen/have a baby *now*, but now I've gone through about two weeks of am I or am I not? with no period, some iffy signs of pregnancy (more tired + a bit more cranky + toilet habits gone all funny, all of which can be attributed to other things like heat wave making me drink tons) and now three negative tests...
My current game plan (as we're going away to a husband's friends wedding this upcoming week) is to wait and try again on Saturday/Sunday and then again after we get back from the trip (late Wednesday, so Thursday morning) and if it's still a negative, going to see the nurse. I've come to terms with being fine whichever way it is - I just want a definitive answer!
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12:22 pm - Stupid question...
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sunflowerjewelz
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Hi I am new to this community so please escuse the stupid question...but what does TTC mean. I am sure once someone tells me I am gonna have one of the "Gee George" moments.
On another note, thank-you to whomever started this community. I am 23 (almost 24) and out of the girls my age at work i think i am the only one that hasn't had at least one kid yet. And working with one pregnant girl and being verry close to about 2 others gets me pretty clucky at times. What makes things worse is when I go to talk to my husband, Mark, he wants to wait. I completely understand, he wants us to have some time for ourselves b4 having kiddos of our own. Its just tough sometimes watching the other girls go thru the preganancy thing.
I want all of that. Even the morning sickness and the heartburn. Stupid, right? All the same I want it.
Thanks for listening.
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11:07 pm - Shooting stars
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qamar
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My hubby came home from work early and asked me to print out pictures of shooting stars* from the internet. Then I found out he's contributing an entire year's worth of his money-box towards tattoos for our 2nd wedding anniversary! We're thinking of getting matching comets from the Bayeux tapestry.
Plus, when I told him that I had forgotten to pick up my nuvaring this month he said, "just forget it". So, looks like we're TTC! :D
* Morgan wrote a story including shooting stars for our first Valentine's Day based on our first date.
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3:50 am
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fleckerbug
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Ugh.. there is nothing worse than having pseudo-symptoms when you're TTC! Every little twinge I've had this week has made me think I'm pregnant. My breasts hurt, I'm having weird abdominal pains, etc. Not to mention I've been so emotional. I am really not the type to resort to crying to end an argument, but last night my husband and I got into a heated discussion, sparked by a onesie I had bought (we were arguing over the meaning of the message on the front :P), and I just ended up crying. I was so upset that I had upset him that I just started bawling. And then last night I was reading before bed, a book I've read at least 5 times, and started tearing up at a couple of parts that had never phased me before. I was also in a lot of pain after having sex yesterday and I was trying to convince myself that it was my usual post-orgasm pregnancy pains rather than us just having somewaht rough sex.
cluck, cluck.
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| Friday, August 8th, 2008
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4:11 am - Clucky? That's the word for what I'm feeling!
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Introductions are in order.
I am 23 years old, divorced (coming up on a year,) dating a wonderful man and /insanely/ clucky. It doesn't help that I work at a place that seems to have two or three girls pregnant at the same time.
Help me come Saturday, when I have to go to a baby shower for someone who is expecting their first.
Babies everywhere! My Great-Aunt's stepson just had a boy. Three weeks old, then there's my cousin (who shouldn't have a baby at all) she just had her son...
Everywhere I go I see them, and I want that!
My boyfriend lives too far away right now, and until we finish school, we both have to tough it out. It's been getting harder for me to fight this off, to the point where I hear a baby cry or giggle and my heart just melts.
How do some of you other ladies (and gentlemen, my boyfriend clucks on occasion too) deal with the fact that even if your body wants a baby right now, you know it's not possible for some reason or another?
current mood: VERY Clucky
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| Thursday, August 7th, 2008
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1:16 pm - a bad night... cross posted in CluckyMarried.
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laughingcat
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So last night I brought up the idea of maybe waiting for a longer period of time before we have kids. I know, I know. I'm insane. I really want kids and the idea of putting it off made me bawl, but he's not there yet. He's far from there yet, and knowing that if we put it on the backburner I might get used to the idea of not having kids for a long time, it seemed logical. I mean I really don't like feeling like I do, but making a decision like that would help me get over the pain enough so I can move on with my life. My hubby and I were eating a shaved ice at Mochilato (awesome asian desserts place.) and I started to cry. Just a welling over of emotions, not the sceaming and moaning kind. We got home and talked for 2 hours. He felt he couldn't help me and started talking about going to see someone about it. We have been married for two weeks....somehow I feel like a failure here. I can't speak to strangers in person about my feelings anyways. I was always better at writing. I mean I'll go if he thinks it will help, but how do you talk out biology and synapsis?
Inside I get angry sometimes that he won't even think about changing his mind. I don't want him to want kids but to think about me and my emotions, to offer to have them (knowing I will say no) would make me feel that the sacrifices I feel like I'm making is worth it. He can't even talk about having kids right now without cacooning it inside a joke with 5 lines of buffer. Instead he thinks there is something that needs to be fixed so I'm not so impatient, or sad. He tells me that he's not happy unless I'm happy, but he seems contented enough to ignore me when I cry myself to sleep. (Granted I try not to let him know I'm crying.) He wants to wait, because he wants "buffer". Some time to get used to our life together and his educational goals (he's in grad school) , to enjoy our time together before starting a family. (Note: we have lived together for 2 and a half years in a psuedo marriage. Also, my sister lives with us, and he wants to wait until she is long gone before we start trying. I would love her to be there to help... well nto with the making part but when I'm home alone He did not have family support since he was little and OMG mexican family...I totally have.) Every single day I wish I did not have this burning need to have kids. If I could take the need away, and not the want...I so would!!! It would make life easier. He used to get frustrated that I would write online about how I felt, and how I want babies. He said he felt left out. Now I feel like I have a problem.
I guess sometimes it's easier to find someone to have kids with OR to find someone to marry. Not both at the same time.
Sorry I'm just venting. Thanks for listening
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