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I have just passed the fourteen month marker for total sobriety. Now here my question. For the past few night I have been having drinking dreams for some unknown reason. I really never had them prior to this. We do have a planned trip to Las Vegas in a week and a half, in which I feel totally comfortable with. Otherwise I would not be doing this. We are bringing my older kids and have plenty to do other than the usual partying. Do you think this is some sort of play into my dreams? Like I said I feel really good about this trip and will not cancel because of a few drinking dreams. However any input would be appreciated.
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[18 Jun 2009|03:06pm] |
My name is John and I am an alcoholic and pill popper. I have struggled with this for years now. I have been working on changing my attitude, through my own LiveJournal page (called The Secret Daily), but I would like to get involved with a recovery group like this too.
A sobriety partner would be nice. Do you do that sort of thing through live journal?
If you also want to check out my community, it is at http://community.livejournal.com/thesecretdaily/
I am anxious about this recovery community being an encouragement. If anyone would be interested in being like a "sponsor" or something, I would love to hear from you.
Thanks,
John
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[16 Jun 2009|04:21pm] |
Hi, my name is Courtney, I am fighting alcoholism and presciption drug addiction. I never considered my drinking a problem until I started drinking at work to make it more bearable. After I realized the drinking was becoming obvious, I switched to various kinds of uppers to get me through the day, and xanax to get myself asleep.
My friends never noticed, or chose not to say anything until last year when my fiance broke up with me and kicked me out of his place, and I began drinking every day, even while driving, with friends in the car. My friends intervened and since then I've improved on how often, but when I do drink it's until I black out. And every time I would sit in the bathroom puking up vodka and stomach acid, and say I was never gonna drink again, but two days later I would be back at it.
I'm only twenty and it's already delayed my success in school(and life!). Obviously I need someone to buy alcohol for me, since I am underage, and typically, someone will buy for me until they realize how much I drink, then they will stop buying, and I find someone else to help out. I don't wanna lose friends over this anymore.
None of my friends have any clue how medicated I am most of the time. Most of it is xanax, where I can take anywhere from 3 to 5mg a day, although my prescription is for .25mg a day. I also in the past have had binges with vicodin and various over-the-counter drugs.
I used to say I was living like a rock star, but that life is already getting old. I'm done with my party days before I'm even allowed in a bar, which is sad. I'm doing better, but I'm not quite there.
I joined to read other life stories, and to share my experience.
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hello im molly im 20, ive been battling drug and alcohol addiction since i was 14. I went to rehab the first week of april in 09' and i attend CR and the 12 step program. But i just seem to cant get sober...i mean im not near as bad as i used to be but i think about how i need it so much..but im a newbie so feel free to add me if u u want.
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My husband and I started going to outpatient rehab a little over a week ago and this place is fucking HARDCORE- maybe some of you know it- NYCATS- New York Center For Addiction Treatment Services
My counselor- Rich- is AmAziNg, VERY strict... but definitely what I need... He hand picked me... and he's been surprisingly flexible given our current circumstances... anyway, I know that I'm proud of us and we're heading in the right direction... It just needs to keep happening-
We're talking (my husband and I) about rehab- separate one's (of course) which is VERY difficult for a couple like us. I am incredibly co dependent and I think Bear is, a little too... we're together literally 24/7- eat, sleep, breathe, work together... I'll keep updates.
Love & Peace
xoxo
Crystal
I just got married two weeks ago today!
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[12 Jun 2009|07:19pm] |
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Hi guys.
I've been a member of this community for some time now, am a recovering alcoholic, and will have six months next month! I think it's important to bring awareness to addiction issues, and while I'm not comfortable talking about my own issues on my main journal, I do write fiction. I have written several drug stories already, and it has actually helped me quite a bit in my own recovery.
I am working on a new one that deals with heroin addiction. I need to know what withdrawals are like and how bad they can get before going to the hospital is the only safe option. (I know you technically probably should go, but my character isn't and I'd prefer him not to.) Everything I've found online is so generic, but I am looking for more specific things, personal experiences or whatever you can share.
Thank you!
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[06 Jun 2009|03:02am] |
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Im 18 and this is the first time ive ever come to terms with the fact that i have a drinking problem. Ive been having a really rough past 6 months and have turned to pot alcohol and sex to try and be happy, which in turn made me dependent on those things and even more miserable when im sober. I have a best friend who was addicted to heroin who is in rehab for the second time and i never thought id let myself get to the point of possibly needing rehab. Ive confessed my addiction to 3 people 2 friends that im not that close with and my therapist. I am looking up meetings right now around my area (south jersey) and i really hope i have the courage to go to them.
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[04 Jun 2009|08:04am] |
I have finally gotten fed up with the persistent troll who shows up here every so often. THe trolling has been reported to the abuse team and the user has been banned from the community.
I apologize to all who have gotten inappropriate responses to your posts from the troll. I should have put the banhammer down long before now. If he pops up under a new username, let me know asap.
Thanks for your patience.
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[03 Jun 2009|02:41pm] |
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Ya know I was doing good... but like an hour ago I took anywhere from 8-10 loratab 10's... and the sad thing is I don't even feel anything.
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[29 May 2009|08:55am] |
F.E.A.R. = Frustration, Ego, Anxiety and Resentment.
--Anonymous
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[28 May 2009|11:20pm] |
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Well I have been clean and sober for around 2 months now. I broke over and took around 8 loratab 10's. Before I quit that wouldnt even give me a buzz but now I feel wild as hell... I mean I feel bad about it and all but it is something that I can't take back...
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Hey everyone, my names christina I am 28 years old and I am a recovering Alcoholic and addict. I have been sober and clean for two years. I go to meetings, talk to my sponcer and living a fairly good life sence I been sober. Don't be fooled though, I have the same struggles in life as everyone eles in life. I have my work, my family, my school and everything eles in between to deal with, I even have all my mess I made from drinking and drugging to clean up. I am just writing this to introduced myself and to meet others like me.
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[11 May 2009|07:57am] |
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this is my first post to this sight. my daughter suggested that I join. I have been clean and sober for 11 days. it has been very hard to give up booze and a daily pot habbit at the same time. I also quit cigarettes 4 months ago.
I am mom to three beautiful daughters who have some great men in their lives. No grand children yet but I expect that to come soon.
I live alone with my cat ralphy. I have a male companion who visits most days. I hope to come here for support and maybe help someone else along the way. hugs from kathy in maine
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[10 May 2009|09:07am] |
If we see only ourselves, it's a very lonely world.
We can learn the difference between taking care of ourselves positively and
being so negatively self-centered that we are forced into solitary
confinement, where we dry up for lack of genuine interchange.
We should know who we are. But we should also know who our neighbor is, and
our friend, sister, boss, or child. To know other people and see beneath the
exterior they present, we need to be comfortable enough with ourselves so we
can relax and look and listen. We also need to be humble enough to realize
we can learn from someone else and benefit from the gifts she or he brings
to the relationship.
With recovery comes new empathy and sensitivity. As self-will loosens its
grip, we are open to the intuitive knowledge that enhances our interactions
with those around us. Since our vision is less clouded by the problems of
addiction, we can see others more clearly and understand them better.
Recovery offers us a way out of loneliness into companionship and community.
I will use my empathy to deepen my understanding of those who cross my path
today.
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[08 May 2009|12:17am] |
i have migraine's, adhd(wich i hate that label), depression, i am also a drug abuser.
ive read that people take anti depressants for migraines, also for adhd, hmm...
comments any???
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[07 May 2009|10:12am] |
Many of us have been trying to keep the whole worlds in orbit with sheer
and forceful application of mental energy.
What happens if we let go, if we stop trying to keep the world orbiting
and just let it whirl? It'll keep right on whirling. It'll stay right on track with no
help from us. And we'll be free and relaxed enough to enjoy our place in it.
Control is an illusion, especially the kind of control we've been trying
to exert. In fact, controlling gives other people, events and diseases such as
alcoholism, control over us. Whatever we try to control does have control over us and our life. I have given this control to many things and people in my life. I have never
gotten the results I wanted from controlling or trying to control people.
What I received for my efforts is an unmanageable life, whether that unmanageability was
inside me or in external events.
In recovery we make a trade-off. We trade a life that we have tried to
control, and we receive in return something better - a life that is manageable.
Today, I will exchange a controlled life for one that is manageable.
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[03 May 2009|05:09pm] |
Hi everybody. Just to let you know that I've tidied up a little bit here, nothing drastic. I finally found a picture I wanted to use for a default icon for the community.
I know that at one time I spoke to a couple of people about coming up with some concrete rules for the community, but since then, I haven't really seen a need to follow up. I really appreciate the way that people treat each other here, and that for the most part we don't feed the trolls that we attract. So I guess for the time being, my thinking is that there's no real need for rules as such. Mainly it's all just "Don't be a jerk."
If you're on Dreamwidth or thinking about being on Dreamwidth, I have started a recovery forum over there: sobriety. I'm still here on LJ, too. Let me know if there's anything on your mind about this community and how it's working.
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[29 Apr 2009|03:27pm] |
The body is your temple. Keep it pure and clean for the soul to reside in. -B.K.S. Iyengar
When the winds of change blow, some people build walls and others build windmills. -Chinese Proverb
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