| Nowhere Girl lyrics... |
[20 Jul 2008|12:16am] |
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I'm not the letter wax / waiting on your seal
I'd abandoned all my closest ties
I've sold off any notions I had / about our lives
Sadly lowed expectations ruled my mind
You settled for what / you didn't want
And close enough / is what you got
I was the nowhere girl you picked / up on a trip to destiny
And not soon enough / could you escape me
I failed in the footsteps set before me
But you built us up / on a landslide
And then you wanted failure too
You never needed a nowhere girl
I wish you well / selective memory has it's own hell
You were a lesson / I never wanted to learn
Sadly you never saw / the one thing / you could never earn
When you pass by nowhere / you never see where you are
PRB 2008
Respectfully
D.E.A.D.
(working wpn into 3's the chorus poss.)
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| Where is my Super-Fo?... |
[19 Jul 2008|11:32pm] |
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Sthenno: i saw wonder woman season 3 at Wal mart on sale..
Sthenno: I hate being broke!
KALAHARA: heehee
KALAHARA: I know
KALAHARA: nothing is worse then poverty when Linda is running about in red boots on a Wal-mart shelf
KALAHARA: life is cruel that way
Sthenno: season 3 .. this is when they had the shitty computers and dog robot
Sthenno: and that woman with the black fro hair who controlled ants
Sthenno: who looked like shelley duvall's sister
KALAHARA: hahahahaahahahahahaa
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[19 Jul 2008|11:14pm] |
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[20 Jul 2008|03:14am] |
I'm in Maine, I'm drunk and I am happy.
Here is Schoenly's text that she wants me to write:
"Today, I went to Maine and met Schoenly. And then I saw a moose and then I ate a marshmallow. Have I mentioned how cool Schoenly is?"
I needed this vacation. I got to New Hampshire and got in the rental car and it was like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
I'm away from all my worries and cares and the people who can find me are those that I can interact with if I choose to.
I don't know what I've done to deserve it, but I have the most amazing friends ever.
Tonight we had a delicious dinner, chilled on the porch and then went moose hunting.
We'd seen rabbits, foxes, frogs and other assorted generic animals but no moose. We were minutes from home and then damn, if there wasn't a buck, antlers and all running in the road in front of us. For several minutes he trotted in front of us, and the off into the woods he went.
I'm so far from home, but with friends here, it's the best that I could wish for.
Best week ever.
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| pwnage |
[19 Jul 2008|10:10pm] |
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Originally published at life with kellybelly. Please leave any comments there. 
Too bad 3rd party apps won’t run… They’ll install, but won’t run. 
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| roving accident |
[19 Jul 2008|07:53pm] |
I may have just ordered a bunch of different kinds of rovings from etsy. I suppose it's good I don't spend much money on anything else.
Oh -- and I joined a one-of-a-kind roving of the month club for the next 3 months.
This spinning thing is lots of fun.
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| Writer's Block: At the Hour of Preference |
[19 Jul 2008|07:48pm] |
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I love the early morning. 5 - 8 am. It's quiet and my brain works really well. I can get lots done without interruption.
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| The Dark Knight (no spoilers) |
[19 Jul 2008|03:37pm] |
Mmm, so Christian Bale is John Connors in Terminator: Salvation? Awesome.
And oh yes, Batman. Saw it last night on IMAX. Fantastic? Yes. Dark? Yes. Sooo good.
Now, I think that a certain level of the hype around The Dark Knight is due to the untimely demise of Heath Ledger. And yes, I'm sad for that too, because I liked him as an actor, and +he had already put together a body of work showing his flexibility and range. But The Dark Knight just showcased what a very talented actor Hollywood lost with his passing.
Forget anything you thought you knew about the Joker from Jack Nicholson's performance in the original Batman (1989) film. This ain't that Joker.
The Joker constantly teeters between calm and enticing, and apparently out of control. As he says late in the movie while talking to Dent-turned-Twoface, "I'm just a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it." The Joker is obviously brilliant; but knows that the easiest way to get people to do what he wants is through playing with their emotions - especially by playing two innocent hands against one another in a no-win situation. He also doesn't hesitate to use violence, whether it is to make a point or just for the sheer glee of causing destruction and chaos.
Watching him, you're left breathless from start to finish. Ledger plays him finely tuned -- one moment calm and calculating, gently mocking his prey to try to provoke them into action; another wild and unfettered, laughing maniacally, his actions reckless. Ledger, as always, disappears into his role; you never look at him and think it's Ledger-playing-the-Joker, you just see the Joker.
There is only one scene where you see the Joker without makeup, and you have to look closely for it. It's the funeral scene, and the Joker is glimpsed, ever-so-briefly, with no makeup aside from his facial scarring. You realize that the Joker is perhaps a bit younger than the creases of his makeup and the depth and depravity of his behavior might infer, which just makes him an even more tragic figure in the Gotham storyline.
Recent news articles have suggested Ledger could be a shot for a Best Supporting Actor nomination - and other news articles have also suggested he'd be a "long shot" because 1. action/adventure films rarely register on Oscar radar; and 2. posthumous Oscars are incredibly rare. It would be a shame for him to not even receive a nomination, however, because his performance is electric, and he steals the show. There is also an obvious, albeit brief, reference in The Dark Knight to Ledger's previous Oscar-winning role. I'm glad they kept in in the film's final edit, however, because it's a hilarious moment.
The film itself is a powerful, dark beast, outlining the kind of events that shape Bruce Wayne/Batman into the brooding superhero-vigilante that fans of the comic book have long recognized. Batman is good, but he is not nice.
Aaron Eckhart also has a good showing as Harvey Dent/Two-Face. He's the engaging charming Golden Boy of Gotham as Harvey Dent. It doesn't really feel like there's a full connect to his transformation to Two-Face, however; the essentials where there, but there just didn't feel like enough depth to his reasoning. (One could also understand easily enough how the events push him over the edge, however.) Still, I thought he did well with the character.
As for IMAX versus regular theatres... I wish this whole film was shown in full-screen IMAX. It's exhilarating as the camera flies over the Chicagoan Gotham landscape, Hong Kong, the tropical seas; or when it helps emphasize certain scenes. My theater companion for the night felt it was a touch distracting when the movie switched between full-screen and IMAX-screen modes; I didn't even notice the switches at first until the movie cut from the gritty streets of Gotham to the electric blue-green of tropical waters. (Yes, the explanation works, and it's funny.)
The rest of the cast was just as good as they were in Batman Begins, and this was one of the rare sequel films that not only was it as good as the first, but I'm actually looking forward to a third film.
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| Detox, day 2 |
[19 Jul 2008|06:10pm] |
This weekend is a three day detox for me. No alcohol, no high fructose corn syrup, no cheese, no red meat. I'm also trying to stay away from empty carbs, refined sugar, coffee, too much sodium, and the computer.
It's hard, people! I don't know what to do with myself! I've read a few books, got up early for the farmer's market, done the laundry, repotted some plants, put away random items...and the siren call of the computer is still loud. I'm pacing around, seriously, trying to figure out what to do with myself. Once I write and post this, I'm going into the guest room with a DVD and my needlepoint. I would weed the front garden, but it's rained most of the day, so that's right out.
Also, sugar is evil. It's not the wine I crave, though I don't know what to do with my hands in the evening without a glass. It's the sugar. I didn't realize just how much sugar is in everything, and how much you miss it when it's gone...until it's gone. I've cheated a little, but not too badly. And no high fructose corn syrup. Just fruits, a bite of homemade ice cream, some pickled beets that included sugar in with the vinegar, and some pear marmalade on rye toast.
Things I have eaten: Steamed cauliflower with lemon. Salmon. Wild rice harvested directly from Lake Superior (delicious!). Kombucha. Strawberries, blueberries, cherries. Pickled beets. Kashi cereal (I couldn't take the carb cravings yesterday morning). Detox tea (AKA poop tea). Pickled sweet red peppers. Rye toast crackers. One skim milk latte.
Today I've also taken a hot bath with epsom salts and essential oils to declog my pores, just like lots of hippie books and web sites say to do. I don't know if it worked, but I smell nice.
I'm antsy and cranky and restless and yet still tired and feel all irritable in my skin. Maybe I'll take Booford and walk to the lake - maybe the huge expanse of blue-grey will calm me down.
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| O.o Humm... |
[19 Jul 2008|04:08pm] |
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| In which I sell out |
[19 Jul 2008|12:42pm] |
I really like Viva la Vida.
Whimper
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| Stay at a easy distance today... |
[19 Jul 2008|11:14am] |
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Ok it's humid and looks like it's about to burst into a thunderstorm rain storm explosion out there and I feel like Cramp-zilla today. So I am going into chic hibernation mode this weekend so I come out semi-human by Monday. I'm watching romance comedy flicks making home made Swedish blue berry muffins and trying to ignore every impulse I have that says to go out and stab people today in the eyes. Had plans for today for a fiber arts expo / show but seeing as I want to peel off human flesh and bite my own face off I decided it would be safer for the population if I did not go out into the world today.
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| going global |
[19 Jul 2008|10:46am] |
stormy afternoon, 330pm; chicago
GOING GLOBAL
i don't have much to say today,
aside from
it's raining like the west end of hell
out there.
i saw a woman
over on st james
off of clark street
the other day...she was going on about global
warming and hurricanes,
as i smiled and walked on by.
"where were you this past winter
when it was so cold...for 5 straight months - it'd blister
your skin just to be outside longer than 2 minutes??"
i laughed.
she stopped for a moment,
looked at me
up and down...probably figured i was too dumb
to convince,
and went on about her ranting.
i'd venture to guess
she's probably home today,
watching the rain
just
like
me.
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| Family Reunion |
[19 Jul 2008|08:06am] |
I had a wonderful week in Galveston with my family. Usually I only get a few hours on holidays to talk to them, but I had a week of laying on the beach and sitting around a table sharing stories. It was wonderful and therapeutic for me to know I have such strong roots, that no matter where I end up my family is where home is.
Here are some things I found out (this is my mom's side of the family):
1. I am a sixth-generation immigrant from France. Our family has been traced to Jean-Louis Bodin (Boh-dan) from the south of France.
2. My great-grandmother, who I was named after, is Creole. Her maiden name was Fernandez (yes, I am Hispanic too, despite the fact I look nothing like it).
3. One of my aunt's told me she used to be a cashier at a grocery store when she was in high school, and the place got robbed one time, so her father (my grandfather), sat with her during her entire shift to make her feel better that he was there.
4. My grandmother had 7 children, and when a friend of her's died, she was willing to adopt 3 more children. She didn't because the father wouldn't relinquish custody, but she wanted to take care of them.
5. My grandfather was a light-weight boxing champion.
6. My grandmother started a charity -- a Helping Hands chapter-- in Chalmette. My mom and all of her siblings used to ride in the back of a truck and knock on doors to ask people if they had any canned goods to donate.
7. My twin cousins Patrick and Claire are a wild. Claire has a flamboyant personality and a pierced tongue, and Patrick smokes and has huge tattoos on his arms and chest. But they are some of the sweetest people I've ever met. Claire works at a special needs camp taking care of the mentally retarded, blind, deaf, etc., and using horses as a way to help them. She will graduate from Texas Tech in May 09 with a degree in education and sign language. She also loves to hug people. Patrick is going back to school this fall, he would never let me take out the trash, and he was helping all the girls cast their lines while deep sea fishing. He also did the "velocity accelerator" with me where you're in a cage and they pull a cord and you fly in the air up and down on bungee cables.
8. Erica is starting college in the fall and we were teaching her how to play beer pong. She's actually pretty good. Frank and Patrick are really good.
9. My Uncle Kirk has great music taste. He was putting on Queen, Norah Jones, random Jazz music, Robert Plant, Bob Dylan, and a few other things.
10. My grandfather used to call my Aunt Debbie his "Debbie-Do Peanut."
11. Alexis is 12 and got selected to dance at EuroDisney in PARIS for Thanksgiving!
12. My Aunt Judy LOVES margaritas...and wine...a lot!
13. My Great Uncle George died in WWII when his plane crashed.
14. My parents are incredibly cranky when they don't get their way. I already knew this, but when other people point it out, I feel justified.
15. My mother and her sisters are incredibly competitive when it comes to games, especially card games. So is my Great Aunt Janet, who is a nun, which I think is funny.
16. I am lucky to be from such a loving family. I wish I could see them more often.
Pictures to come soon.
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| Hurray! |
[18 Jul 2008|10:57pm] |
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The family reunion is winding down, which make me sad. We've had a great time over the last few weeks!
However, Mom and I have been working on another project that makes me very, very happy. See, school doesn't start until the 3rd week of September, and I was toying with the idea of going to Aix and maybe Italy. I discussed it with my mother, did some creative price-comparisons and we're going!!! We're flying in and out of London, because we want a day flight both ways, and then we're starting out in Bologna, so that we can explore all of the gastronomic wonders of Emilia-Romagna. This is the region of Italy that gave the world lasagna, tortellini, prosciutto, parmagiano reggiano, balsamic vinegar and, of course, my great-grandfather. Needless to say, I'm thrilled to be going there! We're going to head to Venice next, because I've wanted to go there for a while now. We're going to be there for the Regata Storica, which, as I understand it, consists of several gondola races and lots of costumes. From Venice, we're taking a night train to Paris and then to Aix (which we will have basically passed during the night--rail networks are wonky) for a few days before coming home. I'm SO excited--I haven't been back to Aix since I studied there in 2005, and I've always wanted to go to Venice and Bologna. It'll be my first night train, too. This trip is odd in that we're passing through Paris multiple times but not stopping, but I'm weirdly ok with that.
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[18 Jul 2008|07:17pm] |
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I love how even the dirtiest and oldest airports always smell like new carpet. They must pipe it in. New carpet smell=should be on the way to somewhere exciting. This is not the case, though I have happiness of picking up the tannymonster which is just as exciting. (though I do ache a little to be on a plane to somewhere).
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| Petty Thing |
[18 Jul 2008|07:52pm] |
How did I manage to get rid of _ALL_ my formal red sandals? I have flip flops, birkenstocks, and clogs. Plus loafers with heels, oxfords, and a pair of pink/red/black flats.
But not one pair of classy plain red sandals or heels.
Sad. Sad. Sad it is.
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| I Throw others into growth periods |
[18 Jul 2008|05:03pm] |
Wow. This is funny.
Sometime I forget that I can easily throw people into growth periods. Just as they can for me. My ex is in one now. It took me a second to realize that that is what it is. It may be a match. Feeling invalidated about how much one has grown and if it is for the better.
I've changed a LOT. Part of moving energy the way that I do and the classes I have it happens that way. It's almost a 180 from last summer. Lots and lots of changes. I can see how someone that knows me and has known me....sees all of this and wonders about themselves. If they have changed....why not.....why not this way or that way...etc.
I see why people that can't handle my growth would invalidate it because if they didn't they'd have to face it and face themselves. I see why people may avoid me through all the growth.
This just gives perspective.
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