Boredom kind of took over tonight and I started playing with Yearbook Yourself. The scary thing is that this look is so natural for me. This could have totally been me in the 50s...



I want to see other people do this! Post results!

THE ANONYMITY
MEME PT DEUX

My thoughts on FMA tomorrow when the translation is done. My little heart is all "oh, Hohenheim ♥" at the moment, nonetheless.

( Tales of the <s>RESERVOIR CHRONICLE</s> Abyss thoughts, not that spoilersome )

I went back to work. It was rough, but I survived for two hours on the phone before I got pulled for training. It was about 5:00 when I went to go home; couldn't find my boss so I asked another supervisor, but luckily everyone was being nice about it.

Evidently there is some crazy five-hour training that everyone has to do. That's my whole shift! So I'm doing that today. I can do it if I'm not talking; too much talking makes me short of breath and then my hands and legs start hurting, and I especially get scared when my legs hurt because of the whole "there's a risk of blood clots" thing.

Shaun's birthday is tomorrow. I'm gonna make him a yogurt cake (which he likes) with filling made out of whipped cream and vanilla pudding. Yeah, if I put anything interesting in it he won't eat it. ;) but then I think I'll ice it with whipped cream and it'll be pretty tasty.

You know, I was thinking today about communities. This isn't just related to online communities, but also groups of friends, or things that you were heavily involved in at past points in your life. It's strange how certain people, even ones you never meet in person can shape and change portions of your life. Then, just like everything in life, a door closes and you move on to a new one.

Sometimes I sit down and wonder what people I've met both online and offline are doing today.

( rambling here. TL;DR ahead! )

I was hoping that today. I would at least get all of Physics done (practice test and homework). Nope failure. Not sure how I am going to take the test if I can't finish the practice test in that time limit.

For a while, I have questioned my "love" for Physics. Sometimes I am not sure if I truly like it at all. Does my enthusiasm go beyond just getting top grades? My friends show so much more dedication and interest, their curiosity goes beyond the classroom. Even during my spare time, I do not think about it very often. And when I do do leisure Physics it is always practice problems. Before I suspected that I am only still taking Physics because it has been a constant in my life for the past few years. The thought of letting go or starting over scares me. All my life I did a little of this, learned a little of that. Sometimes, I wish I could dedicate myself to one thing and be really good in it.

Recently, I suspect a new reason for my love. I am an annoying little kid, not only do I question my love for physics but I also question why I question my love. This started because I realized I am too emotionally attached to the subject. My reaction to the PHY141 final proved how passionate I could become about my performance on a class. Why? How does the me, who has been rather emotionless during those past few months have a sudden breakdown? The cloud phenomenon could be used to explain my break down. But for once I do not think it is the cloud phen. I did not feel under so much pressure back then to explode like that. It was not until my breakup with Robbin had I realize. During those past three years I have taken Physics, at some point in time of that year, I had been romantically involved with someone in my class. And ironically the two guys I managed to have an official relationship with were both in my Physics classes. Fidel was in both Regents and AP with me, and Robbin was in my PHY141&142 class. Maybe somehow ... someway I associate my affection for these people with Physics? A bit of a jump here, but over these past few years I haven't been dating people but that subject. And my reluctance to stop taking physics courses is similiar to how I do not want to let BF no.1 (my desktop computer) go. I would feel as if I am betraying him, if I go build myself another computer.

This new idea is alittle sketchy... but it does add a new perspective to the situation. Even with all this speculation, I do hope my "love" for Physics is really love. Pure and simple love, no reasons, no conditons, and no explanations needed.

SQUEVAN.

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( *facepalm* )

Recolored her eyes green, too. Blue, wtf? >>

Because I can.

( 25 x Bihada Ichizoku Icons. )

My computer is acting up weirdly again. So after letting it rest, I'm backing shit up. Oh yikes, all that manga! I'd better just... write down the series and look for them again instead of "copying: 1 hour left".

Obviously I can't do the mp3 meme going around like this. I bet itunes would freeze on me.

BUT NEVERMIND THAT, BECAUSE

I PASSED TALES OF SYMPHONIA ♥

I'm starting a new plus file from scratch now, with an affection guide in hand, in dorky efforts to get other soulmates in next replays.

Oh, and this morning I had this silly conversation with sha_chan and allira_dream about how Yggdrassil's fashion sense was stuck in the 70's, and how so many disco tunes fit him anyway XD Thank God in the last battle he wasn't in that form or I would've died of lulz.

The Abyss anime is looking good. I'll make a longer post about it another day, however.

Your very welcomed and I thank you Ditch_Gospel for the beautiful items I've recieved today.

Every last one is so beautiful especially the 18+book.

Kikue Mugen i recieve my book today and again, Thank You in advance i shall enjoy reading every page back to back for ever.

I look forward to this meme every year!

I have a few different "circles" on LJ, so I did the meme twice.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
moon_fox goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a bat.
animevivi gives you 1 light green raspberry-flavoured wafers.
ankewehner gives you 4 milky white cola-flavoured gumdrops.
awakenedpoet tricks you! You lose 3 pieces of candy!
jujuube tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
pinksupervisor tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
punksexy gives you 16 dark blue grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
the_demon_yuber gives you 1 mottled green lime-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
thelostlolli tricks you! You get a block of wood.
utzonthego tricks you! You get a dead frog.
vespawoman gives you 10 red cinnamon-flavoured nuggets.
moon_fox ends up with 27 pieces of candy, a block of wood, and a dead frog.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
moon_fox goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as a bat.
afraclose gives you 1 teal peach-flavoured gumdrops.
catinthesun gives you 19 dark green strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
clockworkalien tricks you! You lose 19 pieces of candy!
daxhack gives you 1 teal apple-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
desertbell tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
ianmcorvidae tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
ibsulon gives you 18 purple spearmint-flavoured gumdrops.
quatrelenium gives you 11 softly glowing grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
syrinxkat gives you 9 blue licorice-flavoured jawbreakers.
wakingspirit gives you 19 softly glowing grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
moon_fox ends up with 57 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Are you kidding?

 

What heist were you watching?

Stop looking at her like that....

Did you notice that he threw you in the garbage?

I stopped the van! The remote control was in my hand! DX

Wha-te-ver!

...balls.

Listen close to everybody's heart

And hear that breaking sound*

Hopes and dreams are shattering apart

And crashing to the ground....


*LOVE LOVE LOVE these two lines.

I can't wait until November! NaNoWriMo starts! I have an awesome idea for a novel. I kind of want to start it now, but I'm holding off... frenchroast , is outlining in October against the rules? This will be my first year going through with Nano, and I'm really exited.

I am also considering playing applied to play an online version of Big Brother after being asked by several people, and that starts around then. Man, November's gonna be busy!

Also for the record and for those of you worried, I'm feeling a lot better now. I was pretty depressed for a couple days but then I started thinking about it, and I concluded that I am not going to be depressed over a guy who led me on because he thought I was hot and wanted to show me off to his ex, and then never got the chance to know me. My buddy Josh helped me come to that, and I'm glad I have such a great best friend.

I got a haircut today! Here's me a couple days ago, and me today:
( behind this cut for size... )

The first picture is from my triplet brothers' birthday bash on Sunday. It was a grand affair. The kids are turning seven on the 8th and I bought them art sets. It was a great day for my family, for my mom, the triplets, my other brother, and everyone. I think we're finally getting closer, and I've longed for a family for so long (It shouldn't be any surprise to any who know my past.).  My brother in the picture is Jeremy. He's my favorite.

The second picture, the one with the haircut is me camwhoring. I desperately need to shave, but overlook that. Sadly, Huck isn't in either picture. As his manager, I apologize to his fans. He'll make appearances again soon.

As for me not writing in a while, I apologize too. That changes now.

Edit - And someone signed my guestbook! My life is looking up! I show so many people my site... even friends in real life, and so few sign my guestbook. I know they're probably outdated, but I don't know... Mine makes me smile so it's worth keeping around.

My doctor called me a minute ago and told me that he finally got my blood test back from the lab. He said that it was technically not positive, but it was more like "borderline." I have no idea how this particular test works, but he says it was enough to worry him, so I have to take a small aspirin every day as a blood thinner to ward off blood clots.

...the good news is my breathing test was better yesterday than my previous ones, so I do seem to be on the mend. But oh jeez, no clots please. I will so take the aspirin >_< even if I have to crush it and it tastes like ass, as most pills do.

Also thank goodness for the Xanax I have, lol. I take it very sparingly, but re: my anxiety we're getting to the point where I can control myself mentally, but I cannot control the physical symptoms. Anything to get the feeling back in my face, hah.

10 x Black Lagoon (Manga)
15 x Kannagi (Episode 01)

( 25 x Mixed Icons. )

	The Graduate lil geri's graduating today. sheena is just tagging along.
	lil geri getting ready to recieve her diploma Geri is getting ready to go on stage to recieve her diploma
	We pledge allegiance these were the colour gaurds notice only females are on stage.0.0
	looking at me Geri is approaching the stage to recieve her diploma.
	getting on to the commencement getting ready to be honored for their accomplishments.
	Ready to throw up their caps getting ready to throw up their caps.
	First one at the school We were the first one's to enter the school before the ceremony.
	sheena rocking geri's graduating gear sheena rocking lil geri's graduation attire.
	Heavenly and geri chilling lil geri getting ready to go to her prom at hostos community college.
	lil geri and her god brother ron lil geri hanging with her godbrother before leaving for her prom.
	lil geri's graduating today This is after the commencement ceremony. sheena and geri styling and profiling for me.
	geri and malachi miracle My baby malachi cheering his big sister on for graduating.
	geri and har school partner lil geri and her school buddy after the ceremony.
	we are family
	we are family keith lil geri and me big geri after the ceremony. As you can see i now use a cane to get around.
	chilling finaly lil geri can now relax after a tedious year of studying, ah the angst of 8th graders.
	freedom at long last Freedom at long last. NOW ONTO HIGH SCHOOL.
	lil geri and sheena showing the victory sign for finaly getting out of 8th grade.
	sheena holding lil geri up before her prom sheena's showing off that she can pick up lil geri.
	ali and lil geri Ah my cross to bear this is my oldest son ali and lil geri goofing around before she left for her prom.
	My miracle This is my youngest he was still born,but i ask the dr not to play god just do whatever he had too. And he gave me my miracle hence the name miracle.I was 7 months when i had him. In this picture he was 1 week old.
	Aaliyah This is aaliyah's prom day.
	Miracle and aaliyah miracle cheering for aaliyah's prom day to forth.
	aaliyah and her crew aaliyah and her crew chilling at their prom.
	aaliyah aaliyah getting ready to go up on stage for her diploma.
	getting the finishing touches in place aaliyah is all resdy to go get her diploma. The angst of 5th graders.Yikes.
	Aaliyah is waiting Aaliyah's all set to go get em.
	waving to me and keith aaliyah's waving at me for i didn't even see her,keith did.
	After the ceremony aaliyah and friend after the ceremony was completed.
	Aaliyah and her friend alison Hard to believe it was raining on this day. But all's well ends well.
	shakeitha shakeitha recieving her commencement award.
	we are family these are keith first 2 children ,he was 47 when i had shakeitha and 49 when i had tamina. Talk about waiting.>.<