Um, I think I finally found some people.
Squee...~
For the first time since Monday, I'm actually a little bit hopeful!
Aagh, hopefully I don't wake up wholly depressed again x.x

Okay, seriously. I don't even know how I'm going to make this post coherent all. (Jaime's post makes much more sense than mine is going to) Basilica Block Party was the most fun I've had since...well, LAST weekend. ;)

So first off, the weather was PERFECT. Absolutely gorgeous! Couldn't have asked for it to be more beautiful than it was.

seimaisin and I met up with doll_revolution at BBP not too long after the gates opened. My whole plan was too get in front of the stage for Green River Ordinance and then stay up there for Matt Nathanson. There were a few people up there already but we managed to make it into the second row, right at the barrier. Perfect!

Last time we saw GRO it was on a cold February night and they played in front of about 12 people. Do you see this MF photo? Jamey Ice from GRO twittered it from onstage. It's not too hard to see Jaime, Holly and myself totally enjoying ourselves, right up front. Do you see all those people behind us? We had NO IDEA how many people were back there. It was crazy! And our adorable GRO boys were playing in front of them!

You may remember Jamey as the band boy who recognized me even though we'd never actually met? Oh yes, that's him. And he saw me pretty much right away when he walked on stage and said hi. ♥ Then later during the show, Josh (their singer) talked about how it was cold the last time they played here and I shouted 'we were there!' And someone from the other side of the stage (Geoff, I think?), which I could barely see, yelled back 'yeah, you were!' And then after Matty Nay was done, we wandered back to the merch tent and before we could even say anything, Josh saw us and gave Jaime and I each a big hug and said 'I can't believe you guys make it all the way up front!' We talked to them all for a while (except for Jamey, who was fangirling the Counting Crows on stage) and they are the nicest, most adorable guys and I love them a whole lot!

( I was silly and obeyed the rule about not bringing a camera, so these are from my crappy phone )

Also, I totally broke the T-shirt rule and wore their shirt to the show. But I wanted to show my support for them so it was okay. They actually thanked me for wearing it. ;)

In closing, Green River Ordinance is AWESOME and they're going to get huge (they're going on tour with David Cook!) and you should totally buy their album because it's my favorite album of the year!!

Back to on stage, between GRO and Matty Nay, there was a competitive eating Jimmy Johns eating contest? Or something? I have no idea what was going on. It was disgusting to watch and then they were throwing food into the crowd and...yeah.

But then Matt came out and everything was right with the world. Especially since the first word out of his mouth was 'fuck!' Heh heh. Oh Matt! And he was really fantastic! I've never been that close for him and I really enjoyed it. He looked DAMN GOOD and his shirt kept riding up and exposing skin and then I couldn't keep my eyes off the giant bulge in his pants. Yeah, I went there. *ahem* He played all the songs I would ever want to hear, including 'Detroit Waves' and 'Laid.' And then he started to intro the last song and immediately Jaime and I started going nuts, because we knew it was going to be 'Don't Stop Believin''! (I think we scared the girls next to us) And really, there may not be a more perfect way to end a summer evening than to be having a giant Journey sing-a-long as the sun is going down. AMAZING.

Jaime & I left Holly up front, since we're not that into the Counting Crows and FOUGHT our way back through the crowd. Seriously, pushing and shoving and it was crazy. There were so many people there! Once we saw the size of the crowd, we realized just how very lucky we'd been to be able to be up front. Unfortunately, we never did find duckduck as she made her way forward into the crowd. =( But we did manage to find jmasterflash and her friend and we hung out with them, in between running over to stalk talk to the GRO boys and getting food. Holly eventually gave up on the crowd too and managed to find us and we spent the rest of the night hanging out in the back.

It was a fantastic night and I can't possibly imagine how it could have been any better! I'm so happy we went!!

Also, sorry for all the Twitter spam tonight. Whoops?

Worked out with the apartment manager that I'll be very very part-time... weekends, random days...

But I won't get paid cash.

Instead I'll have all my hours deducted off my rent charge.

Right now I'm at 300-something for August already.

Score. :)

And with how little I'm working, I'm open for another job to pay my bills.

It's a good arrangement.

Just spent the day playing music with folks for the first time in probably 4 years or so.

Goddamn I've missed that.

It got smooshed :(

She's in Las Vegas, bitch

Posting for posterity:

June 14 engaged [lawl]

July 4 officially unofficial officially

Keeeehhh.. *sheepish, toes the ground*

Had fun. 
Home safe.
Many great memories. 
Too many blurs of all the folks saying hi and appreciate the semi ADD is AOK moments for multiple run-ins and conversations
Thanks to all involved.
Glad to make both best friend's mom and Col. Tigh happy by helping in re-acquainting them (thanks also very much to Patti & Co.)
Thanks to boss for giving me night off.

Am now just coming to terms that I'm now a year older officially as of about 5 hours ago.

Shower, Bed... Maybe some video and photos to follow.

Short for "Aircon". She was found (after several reports of cat cries) under the a/c unit at my work and rescued today.

The local no-kill shelter was over capacity and under quarantine for ringworm, so they were unable to take her. So we took her. It's her lucky, lucky Caturday.

She's about 8 weeks old, although she looks tiny because she's probably not been able to eat or fend for herself well. She weighed in at 1lb, 11oz at the vet clinic today.

(Photo by Ka Faraq Gatri. I'm the one holding Connie.)

...and get some nifty art.



This is my submission for the Megaplex Sponsor Art Portfolio. I ran with the "Christmas In July" theme.

I'll happily sign copies at my table (MLA Productions / Chilly Mouse). My badge name is the table name, not what I usually note.

7 copies of Some Assembly Required have not been claimed. If you're going and would like to pre-order, please reply here.

I feel sick. Really sick. Tummy sick.

Not as bad as the "uber sick" from this entry, but like....today was half way there. No matter what I eat. I've been trying to eat as neutral as I can since I started not feeling well, which sucks because, again, I've been on and off the bland as sand diet for years. I wish these foods were some of my favorites, so that they would be easier to eat, but they're just not. Guh. I'm down in weight (from 199 in May to 187.5 as of today). I hope the1.5 lbs lost since they day before the trip out to see family are not "sick pounds" that I lost because of being sick. Or at least not all of them. It's not even...that I want to be a size 13 again. I would be very happy to just see a picture where I don't have my head turned in a funny way to avoid the double chin (it probably doesn't help that, while I know how to do the "cute" smile that mum likes in pictures, I generally have no clue how what face I'm making looks like; I could use Tyra's advice and practice in the mirror, but would I really remember?). As much as I used to complain about taking the millions of pictures growing up, I love them. I love seeing the pictures of happy times (or even pretending to be happy times) and me with family and friends. But I don't like pictures of me anymore. I don't like mirrors. I don't like that I am, in medical terms, obese.

It's so stupid. I've never seen friends or family as being "hard to look" at, almost regardless of size (the only exception being when I watched the already skinny, yet buff Cassidy waste away to nearly nothing during his 2006-2007 health food craze). Yet my physical appearance? It disgusts me. Going back to a size 7 is not an option for me though. Mom and I recently agreed that I looked "too skinny" during that time. I don't want to be skinny. I just want to see myself as pretty again. I want to be able to go to the "regular" stores and be able to easily find things that fit me or come in my size. I don't want my cheapest bathing suit to be 150$ just because I need to buy a big size. I would happily go back to a size 14. Pictures from then....I look healthy; not too skinny, not too fat (though I needed better fitting clothes since I was still wearing things from when I was a 7-9 (and I'm still wearing things from when I was a 14 that are not the most flattering, guh)). I want to be able to lay on my belly without having to adjust my stomach.

In other news, anyone who reads ahead in Yu+Me (which is stupid and very annoying to announce in the cbox, imho; plus then having to go for, say, 2 weeks without seeing anything new) can suck on their disappointment that they have to wait for more. There. I said it. Where no one will probably read it. Except Nicole. And my cousins. And a few others. BUT STILL. Rarr.

That being said....I've already seen the art for part of issue 9, have read all the script until the end of issue 10, and read the detailed summaries through issue 14.*

I started playing Saint's Row 2 today and Megan is finishing up her second (or third, I forget) Fable 2 game. Soon, it'll be "bye-bye X-Box." Galen's gonna be all moved out by Monday night, which is very sad. A trip got moved up, so now....yeah. It's gonna feel weird. And it's all, "We'll still hang out a ton!" but....I've had that said before. I know I'm bad at following through. Hell, I just suck at getting out of the house.

Money situation isn't too bad. Checks are 3 weeks off, so they put in 460$ this week. Means next check will be....15-20$, if I'm lucky (I would try to figure it out, but I don't understand how they calculate the taxes they will take out, so I'm not going to bother). So. Some will go to paying off my credit card (I'd like to pay off at least half....so....somewhat more than 100$). The rest has to last me at least 2 weeks (part of which will go to the credit card as well, just on the next statement, so I don't have late charges) and I'm really trying to make sure it lasts for....3 weeks, honestly. Also not helping matters? Even after the next check, the one past that won't be huge...maybe 80$? And on top of that? I'm pretty sure August is the month we move to once every other week checks! JOY. I need to look up which week that's gonna be. It really sucks though. I'm super horrible at managing money. Being paid once a week worked well for me - I didn't have the money to spend....so I didn't spend it. I think I'm gonna find the sheet and find a time that I can go to one of the financial meetings that our office set up for free, for all us "losers" like me to go plan a better budget.

Things feel a little tough right now. Okay, a lot tough. But whatever.




*If this sentence sounds stupid and annoying, that's because it's partially to prove a point (probably very badly). The other part is...it's true.

What do you think?

I remember when I was a kid, wanting to see "The Search for Noah's Ark", which was playing "FOR ONE NIGHT ONLY!" at the local cinemaplex and that night a hurricane hit the shore of New Jersey cranking 40 mph winds across our suburban neighborhood with even stronger gusts -- Mrs. Ricky, who lived across the street from us lost her garage. My mother watched out the living room window as her garage was uprooted and "walked down the street". My sister and I begged and begged that she take us to the movie. We tried, valiantly, we made it to the car, but the streets proved un-navigable and I never saw the move -- despite the tantilizing ARIAL PHOTOGRAPHS that showed ... well, who knows.

Anyway. A storm is currently pounding its way across West Philadelphia with an intense fury that reminds me of that day. The motion of the trees is frightening, like angry whips. The rain got too intense to be able to photograph out the window anymore. So now I'm on the back porch, recently screened in. The screen stops a lot of the water actually. But the fury of the wind, and the noise -- that clattering -- the flash, brief, intense daylight. It's wonderful. Roswell is freaked out but she can't bring herself to go inside. She's a brave one.





Juke Box Hero, after all these years, I think is still an awesome song. I've passed my own shadow by the back stage door and I'm very happy to be where I am right here, right now. Here with trillian_stars and Roswell, watching this storm with my life the way it is. I wouldn't trade places with anybody. And I'm pretty sure that The Search for Noah's Ark probably sucked anyway.

The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other.

So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about.

Ask away.

lol doubleposting. I AM SOMEWHAT MORE COHERENT but still tired and now bored and still hungry. idk. ask away? 8(

Let's hear it for El Mundo Bueno.
( Hey Rocky, watch me pull a miracle out of my ass! Again??? )

Well, I gave it the old stubborn try. Final result?

Accuracy: 7/10, and only since I'm feeling generous. It was fun to do, though. :D

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