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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 02:04 pm
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i've been so bad at updating lately. here are some tidbits:
i had a tumor and a mole both removed from my back. the results for both came back fine, i have a set of four inch scars across my back, but i like sars so that's fine by me.
i still have an adorable puppy, and he's growing up and becoming less of an asshole, although he still brings a piece of poop to me as a "gift" on occasion (too much praise for going on the potty pads?)
i had kind of started smoking again, which was really stupid on my part, seeing as how i had quit for almost three years. i was smoking about a pack a week which was way better than before, but was still smoking. i was talking to a friend/ regular customer of mine, who had lost her sister to lung cancer, and told her i knew i should quit, but didn't have enough motivation, so she offered some to me in the form of $5,000 for quitting. i'm at two weeks, cold turkey, now.
i turn 31 on tuesday. thirty was a great year, so i'm assuming it only gets better.
bear with me, because this is going to seem like some vain, self congratulatory dribble. i kind of had this epiphany, i don't know why, but i suddenly realized that people really like me. that i am very likable. i know this might sound weird, but it took me all this time to realize it and suddenly i was like, oh, wow. all these people actually enjoy being around me. weird!
i still feel under appreciated at one of my jobs. my immediate superior graduated from high school two years after i graduated from college (which took a few years for me to do.) just keep telling myself "health insurance. health insurance. health insurance." |
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History of Water: The Radio Play, Listen Now!
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 12:10 pm
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You can now listen to History of Water, the radio play, featuring performers Shaughn Buchholz, Andrea LeBlanc, Lisa Dee, Patrick Ian Moore, and Juli Crockett as well as the music of David Hurlin, Henry Bermudez, and Kieth Lubow of the Evangenitals and a recorded track (The Pet) by Timothy Sellers of Artichoke ONLINE thanks to the KPFK Archives!
Tune in here!
http://archive.kpfk.org/parchive/mp3/kpfk_080726_070100special.mp3Current Mood:  artistic |
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I'm Sad
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Jul. 26th, 2008 @ 01:09 am
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I've been wrastlin' with a deep sadness lately that I can't exactly put my finger on. I think this is due to the fact that there is no single "on" on which to put my proverbial "finger"... whatever that means. It is a mist of shape-shifting feelings and reasons, which transforms into all sorts of causes and all sorts of effects. The main symptoms are the same as always... restless, restless, and restless. Craving for stillness, craving for motion. Craving for security, craving for upheaval and change. Craving for communication, craving for solitude. Craving, craving, and craving... yet another common symptom.
Melancholia is a better word for it. Everything has a tinge of the bittersweet to it. It is a great state for songwriting.Current Mood:  melancholy |
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The Silent Yes
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Jul. 25th, 2008 @ 10:09 pm
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Last night's dream:
I was working undercover and entered into a huge game being played by thousands of youth world-wide called "The Silent Yes", the purpose of which was to weed out fascistic tendencies in the youth and to test their decision-making powers in complex situations.
First I entered a locker room decorated with propaganda posters celebrating the winning teams, shunning the losers, and advertising missing children. The posters were all red and white and had "YES/NO" and "YES OR NO?" emblazoned upon them, along with graphics of planes dropping bombs, people screaming, or flowers and puppies and peace signs. Every decision within the game was a Catch-22; situations in which some population stood to suffer whatever the decision would be... such as, a plague would be released on a neighboring village if residents of the already-infected village was not exterminated quickly... WHAT DO YOU DO? Whatever the youth teams decided would actually happen. Genocides, wars, etc.
I was given a new name (my sister's name, Jaimee) and some money to get started in the game. Before I'd even entered the playing field, I made my first mistake and made eye contact with a more advanced player. Eye contact with any player who had been in the game longer than you was against the rules, so it was safest to never make eye contact with anyone, ever. This of course made it very difficult to solve a crime within the game, due to the fact that I couldn't identify anyone very well without risking "losing".
"Losing" was awful. There were these pixie-like creatures that were about 1 foot high, reddish colored, and rather beautiful. They had elegant, delicate hands with long, slender fingers and incredibly sharp nails. Whenever anyone broke the rules, a Pixies would be released on them and while a gentle wave of their hands their sharp nails would literally split the "loser" right open. The Pixies would playfully swat at the bodies in innocent glee while skin and guts spewed everywhere and the person was instantly killed in an incredibly gory manner.
Whenever someone had a "birthday" there would be a huge party in which all of their best game moves would be shown in a cinematic montage on a giant movie screen. Every single thing that anyone did was videotaped.
The point of the game truly was to find the few pure, peaceful souls in the world that could make the right peaceful, loving decisions even in the face of tremendous pressures and hardships. Only these people would have the ability to speak The Silent Yes... and it was the Silent Yes that could save us all.
And after all that..
I dreamed that my tortoise died. :-(Current Mood:  weird |
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Sweet Love
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Jul. 23rd, 2008 @ 01:56 pm
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Sweet Love say
Where, how and when
What do you want of me?...
Yours I am, for You I was born:
What do you want of me?...
- Saint Teresa of AvilaCurrent Mood: quixotic |
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i go out walking after midnight...
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Jul. 23rd, 2008 @ 12:59 am
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While taking a walk at night with my lover and our dog I discovered the following in the grass:
Closer Inspection Revealed Eyes Peeking:  An unreal sleep of an unreal baby. Further along the road... a discarded balloon:  Nothing is Sacred. Current Mood: mischievous |
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WATCHMEN
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Jul. 22nd, 2008 @ 07:06 pm
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JESUS CHRIST this had better be the most awesome movie ever, after how long everyone's been waiting.
From the trailer, it looks like it might be. |
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I see myself change as the days change over....
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Jul. 21st, 2008 @ 02:38 am
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Hahaha I just took a brief little jaunt through some old LJ posts and recalled to myself how much I used to whine and bitch over any little thing (especially while I was at Hood).
Now I can hardly find anything to say at all.Current Music: "We've Been Had" ~ The Walkmen |
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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 10:45 pm
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My weekend was absolutely nuts. I'll try and be as brief as possible for the sake of keeping track of memories.
Friday was bar touring (even though I'm never the captain at the head of these kind of trips, only coming along for the ride).
Saturday I woke-up late and was invited to go to a pool party in Laurel Canyon at the manager of The Doors and Janis Joplin's bachelor pad. He works for The Firm and not only do they manage their estates but apparently Martin Scorcese, Leonardo Di Caprio and Cameron Diaz are all clients. My friend Jason works as an executive assistant there, so he invited me and we hopped off mid-afternoon.
Immediately upon entering I kind of wanted to kick my own ass. The scene was just too obnoxiously LA, but it was still fun - don't get me wrong. Everyone was very laid back, not overly enthusiastic or anything that register beyond the general 'cool' persona that enveloped me upon entering.
Jason and I didn't care much and threw our inhibitions to the wind, we jumped into the [salt-water] pool (which I think is kind of ridiculous that it's trendy these days) and just kicked back.
I ended up hanging out with Jim Morrisson's wife whose very botoxed in a non-disturbing way and only found out who she was after the fact. (I should have known, because even when she introduced herself I should have put two and two together).
We cruised out as casually as we came in and as we left I was jokingly teased by being called 'Goth Girl' (is it my fault that I ended up wearing strictly black white and red lipstick?)
Later that night I went with a couple friends to Venice where we checked out the Grunion Run at Santa Monica Pier or 'GLOW' the rave-like party they turned it into.
The place was swarming with people and I even made a comment at one point in the night saying that it was a perfect night to ransack some homes, because everyone within a 30 mile radius was at that very beach. I swear to you I have never seen so many 20-somethings in one place at one time before in my life.
We just danced and danced, I ran into a bunch of people that I knew (which was SO surprising considering the intensity of the crowd). At one point a friend and I led a dance party in the parking lot area on the pier and I swear to you I cannot tell you how long we were dancing there, it could have been close to several hours. That was the highlight for me overall, dancing on the pier with a mass of people and not caring a lick what anyone had to say about it. (Not like they would, everyone was pretty much on the same wavelength of having a good time.)
We walked around that entire beach and even had a moment where we stargazed a bit on the sand, walked through the several camps settled on the sand with crazy projector screens and videos that were reminiscent to the iTunes visual option that consists of just a bunch of translucent lights to the beat of the music. Again, it was kind of funny that they tried to make it into a rave.
We parked our car at a friend's house in Venice and walked all the way back, I'm sure the total miles I walked that night was in the range of 10-15. I saw the sunrise and drove back home completely wrecked at 6:30 am, just as my Mom was getting ready for church. As I pulled into the drivewayy I said an ironically appropriate 'Amen'.
Today was spent reeling back from all of the action and planning to see Patton Oswalt on Tues and Diablo Cody on Monday at the New Bev and a million more summer things to jampack before its all over. |
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Relax
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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 09:59 pm
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This is from drummer David Hurlin's blog "Dynamics of the Drum-- I loved it so much I figured I'd share it here, too:
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Playing with the Evangenitals at the Nocturnal Bar in Santa Monica during our Klezmer remix of the infamous song "THE HOLE" which I absolutely love, I was hitting the drums hard. Juli Crockett was belting out her chant "Hole Hole Hole Hole" on the quarter notes and i was smashing my cymbal in accordance with her ferocious chanting. It was a pure stretch of symbiotic rapture, the whole band writhing in a collective exorcism.
In spite of how loud or violent with Joy it got I remained relaxed. I realized that by keeping pure relaxation, the kind of relaxation you feel when you're not playing, by holding that as the foundation of the drumming, then you can explore volume and its various pleasures both quiet and loud to a point.
(Read more at: http://pianissississississimo.blogspot.com/Current Mood:  grateful Current Music: thelonius monk quintet |
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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 01:10 pm
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Oh My God. I partied my ass off last night. Who was at the Grunion Run at Santa Monica Pier last night? Holla. |
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thursday figure drawing
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Jul. 18th, 2008 @ 10:23 pm
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( first figure drawing class I've had and I loooved it )
We had another figure drawing class today where we experimented with color, but I'm too lazy to take pictures of those right now... 'cause there are 30 drawings just from today D:
Mom's Cafe is really pretty awesome - we went there today after our animation screening and people were just blasting music and playing video games. Really cool environment. We met a couple recent Calarts graduates who are gonna be interning at Dreamworks starting Monday! Crazy intense!
Walked down to the Valencia Marketplace with Meghan today and bought a pair of bluegrey bermudas at Val Surf for $60. I'm wearing them right now. They better turn out to be fucking amazing! Couple days ago I was down at Val Surf with Jessica and bought a pair of huge douchebaggy sunglasses for $18. According to Meghan, all socal apparel is this expensive? I'm just finding more and more reasons to appreciate norcal now!
Being here and being surrounded by all these amazing talented people is really making me rethink everything. I'm breaking out of the "Mission Mentality" and I love it - right now I'm totally prepared to spend a couple years at JC if I get rejected from Calarts in a couple months... and even now I feel a bit guilty saying that because you Mission kids will probably think of me as a waste. But that's what I'm prepared to do and it's great because I totally have a track of where I want to go in life now. And I can sacrifice my MSJ ego to do it.Current Mood:  artistic |
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Jul. 18th, 2008 @ 11:10 pm
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All's well. Work continues to take up the whole day, but I've had a chance to do a lot of planning/thinking about my next song. Rather than have something percussion-driven, I'm thinking of making a longer, more soundscape-ish piece that has glitchy percussion thrown in as an afterthought rather than as the focus of the song. I'll post more as I start work on it.
I'm headed outta town next week, Wednesday-Sunday. Should be fun! Expect some pictures from the trip. Speaking of cameras, I've been playing around with a medium-format twin-lens-reflex Yashica camera. It's a lot of fun, has a completely manual control system, and is absolutely maddening not to be able to chimp down and check exposure and histograms. Quite a learning experience.
Finally, head over here and check out some of the free songs and excellent podcasts. Positron is a terrific label. |
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ATTN ALL TOY SOLDIERS - A Call to Arms! (pls repost)
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Jul. 17th, 2008 @ 01:45 am
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Reposted from the good Doctor Steel:
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A CALL TO ARMS
I am normally very supportive of others utilizing their creativity to follow their passions in life.
I have been delighted to see many thousands of budding artists and creative minds utilize my image as a springboard for imaginative endeavors.
However, a situation has now arisen that appears to surpasses mere creative inspiration.
Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog is a musical "comedy" about a thirty-something, singing mad scientist who's goal it is to take over the world. Complete with vintage propaganda, an "Ask Dr. Horrible" segment and of course…goggles.
With a mainstream powerhouse recycling such personal themes, I must confess that I see potential trouble in the future.
Many members of the Army of Toy Soldiers have been organizing missions to inform the masses. Such support is truly appreciated and I wish to convey my appreciation to all of you who have shown such support for many, many years in what I work so very hard to achieve.
Sincerely and appreciatively yours,
~Dr. Phineas Waldolf Steel™ |
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ATTN ALL TOY SOLDIERS - A Call to Arms! (pls repost)
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Jul. 16th, 2008 @ 04:44 pm
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Reposted from the good Doctor Steel:
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A CALL TO ARMS
I am normally very supportive of others utilizing their creativity to follow their passions in life. I have been delighted to see many thousands of budding artists and creative minds utilize my image as a springboard for imaginative endeavors.
However, a situation has now arisen that appears to surpasses mere creative inspiration.
Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog is a musical "comedy" about a thirty-something, singing mad scientist who's goal it is to take over the world. Complete with vintage propaganda, an "Ask Dr. Horrible" segment and of course…goggles.
With a mainstream powerhouse recycling such personal themes, I must confess that I see potential trouble in the future.
Many members of the Army of Toy Soldiers have been organizing missions to inform the masses. Such support is truly appreciated and I wish to convey my appreciation to all of you who have shown such support for many, many years in what I work so very hard to achieve.
Sincerely and appreciatively yours,
~Dr. Phineas Waldolf Steel™Current Mood:  aggravated |
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Jul. 15th, 2008 @ 06:25 pm
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OH. MY. GOD. The Dark Knight ( blew my mind ) |
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Jul. 15th, 2008 @ 11:44 am
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TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!
i am 20 years old today... no longer a teenager. nothing too exciting. i always love my birthday. back in the day i had friends that would make fun of me because i would always get way to excited about my birthday. i would say it's my favorite holiday and they would get really frustrated haha.
anyways, happy birthday me!! [and happy b-day to my brother and sister too] |
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Some things.
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Jul. 15th, 2008 @ 11:00 am
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Oh my god, this is awesome. Nicole showed it to me and i... i..
The silliness, folks! the delightful silliness! I guess there's a whole movie worth of these, but this was the one nicole started with so it's the first one i watched:
I saw the midnight showing of Hellboy II last thursday. i haven't written up my two-cents yet because i actually liked it and i'm figuring out how to word my argument in it's defense.
In other news, my apartment flooded! a pipe in the parking garage below us kerploded and water came sneaking into our appartment from under our downstairs toilet (not nearly as disgusting as it sounds, but the water was warm and smelled like a lake). Half of our livingroom was soaked and there was about 1/5 of an inch of standing water in our kitchen before the leak actually stopped.
All in all no harm done, and there are wet-vac dudes in our place right now making all our problems go away :)
ALSO i finally figured out how to move my blog from my yahoo account to gmail so i can finally stop this elaborate dance of logging in and out all the damn time. This is an exciting time for me. I really delight in consolidation! |
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Jul. 14th, 2008 @ 09:09 am
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Like I say over here, I'm seriously in the market for a Mac laptop of some sort. If you know anyone selling one, let me know. I'm really excited about the possibilities of Logic (Apple's pro audio software).
In other news, I've been doing lotsa bike riding lately. After a couple of years of having most of my transportation come from sitting inside a car, I'm constantly impressed by the situational awareness that I get by riding a bike.
And as one last side note, why don't people hiking La Luz Trail clean up after their dogs?! |
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Jul. 13th, 2008 @ 03:34 am
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Cinespia Sunday: "Valley Girl" - Does anyone wanna have a picnic to this '80s gem? Tomorrow night at 730. |
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