[ Sunday September 7, 2008 postage : 6:57 pm ] kiyuu [ mood | bitchy ] Okay, what the hell. B| I was at work for an hour and a half and they sent me home. I'm sure the managers know that sundays are Dead days, so wtf why did they put SEVEN ushers on for then. Not cool, guys. But oh well, saves me from five hours without a break. Doesn't do any good for my wallet, though. Siiiigh. report to HQ?

[ Sunday September 7, 2008 postage : 12:21 pm ] katiroth ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) mission status : 3 : report to HQ?

\o\ [ Sunday September 7, 2008 postage : 9:35 am ] valorously [ mood | cheerful ] So I was like super busy yesterday even though it was my day off, which kind of sucked because I had the house mostly to myself, but errands and piles of laundry and stuff trump all, so it figured in the end. :| And today I'm going to have to GO TO WORK GAH, but this is all somehow magically not so sucktastic, because: I HAVE TICKETS TO SEE STARS AT THE AVALON! Now all I have to do is make sure I'm not closing on October 1st... and make sure I get that Saturday off for Disneyland... and it'll be the kicking-est week ever~ mission status : 1 : report to HQ?

[ Sunday September 7, 2008 postage : 4:43 am ] urtvrubedo [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | "why" ~ ayaka ] Almost 2 weeks later and I STILL cry at the Crisis Core ending. What the fack. EDIT: Oh, and I swear I'll post something of substance tomorrow. Lately, whenever I'm home I just sit down and do homework to get ahead.  I'm about a week ahead right now, going to try to stay there. I have a bit to do tomorrow, but hopefully I can squeeze a post in before bed. Lots of pictures and escapades abound. If not, I'll definitely have plenty of time on Monday in between lunch and dinner. OH AND BY THE WAY I GOT HYPNOTIZED ON STAGE TODAY. Apparently I Riverdanced the shit out of everyone. mission status : 1 : report to HQ?

[ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 5:31 pm ] sister_coyote ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) mission status : 20 : report to HQ?

Thank you,Helpie McHelperton [ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 1:56 pm ] thegreatlina [ mood | rejected ] Okay, so my posting/updating skills are lacking. My major bad. But, on the upnote, that hasn't been much to update on until now. Where, oh where, to begin? Well, I believe I stated before that I've been getting counseling. We'll call my therapist, as my darling Jeff called her, Dr. Quack-Quack. No, this isn't a negative slur for a therapist nor was it meant to be. We call her Dr. QQ endearingly and with respect. Lady sure does know her stuff, I'll tell her that! So, we've been making good strides with issues like controling my stress and meditation. She's even - somehow - shown me how to see myself as I am. Kind, generous, loving, and a fox! I never saw it until now, which is making me love my body and my features and myself. Much happiness abound. But it seems that no matter how much growth I do, something from the outside comes barging in. Like family, for instance. So my last post about about my birthday and the lack of immediate family lovings. It wasn't until a few weeks later when it hit me. My dad didn't call me. Peggy didn't get on his ass - like she usually does - and remind him ahead of time to buy a card and then call. OMFG, I have been shunned/disowned/neglected. And while part of my brain (even while typing) is screaming that it must be some fault of mine - it is NOT my fault that they did not call me on my birthday. End of fucking story. Yes? Brain still arguing, but at least nodding in slight agreement. Which is good. Yes. Good. Kay. Continuing. So, I'm already dealing with abandonment issues with my male parental unit and this lack of affection/attention on my birthday has sent my emotions and brain in a downward spiral of mass confusion, hysteria, paranoia, and self-loathing/self-doubt. The questions of 'What did I do wrong?', 'Why don't they love me?', 'Why is it easier to love Brad (mah brother) than me?', 'I'm not that disappointing of a daughter, am I?' That's me making it all about me again, which is sorta bad when its in such a negative context. So I talk to DQQ about the feelings I have about my Dad and, after a conversation, she comes out with the question of: "Do you realize that you have a great influence over people. I mean, you've got the power to really hurt people, which I know is not something you like to do. You aren't a bad or mean person. But, whether you know it or not, you can really hurt your family." WOooOOoOOaaaaAAaaaHHhh there a moment. I'm a passive-agressive, non-confrontational individual. Me, hurt people? Well, sure. I hope I did hurt my mom a little. Is it spiteful, yes. Do I care, no. But other people of my family? I don't see it, though I've really been thinking on it and can undertand to a degree. My dad is hardly the emotional person, but I think he's afraid of me. I've called several times, left messages, and got nothing back. The Step-Mom is in on it too, I'm sure. Perhaps they caught wind of what happened with Momz and are thinking 'Oh shit, we're next'. I don't have anything on the Step-Mom. She's cool and she did a great job with Brad and I. Its my dad I've got issues with. And the man's hiding and afraid of me. I mean, really. Look at me! I'm not threatening, am I? (Was gonna post an image, but they's old! I'll add the new ones here soon... ^ . ^;  ) So I'm trying a new route. Email. It isn't what I'd like to do, but I gotta at least get the Dadz to come out and talk. To understand that we won't go into the past if he can't (even if I want). Its got to be a consentual conversation talking about the flaws of our history and how to move forward. Or, if we can't go back, then learn to go forward with what we have now. Rebuild if we want. I've come to learn something rather interesting about myself. I don't need the Dadz in my life. But I want him there. I'm going to have to accept the possibility that he doesn't want/need me in his. It hurts though. No child wants to be told you aren't wanted/needed, no matter what age they are. (Especially when there are siblings in existance that are still wanted/needed.) Yeah...going down the sad route now. And...I'm done. report to HQ?

[ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 2:20 pm ] kiyuu [ mood | amused ] [ music | Happy Working Song - Enchanted ] Guys I think I've figured something out. I'm a sadomasochist. Because I like torturing myself and others("others" meaning my pawns characters in Brawl). I.... I started reading the Mai-Otome manga last night. Despite the horrors I've heard about it. But flkhfdst oh my god it was so bad it was hilarious. And some parts were just hilarious. Like this right here. Poor Takeda. On a positive note about it, Akira's Meister Robe is awesome. *A* Also, I am not reading the HiME manga. No. Definitely not. I flipped through one chapter and just. What. mission status : 9 : report to HQ?

Society and silly standards on relationships [ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 11:19 am ] ignis_exuro People who are skeeved out by "large" age gaps in relationships make me laugh. In fact, their perception of what a "large age gap" is makes me laugh harder. About a month ago, Rachel and the AGS editor were talking about the editor's friend who got married, and the guy was...GASP...6 years older than her! That's like, sooo far apart in age! How could they even have anything in common, right??? They so would never marry a man that much older than him. (BTW they actually said this) LOL, people. If I wasn't techically eavesdropping, I would have said "OH HAY MY BOYFRIEND IS 38!" But really. It's not a big deal within reason. Once you are an adult, everyone within your generation and one above it is also an adult. So really, there is no VAAAAAST DIFFERENCE ZOMG. I do agree one needs to draw a line somewhere. But it's really up to the individual. Me personally...two generations up is just a little much. I could never date anyone my parents' age. (Yes people, this does mean that Ty is not capable of being my father, thank you. When's the last time you heard someone say their father is 12 years older than they are? Uh-huh.) But that's just ME. Someone else may be able to connect on that level, and that's fine. I'm not going to sneer behind their backs. It's called having an open mind. I have a cousin whose wife is the same age as his mother. But who fucking cares? They obviously connect "on that level" so who are we to pass judgement? I also read an internet article recently...about a girl who worked as a Hooter's Girl through college. She made mention that the 10 year age gap between herself and her boyfriend did not go unnoticed. Uhh...actually, I bet you it did. mission status : 2 : report to HQ?

Uh Oh, Flamingo! [ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 9:07 am ] tyciol In regards to this show, Owen Only's mom = MILF and Bird Brain = LILF. Certainly this is a show of high quality which I initially overlooked as dumb due to appearance. Off the top of my head, I thought the same of Inu Yasha, and probably other great ones. So I'm glad I took some time to watch it. Of course, BB likes the Captain, and that's got to be respected. I tell ya, if there's one thing that's lovely, it's a loli in love, and if she must be smitten with someone it may as well be some neandering goodhearted shota rather than some bad boy pop star or whatever which tends to be annoying and stuff. Honestly, I wonder, if a loli ever liked me, would that also be annoying? It might... I dunno, it certainly would now, I like a loli with standards and anyone with standards would not be bamboozled. I wonder if this is why a lot of guys treat girls like shit because they don't respect them for liking them, which is why you often have guys who are losers treating girls badly, and guys who are winners treating them well. Of course, this is not consistant, because there are some very nice losers and some very abusive winners. This is because some people are very conscientious of trends and reject them (for example, I would like to be a nice loser, and I think I am, until I can be a nicer winner) whereas the abusive winners I guess, maybe they don't get smitten? Or maybe it's some 'hidden pain' or insanity type thing where they value nothing or odd things which lead them to exploit others? I dunno. report to HQ?

Phoenix Wright Drabble [ Friday September 5, 2008 postage : 1:08 pm ] je_regret_riens Title:  Foolish Futility Characters: Franziska, Edgeworth Pairings: NONE, not even implied! Rating: PG Genre: Angst, Introspection, Character Monologue, Comfort, Friendship Spoilers: PW3 Case 5 Summary: Franziska thinking back on facing Edgeworth while he was filling in for Phoenix. Notes: Franziska and Edgy are =friends= and nothing more. I haven't actually finished the last case, so I'm not sure how it ends.  SOMEBODY *eyes teh Rebbeh* has my DS.  LOL she needs it, she's working today.  But I digress.  I'm not sure how it ends, so this might not actually work.  But...it came to me and it was sweet. ( Foolish Futility ) report to HQ?

omg campus yaoi [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 9:35 pm ] urtvrubedo [ mood | leacherous ] ( CAMPUS YAOI WAT ) Shit yeah. mission status : 7 : report to HQ?

AMV Rec: Falling Dreams [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 3:40 pm ] sister_coyote ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) mission status : 1 : report to HQ?

Stiff [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 2:20 pm ] tyciol It's a good time to 'get physical'. Like, too much time on the net, increasing pointless numbers. Like, what's the point or whatever? Just making people angry... of course, they ALWAYS get angry, no matter what you do or say, so what to do? lol... but time away is time without conflict, and that is good. Net's fucking slow anyway... I need to make some cashola via STABBING MYSELF FOR MONEY so as to get a faster connection and like, a laptop, so that I can, you know, type upside down, and maybe I'll get an aneurism in the middle of some Diablo II or somethin'. Very stiff. Worked hard yesterday, up until 1... (awesome islam family guy ep of South Park part 1) and then woke up like 5:30 am because it was freakin' hot, couldn't even sleep above covers in underwear... So I had like, a chicken spicy sandwich, and my calf muscle spasmed and I couldn't walk for a while. Then I did some salsa dancing, need to return to the library now I guess. I'm not very good. Even with the table moved there's no room to move, and like, the cleared space isn't in front of the TV or something. My arms are weak! I finally measured my bodyat and it was like 15% or something. I was guessing 20-25 so it was pleasant. But even so, I think most muscle is in the legs, I have a really flabby-bad looking torso and arms. Anyway, 5-10% is what I want, and to gain muscle. report to HQ?

we're in the city of wonder [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 7:47 pm ] impasse [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | The Pussy Cat Dolls - When I Grow Up | Scrobbled by Last.fm ] ... I've recently realised that they have the strangest ice cream flavours around here. They have your normal boring stuff, but... they've also got chocolate+caramel+tiny marshmallow chocolate fish combo. Then there's the chocolate+banana+chocolate chip one. And- yeah, it's kind of strange! But hilarious too, undoubtedly. Also... uh. For possibly the first time ever in my RP history, or at least the first time I can remember, my character has been propositioned. It's kind of awkward! I'm not sure how to respond, not to mention I wasn't... really aware that my character even really had a close relationship with this person. I THOUGHT THEY WERE JUST FRIENDS. I don't know how I'm going to deal with this; I think I'm just going to retreat to discedo until all is safe. Is it just me, or doesn't the spellchecker work with the new version of Firefox? This is frustrating! I wish my mom's boyfriend would learn when to go away, too! He isn't my father, and he never will be, despite how much he likes to pretend he is. I'm old enough to look after myself, and I'd love it oh-so much if you left me to my own devices when I ask. Thanks! mission status : 10 : report to HQ?

[ Wednesday September 3, 2008 postage : 9:58 pm ] valorously Ice cream sandwich = Good! Ice cream sandwich falling into cleavage = BADBADBAD. mission status : 5 : report to HQ?

"LET'S GET DOWN TO BUSINESS. TO DEFEAT KIRA." [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 12:34 am ] urtvrubedo [ mood | content ] College is wrecking my LJ time! Big update tomorrow. With pics, omg! >:D Event of the day: TUXEDO MASK CHOCOLATE CREAM PIIIIEEEE OOHH WAT. And we decided that there needs to be a Death Note musical more than anything in the world.  And started rewriting Mulan lyrics to make it come true. LOLEPICSHOPS TOMORROW. mission status : 1 : report to HQ?

[ Wednesday September 3, 2008 postage : 9:14 pm ] valorously AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL. ♥ I can't believe I missed the first half, but I'm sure they'll show it again, so. wow. are some of these girls extra catty this year, or what? mission status : 9 : report to HQ?

[Art] for shediao [ Thursday September 4, 2008 postage : 11:06 am ] festivewind [ mood | weird ] [ music | Wordplay - Jason Mraz ] ( To answer her request... ) And xaevyn and I have finished our mini bang collab. It can be seen HERE. Thank you for the hardwork, Ayli and Fern~! mission status : 8 : report to HQ?

[ Wednesday September 3, 2008 postage : 1:53 pm ] kiyuu [ mood | nerdy ] I stole a Meme. :X I wasn't tagged but YAY I wanna do this anyway. 1. Grab the nearest book. 2. Open the book to page 56. 3. Find the fifth sentence. 4. Post the text of the next seven sentences in your journal along with these instructions. 5. Don't dig for your favourite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST. 6. Tag five other people to do the same. Mo crossed his arms over his chest as if hiding behind them. "You could read me Tom Sawyer," suggested Meggie, "or How the Rhinoceros Got His Skin." That was one of Mo's favorite stories. When she was smaller, they sometimes played at having crumbs in their clothes, like the crumbs in the rhino's skin. "Yes, an excellent story," murmured Mo, turning his back to her again. he picked up the folder in which he kept his endpapers and leafed absentmindedly through them. "Every book should begin with attractive endpapers," he had once told Meggie. -- Inkheart, by Cornelia Funke Aaaaand I tag.... whoever wants to do it. In other news, reading Fanfiction at 2 in the movrning + listening to broadway musical soundtracks = big fat no. ffffff talk about weird dreams. mission status : 2 : report to HQ?

THESE BOOBS ARE $300 [ Wednesday September 3, 2008 postage : 12:35 am ] urtvrubedo [ mood | chipper ] Since my last post we went outside and laid on the grass. Nicolai climbed a giant tree and muttered things like "GIANT ENEMY CRAB, ATTACK THE WEAK POINT FOR MASSIVE DAMAGE" while Laura freaked out screaming "THERE'S A GIANT BLACK MAN IN THE TREE". We all laid around in the grass, some people did their homework. Some of us just chilled out. Max and Nicolai posed for yaoi pics. fffffff win. Started getting late, people started heading inside. Some chick started blasting Hannah Montana out her window, so me and Max went and stood in front of it and raved. Then she saw us, stared, took her iHome inside and closed the window. D: Gtfo. Came inside and totally watched that horrible Zelda cartoon in my room. THREE WHOLE EPISODES OF IT, FROM NICOLAI'S DVD. "WELL EXCUUUUSE ME PRINCESS". And I pointed out how Ganon was on the same level as that dude who fucking hated the Smurfs. And I want everyone to know how right I am. Everyone started going off to bed, when Nate (or rather, Pedobear) decided it was time for ice cream and brownies. At 10:30pm. So me, Nate, Nicolai, Max, and Megan all walked to a diner near here and got cakes and brownies and CHOCOLATE MILK. And danced on the railroad tracks. It was fun. But I got a stomach ache. D; Everyone here reminds me of someone back home, or a weird hybrid of people from back home. It's really weird. But helps with homesickness. AND RICH YOU NEED TO LIIIIIKE COME AND HANG DOWN HERE because everyone totally knows about Pokemon. Tonight at the diner we definitely had a conversation that consisted of: Max: YOU'RE ALL LIKE DUDE HEY AND HE'S ALL BITCH WANNA KNOW HOW TO CATCH A POKEMON AND YOU'RE ALL YEAH I DO BITCH Nicolai: AND THEN YOU'RE ALL CINNABAR ISLAND Me: MISSINGNOOOOOO Megan: AND YOU CATCH IT AND IT'S LIKE NOOOO Nate: BUT YOU CAN GET SO MANY MASTER BALLS Max: AND YOU JUST GO UP AND DOWN UP AND DOWN Nicolai: AND CATCH SAFARI ZONE POKEMON Max: HOLY SHIT WHAT Nicolai: ALL LIKE FUCK YEAH PINSER I MISS ALL YOU GUUUYYYYSSSSS but y'all should bop down here. You would love like, everyone. We snuggle and stuff but don't touch each others GIRLY BITS. I think the plan for Friday is to buy me a bunch of Monster, go to Megan's... cousin's house I think? And play Brawl all night long. Woo! mission status : 1 : report to HQ?

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