Thursday, March 21st, 2002

Time	Event
2:11a	suggestions needed i can't seem to cut the soft side of my arm yah know where all the veins are no matter how hard i try like recently i practically dug the blade into my arm and it still didn't cut and the blade wasn't exactly dull and suggestions of what is good and sharp that will easily cut that part of the arm without having to like gouge a blade into my arm i don't want big gaping cuts just nice clean deep ones that bleed, is that too much to ask. So if anyone has any suggestion let me know or places that bleed and cut easier. (5 Comments | Comment on this)
2:31a	'tis me She's taking her time making up the reasons To justify all the hurt inside Guess she knows from the smile and the look in their eyes Everyone's got a theory about the bitter one They're saying, "Mamma never loved her much" And, "Daddy never keeps in touch That's why she shies away from human affection" But somewhere in a private place She packs her bags for outer space .... She can't remember a time when she felt needed If love was red then she was colour blind All her friends they've been tried for treason And crimes that were never defined She's saying, "Love is like a barren place, And reaching out for human faith is Is like a journey I just don't have a map for" by Savage Garden..."To The Moon and Back" Current Mood: blah (1 Comment | Comment on this)
4:45a	use them darlings (Comment on this)
8:01a	Still alive?. I can't tell. I cut. I bleed. I'm still alive. Still alive? I can't tell. I scream. Glass shatters. I'm still alive Still alive? I can't tell. I run. I fall. I'm still alive Still alive? I can't tell. I cut. I bleed. I die. I'm dead. No more life. I'm not alive. (Comment on this)
8:04a	In the dark All alone In the dark No one here In the dark By myself In the dark Going crazy In the dark It's black I'm all alone It's black There's no one here It's black I'm by myself It's black I'm going crazy I'm dead Everything is red In my bed Everything is red In my bed, life is leaving On my wrist, blood is bleeding DEAD SUICIDE (Comment on this)
10:36p	I cut last night...a cross on my wrist and an attempted tattoo on my right inner knee...i dont tattoo...i duno why...it was just stabbing my knee with ink and a fat saftey pin...it never stays...that pisses me off...i've got that whole 'guilty/not gulity' feeling...make it dissaear...all of it gone forever... (Comment on this)
11:40p	contact... hiya ... I'm Josh, for those who don't know me yet... just so you know where I'm at - I'm not really depressed right now, by any means really... just busy and moving through life... cutting is just a part of it, well, you guys know I guess... anyway, right now everything is fine. No rhyme or reason to cut... just... because you have to... you know? For 5 years I've thought no one would get me - they'd think I was crazy - but you people get it... much to say... much to hear... Current Mood: tired Current Music: rave music from the apartment next door :-/ thumpthumpthump (5 Comments | Comment on this)

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