Kathryn A ([info]kerravonsen) wrote in [info]b7friday,
@ 2004-06-12 10:03:00
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Prior Knowledge
The theme for this week is "Prior Knowledge", with the implication of writing about characters who knew each other before. Well, I've done a little twist on that... Drabble: 100 words

Recognition. How he dreaded it, so much more than the others did. All they had to fear was bounties, while he... he feared the holes in his mind. How much had the torturers ripped out, in their psychological makeover?

He dreamed about it, a room full of faces he didn't know, each one reproachful. "Don't you know me?" they whispered. "I died for you. I died for the cause. I died from your betrayals. Don't you know me, Blake?"

Blood on his hands, and he didn't even know who shed it.

He dreaded recognition, not from enemies, but from friends.


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[info]astrogirl2
2004-06-12 12:31 am UTC (link)
Ah, now that's the kind of Blake-angst I like. :)

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 12:47 pm UTC (link)
Thanks.

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[info]executrix
2004-06-12 01:41 am UTC (link)
Excellent! Go you!

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 12:56 pm UTC (link)
*blush*

BTW, do I want to know who Mal is in your icon?

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[info]executrix
2004-06-12 07:11 pm UTC (link)
Yes! Yes, you do! He is Captain Malcolm Reynolds from Firefly, a series that I bet you will like a lot. (Check out the crack_van review for details.) Coming soon to a LiveJournal near me: Mal/Roj, Inara/Simon/Avon, Kaylee/Vila.

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[info]daiseechain
2004-06-13 07:44 pm UTC (link)
Of course! I've only seen a few episodes of Firefly (altho I'm a big Joss fan for his other work), but when I saw that icon I started seeing parallels all over the place. I wonder how much B7 Joss has watched?

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[info]executrix
2004-06-13 08:28 pm UTC (link)
He's on record as a B7 fan. I bet it was formative influence on his "life's a bitch, then you die" worldview. The Angel and B7 series finales have certain strong similarities. And the Magnificent Seven line "I was aiming for his head!" appears in both B7 and FF.

Heheh...as part of my B7/BtVS crossover zine ("Blake the Federation Slayer...He fought the Federation. A Lot.") I wrote an essay called "Chips with Everything" comparing the two. E-mail me (dshilling@simlab.net) for a copy.

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-13 11:51 pm UTC (link)
as part of my B7/BtVS crossover zine

You did a B7/BtVS crossover zine? I thought I was the only one who was crazy enthusiastic enough to do that.

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[info]executrix
2004-06-14 12:54 am UTC (link)
Yeah, but yours is a gen anthology, and mine is a single-author slashzine.

PS: Oh, so you're THAT person from Lysator. And grumpoldusenaut is THAT OTHER person from FC.

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-14 10:03 pm UTC (link)
Yes, we are.
Though the thought has crossed my mind whether it might not be better to take "Kerr Avonsen" as a general nom-de-net anyway. Particularly after one correspondent compared me with a porn star who has a similar name to my real one (sigh). Except that all my software stuff ought to stay under my real name, as it's good for my CV, and the correspondent in question had found me through my software. (sigh)

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[info]blakefancier
2004-06-12 01:55 am UTC (link)
*happy sigh* Be still my Blake-loving heart! :D

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 01:02 pm UTC (link)
(grin) I am a paradox: I spread happiness with angst!

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[info]hafren
2004-06-12 05:25 am UTC (link)
This is my favourite so far on this theme.

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 01:05 pm UTC (link)
Whee! Thank you.

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[info]pinkdormouse
2004-06-12 06:43 am UTC (link)
Very effective.

Gina

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 01:07 pm UTC (link)
Danke.

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[info]kernezelda
2004-06-12 01:18 pm UTC (link)
Masterful. Excellent insight into a man whose memories have been taken, whose identity has been shredded.

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-12 10:39 pm UTC (link)
Wow! Thank you!

The seed for this was, of course, "prior knowledge", and wondering what it would be like for Blake to meet someone from his past that he didn't remember at all -- because he'd been mindwiped. And of course the most likely people for him not to remember would be his fellow rebels, since the Model Citizen Blake wouldn't ever know people like that...

That, I think, was the worst thing that the Federation did to Blake: making him forget that he'd ever been a rebel. That was unneccessary violence to his psyche. It would have made more sense to have kept Reformed Rebel Blake, because there would be less discontinuity in someone who had "reformed" from his rebellious ways, than someone who didn't even remember them. The Fed psychotechs must have been afraid, very afraid, of Blake, to think that their first level of conditioning wouldn't stay. Were they afraid that the memory of doubt would lead to doubt?

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[info]daiseechain
2004-06-13 07:42 pm UTC (link)
Oh yeah. Beautiful misery. Poor, poor Blake. I really feel for him here.

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[info]kerravonsen
2004-06-13 11:53 pm UTC (link)
8-)

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