Hi! I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was 15. I'm 25 now.. I've been doing self - harm since elementary school. It manifested mainly into cutting. I have attempted to OD on pills quite a few times. I'm also bipolar, have anxiety not otherwise specified, and OCD. I just wanted to say hi to everyone. I just found this community and think it's great that it is available.

i was reading a poem about some depressed kid in highschool who slits their wrists.



don't you hate it when people label cutters as emo kids?




I'm a cutter myself and I found it aggrivating to say the least.

Hey,
I am a recovering cutter.  I want to help others get better and i made a supportive website.  The website has forums on things like cutting and eating disorders amoung so much more.  The link is http://selfhelp.yuku.com and i really hope that i see some of you guys around there.  I find that the more support systems i have the more happier i am and the more i realize things will get better.  I hope it also helps you the way it has helped me.  See you around.  Stay strong and take care.

Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm?

 

Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help!  We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help. 

 

What you can do: If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hours to complete.  

 

Who can participate: We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), those who have self-harmed in the past and quit, AND those who have never self-harmed.

 

What’s in it for you: Participants who complete the questionnaires will be paid $5 CAD (money transfers via PayPal). You can also choose to participate in our long-term study, where you will fill out a shorter version of the questionnaires every three months for two years. You will be paid $5 CAD each time you complete a set of questionnaires (about 30 min each), and you will get a $15 CAD bonus once you have completed all 9 sets for a total of $60 CAD. Telling us about your experiences will give us important information on how self-harm changes over time, and could help develop and improve treatments for people who want to stop self-harming.

 

Please contact us at perl@sfu.ca if you are interested in participating or if you have any questions.

 

Thank you,

 

Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)

Simon Fraser University

Department of Psychology
RCB5246, 8888 University Drive
Burnaby, BC, Canada V5A 1S6

I can't do this any more...I look like shit. I have gained so much weight and I hate it so much. This is it, this is my new resolve...my new contract. I've got to get back to the way I was...even that wasn't where i needed to be but at least it was better than this. I look so big. I truly hate myself right now.

Hola!! I thought I'd share something nice with you. This is a site dedicated to help women appreciate what they have. It's really a treasure. I really don't remember having being moved so much by someone's words. :)

How to Feel Good About Yourself When You Don't Love Your Body

4 Ways to Be Kind to Our Bodies --- and Body Image

What is my ideal body weight?

Minimize the Media's Influence on Your Body Image

How to Make Peace with Your Body's Changes

4 Ways to Stop Criticizing Your Body

How to Free Yourself from "Fat" Thoughts

hello, long forsaken world that i turn to when i have no where else to go. truth lies where the darkness splits light....for me that's here. who can help? I need information about BPD from anyone willing to give it. I can absolutely not do therapy, it would mess up my whole life. i know i need help but i just don't know what to do anymore. so i keep running. now i'm trying to run as far as bahrain. the back of me mind says what the hell is wrong with me. but yet i am so pulled there right now. when i get there though and everything goes wrong as it absolutely will, where will i turn?

Hi there. I started this site back when i was 16.

I have to warn you there are a lot of graphic pictures and stories that may be triggering, but im trying to rejuvenate my page, so if you would mind looking at it, and if your interested sending me poetry and stories and pictures to post. i will totally give you credit for anything you send, or keep you anonymous, whichever you want.

so if you have time and dont mind, please check it out.

http://www.geocities.com/theonlyathenea/thebleedingwords5

Hello....I am new here. I was hoping to find some new friends here.  I'm pretty sure I have
some kind of eating disorder. I currently weigh 108 pounds.
I have a very poor self-esteem....and it would never be nice to get some friends on here to talk to.
So I hate to beg......but will anybody be my friend?

I cut again today just once though so i guess im getting better right? not like anybodys reading this anyway...but hey i just gotta keep my head up right? look the truth is i dont know what to do with myself right now so can anybody just please add my msn and just talk to me im really lonely and i need friends to help me get better so plz add me at brandonboo1993@hotmail.com

i haven't visited this site in soooo long, my life has completely turned for the better these past two years, i have gotten over my meth addiction i have stopped worrying about my weight since i started gaining so much, but the one thing i can never seem to control is this is cutting, i only cut on my legs, but i went for almost six months until i cut myself again, i don't know what to do........ i know the answer is to stop but i cant. i started cutting myself when i was 13 and i am going to be 19 in four months..... this cycle is really getting to me



also something new i started this year is hitting myself instead of cutting....... i banged my head against the door edge i had this huge bruise on my head and it almost split open...... seriously does anyone else do this...

ooo ..i haevnt burned in a week so thats good i guess..im doin a lot better this year then last year...

 hey im new to this community..i want to be  at my goal weight soo bad..
here are my stats:
CW - 111.3
1GW - 104
2GW - 100
Lw- 104
HW - 114
im 5'4" 
 i need encouragement...today i ate way too much..its saturday and i didnt do anythin cause im sick :(

Hi all!
I've been dieting, exersizing, etc. and want to know if there are any good diet pills out there? There are so many out there and most are gimmicks... anyone try any with positive results?

I have done so good. I stopped cutting for months, and now here i am sitting at work after my boss tells me im worthless, my finace wont talk to me and i dont know why, and i am just craving it. I have razors in the supply room, and i can so easily go get it. The urge is so high but i dont want to fall again. I love my life. Why is it like this?

Hey everyone,


this post may seem a little weird but bear with me,


im a photography student at ryerson university in toronto, im in my last year (fourth) and im working on my final project. the focus of my project is girls who live with, or are recovering from, or who have had an eating disorder. this project is very personal to me as i lived with depression and an eating disorder for five years. i used to visit all of these sites and coming back to them has brought up alot of all memories of the girls i met over these sites and the support i recieved. i am not fully recovered but i am really looking into the pressures and feelings that go along with this and im reflecting alot on my own life and the effects of this. my photos will be only from the shoulder up, a classic headshot, because i dont want each photo to be about the body at all. my purpose is to bring awareness to this and put a face to this struggle. i also want to get rid of stereotypes i have found people have about girls who obsess with what they eat. people have very strong assumptions which i want to change.
i have the upmost respect for everyone im shooting and im looking for anyone of any age and colour. i am willing to go a distance from toronto so you dont have to come to me if youre not able or comfortable.


if any of you are willing to sit for me or talk to me about this you have no idea what that would mean to me,


please visit my site at www.kajatirrul.com just to see that im legitimate.


feel free to email me at kaja.tirrul@gmail.com if you want to talk outside of livejournal
Thanks!

I know its not healthy, but I don't care, but I do. I want it to consume my life, but I don't.
Part of me wants to be this skinny, beautiful, delicate little twig; fragile and sickly and weak; someone needed to be protected. my idea of beauty. I want to control and purge and restrict, be light and airy.
But part of me knows its stupid; I AM SKINNY; I'm 5'4'', 120 lbs. I enjoy having energy. I enjoy wrestling my 230lbs. boyfriend and winning. I don't want some stupid thing like that to consume me; i've got far more important things.
So I'm just trying to find a happy medium. Thats all.
I have a bad tendency to starve when I'm depressed, eat when I'm happy. Neither one is good; when I'm happy, I feel so good I could eat a bucket of ice cream. But when I'm depressed I starve; I make myself suffer so everyone sees my pain. So I guess in that aspect I have a depression triggered eating disorder? I dunno.
Sometimes I feel like a failure, a loser who won't do it because she can't handle it. That if she really wanted it, she'd stop being such a pig. But then I have to say to myself; "dude, you're 120 lbs."
Sometimes thats good enough for me; sometimes its not.