So we purchased tickets for the Saturday night showing of TDK in Imax a month ago. Last night at around 9pm, however, we were so very tempted to attend a midnight showing in a regular theatre. We kept saying how bad of an idea it was... as we put on our shoes and grabbed our keys.
On the way out, we checked the mobile movie ticket sites to find nearby theatres. The ones we wanted to attend were sold out, and the ones that weren't were either too far away or we didn't really want to go to (bad neighborhood, screntalkers, ice theatre, etc.) We contemplated just going to any old theatre to see it, but I felt that if we were to go, we needed to see it the right way. I then equated it to losing one's virginity with someone in a motel 6 near the turnpike- yeah, you got to do it, but it would have been cooler to do it in a better setting. I was willing to wait until the right theatre was available.
Yep- I equated a comic book movie to sex. I'm as disturbed about that as you are.
You were all very talkitive last night while I was sleeping... and today while I was working.
A lot of it a lot more.... poetic and fluid than usual.
Forcing me to want to be poetic and fluid... Which actually makes me more clunky than ever.
Tomorrow is supposed to be my pelvic and Mirena placement... excuse the TMI, but I forgot to call today and ask if they would still do it when my period will be ending tonight.
I helped a 20 yr old tyke buy some beer. He handed me $14 all crinkled and folded in small bills. His friend stole all the milk crates from 7-11 while I was gone.
My new job sucks. *shrug* Some of the surveys are push-polls, even though the company says they're not. They are.
I have a plan, though.
Things are very busy now.... so I revel in any downtime instead of being constructive.
Still trying to work through some relationship and emotional stuff. I consider myself pretty goddamned self-actualized... but feelings still confuse me often. I have to dig,.. I have to root in the cellars of my feelings and play with them like a chemistry set.
Im supposed to be in bed soon.
I feel impossibly guilty over having not been back to visit my grandmother in the hospital.
Phone jobs make me very needy at home. I hate my day and so I need extra affection when I am home. But tonight Im alone, since I have an early bedtime and Jesse had a deadline to meet at work.
Is the universe: MUCH BETTER OFF... SOMEWHAT BETTER OFF... UNAFFECTED... SOMEWHAT WORSE OFF... MUCH WORSE OFF...
due to the existence of mankind?
Is the knowledge we have compounded about science, nature and the recording of our own existence important in the grandest scheme of things? Has our existence created even a 0.00000000000000000000000001% change in the universe? The negative things we have done to the planet earth,.. could that have an effect on the universe? Does the existence of the idea of 'ethics' make the universe a slightly better place? Does our hypocrisy when it comes to ignoring ethics make the universe a slightly worse place? Or are we so insignificant, our entire existence as a life form, as a thinking being and things like our discoveries/thoughts/feelings/act actually have absolutely ZERO impact on the universe... its just too big, too empty... that nothing we could do would be big enough to change anything about THE UNIVERSE.. in its expansive entirety?
That is what I want to know.
Secondly, I somehow got embroiled in racism discussion when a white chick was a clerk for an aboriginal (I guess she is in Australia) and after she was pleasant with him, he came back and two of his aboriginal friends make racist jokes about her paleness and called her a "witch" for being so white. She was sorta shocked and confused about it.
Anyways,... my stance is that whatever racism white people experience regularly in Western countries is minute compared to the average racism perpetrated by white people in Western culture, and that it sucks, and it would be nice if everyone got along and easily forgave injustices, but that racism is a CURRENT injustice (that just because abolition happened and lynchings are uncommon and highly illegal doesn't mean racism is old news) and no wonder there are people angry about it.
Yes, racism is never excuseable,.. its never ethical, but sometimes racism is done out of frustration... and this is TOTALLY the case of black on white racism. Whites were racist because they were greedy and arrogant and its easier to own a person if they look different from you and you don't think of them as a person or treat them like a person. That idea is still reverberating through America,... and they are still feeling its negative impact and white people feeling the rewards. If I am lucky enough to be born white, well, the least I can do is be understanding and not get all righteous when frustrated people lash out with a silly racist joke against white people once in awhile.
Its not GOOD for them, for me or for society.... but things don't magically turn perfect just because of 15 years of Affirmative Action.
Sure,... maybe Im just a guilty white person.
Then again, maybe Im just someone who understands what it means to steal millions of people's lives, bodies AND history/culture.... and expects some lingering undercurrent of cultural bitterness even after we've shaken hands and become partners in helping America succeed... same goes for MANY of the races/cultures/ethnicities that were abused in America... like the Chinese, Jews, gays, Native Americans....
By the by... how is the genocide in Darfur doing? How expansive are the deaths? How many orphans have been made? How many women brutally raped as a war tactic? Going well? Are they hugging yet or are they stilling murdering eachother by the thousands?
i've had this journal for the meaty part of a decade now, and someday i'll tell the story of how it all began. my consistently inconsistent updating style is part of the character i think. i think the only way i could update this often is to fill it with random quizzes, questionaires and the like. i won't. but for now, here's a less than comprehensive but highly chronological list of my favorite album of every year that i have been alive...
1984 - "Weird" Al Yankovic "In 3-D" 1985 - Talking Heads "Little Creatures" 1986 - Beastie Boys "License To Ill" 1987 - R.E.M. "Document" 1988 - R.E.M. "Green" 1989 - Operation Ivy "Energy" 1990 - They Might Be Giants "Flood" 1991 - The Tragically Hip "Road Apples" 1992 - Tool "Opiate" 1993 - Rage Against the Machine "Rage Against The Machine" 1994 - Ween "Chocolate & Cheese" 1995 - Wilco "A.M." 1996 - Eels "Beautiful Freak" 1997 - Ben Folds Five "Whatever and Ever Amen" 1998 - Elliott Smith "Xo" 1999 - Built to Spill "Keep it Like a Secret" 2000 - Modest Mouse "The Moon and Antarctica" 2001 - N.E.R.D. "In Search Of..." 2002 - Flaming Lips "Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots" 2003 - Death Cab For Cutie "Transatlanticism" 2004 - Rilo Kiley "More Adventurous" 2005 - Decemberists "Picaresque" 2006 - Flaming Lips "At War With the Mystics" 2007 - Of Montreal "Hissing Fauna, Are You the Destroyer?" 2008 - Death Cab For Cutie "Narrow Stairs"
Mr. Kenneth Gardner, co-creator of the Twin Towers II Plan, will be on David Shuster's MSNBC Live segment tomorrow (Thursday) at 4pm Eastern Time.
Mr. Gardner has also made an appearance on Chuck Booms' radio show. Log on to WTC2011.com to hear the audio. Mind you- it will take a little while to download, but if you're on a high speed connection, it shouldn't be too bad. Kenneth urges for listeners to visit both the 2011 site as well as the Twin Towers Alliance site.... both of which I had a hand in developing... ;-)
I gotta say that I always wanted to have a hand in the fight to rebuild the Twin Towers when I first saw the Libeskind shards of glass Design in 2003, and when I signed the petition at the TTA back in 2006. Now, the developer of (in my opinion) the best plan for the WTC is mentioning sites that I coded, developed graphics for, and collaborated with the organizers with. It feels pretty good. I hope that the national conversation on the what needs to be built there will be amplified.
If you can't get enough of me talking about this, then become a fan of the WTC 2011 Facebook Page.
So my fiancial aid came thru. wooo hooo. And because cost of living in the dorms is like 6,000 dollars it'd be cheaper to find my own apartment. Especially considering that I'm still on the "waiting list", getting my own place would probably be the best idea anyways.
I'd probably get a one bedroom. And then the most cost effective meal plan.
Of course when I'm living in Asheville, with my own place, I'll want people to come visit me. I'll have several sleeping bags, and I'll have cots, and couches, people can sleep with me. I don't care! People must come.
It really hasn't hit me yet. But shit I'm moving. I'm really moving. I know I'm typing this now. But it doesn't mean anything.
So Friday my mom turns on the power at the "new Ayden house". Monday we move everything in.
SO I'M ACTUALLY LEAVING 3374 DAVIE STREET IN 5 DAYS! AUGUST 19th CLASSES START AT UNC-A. MY LAST DAY AT RITE AID IN GREENVILLE IS AUG 9TH.
wooo.
This song is stuck in my head
Damn-God for creating Hall and Oates and their catchy tunes!
Also DamnGod for the fate of the "Spazz building". Poor Jeffers. But hey, we gotta give credit for the fact that it stayed open as long as it did. He still has shows booked. But they'll have to be at houses and 2111.
When I do eventually post the pictures from the past 2 months, it might evoke some sadness. Because the things that appear in the images don't exist anymore.
tonight I am going to ride bikes with Brandi in Wilson :D and later back in Greenville, watch Batman Begins with Wayne and his girlfriend.
AND HEY, wasn't Josh coming to NC this week? What happened to that? JOSHIE POO! WHERE ARE YOU?
So Steven Page (of Barenaked Ladies, for the uninitiated) was arrested for possession of cocaine yesterday which is just, like, WTF? That absolutely killed some illusions for me.
In other news, the band's show this past weekend was good. We were rusty, but the partygoers didn't notice because they were drunk. In less than a week, staticvoidute and I will be frolicking through San Francisco. And today is "my Friday," so I'm off the next two days. On the agenda: band practice, Mavericks summer league action, and probably a lot of cleaning.
I think that one reason I'm excited about the Dark Knight differs from probably every other moviegoers' reason. And that is that Mies van der Rohe architecture is being prominently seen. Harvey Dent's office building is (I believe) the IBM Building- Mies' last and biggest building constructed, and one of the Wayne buildings is Daley Plaza- a building in the Miesian style built by one of his proteges, whose name escapes me.
And to see not only Mies architecture, but Chicago architecture in general seen on the big screen (especially an IMAX screen) will get my heart racing. This film will make Chicago look goooood. :)
I think its safe to say that Saturday can come quick enough, but I waited patiently since Batman Begins ended in 2005, so another few days won't hurt.
When Future Islands came into town this past Saturday, my rump got minzed. To quote Carlos (who took care of me): "sip to flirt, gulp to f***" next time I'll take that advice. But when you mess with fire (100 proof), sometimes you get burned.
While drinkin, I was thinkin "alcohol serves as a social lubricant, I don't need that much." However, I reckoned with the forces that be.
Last Wed, it was Lucy's 21st bday. a shot of the mintness for the occation tasted good. So I decided to buy my own bottle at the ABC.
On Friday I called Brandi I told her "Saturday I wanna get a little loose" she got pumped. I was pumped.
the first 2 hours, fun was had. The last 5 were not. One too many. Limitation is needed. Especially when it comes to booze that strong.
After which I asked "why do people do this to themselves?" no one had a straight answer.
Near blackoutville. I remained some coherance. And I experianced something out-of-body in retrospect.
During the fun times, while at the Corner...I was macking on two random girls I'd never met. And they were "MACKING" right back. And while I was there I thought "this is not me, why am I saying these things, what am I doing?" Yet I still did it. My brain was doing one thing. And my body was doing something else.
The same continued into the bad times.
And I think I know what caused the badness. I went outside, to make a "drunk dial" to Erica S. After the call I thought "I should sober up, I'll walk around". I walked and walked. Sat down next to the Back Door Skateshop. AND VOM.
perhaps if I'd stayed in the Corner, I'd been fine. Maybe not. Or perhaps I would have not made it.
So things worked out. And I've learned and gained perspective for "next time".
Thankfully I didn't make that much of an ass of myself. And I remember most of the night.
I MADE IT TO WORK SUNDAY MORNING AT TEN AM!
new Burn After Reading teaser
there will be a second school of rock. i'd follow Linklater anywhere. So I'm excited. y'know the first time I hung out with Bridget Todd was to see the 2003 original...oh the places we'd go. And oh how those times are gone.
My mother has found a house in Ayden. We are moving this weekend. Exiciting times :D
Also this week. Tuesday: Work at 4. Wed: maybe going to wilson to visit Brandi. (?) Thurs: The Dark Knight at midnight!!! Friday: Work at 3 Sat: Work at 8am Sunday: 10-7
Places I need to be. Things I need to do. Talks I need to have. Things I need to think about. Decisions I to make. Time I need to juggle. Projects I need to finish. People I need to see. Things I need to try. Appointments I need to keep. Bills I need to pay. Family I need to visit. People I need to say goodbye to. Emotional things I need to figure out. Debts I need to repay.
All while keeping my current balls in the air.
Right now I am dressed up as a Derby Wench for a mock-bout/mini-bout being recorded for "Wife Swap" on ABC.
I need an itinerary if I am going to keep doing so much.
I got burned out on boredom all winter being unemployed. Trying to get out of the house, do something other than bother Jesse with my omnipresence.
Now I have lots going on, and I started a few others and now I just gotta see if its going to settle like I want.
I hope I can stand the job... Im starting part time, only working four days a week with an option of working more. I think that will help to slow burnout.
Things have been moving fast in a few different directions lately. Its making me anxious and worried. Giving me lots to think about. Making other things harder to concentrate on.
I once did a magic trick with tarot cards once. It was like a regular playing card trick, except that at the end, I didn't ask "Is this your card?"- I told them "This is your card."
1. Drinking too much alcohol is a young person's game and I am just too fucking old that that shit apparently. 2. Its unsettling to black out. 3. Those derby girls play TOUGH! 4. Nausea is unpleasant. 5. I had 400+ text messages last month. Yipe! 6. Ice cream treats are delicious. 7. Sleeping kicks ass. 8. My arm is feeling better. My shoulder is acting up, though.
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