Stop The Body Hate

FREE Open Mic!

2008-06-17T19:44:23Z

There is a free open mic at Cafe Evolution in Florance MA this Thursday June 19th. It is from 7:00 to 8:30 p.m. Come read your own stuff or your favorite poem or just sit back and watch!
I hope to see all you awsome peoples there!

Eating disorder bloggers wanted for survey

2008-03-31T16:23:47Z

I am a current graduate student researching the social history of food-related disorders, inspired, in large part, from my own struggles with anorexia and bulimia. I'm conducting an anonymous survey of bloggers who blog about eating disorders or eating disorder recovery in partnership with a clinical psychologist for joint research and publication purposes.

I'm hoping our survey generates lots of responses so that our findings are well-rounded, inclusive and convincing. The only two requirements are that you must have an active blog and that it must address, at least in part, your experiences with an eating disorder. I'm hoping for responses from people of all ages and genders who are in all stages of recovery and who suffer from a diversity of eating disorders, from anorexia to binge eating disorder to ed-nos to orthorexia.

If the scope of the study pertains to your own experiences, I invite you to participate by taking it. More information and a survey link can be found here or http://the-f-word.org/blog/index.php/2008/03/23/eating-disordered-bloggers-wanted-for-survey/

Thank you!

Rachel Richardson

anti_ed @ 2008-02-02T23:30:00

2008-02-03T04:33:09Z

Cut for stupidity...

Damnit... why am I suddenly interested in doing a "diet"? I don't need to lose weight. It wouldn't even be good if I did. So why does this stupid "Sacred Heart Diet" thing look appealing?

You know, if it's all about calorie reduction anyway, my body doesn't respond to that at this point- not after the hell I put it through.

I guess I just wanted encouragement. Sorry if this made no sense:(

Bulimic

2007-12-30T19:10:42Z

Hi
Was wondering is this community still active, I'm 23, bulimic and looking for somewhere to go for support,
#
Lily xx

this isn't really ED related, but I thought it was still relevant.

2007-11-15T20:24:45Z

today i read an article in the NY Times that really made me angry. Apparently, in higher end cosmetics stores like Sephora, they now have these "skin-analysis" machines where you put your face in to this scanner-box thingy and it spits out a summary of your skin problems, like the size of your pores, wrinkles, sunspots, and red blotches. Some of these machines even "score" you in comparison to other women's results- like 85% of women scored have smaller pores than yours. how awful.
Evidently these machines were originally invented to try and detect skin cancer. They proved ineffective at that but pretty damn effective apparently at making women insecure about their skin. many of the so-called "problems" the machine detects aren't even on the surface of the skin, but the cosmetics salespeople scare the women by informing them that the spots the machine detects under their skin will eventually rise to the top and show themselves . . . but a great way to prevent it is to buy a $200 facial cream from their store!
One woman in the article said, "I feel like I have really pretty skin. Then I saw this picture [from the machine] and was like, 'I need help!'" How sad that our culture has found a yet more obsessive way to make people (pointedly women) feel bad about themselves physically. What's even more sickening about it is that it's all for the purpose of making money, not to actually improve these women's lives or health, though it may masquerade as such. Thankfully, the article also interviewed a skin doctor who called this practice "cruel and mean-spirited" and seemed disappointed in Sephora's practices. Another doctor said "If your pores are large to you, then you treat them. if they're not large to you, what's the purpose of that technology to make you fearful and buy a product?" This wonderful doctor doesn't seem to understand that buying a product is exactly the point- some groups in the cosmetics industry have it in their best economic interest to make sure that all women feel that their pores are freakishly large, with aggressive and insulting methods like the skin-analysis machine. As if magnifying mirrors and airbrushed skin in ads weren't bad enough, now we have to analyze our skin practically under a microscope? This is so deplorable I can't even believe it.
Luckily for me I'm in the middle of a bust about feminism and the harm our image-obsessed culture inflicts on women . . . so this article just adds to my motivation to complete it.

need advice

2007-09-18T03:06:21Z

hey. this community seems pretty dead which is sad to see coz its pretty much the only positive ed site out there. while i realise that not many people many comment on this i dont really feel comfortable putting it in my journal. i have taken some swimsuit photos and need advice on what to wear to wet and wild themepark on sunday. i feel like a fatty mcfat pants so i know i cant trust my own opinion, and i dont want you to be nice because you think you need to be... i want to know what you really think.

option 1

option 2

option 3

i would prefer to wear boardshorts due to scarring on my upper left leg. but let me know your thoughts and please dont be nice just to spare my feelings.

new member

2007-08-29T12:10:34Z

hey everyone. i just joined this community. i am trying to be more positive about myself and tell my ed good bye but i am having such a hard time doing so. i have been on the anorexic side of EDNOS for 6 years, though i had some thoughts and tendancies even before that. i am hoping that i will be able to get some positive support and make some friends through this community. if anyone wants to add my journal to their friends you can feel free and i will add you back. my gf is also in ed recovery. she is doing so well and im so proud of her, but i cant seem to find the strength to do things like she is to walk in that positive direction. this is my 3rd year in recovery.

height - 165cm (5'5)
lowest weight - 42kgs (92lbs) in 2003
highest weight - not entirely sure coz i had no scales at the time but i think about 70kgs (154lbs) possibly higher in 2006
current weight - 56kgs (123lbs)
lowest healthy weight - 53kg (116lbs)

anti_ed @ 2007-08-08T13:50:00

2007-08-08T20:53:51Z

I found this through the recent LJ-biz post, and thought to join. I stopped eating in 1992. Fifteen years later I have clawed my way up to 10lbs under what my doctor says I should be at, and am still working to gain those last ten pounds. I am lucky enough to have both a supportive boyfriend and a supportive roommate who help me eat healthy. The quote in my icon is my point of view on my weight, now: "The next step is still within reach. It is possible." The song continues with "It is even humanly possible".

I'm glad you're all here, and I'm glad to have found you.

my intro

2007-03-25T16:57:10Z

hi, i'm new to this community so thought i'd post an intro. i found it from a link from the community ed_aware. i have been diagnosed with anorexia and i'm currently in a treatment program. i'm almost ready to graduate. its a good program. i've learned alot and changed some behaviors. some are really hard to change, but i'm trying. i still have a ways to go in recovery. its a daily struggle. i made a website if you want to see, the subject is recovery from eating disorders: http://butterflyrecovery.tripod.com//index.html let me know what you think (constructive criticism). i also just became a moderator for a brand new recovery forum. here's the link if you want to join: http://healthyrecovery.21.forumer.com/index.php

Feeling a bit down.

2007-02-13T18:57:35Z

Thank Gods for this community!
I'm rather knew and I'm feeling a bit down at the moment. I've been recovering from an ed for quite a while. Sometimes I feel I'm doing better than others... Has that happened to you? These days I can't help feeling I'm taking some steps behind. I feel bad about my image. It probably was made worse because I got a really bad haircut so... I know these things don't matter that much, but sometimes, well, sometimes they seem more relevant. I also realize that my clothes are not AT ALL sexy. In no way. I look at my sister's clothes and she could be ready for a date anytime. If I had a formal or nicer event to attend I would not have anything appropiate. My work clothes are just meant to hide and hide more, but when I look in the mirror I would certainly like to feel and look better. I'm sorry to take your time with this matter but grateful if you have "listened". I don't know if I'm offending by posting this but thanks again.

anti_ed @ 2006-12-03T03:40:00

2006-12-03T08:40:08Z

Hi, I just found this community and I am hoping this is ok to post here. I recently started an eating disorder activism community, ed_aware. I am looking for some more help and afiliates too.

Best wishes to you all!

fED up campaign

2006-11-25T18:05:19Z

Hey! If anyone's interested, I've started the fED up campaign to combat eating disorders and provide a place of support. I'm a recovering bulemic, and knowing the pain and suffering that EDs cause, I want to work on some preventative measures. The campaign is basically to promote healthy body images, increase awareness of EDs and work to prevent them, especially in younger girls. If you're interested, please check it out! Strength in numbers!
JOIN THE FIGHT!

anti_ed @ 2006-11-10T15:13:00

2006-11-10T20:13:31Z

Hello everyone!

My name is Navi and I just joined this community today. I'm currently trying to beat bulimia away with a pointy stick and start a better lifestyle for myself. That's one of the reasons as to why I'm here. Plus, it seemed like a nice, friendly place to be! I always try to be a nice person and I'll always try to help people out in the best way possible. I look forward to the days ahead that I am here with everyone. Take care! ^_^

(By the way...If I did something wrong, please tell me!)

anti_ed @ 2006-10-27T08:27:00

2006-10-27T13:27:26Z

Reminder of community rules:

001. No flaming. Do not flame other members of this community, and do not bait members of pro-ana communities through this journal.

002. Do not insult members or making generalizing statements that can be insulting to members. For example, insulting the size of people is not welcome here. We all come in different sizes!

003. No spamming please! This journal is not meant to help you advertise diet pills & programs – you’ve Internet pop-ups for that.

004. Please post measurements and pictures under lj-cuts. See directions for the lj-cut here. Also, please label all lj-cuts to let us know what text follows. Some people want to avoid seeing measurements altogether, so they’ll know not to look at what’s under your lj-cut.

anti_ed @ 2006-07-13T00:26:00

2006-07-13T05:27:08Z

The results of this quiz cannot be viewed by other members. I was just curious as to how people are feeling today!

View Poll: Today

anti_ed @ 2006-07-13T00:00:00

2006-07-13T05:08:34Z

Moderator Note

I changed the look of the community a bit and changed the profile to refine the rules.

On the old subject of Dove's Campaign for Beauty, there's apparently a report on the site (pdf) - has anyone read this? I was wondering if it was interesting. It seems that this campaign has quieted a bit, sadly. I thought that it'd be a bit more.

My weight gain over the last few years showed such an increase in a small amount of time. I wasn't sure if it was my birth control or...? Either way, my metabolism has been shot. I decided to revamp my diet to include mostly organics if only because I was worried that I might be causing some health problems for myself, and I've been exercising daily.

I really haven't lost much weight, but I feel better and for me that's what matters. It's true that it's any person's choice to be unhealthy, and we needn't make comments on how people should live, but this is the way I've chosen to live - to try to be healthier.

My partner has been really supportive because it's what I want to do, but most of all he's always letting me know that before I started exercising and changed my eating lifestyle, he thought I was beautiful and that he still thinks that now. It's a huge change from the comments I've gotten from my mother most of my life.

hey...

2005-08-02T05:39:38Z

Hey, I just want to know... does anyone care to shoot me in the head with a gun? Free shots for everyone just to put me out of my misery! Come on, everyone, it's free to kill me! Have fun while you do it, too, please!

well, today, my sister got put into a residential treatment center for cutting. Geez, this is driving me crazy. She made me feel like shit, she said that I was the reason she;s in there, it made me feel real bad, and I just wanted to kill myself right then and there. I love her, and I can't believe that she said that to me.
I've just felt so bad since today, and haven't been feeling like eating much, and I only ate 620 calories since Sunday. Ah, well, I know why I feel depressed. Because in 12 days, I have to fit into my cheerleading skirt, so I have to lose about 10 pounds. And I haven't been eating much at all because I'm occupied losing weight to fit into my skirt. I just hope I can lose 10 pounds byt hen. Besides, I start 2 hr. vball practice next week till november, I have gymnastcis every tuesday, and cheerleading everyday until school starts, then every wednesday when school starts. SO I can lose more than 10 pounds if I keep eating at least 300 calories a day. This Just might work. It's worth a shot. besides, only 12 more days until my performance, and I have to fit into my cheerleading skirt and if I don't, I might as weel kill myself....hope you all are doing better than I am!
nitey nite!
Becca

a quote

2005-07-27T13:08:45Z

this was in a health pamphlet that was at my doctors office:

"..our bodies, our fitness and our food have become paramount concerns. They have nothing to do with ethics or relationships, community responsibilities or with the soul. They have nothing to say about the purpose of life, except that we should survive as well and live as beautifully as we can. They give us no purpose beyond ourselves. This is appropriate only for a people whose ideals do no exten beyond their physical existence, and whose vision of the future and of the past is trangely empty." - Roberta P. Seid

Hello, I'm a new member.

2005-07-27T06:59:05Z

<lj-cut text="My intro">Hello everyone. I'm a new member. My name is Becca. This school year, starting August, I will be a sophmore. I am currently 15 and I will be 16 in October. I am a Beta member, FCCLA member and Chapter Reporter, I am in SADD, and Spanish Club. I'm smart...so my i.q. says...lol
Well, right now, I am struggling through a lot of things. My dad is going through an operation that can paralyse him, and I don't want that to happen, I love him so much. I really want him to go through it without any harm
My sister is a cutter and we think that she is bi-polar. Right now, she has been hospitalized 5 times for suicidal attempts. And for the next year, she is going to be in a residential treatment center. I love hjer so much and I am going to miss her. I won't be able to see her at all. I really am going to miss her.
My mom, she has arthiritis. It's real bad, but she tries her best to live through it.
My brother..well, he's my twin...(fraternal) lol He's just another teenage guy. Oh goodie! NOT...lol
Myself, I am a cutter in recovery...if that makes any sense.
I'm trying to get through an eating disorder... (ednos with anorexic tendencies, othorexia)
My therapist thinks I am suffering through mild depression.
Well, I have real bad body image. I always have. I've always been "fat" to other people. I started to have disordered eating when i was in the 8th grade, and in the 8th grade, my highest weight EVER was 240 pounds. I got real sick of people talking bad about me and saying that I'm fat. So I decided to starve myself on May 5, 2004, and when I went back to school in the first week of August, and I weighed 203 pounds from starving myself. Everyone started to compliment me on the weight loss, and I was happy. After a few months, they started to make fun of me being fat again.
So again, in September, I starved myself again while I was playing competitive volleyball, and I got down to 180 pounds even at the end of November. Again, I got compliments until January after new years when we went back to school. Everyone again started making fun of my weight.
Then, instead of fasting completely, I restricted myself to 600 calories a day. Then in March 3, 2005, I weighed in at 169 pounds, my lowest weight ever. And then everyone got real concerned or whatever. Then theses *popular* girls invited me over for a weekend at their house, and i ate like a pig, the three times of that weekend, I began to purge what I ate, and i ended up getting a broken blood vessel. Then they got real worried because I was too loud or something and they heard me. On Monday, one of my teachers heard about it, and she got involved and did all she could to help. So did the friends I stayed the weekend with tried to help me. I got over the purging. But I still had bad body image and somehow remained at the same weight.
On March 18, 2005, one of my best friends ever died in a car crash when she skipped school, and that put a ton of pressure on me. I didn't know what to do. I started eating out of depression and lost weight again, then gained it back.
In April, I started purging again because I wanted to try out for cheeleading. I did great, I made cheerleading. But that still didn't boost my confidence, so I started to restrict again and use laxatives. I had to stop because they made me naseous.
Now, at the beginning of April, I started to eat healthily because my new cheerleading coach found out about the restricting, purging, and laxatives. So at the beginning of april, I really tried to eat normally, and I guess I did. At the end of May, I gained 12 pounds, and weighed 181. Now since then, my eating has been out of control, but i'm still exercising because I have volleyball practice, gymnastics, and cheerleading. But since June, I have gained weight, and now I weigh 197 pounds!!! I know what you're all thinking...I'm to fat too be a cheerleader now! I know you were thinking that. I know I am too fat to be a cheerleader.
I don't know how this has happened. I gained so much weight after I was losing weight so fast! Now it's all coming and packing on me. I'm so fat now. I want to lose weight. I want to do it a healthy way. I want to have better body image. I want better self esttem. I need to stick to a diet, but I don't know a real healthy one. The only ones I know are restrict, starve, and purge. That's it. I really need help losing weight. I need support. I just want to feel better in my skin...I really want to...I really do. Please help me out...please?
Thank you all for your time...
Becca
I don't know if the picture came on or not...sorry...lol
Here is a picture of my when I weighed about 179-181 range...I know I"m ugly,..but here's my pic from then...

Photo Post

2005-07-27T04:48:53Z

I want to be able to accept that this is a part of me.

I want it to stop consuming me.
I dont want to be obsessed and depressed and overwhelmed by it any more.
It's not all of me, it's just a part of me.
It keeps me from going swimming, or wearing tight clothes, or flowy dresses.
I am ashamed of it, and it makes me feel ashamed of myself.
And I want that to STOP.

anti_ed @ 2005-07-27T00:54:00

2005-07-26T23:54:01Z

British scientists announced Monday a new treatment that induces the feeling of being sated and may help reducing weight.

Researchers from London Imperial College believe that the treatment, an injection derived from a natural digestion hormone, the oxintomodulina, secreted by the intestines, can help to contain the growing world obesity epidemic.

"The discovery that the oxintomodulina may be effective in the weight reduction may be an important step to deal with the growing levels of obesity in society", said professor Steve Bloom, who led the research.

The injection reduces the apetite, making people eat less.

Throughout four weeks, volunteers that received 3 injections a day, 30 minutes before meals, lost around 2, 3 kilos (4, 6 pounds). A control group that received the medicine, lost around half a kilo (one pound). No side-effects were found.

"It's a simple matter of tricking the brain, telling it you already ate, setting the appetite hormone before you start to eat", explained Bloom in an interview.

The team, who divulged the method in the magazine Diabetes, said it is still in the test phase and needs more study. But there is already a company ready to develop the treatment, that can be available under prescription in about five years.

Firstly, the treatment will be used for people whose healthy is under risk due to weight. In the future, it can be used in more common cases.

Over 1 billion adults worldwide are overweight and at least 300 million of them are obese. Up to 2025, this number can go up to 333 milions, according to the World Health Organization.

Excessive weight causes diabetes, heart disease, arthritis and other infermities. Researchers demonstrated that treating diseases related to obesity costs as much or more than illness caused by growing old, smoking, and alchool.

Bloom's group developed a treatment administered by an injection once a day, and is now trying to make the administration by use of a nasal spray.

anti_ed @ 2005-07-22T20:44:00

2005-07-23T00:49:56Z

Hi everyone! I'm new to this community, and just wanted to "introduce" myself. Although I've never had an eating disorder, I have a lot of friends that had/have them. I've refered many people to this community, but never joined before. But, now I'm in, and I just want to let everyone know that if they ever just need to vent or just chat with someone, I'd be more than happy to listen. I'd like to help as much as possible. 2 years ago I lost a very close friend to the side-effects of anorexia, and want to do my part to help change that outcome for someone else. Again, please feel free to comment/chat at any time. Thanks!

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anti_ed @ 2005-07-12T01:02:00

2005-07-12T06:16:45Z

thank you so much. this is exactly what i needed! I used to be Anorexic.. about a year ago. I quit.. yay!!!!!!!!!!I got down to about ehh 128 doing that.. then suddenly a year later.. i began dropping pounds like no other.. and i was eating constantly!! how great right?? wrong.. too good to be true. Turns out i have type 1 diabetes. :0( a symptom is weight loss. I got down to about 118 at my lowest :0) i was estatic. Now i'm back up to about 140. and it makes me sad. I really need support. The only thing that is keeping me from going back to my old ways is that.. I have to Eat.. I HAVE TO. i've always had to, but now if i don't i will become even sicker than before :0( i'm very sad about my weight and my appearance. I need support DESPARATELY!