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Thursday, March 12th, 2009
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i've lived this. time and again. not to its fullest extremes, but pretty damn close, inches away from them. so, i think i'm cured. but it took almost dying to realize i can't do this anymore. i cut off all of my friends, my sister STILL won't talk to me, it's been months, i put my family through hell, oh yeah, and i nearly dropped out of college, OH, but wait, i did drop out of college, after. but i fought through that first term with everything i had. i was completely isolated and no one effing understood. you're right about the mom not thinking it's a real problem and an exaggeration and whatnot. and it's even harder because in that state, you honestly cannot think. your brain isn't functioning, and oh, you forgot to mention that this helps you develop MAD ANXIETY ISSUES. stress on the mad part, alluding to INSANE. which then may also turn into a horrible case of OCD, oh yeah, and that's what caused it, and that's what helped it continue, and luckily, since i'd been through it before, i knew all i had to do to get better was eat, except no, this time was different, this time i took it too far, whereas before i'd done it in controlled periods of time and stopped when i wanted to, while i was still in control, this time i continued for too long and i lost control of myself, my mind, my environment and everything in it. the only thing i'm thankful for is that something really drastic and life-altering happened this young in my life, while i can still change my circumstances and move in a positive plane. i'm glad that for once its reality really hit me head-on and i was able to see this is not the way to do things, and i can't play around with this, not even for a second, cause that second turns into a minute, turns into an hour, to a day, to weeks, to months, to freaking forever. i just really feel the need to stress that you REALLY LOSE CONTROL. you don't think the way YOU do. it's like it's not your brain anymore. anyway, i think i've said enough, and i'm sure anyone who's been through this can totally relate and understands the meaning of losing control and not being your own person anymore, but rather a controlled outsider, completely blind to the insanity that takes over and becomes you. UNTIL YOU EAT. oh yeah, and it's not as simple as just eating again. you have to KEEP eating, and keep eating until your brain chemistry shifts back into a somewhat normal gear and you feel like yourself again. and by then, you'll probably have enough regrets stacked up, but you have to let them go and just be glad you're over it.
also, you're never the same.
stronger, yes.
but more messed up? yes.
it forever becomes a part of you.
oh. and the worst part?
you have to live with the fact that you and you alone did this to yourself for noooo goood reason. and you do realize that, AFTER, when you can't tke it back.
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
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Sunday, January 11th, 2009
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I feel like if I could get rid of all reading materials and the internet and the tv, I'd be okay. I don't binge if I have to watch myself. I don't actually like the foods I binge on, but eventually my resolve slips and I wake up in a daze, realizing that I lost the last 3 hours on trash tv and a dozen empty jars and boxes surround me as proof of what I did. I know I can't be the only one who does this. I'm doing a lot better than I used to. I've only thrown up once in the last 30 days. That hasn't happened in 7 years. I just want to know, from other people that do/did this and people who've gained insight from therapy; why? What's the point of this?
x-posted to a few other communities.
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Monday, December 22nd, 2008
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Hello, everyone!
I discovered this community when looking for a place where I can find some support. I'm 23 and really don't know what to do.
It all started two years ago when my boyfriend cheated on me and left. I just came back from the US where I gained weight. I am 5'4" and I was about 125 lbs back then. I was feeling ugly because I was too fat and began to starve myself. Eventually I got down to 100 lbs, my hips were 34 inches. My bones are pretty heavy since I was about 100 lbs only when I was 15. I have never thought about anorexia before the day I didn't find a pair of jeans my size when shopping.
But didn't wanted to accept the fact this could turn out somehow worse. Everybody around were telling me I looked all skin and bones. But I didn't pay attention coz being skinny really was making me happy and confident enough. I even got some proposals from modelling agencies to model in Asia.
Thanks god I met a perfect guy and we got married. After the marriage I gained some and currently my weight is around 116 lbs. I understand that this is quite normal weight but I sometimes I feel very fat. It's almost no longer possible to fit in a dozens of my skinny jeans of 0 size and I feel scary about buying a new pair one size bigger. It's like a nightmare when you are not skinny anymore and there is no self-esteem coming from that side. I know that it isn't anorexia yet, but it appears to be the beginning. I am about to start starving again in order to get back to that look again. Anyone who's been through this?
Thank you.
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Sunday, November 16th, 2008
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Hi everyone!
I had a livejournal years ago but am happy to be back, determined to find support on my path to recovery, and help others struggling with the same diseases/addictions/traumas. I will post tonight on my page a summary of my first step so those of you who want to can get to know me a little better. Thank you all for being here and looking forward to sharing my experiences, struggles, strengths, and hopes.
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Niki
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Tuesday, October 7th, 2008
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I've seen the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving...
-Allen Ginsburg
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people on here really annoy me. who are you to say that the pro ana sites are bad have you ever been on them or used them? they are a strong support system for people living with anorexia. it is somewhere i know that someone will understand my tourmant and fear. if you take the time to look at the sites properly you will find that there are people in recovery as well as those still in the illness. we do not spend the whole time telling each other how to lose weight- most of already know. i know that without the support of the people on the site i would have ended my life several times by now.
granted there are people on there who want to lose a bit of weight but most of the time sufferers see that and don't respond to them. i am behind you with regards the wannarexics but
all i am asking is that you think about this before saying that they are all bad.
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Friday, September 19th, 2008
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Hay algunos alimentos que si están consumidos sobre una base regular trabajarán maravillas en su piel del eczema.
Algunos alimentos tienen la capacidad de limpiar, o de tonify, o desintoxique. Algunos alimentos apoyan varios sistemas tales como los riñones, el hígado, el corazón y el sistema inmune.
Si usted come un alimento que sea bueno para una porción de su cuerpo, tendrá más que probablemente un efecto positivo sobre otra parte de su cuerpo.
La mayor parte de los alimentos que trabajan maravillas en su cuerpo y piel están de la variedad de la fruta y verdura. Se componen de mucha agua. Pero ésta no es agua ordinaria.
El agua natural contenida en fruta y verdura es llena de alimentos tales como vitaminas, minerales y enzimas.
Las enzimas cuanto más naturales que usted consume, cuanto mejor usted siente, mejor su piel cura y el el más joven y más sano usted mira.
Intente hacer por lo menos el 50 por ciento de sus alimentos diarios para arriba de la fruta o de los vehículos orgánicos.
#1 - COLES DE BRUSELAS: Éstos trabajan como agente antioxidante, anticáncer y antibacteriano. Las coles de Bruselas también protegen contra el pecho y el cáncer de colon.
#2 - COL: Cuando está comida crudo desintoxicará el estómago y los dos puntos superiores. La col mejora la digestión y estimula el sistema inmune. También matan bacterias y virus y son buenos para ésos cáncer sufridor.
#3 - ZANAHORIAS: Los detoxifiers estupendos, zanahorias son excelentes para la salud del hígado y de la zona digestiva. Las zanahorias ayudan al riñón para funcionar y para matar bacterias y virus.
#4 - COLIFLOR: Este la ayuda purifica la sangre. La coliflor es buena para las gomas de la sangría, los riñones y los desordenes de vejiga. También excelente para la tensión arterial alta, el estreñimiento y el cáncer.
Sobre el autor: Si usted quiere aprender más sobre el curado de su eczema rápidamente vaya: .CureYourEczema.com
Descubra los 8 pasos para transformar su piel con los alimentos crudos en: .CureYourEczema.com/Articles/EczemaDiet.htm
shit! When Your Mind Develops A Mind Of Its Own
what does reflex sympathetic dystrophy mean
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
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so i was looking for a livejournal group about healthy weight loss... and i found this pro-ana websight... it amazed me the things these girls posted on here. i cant even describe it, you must see it for yourself. and then... out of no where, mixed in with all the thinsporation... i found this...
This had made such a difference to me and it is so true, i recommend that EVERYONE reads this:
So...you think starving is a good way to lose weight, do you? I think you've read too many fairy tales. Well, this isn't one. Neither are eating disorders. They are sheer & total hell. But, since you want one, I'll go ahead & prep you for it. I'll let you know exactly what will happen to you. If this doesn't make you realize how completely stupid running out there & trying to develop anorexia is, then I wish you the best of luck in killing yourself. Because that's all you'll be doing.
The completely ironic part about people trying to lose weight by starving is that half the time it does not work. I bet you think you'll wind up insanely thin & gorgeous, right? Wrong. You won't be gorgeous & you might actually GAIN weight. One thing's for certain though. Insane is a definite part of the package. Your mind won't be yours anymore. Kiss it goodbye, I hope you didn't enjoy it.
The less you eat, the lower your metabolism goes. You might starve & starve & barely lose anything...or you might be extra lucky...you might starve & starve & gain weight. Your body might just shut itself down & the weight go nowhere. & even though you aren't losing, you'll still be hooked. You still won't be able to stop. By the time your body shuts off from malnutrition, you'll be too far in it to *snap* think "Oh...this isn't working...I think I'll eat again." No...you'll be desperate & eat less & less & work out more and more. Eventually, you won't be ABLE to work out. Your muscles will eventually stop cooperating. Then you'll panic & try & eat even less to compensate for not being able to work your ass off (simply a figure of speech, since you're not losing any weight, of course). By then you can't eat less though. You're barely eating enough to stay alive as it is. & you can't stop. It isn't working & you still can't stop. & whether its working or not, you won't see the truth. You'll never actually know what you look like. Nope...no matter what you'll think you must weigh at least four hundred pounds. This is true if you weigh 150 or if you weigh 70. You will be fat. Insane is the proper term for it, isn't it? Yes, you might just be one of the lucky ones, one of the ones that doesn't lose weight. But don't sit there & think that means you won't be sick. Not true...not true at all. Your skin & hair will be dry, your teeth sore, your period gone, your bones aching, your muscles cramping...well, no need to go on. You still want this, of course. After all, you won't be like that. You won't be one of the failures. You'll be successful; you'll be thin & perfect. Beautiful.
Well, since you're going to win, why don't I tell you about your prize, hmm?? It's quite nice. You will be skinny. You will be sickly thin. Your ribs will stand out & your hipbones will be sharp. You won't see it. You'll look in the mirror & see fat. You'll see rolls. You'll look at girls who weight fifty pounds more than you & wonder why you can't be as thin as they are. You'll look in the mirror everyday & swear that you've gained at least ten pounds. Other people will see you shrink but you won't get to watch. You'll never see the truth. Others will though. You'll be sickly skinny...but you won't be pretty. & they'll all see that. You won't though...you'll be too busy staring at your ass & wondering when you turned into your fat Aunt Bertha. You will not be attractive. You won't. You'll have huge dark circles. Your skin will be pasty pale & have a lovely gray tint to it. Makeup will NOT help this. It won't, so don't think it will. Don't even bother to attempt it. You'll be wasting your time; time that could be better spent doing your usual pastime, staring into the pantry to watch the food. Of course, people might not notice that you're gray. They could be too busy staring at the dark black, blue, & purple spots you're covered in. Everything you do will result in a bruise. Everything. Do you have pretty hair? You won't anymore. It will be straw dry & dull. It will not shine. Think conditioner will help? It won't. It won't & there's no sense in trying it. It might soften your hair for a while (after you use half the bottle, of course) but it won't make your hair look any better. Buy a ponytail holder. You'll need it. You'll probably be wearing it all the time. You'll also need some hair dye. I sincerely hope your hair isn't a nice color....because it won't be soon. Yes...the color of your hair will fade out. You might even get grays. But gray is a nice color, isn't it? I rather like it. I think the grayish brown color where my natural red and blonde highlights used to be adds a bit of...oh...dignity to my look. Speaking of hair, do you like facial hair? I hope so. You'll have it. I have some lovely sideburns. Quite gorgeous. Actually, I have sexy hair everywhere. Fuzz, fuzz, fuzz. It's hot. All the guys love it and all the girls I know ask how to get some. They're jealous, you know. I tell them how I got it, starving. They never attempt it...I know why though. Its not because they're smart & healthy...no, no. Its because they're weak. Not strong like me. Of course, my muscles are deteriorating as we speak & I can no longer use even my five pound weights but I'm still strong, aren't I? Yes...because I don't eat. & that's true strength, isn't it? Denying yourself the basic fuel you need for life. Yup...strong & smart.
I bet you're one of those girls will the enviable natural nails. Those shiny ones that are so long people sometimes think they're fake? Cut them. Go ahead & cut them off now. They'll only break soon anyway. Kiss your newly gray hair goodbye too. It'll be falling out about now. You get to clean the drain about 6 times during your shower, just so the water will go down. Also, you'll need to find a way to throw away your tampons to make it look as if you've been using them. Remember to tell your mom to buy you tampons once a month. Can't have her knowing you lost your period. & you will. I hope you're not having sex because you'll never know if you're pregnant or not. I guess you can just take a test every few weeks. & yes...you can still get pregnant. I hope you don't love the baby though, because chances are you'll lose it. It would probably be for the best if you did though because of the nice birth defects caused by eating disorders. So, you might get to live with the knowledge that your child died or had to go through life with a terrible disability because of you...but it was worth it for thinness. A small price to pay for perfection, even though you're not the one paying it. Who needs their full mental capabilities anyway? I hope your kid doesn't. But that might not be a problem. You might never have children. You might become infertile. Oh well...pregnancy makes you fat anyway.
I don't enjoy sports. I used to. Not anymore...you won't like them soon either. Baseball? Nope. You won't be able to hit or catch. Goodbye reflexes & goodbye hand eye coordination. You won't be able to run enough to play basketball & if you play football you'll break your hip. Never needed that hip anyway. Your new plastic one will get you through just fine. Its not like your hip was going to stay intact forever, not with your shrinking bone mass. But the stooped look is good. I hope you think so, since you'll probably be sporting it by thirty. Since you're one of the special ones, one of the anorexic ones, I'll bet you enjoy ice water. Pour it out. Drink plain water, warm diet coke. It hurts too badly to drink iced drinks. You're taking sensitive teeth to a new level. Forget those special toothpastes though. They don't work when your teeth are slowly dying from vitamin deficiencies. Never liked those teeth anyway. Dentures are nice. How do you like to sit? Oh...you like your legs crossed? Hmm...too bad. Can't do that anymore. Your legs will fall asleep all the way up to your hips. Painfully asleep. This isn't like what you're used to, that tingly feeling. This hurts. A word of advice. After uncrossing them, just sit there. Don't try moving them or hitting them to wake them up. Bad idea...very painful.
Don't stand up either, unless you enjoy collapsing.
Which would be a good thing, since you'll also be doing that. A new hobby, falling. Your legs won't like holding you up anymore. Falling out from under you will be their new favorite activity. They'll like collapsing. You'll be spending alot of time on the ground. Fainting is common too. & don't think this is something you can hide. Whenever you pass out dead in the living room in front of your mom or brother they'll wonder why...and unless they're complete idiots they'll probably know why...especially if you're 30 pounds underweight. Get ready for nagging. Eat this, eat that, why are you doing this to yourself?? You could always go to your room to escape though. Then you can lie in bed & bite your lip until it bleeds...why would you want to do that, do you ask? Because of the leg cramps, of course...oh! I must've forgotten to mention those! Oooh...the cramps are nice. Your muscles are balled into excruciating knots. You'll double over to massage the knots out and...what? There are no knots. There IS no rubbing the knots out because there are no knots. It just feels like it. There's nothing you can do. You just get to lie there & try not to scream. & trust me...you'll want to. Of course, you could always rub your legs anyway...it might make you feel better to pretend there's something you can do to help them. But you might not be thinking about your legs...you might be distracted by the headaches. Take some aspirin...oooh...or don't. Your tummy's too empty; it'll only make you throw up everywhere.
Of course, you could always get your mind off the headaches & cramps by going to the bathroom. It's quite a novelty; you don't do it often anymore. Shitting has become a privileged activity. A painful one, but privileged all the same. Sometimes you'll double over in pain...& you don't have to be on the toilet to do this. Nope. This could be in class, bed, in your computer chair. You'll double over as you feel something extremely painful in your bowels. What is it? Its shit, that's what. Its shit, grinding like a rock of sandpaper against your intestines as it slowly moves. This happens again & again. Finally it manages to shove itself down so you can go to the bathroom. You make it there, in terrible pain, & take your shit. You get scared when you wipe your ass, because you see blood. But you don't tell. Nope, because telling is forbidden, asking for help is evil. Flush it away & pretend you aren't frightened beyond belief. But don't worry too much, this won't last forever. That's right, it goes away...but only because your shit also goes away. That's right, no more shitting for you. Nope. But wait...if you don't shit, what do you do? Why, you piss, of course, but not like you're used to. You get to piss in two ways now. The old way & the new way. Remember where the shit used to come from? Something else is coming out now. Water. That's right, water. I'm not talking diarrhea. I'm talking straight water, exactly as if you were taking a piss out of the usual place, instead of the new one. This will scare you too. But you still won't tell. Occasionally a few solids will spray out with it. Rather gross, huh? Oh well...it's worth it. Anything's worth it, even your hair, nails, bones, muscles, possible children, your family's heart, everything. Sacrifice it all, throw it all away. You're thin now, that's what counts, even though you don't know it.
You'll probably get chest pains. Maybe heart flutters. This is scary too, because you never wanted to die, you just wanted to be thin. But remember, you can't tell. Telling is forbidden & asking for help is weak.
Do you have problems with depression? You do now. The less you eat the more depressed you become. Partially from vitamin deficiencies, partially from your lovely eating disorder. Do you have problems with insomnia? That's right, you've got that now too. You're exhausted beyond belief but you still can't fall asleep...& when you do you can't stay asleep. Who needs sleep though?? Not you. Staying awake burns more calories anyway. Do you do well in school? You don't now. You can't concentrate. Your mind won't function, & the only thing you can actually think about is food anyway. Your grades will fall. Want to recover? You'll probably have to leave school. How does repeating a grade sound? Do you like going out with friends? You won't for long. You'll be afraid someone might notice how obese you are. You can't leave the house now without hiding under tons of clothes...you're terrified someone might see your repulsive body. You'll become more nervous too. Jittery. You'll also have difficulty talking. Oh...have you never had a stuttering problem? Well, you do now. You also forget what you wanted to say alot. Goodbye memory. And you can't go out with friends anyway, so I guess it's a good thing you no longer enjoy it. If you go out with friends they might want to eat! Maybe they'll want to go to a restaurant or the movies. How can you explain that you don't want any popcorn? How can you find an excuse for sitting there at the table sipping Diet Dr. Pepper or nibbling a salad & water while everyone else has cheeseburgers?? You can't. & they might make you eat. You can't do that...no. But why do they want you to eat? Is it because they care? No. Its because they WANT you to be fat!! How dare they?? They're jealous...that's it, they're jealous. Soon you'll realize something. Everyone wants you to be fat. Your parents, your siblings, teachers, friends. The world is against you & they all want you to spiral into morbid obesity. Get away from them. All of them. They don't understand & they're plotting your downfall. You can't have that, you can't lose this. Every time someone urges you to eat or recover "for your health" you know the truth. They hate you & want you to be fat. Push them away. Push away all the people who love you. That's the only way you'll ever be thin.
But one day this will be over. One day you will either die or recover. Death is easier. First you'll have to admit you need help (that is, on the chance that you haven't been forced into recovery...recovery that will not work until you cooperate). This is one of the hardest things you've ever done. Maybe you'll tell your mom. She might be wonderfully supportive, she might've already known. Or maybe she won't think you have a real problem. Then you're on your own. Maybe you'll tell your doctor. & if you tell your mom, she'll take you to a doctor. Then its better. You're safe now, they'll help you. They'll understand. Wrong. A degree is not an insurance against ignorance. & speaking of insurance, it only pays so much on mental health problems. And ED treatment costs are outrageous. So, even if you find a doctor that knows his ass from a hole in the ground you might not be able to get help. You might not be able to afford it. As you recover, your school might have to know. Your teachers will not understand. Students might find out. They won't understand either. Their comments will hurt, you'll want to scream when they ask why you don't just eat. They might call you fat just for fun. Someone might start to admire you & try to become anorexic too...but then, you've been there. You wanted to be anorexic once & you never realized how stupid you were. You know it now, but it's too late. Its too late & you have to fight this or die...& fighting it is the hardest thing you've ever done. You'll put food in your mouth, that disgusting, terrible food & panic & want to cry. Maybe you will cry. Maybe you'll freak & spit it back out. Maybe you'll refuse to eat & get a lovely feeding tube. Triggers are everywhere & you want to kill yourself more with each bite you swallow. Maybe you will kill yourself. Maybe you'll fight & fight & enter recovery only to die while in recovery or even afterwards from complications caused by your years of having an eating disorder. After fighting for the longest time, maybe you will get out. Maybe, after numerous slip ups & times that where so hard you thought you'd die, you recover. It takes a while. Even after you've eaten right for months & months your body still isn't the same. You start to wonder if it will ever be the same again. It might, but you won't. No. This will always be a part of you, it will never go away. Years later it will still be with you, you will still have those moments. Sometimes you'll pass a mirror & suddenly be 200 pounds larger. You'll panic & shake your head, trying to clear the image away. Something will happen in your life, maybe you'll lose your job. Something will happen to take away your control & you'll try to gain it back through starving. You will NEVER be the same. You'll see an article on a someone with an eating disorder & you'll start to cry, remembering that terrible pain. I'm not talking about the physical pain. That's the only pain I described, because it's the only part that's describable. There are no words for the mental anguish. It can never be described. It's unimaginable. You'll never feel another pain like that, another pain so filled with self loathing, vulnerability, terror, rage, desolation...
WHY do you want this?? WHY?!? I know, even after reading this, that you're still sitting there, wanting this. Why? What is it you want?? Is it beauty? Do you honestly think you won't be like this?? Do you honestly think malnutrition won't steal your looks? Is it glamour? READ THIS. Show me the glamour. Is it control?? Let me tell you, you'll NEVER be more out of control than you are when you have an eating disorder. You don't control what you put in your mouth. Hell, you don't even control your thoughts. You have NO control. None. Do you honestly think that you'll be able to do this & not wind up this way? Do you think you are the one person on earth who can control this, who can just stop??? Do you think that maybe you can just do this, get thin, & stop?? WRONG! It doesn't work that way. Do you WANT to die? Do you want to be a martyr or something? Do you think this is beautiful? I bet you think its some sort of tragic beauty. Its not. There's nothing beautiful about it. Do you want some attention? Buy a new eyeliner, dance naked in the streets. Needing attention is a natural thing but there are a hell of alot better ways to get it. Do you want to look at your family's faces & know that you're killing them too? Imagine watching your child killing themselves, imagine your helplessness, imagine KNOWING that they're dying & KNOWING that there's NOTHING that you can do. Imagine fearing the day you'll come home to find them dead from this. Just sit there & try to think about it. Of course, while you're starving yourself you won't see that anguish. You won't be able to. You can't see anything, you're too self absorbed. You're too busy thinking about your weight, about food. You'll see it when you recover though & you'll hate yourself for doing that to the ones you love. You'll wish there was something you could do to erase it but there is nothing. You just have to live with it...& living with it is hard. Especially when you think of how many times your anger came out on them, how many times you got nasty when they were only trying to save your life.
If you do this, one day you will wake up. One day you'll wake up & realize how much you wasted. Maybe you'll realize that you wasted your teenage years. That you threw away your chance at a normal education, possibly even college. You tossed prom, homecoming, parties, & friends out the window. Those times are gone & you can never get them back. Maybe you're older, maybe you threw your career away. You've probably screwed your job record completely & there is no erasing this. You'll regret this more than anything & there's nothing you can do about it….& there's nothing you can do to get back those wasted years. & do you know what? You probably won't even remember most of what occurred during those years. I don't.
You probably want this for the beauty, for the thinness. You probably hate yourself & think this is a way to fix it. Its not. Do you want to know about self-hate? Do you??? Then go ahead & start starving, because I can guarantee you that however much you hate yourself now, it's nothing, NOTHING, compared with how you'll feel about yourself once you get in this. You will despise yourself; you'll hate yourself more than anything. You'll hate yourself more every single day. You're the lowest scum on the earth. You deserve death but death is too good for you.
But do you know what? Self-hatred is the least of your worries now. Because you've likely just signed your own death warrant...& you likely don't even care...yet. But you will. You will care. You will care & you will cry & rage & swear you'd give anything to take it all back. But it's too late, because by the time you're in deep enough to care, you're already dying. Its too late to snap out of it now, no matter how much you want to.
This is the reality of anorexia, of NOS-anorexia. It is nothing like the powerful articles you read on how so & so overcame it. It is nothing like the beauty you see when you look at that thin model. It is nothing like that beautiful popular girl who naturally weighs 80lbs. It is nothing like anything you've ever lived before & you will never be the same.
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Saturday, August 2nd, 2008
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El autismo es un desorden neurológico que causa inhabilidades de desarrollo. Aparece generalmente para el momento en que un niño sea 3 años.
El autismo afecta a cada persona diferentemente en sus efectos negativos sobre la comunicación verbal y no verbal, interacciones sociales, e incluso la capacidad de jugar. Algunos niños con autismo pueden ser muy brillantes aunque muchos tengan condiciones secundarias tales como retraso mental o asimientos. Qué está careciendo en todos los niños con autismo, aunque, es su capacidad de relacionarse con el mundo y la otra gente la manera el resto de nosotros hacer. No ven las cosas la misma manera. No responden la misma manera. No cogen las mismas pistas que lo hacemos.
Los padres pueden comenzar a notar que su niño no se comporta como otros niños. Pueden ser lenta, a menudo muy lento, hablar. La mayoría de los niños comienzan normalmente palabras de discurso una vez que hacen años y utilizan oraciones simples alrededor de dos. Los niños con autismo pudieron no haber dicho una palabra durante este tiempo, y los padres pudieron preocuparse que su niño es audiencia - deteriorada.
Los niños con autismo no sonríen ni pueden a menudo tener dificultad el hacer del contacto visual. No responden a menudo a su propio nombre. Es como si los padres o la otra gente no están incluso allí.
Pueden hacer obsesiva, jugando con solamente un juguete por horas, o exhiba el comportamiento obligatorio, repetidor tal como oscilación en el lugar o mirar fijamente sus manos por largos periodos del tiempo. Los ruidos normales o el cambio pueden ser intolerables.
El desarrollo de niño varía grandemente, así que puede tardar el tiempo para que los padres realicen que su niño no se está comportando la manera otros cabritos que es su edad. Los padres deben compartir siempre cualquier preocupación con el pediatra de su niño que puede cualquiera tranquilizarla que ella el comportamiento del niño es normal o investigarla más lejos. En el caso de no hablar, el doctor puede pedir una prueba de audiencia. Después de todo, si el niño tiene un problema - lo que es - cuanto más pronto se diagnostica y se trata, el mejor.
No hay pruebas específicamente para el autismo, sin embargo. Las pruebas se funcionan con para comprobar para saber si hay otras cosas, tales como análisis de sangre, EEGs, MRIs, tan bien como la prueba de audiencia mencionada anterior, para considerar si hay otras explicaciones. La determinación de autismo es realmente más de un esfuerzo del equipo, aunque, con su pediatra así como los especialistas pediátricos (tales como un neurólogo, un psicólogo y un discurso y un terapeuta de la lengua) observando el comportamiento de su niño.
El diagnóstico de autismo es temprano esencial porque los niños con autismo benefician, a menudo grandemente, del tratamiento especializado de los doctores, de los terapeutas y de los profesores entrenados para trabajar con los niños con autismo, y el tratamiento anterior comienza, el mejor.
Sobre el autor: Lea el tratamiento de Alzheimer. También compruebe hacia fuera para saber si hay remedios herbarios para la ansiedad y los ataques de ansiedad
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My apologies if this post is somehow inappropriate, but I thought members of this community might be interested. This has also been cross-posted to a few different lj communities, so I apologize if you're seeing this more than once.
I was sick of all the "yay ~*~ana~*~ let's fast until we die!" ED-related communities here on lj, so I created a community dedicated to positive ED-related challenges. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) ed_positivity
The community is a direct corollary to all of the ed challenge communities on lj that promote negative and unhealthy challenges that only serve to immerse you further in your disorder. The focus is on more positive health-oriented challenges (such as reducing the amount of times one weighs oneself, meal plan compliance, trying to eat healthier, etc.). The community is not strictly recovery-oriented and members in any stage of an ED are encouraged to join.
( more information . . . )
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Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
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A senior university lecturer weighed less than five stone when she died from an eating disorder, an inquest heard.
Prof Rosemary Pope, pro-vice chancellor at Bournemouth University with a background in health and psychology, died as a result of anorexia nervosa. Her weight had dropped to 4st 10lb (30kg) when she was found dead at home in Sandy Mead Road on 21 March. East Dorset coroner Sheriff Payne recorded a verdict of death by natural causes contributed to by self neglect. He said he was sure Prof Pope must have been aware of the consequences of failing to provide herself with adequate nutrition. Her brother Christopher and his son found her body. Speaking after the inquest in Bournemouth, another brother, Michael, said the pair had tried to raise the subject of her illness. "Christopher and I are devastated by Rosemary's death," he said. "Although she had suffered from an eating disorder intermittently for some years, she was an incredibly energetic, enthusiastic and capable person carrying on work at the highest level. "We find it hard to understand how she was able to carry on at all times without any interference or disruption to her life and work despite her low levels of nutrition. "She was one of the most irrepressible and determined people you could meet. "We were very aware about her eating disorder and although we raised the subject with her from time to time, it was clear to us it could damage our relationship with her and could be detrimental to her if we pushed too hard. 'Tragic loss' "She was unable to hear what we had to say and we find this distressing." The hearing was told that Prof Pope, who had suffered from the slimming disease since her teens, would only eat fruit or sweets in public and had lost about 1.5st (10kg) between her death and when she last visited the doctor in July 2007. The university's vice-chancellor, Professor Paul Curran, said her death was a "tragic loss". He added: "Personally, I will miss her unqualified devotion to Bournemouth University and all of us will miss her boundless enthusiasm, her unwavering focus on our students." Prof Pope, who was a professor of education with a professional background in health and a PhD in psychology, joined the university in June 2006. She was also a trustee of the General Nursing Council Trust for England and Wales.
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/england/dorset/7360470.stm
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Ex-deputy prime minister John Prescott has confessed to suffering from the eating disorder bulimia.
[I am only posting a link because some of the text might be triggering to people who suffer from EDs.]
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/politics/7357008.stm
I think it's great people are "giving a voice" to this problem... people who don't fit the clichés and stereotypes of what an eating disordered person is like. Maybe these kind of "coming outs" will help the general public to understand EDs don't touch only models & teen girls who diet to fit into a dress, but that it really is a genuine mental illness and a huge problem.
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I was reading the newspaper and came across this article
How biology trumps image as cause of anorexia
Scientists now believe genes account for up to 70 per cent of risk of developing the disease
April 13, 2008
( article under the cut )
thoughts?
original source
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Promoting extreme thinness will become a criminal offence punishable by a jail sentence under a government-backed law that was tabled yesterday in France to combat anorexia nervosa.
The world’s first use of the law to tackle eating disorders is broadly aimed at the media and fashion world, but especially at the websites and blogs of the so-called pro-ana movement. While many are support groups, others promote starvation as a “life-style choice”, with girls and young women posting their wasting images as “thinspiration” for others.
Social networking sites such as Facebook and MySpace have come under pressure in Britain and other countries recently to ban their pro-ana entries.
Last month a website that originated in France caused an outcry for encouraging children as young as 9 to embrace plastic surgery and extreme dieting in the search for the perfect figure. The Miss Bimbo site invites users to create a virtual doll, keep it “waif thin” with diet pills and buy it breast implants and facelifts. The website attracted 1.2 million players in France.
Fines of up to €30,000 (£24,000) and a two-year prison sentence will be imposed on offenders who “provoke a person to seek excessive thinness by encouraging prolonged restriction of nourishment” to the point of risking death or damage to health. The prison term is raised to three years with a €45,000 fine if the person dies.
Some experts and fashion leaders oppose the Bill, which is expected to be passed by Parliament within months. “You do not solve this kind of problem with the law but with understanding,” Jean-Paul Gaultier, the designer, said. Didier Grumbach, head of the French Couture Federation, said it was not up to the state to legislate on beauty and aesthetic criteria.
The law, modelled on legislation for abetting suicide, was tabled by Valérie Boyer, an MP from President Sarkozy’s Union for a Popular Movement. Roselyne Bachelot, the Health Minister, gave it the Government’s blessing at the unveiling of a code for the media, advertising and fashion industry on “promoting healthy body images” and fighting anorexia.
“The pro-ana movements which spread their messages of death on the web must be the target for special attention,” Mrs Bachelot said as she presented Mrs Boyer’s draft Bill along with the voluntary code. Up to 40,000 people suffer from anorexia in France, the great majority of them girls and young women.
The 48-year-old elder daughter of Jacques Chirac, the last President, has been incapacitated for two decades with the disease.
Mrs Bachelot said that the “waif-like, diaphanous, transparent bodies on the walls of our towns, in our magazines and on our computer screens are exerting their power of harmful fascination on our society”. Anorexia was one of the most lethal of mental disorders, killing 20 per cent of long-term sufferers, she said.
Mrs Boyer, who has two teenage daughters, said that the new offence was necessary because “it was not possible to deal with the pro-ana sites under the law against provoking suicide or promoting cults”. She added: “We do not know who is hiding behind these sites, but there is real mental manipulation.” Her law was also aimed at magazines, she said.
It would probably be left to judges to define “excessive thinness” but this might be defined as a body mass index, she said. BMI rules have been set by some model agencies since 2006 when the Madrid fashion show imposed a minimum index of 18 for cat-walk models. This translates as a minimum weight of 56 kilos (8.8 stone) for a height of 1.75 metres (5ft 9in).
France banned last year a controversial Nolita advertisement featuring Isabelle Caro, a French model-actress who has written a book on her continuing battle with the disease.
The French voluntary code, which was drawn up by a panel headed by two eminent psychiatrists, commits the fashion, media and advertising world to raising acceptance of varied body shapes. “We undertake the promotion of diversity in the representation of the body, avoiding all stereotypes which could favour potentially dangerous canons of beauty,” the signatories said.
Marcel Rufo, a celebrity child psychiatrist who headed the code panel, said that he fully backed the use of the criminal law in fighting anorexia. The disease remains a mystery but everything had to be done to prevent vulnerable girls being encouraged to starve, he said. Among other new rules, magazines should be forced to mention that 60 per cent of their pictures are electronically retouched, he said.
Source:
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/news/world/article3715030.ece?token=null&offset=12
What do you think?
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Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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lol_anaz
A community basically for making fun of wannarexics and people who think eating disorders are cool. Thinking an ED is a great way to lose weight so they can look like people in magazines.
We're a bunch of eating disordered girls and boys, who are tired of all the people who think they have a disorder by skipping dinner one day. Fantastic place to join if you have a sense of humour and tired of people not respecting what an eating disorder really is about.
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I am a current graduate student researching the social history of food-related disorders, inspired, in large part, from my own struggles with anorexia and bulimia. I'm conducting an anonymous survey of bloggers who blog about eating disorders or eating disorder recovery in partnership with a clinical psychologist for joint research and publication purposes.
I'm hoping our survey generates lots of responses so that our findings are well-rounded, inclusive and convincing. The only two requirements are that you must have an active blog and that it must address, at least in part, your experiences with an eating disorder. I'm hoping for responses from people of all ages and genders who are in all stages of recovery and who suffer from a diversity of eating disorders, from anorexia to binge eating disorder to ed-nos to orthorexia.
If the scope of the study pertains to your own experiences, I invite you to participate by taking it. More information and a survey link can be found here or http://the-f-word.org/blog/index.php/2008/03/23/eating-disordered-bloggers-wanted-for-survey/
Thank you!
Rachel Richardson
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Saturday, March 29th, 2008
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I'm new here...
I've been going through a lot of rough things with my family lately... and I'm afraid I may be relapsing.
( May be triggering... not sure. )
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depressed.