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"if you loved me, you would eat."
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usually at night or sometimes during the evenings i would crave foods, just any kind of foods, usually sweets. and i would just eat fruit with whip cream, but i would try to put it under 500 cals a day. and not exceed over. usually during the day i would eat soup, fruit with whip, veggies, and special k bars. and i try not to eat yogurt that much cause i tend to binge on it like crazy.
but is there any thing else that you guys reccomend for me to eat when im craving something thats 0-40 cals???? i stayed under my limit today of 500. but i did eat veggies, which i didnt count, but still its food.
whats really good, is lettuce or cucumber with mustard. i love it. and it kind of satisfie my craving but still i want to eat more after that and i dont want to just grab yogurt, caus i know ill eat more the 1, or eat more of the fruit with whip cream, so i just eat veggies which is a neg. cal. but im still eating foods.
any other foods you guys eat that is around 0-40 cals, please tell me??!!!
im scared if i dont reach my weight of 129 by tuesday. i weighed myself this morning and i weighed 130.5! i slept today but tomorrow im going to def. exercise and try to put that in. hopefully im not too tired or warn out from the day.
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hey im new to this community (and lj in general)---- you guys are so wonderful and supportive of each other i would really appreciate your help ...
About me: Ive been mia on and off for a few years now but nothing serious but now ive ballooned into such a humongous WHALE....ill die if i gain one more pound. so now im determined to get on track. i just live with my mom who doesnt give a shit about what i eat (or not eat) so i dont have to worry about her finding out (or caring if she did). Basically i should have been doing this a LONG time ago, but better late than never i guess.
My stats
height: 5'6''
cw: 170 i know im disgusting. please dont laugh
hw: 180
lw: 130
gw1: 150
gw2: 130
gw3: 120
gw4: 110
im going on a fast for the rest of the week. ive never done so for that long so if anyone has any advice or wants to join please let me know :]
thanks.....thinkthin
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Im a feather. Light. Im a pure light feather. Im in control. I own the capability of my own perfection not some damn cookie. Im almost 68 hours on liquid only and i am light and pure...
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ive purged 3 times today.. my head and throat hurt and i cant sleep
im having a competition w/ one of my friends who has an ed to see who can eat the least amount of food tomorrow.. or today i guess. wish me luck.
gah spring break has sucked
ive eaten complete shit the whole time
im sick of being a fat cow
and having no control
blah... okay well im tired so im gonna attemp again at sleeping
goodluck to all of you, i hope your doing well
HUNGER IS A FEELING, THIN IS A SKILL.
<3z
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[27 Mar 2008|03:01am] |
hey guys
i'm planning to fast for a week or a week and a half
i've been in n.ireland for the past week so i havent been able to post at all
and seemings as there my family we had huge breakfasts, huge lunches, and huge dinnners
and i feel like a whale
so let me know if your fasting aswell
xxx
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[27 Mar 2008|09:23am] |
hey everyone!
i havent really posted properly for ages..i'm meant to be following a 'strict recovery programme'...err like thats gunna happen....it sorta looked good for the first week, like a chance to get out of all this...but i can't go on eating and getting fat...i feel huge! i am huge!
so, I'm back...even though if i get caught on here, well, i am slightly screwed haha! i will just have to be more discreet this time =]
Today's plan:
FAST = o cals essentially
drink 8+ glasses of water
4+ glasses of detox tea
go for a long run
10 mins stair climbing (its knackering! and an immense workout!)
20 + mins dance with 10 mins flexibility practice
200 various sit ups/crunches
I MUST stick to these plans....i MUST have dicipline (however its spelt)
HUNGER HURTS BUT STARVING WORKS <3
A Bit Of Thinspo For All....
  
hope this helps... ooh and check out this video! its ace!... photobucket.com/videos/thinspiration then click on the one by 'Ger-lady'
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Breakfast=Nature Valley Bar
Lunch=Salad
Dinner=Lean Cuisine
CANNOT EXCEED 650!!
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4th day, almost my 78th hour of liquid only. Liquid is all i want. Food disgusts me. I love this feeling. Love u guys
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Correction my 79th hour 20min no solids. :D
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[27 Mar 2008|11:55am] |
At school right now,
39hrs 05min
without solid food
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I just got back from tanning. With the 1.5 pounds I gained, I kept feeling like I was going to break the plexiglass on the bed. I know it is irrational, I just felt huge.
I was uploading pics onto my facebook from the trip and I ended up deleting all of them. I just feel like I look repulsive in them. I am not typically like this--I always am edgy about my weight, but generally pleased with the rest of me. It got me thinking that even when I get to my gw, I will still not be pretty. I think I need a nose job. Also, my skin (which I always get raves on) was so effin gross on this trip. My blonde hair is kind of lacking in luster these days. I need to get a different vitamin or something. I wish I was taller. I'm 5'4. On the trip, at dinner with friends, this tall skinny blonde came in and one of the guys in the group was going on and on about her. I wish I could be like that.
Does anyone else feel like this?
I am not really into pity parties, and I know I will feel better after I work out tonight, I am just having a blah moment.
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Back from Easter/Spring Break....had a really really really great time when I wasn't obsessing over food and exercise. I got really anxious with some of it, mainly because I had to do short workouts. Every day I felt like I was blowing up more and more. I only gained 1.5 pounds but it feels more like 115 pounds. Sigh.
I am fasting today and doing a 4 hour workout tonight to get readjusted. I also tan today. I really missed my good workouts. I didn't bike any. I only got about 30-45 minutes of running in every day. I could do some of my ab stuff but none of my strength training.
Trying to restrict was a joke. I got out of some of the meals but when I was with the family, it was not happening.
I cannot wait to feel like I did before the trip.
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[27 Mar 2008|01:10pm] |
so last night i was actually able to keep my drinking under control. w00t. it's a good think i don't like beer that much. (and also kind of depressing). but when i got home my mom was like...you didn't eat dinner did you...and i'm like .... .?! uhh cuz she knew i hadn't. she actually MADE me go downstairs and make something. i made cereal and heated up potatoes..luckilly she went up to bed, so i only had to eat a little bit of the cereal before i was able to dump it, and i fed the potatoes to my dog. still pissed i had to eat, though. :/
AND this morning i woke up and weighed myself....115.4! holy shit! this is my new lowest weight, i can't tell you how excited i was. :] i've never even SEEN that five there before. shittt! i better not fuck it up today, haha. if i could get under 115 before the end of spring break that would be so amazing. and that's in ..4 days? breaking 116 was my previous goal, and i actually did it! YES.
ohmigod and that just reminded me, 115 is my second goal weight. :] i'm feeling pretty optimistic for once and still basking in the happiness of my new-lowest-weight high. sucks it's still so high. but still! hjfdk i'll stop rambling, i know no one cares hahaha. my BMI is now 19.2...almost at that 18...almost. haha.
oh and i'm still majorly confused on what to do with my boyfriend situation, if anyone has actually been reading my posts and following me up on that aha. i read like every post on here, i don't know about you guys. he's kind of pissing me of and keeps asking me 'what i want to do' when he gets back (like really....are we 5...?) and i'm like stfuuuuuu. you're annoying. i really feel like i should be single right now, like i think i need a break from having a boyfriend. but i'm not sure what to do, yet. blah.
i'll shut up, haha. i hope you guys are doing good. :] <33 we can do this.
think thin! and stay strong.
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[27 Mar 2008|02:18pm] |
Hey girls,... So I have this new boyfriend I've been speaking about lately, and basically he's the type that likes the short cute petite skinny girl who is stylish and perfect all the time. And obviously he's with me because he feels I meet that standard, but now that I'm with him I just feel so much MORE pressure to look thinner and PERFECT 24/7. The college I go to like a lot of people know him on campus and he's like the rich kid who drives the Mercedes BenZ and I'm like the pretty girl on his arm, except.... I usually DON'T feel pretty. The other day he called me "Fat Ass" even though I'm pretty sure I think he was kidding. I acted like it didn't even bother me and laughed it off. But It still really bothers me and in the back of my mind I keep on wondering about whether or not he really does think I'm cute. Does anyone else feel like this? Like they feel pressure from guys, especially their boyfriends.... And that pressure makes it seem like you HAVE to look skinny and perfect all the time. I mean gawsh, it's just SO HARD. Okay chicas thanks for listening to me rant. If anyone has had or is going through any similar experiences, PLEASE share.
Current Weight: 127
Height: 5"5
Lowest Weight: 107
Highest Weight: 155
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[27 Mar 2008|03:13pm] |
hey pretty girls.
yesterday i binged like crazy..like, everything, pizza,macncheese,and cereal,toast,eggs,bacon.
no joke. it was horrible. i was on the verge of tears when i got home. i gained 1lb. i mean, it's not that bad, i thought i would gain like, 4. so, it was better then i thought, but still not good. i did a lot of running around and dancing and whatnot.
today i had 390 cals. and that'll be it. i'm going to a party tonight too. so, i'm doing like hours of thinspo and hoping it'll have some kind of effect when i get there. haha.
i hope you all are doing well! think thin loves,
xo<3
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Today, ive had:
about 9/10 big glasses of water
1 cup of detox tea
1 cup of green tea
1 small glass of coke zero
cals = 0 =]
ive just gone on a mighty run aswell...so, so far im sticking to the plans
i'm not even tempted to break my fast, i feel fine! i was REALLY cold earlier, but the run made boiling! so all good :D and it made me feel so much more positive and happy :D :D
love to you all <3
x x x x x x x x x x x
P.S. if you drink 3 BIG glasses of water really quickly, followed immediately but a cup of green tea...it makes you SO full...like properly! :D its ace!
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hey girls.
well it's 3:45 here I've fasted
4 bottles of water and a dcoke, not bad
In a few minutes I have gymnastics practice for 3 hours...burns a little more than 300cals
I can't wait to see the scale in the morning.
I want to continue my fast, btu I know I'll be at a party tommorrow night. I think I'll smoke instead of drink even though I don't really like to smoke...oh well it's 0cal.
hope you're all having a good day!
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[27 Mar 2008|03:58pm] |
hi girls,
I have not been on in awhile, sorry. last time i posted it took a week for it to get through moderation, and since then i have been lazy i guess. Im on spring break and not doing well, i can even tell i have gained weight when i look in a mirror. I HATE this!!! why cant i just fucking lose all these nasty pounds?? Swimming took a 2 week break and i wanted to be down 20 lbs by time we go back, (would be 90) but instead i gained 5!!!!! Whats up with that!!!!!???????
Today i worked out with my mom and burned like 550 cals and then when i was babysitting i jumped on the trampoline with the kids and played tag with them.
i have not even been writing down what i eat and the cals in it... thats how lazy i am. I also cant fast cuz i am at home all week, and when i am with friends they get suspicious. usually i purge or something but lately i haven't even been able to convince myself to do that.
ugh do you think i can lose at least 15 lbs by the time swim starts again?? (10 days) idk what to do anymore, god i just want to be skinny soooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Good luck, remember NOTHING ever tastes better than skinny feels :)
xoxo
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Hey girls! I haven't posted in awhile, mostly because I've been eating like shit and honestly, have been ashamed. But these past couple of days have been really good and I lost two pounds since Tuesday (which was mostly weight I gained from my period.) I go see the nutritionist again on Monday, which has been going okay. No food plan yet (she is convinced I won't be able to follow one so soon, which is probably true) and she wanted me to try and weigh myself only once a day - I haven't been able to commit to that. I measured myself and I've lost two inches off my stomach and one off my waist, which makes me happy because my measurements haven't changed in months.
But as my therapist says "You can't get rid of the female body."
I would like to prove her wrong....
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So im just past my 83rd hour on liquid only. Iv read things about rapid weight gain,burning muscle tisue, slow metab and how to break a fast so your body can adjust. I dont know what to do! Shud i break my fast to be healthy? Or cary on? PLEARE HELP ME!
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Today i have been stuck in an exam, but i was moving and fidgeting the whole 5 hours so its okay, also
today i have ate:
2 x apples
2 x cheese sandwhich ewwwww
1 bowl cereal 179 calories ewwwwww
im gonna exercise like mad now and burn this shit off!!!!!!!
xxxx
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[27 Mar 2008|04:55pm] |
Beauty
Thats our goal isn't it?
I just have to loose all this fat so I am
I tried out for the school musical..
if I get it I'll be training twice a week and that means dancing which burns cals
yay
today I had only 200cals
including drinks etc.
xx
love my ana buddies
so supportive!!!! XD
thinkthin
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[27 Mar 2008|04:57pm] |
So heeyy!! Im new here. Been desperately trying to shift weight but no matter what I do my body just doesnt! Its soo upsetting and I hate myselff. Aaahhh!! Sorry lol!
BF: Yogurt 50 Cals
Lunch: Pineapple: 100 Cals
And Some Green Tea
I wont have dinner so thats just 150. And i excersise like crazy so I dont know whats wrong with me!!! Ive busted my leg up as well so I cant go to the gym tonight. Im so angry/upset.
Thinspo would be great guys:):)
Thanksxxx
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[27 Mar 2008|04:59pm] |
This is the first time i post here.
Here are my stats:
height: 5'4
cw:101
gw:92 pounds
hw: 140 lbs
lw: 4 pounds when i was born lol..
I dont care much about the hunger when im fasting. I feel weak. How can i deal with that? Any ideas? cause i sometimes dont even have energy to get out of my bed :(
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[27 Mar 2008|05:36pm] |
i was planning on fasting today but i think my parents are getting a
little suspicious so i ate in front of my mom, i had a veggie burger and
some other veggies then when i took a shower i purged it all up.. i hate
when my stupid parents get in the way of me being thin.. its so annoying
well good luck everyone i hope all is welll <3 love you guyss
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Heya everyone,
Hows it goin? Sorry I havent been around to post..my internets been down!! Grrr..Hows everyone doing? Im still on my liquid fast been more than a day now...feeling pretty gd act...not hungry at all lol.
Hows everyone else doin on liquid fast? Now that my nets back up..I'll try to be on more lol.
I'll post more later..I hope you all are doing great..lemme knw!!
Feelin a bit weak..may drink some coffee i guess!
xxxxx stay thin!!
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[27 Mar 2008|05:54pm] |
ok, so ive fasted all day 0 cals and ive exercised my ass off, i feel great and i REALLY don't want to break it. But dinner, oh dear, what to do...
As you might know im meant to be recovering, so im expected to eat dinner. i really want to skip it, but i know it will cause biggg problems with my mum, and it could lead to lots of suspicion, therefore being watched like a hawk even more, and shes only just starting to ease up on that!
oh dear, MAJOR dilemma...HELLPPP!!!
love to all x x x x x x
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Well, I hope you all did better than me today. So far I've eaten 2 popodums, half a galaxy chocolate bar, toffee crisp bar, Jacket potao with prawn mayonaise. Yep. MEGA binge.
EEEEEP! I feel so crap. So am going to do some workout. I want to burn at leat 200 calories off. But that shouldn't be to difficult. I found this AMAZING workout online. It's 10 minutes, and you burn 100 cals. So I'll do that through twice, then some pilates, sit ups, which even if not burning off a mega amount of calories, I'll still feel as if I've tried.
Oh, and I don't think I told you guys this, but last week my Dad fugured something was up. He knows that I've struggled with food in the past, but I don't think he ever thougt I was as obsessive as I am. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I mean, I could take it offensively, that he doesn't pay me much attention, or think that he trusts me enough to get on with my life. Either way I want to cry. But yeah. He came into my room, and said he wanted to talk. He said that I'd been really distant recently, and not eating much, and he was worried about me. I THINK I managed to get him off my case, but I'm really careful now. I've actually tried eating normally over the past week. And when I'm eating, and laughing with the family, it feels great. And I'm happy. But it's like, a temporary feeling. As soon as I'm alone, it just turns to depression. And I don't want to eat. And whilst I want to be happy, and have my family, there's still a part of me that just can't let go. I don't want to be fat. I don't want to not be loved. I prefer it when people tell me how skinny I look, instead of how fat. I know that makes me sound really selfish, but I guess I am. I'm just an insecure selfish person. But I'd much rather be all that and skinny. I hate it when my so called "friends" say I'm selfish. When they refuse to simply see things from my point of view. I actually had a so called mate say to me today, "Come on Steph. Stop playing this pathetic game. You can eat. You will eat. Don't play the eating disorder card again. There's no such thing. It's just an excuse." That actually hurt me so much. I know they find it difficult to understand. I know I've put them through living hell. But I can't just snap out of it. And when they say it's just a patheitc excuse, it just upsets me so much. Euuurrrggghhh. I feel like total shit. But at least I got that off my chest.
Oh, but on a higher note, my Mum's agreed to let me have my belly button pierced for my birthday. Which is June 29th. I NEED to be at least 100 pounds by then. So, I've got 1 month and 2 days to lose 14 pounds. I just KNOW I'm going to do it this time. I'm giving myself so long, because I want to beat it. If you get it. Set myself a goal I can beat. Although, my personal, closer goal, is to be 110 in 2 weeks. Can I do it? Well I believe I can. 4 pounds in 2 weeks? Yeah, I'm going to do it. And hopefully beat it. Which would oviously be very good!
Oh, I forgot to say. Has anybody in the UK heard about the Miss England competition? Because one of the contenders for that, Chloe Marshall is a size sixteen. Which is a US size 14 I think. I've seen a picture of her, and although being rather big, she's really pretty. And she's so confident with her body. I just wish I could have that confidence. :(
Anyway, sorry for the ramble. I love you all.
steph. xo
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hey lovelies,
how are you guys??
havent' been on here in a really long time. but yeah, i went through major ups and downs past 2 months. it was horrible. and i couldn't focus on myself as i was so caught up with other things. so i gained 4 lbs. URGH!
now, i am getting back on track. but it's shitty hard!
i tried staying under 500 cals. and was succesful yesterday and the day before that. but today i fucked up, big time and all coz of my sister. my sister is a kind of person who can eat whatever the fuck she wants, and not gain a single thing. god, it pisses me off so much. here, if i just take 2 sips of water, i think it starts showing on me. so it's really hard for me to not eat when my sister is around because she LOVES to eat. and she makes me eat, coz sometimes she gets suspicious when i lose weight so suddenly. because i can lose weight quickly. so today, after doing okay for 2 days, i fucking binged big time, all coz of my sister. URGH! counting the cals., i think i am still around 700-800 cals. but i am not sure. urgh. i feel disgusting.
does anybody else have a problem like this w/ their siblings or someone?
anyways, update on stats.
CW: around 118. :'(
GW: <115 by April 5th.
LW: 110 ( a month ago) :(
HW: 123.
Age: 15.
Height: 5"5.
I need to be very well less than 115 lbs by April 5th. I workout a lil, that is if i get time to hit the gym. other then that, i have dance practices like crazy all this week and next week for April 5th. they usually are abt 3 - 5 hours of continuous dancing. i am kind of sore from the last practice but i am trying to keep it together.
family, friends and boyfriend are no help. all i have is you guys who actually understand the language i am talking in.
anyways, hope you guys are doing really well!! better than me.
think thin, ladies. and stay strong.
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today went okay. work was such crap and so hectic, everyone was jumping down my throat cause they're incompetent.
CALORIE INTAKE:
diet coke for breakfast
diet coke and a salad for lunch, low fat dressing [still 100 cals]
yet another diet coke :P..and half a weight watchers meal [300 cals]
total of 400 cals.
my dad brought home sicillian pizza with peppers on it, omfg i was so tempted. as of recently i've been stopping myself..counting to ten.. and then asking myself "is the food i want for the moment, worth giving up on what i want the most..to be beautiful? and not have this fat on me anymore?"
and then food exits my mind :)
i can't stand my boyfriend, telling me to eat. he should stop eating so much himself! he eats so fast and so much it's gross. he works out but i mean, idk; it's gluttony to me.
once i am my UGW i will be dumping him for a junior stock broker who wants to buy me hot size 00 dresses ;)
whoo!
thinspiration!
:D
i'm so proud of all you girls and i want to thank you all for being here for me and for everyone :)
we are the strongest of the strong and i hope to one day we become what we keep dreaming of
beautiful in our own eyes. <3
thankss girliesss :) stay strong and think thin! xoxo
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I was doing so great on my fast until i had "falafel in pita bread".. I made it myself -for my family.
Not for me.. Should I vomit?? I promised myself not to but I feel like I have no choice because.. I won't get guilty because there wasn't anyone who cooked it for me.. :/
Help...
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Hi again,
sorry to double post but i think that in order to lose any weight i need to think more positive, and im starting now. and by posting it i hope i can stick with it :)
So actually, there were some good things today, i worked out alot and it felt good.
Plan for tomorrow:
yogurt 60 cals
hope to avoid lunch
1 small helping of dinner... (or avoid if i can)
and of course, i will attempt to workout at some point, running or maybe the gym or maybe swimming, we will see.
thanks girls, you always get me back on the right track.
Think thin!!!!!!!!!!
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Hey lovelies! I found this video, and I found it so beautiful and inspiring!!!! I really encourage you to see the whole thing, cause it gets truly amazing towards the end. I really wish I could do what she does!!!! It's like she weighs nothing!!!!
<3, Christine
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[27 Mar 2008|09:10pm] |
good morning girls/boys
i am feeling really confident today and i have found a new method to stop my self from eating
it works if your trying to give up smoking aswell, you put an elastic band around your wrist and then snap it if you are going to binge or feel like it, it works really well.
well i'm out for most of the day today so i can get out of tea =D
good luck
stay strong
think thin
foos is temptation once you overcome temptation you can do anything
xx
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i have decided to start again.
i lasted 40hours and 05minutes of no,no, food.
and im trying it again. after an afternoon where i had about 1000 cals total.
i have also decided that i will take up gym.
but im not to sure about it, because im 13 and the only people who work out there are all 17 year old guys from my school!
so thats, pretty gaaayy.
tomorrow is a fridaaayyy.
i started this fast two hours ago.
i really, really, really xinfinity hope that i dont screw this one up.
any self control tips?
oxoo
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well im doing this iquid fast tomorrow but ts a different one...
like im gonna live tomorrow off self made strawberry buttermilk shakes...really yummy and yeah they have cals but itshealty AND im gonna have like 4 glasses tomorrow so less than 500 and im gonna go swimming... yay
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food intake:
-apples=35
-progresso soup=150
-1/2 banana w/ whip= 60
-special k bar=90
-lettuce w/ mustard=0
Total: 335
My head was hurting so bad today i took 2 liquid advils which always work for me. i went to sleep and when i woke up it was still hurting :-/
i was planning to exercise today but something always gets in the way, like my soaring headache.
i woke up this morning weighing 131.5, and i know it was because i ate veggies right before bed which is not good. i hate eating foods right before bed, but i was craving something, thank goodness it wasnt something gross and fatty.
i took laxatives yesterday and i realized im running out, its like $6 a box and there are only 12 tablets. uhg, i hate that, but i need them, they really work for me sometimes, and i need to run to the drug store and get some. i hate spending money on special k bars, laxatives, veggies, apples, cause i have so little of money, but i work hard everyday, but still i like saving it in the future. whatevs. sometimes my parents will chip-in, but other than that im alone.
tomorrow im doing 500 or less again.
oh and i really reccomend to all of you, if your craving something, to eat mustard and lettuce, its sooo good and no cals in them. just be sure not to eat too much of the lettuce cause its still food even tho its a negative cal.
xoxo
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well i guess i'm finally making some progress on losing weight. from a weight of 110lbs on monday morning, i've gone down to 107.4lbs this morning when i weighed myself. this has been the result of a lot of hard work, but i still need to lose more.
it's been really wierd. i haven't been tempted so much this week and i've just wanted to get on with it. although i ate a bunch of peaches yesterday, it was only 240 calories or so, so i wasn't really bothered about them. i still lost weight anyway. only a little though.
so, i'm gonna go off and watch some tv before bed. i'm tired >.<
lotsa love ladies. think thin and starve on!!
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Beautiful inspiration before bedtime!
GOSSIP?
you know you love me ;D
<3, christine
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im thinking tomorrow i should fast, instead of doing 500 or less. usually i only fast once a week and it usually before weigh-in day. which is on tuesday, so i would fast mondays.
i kind of binged a little on icing today. 2 tbs, is 100 cals. yucks.
so that leaves me today a little over 500 cals, but under 600.
im just going to liquid fast tomorrow. and also exercise since its my day off and i dont have work or school.
my goal by tuesday is to weigh 128-129!!!
im stuck around 130-132...and im going crazyyy. i just want to see me in the 120's!! uhg
who ever wants to join me in a liquid fast tomorrow, it would be soooo great!!!!!
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I was hoping i could stay away from my friends on thursday, because almost every thursday we walk to the burger king by our school. i was hoping i wouldn't even have to worry about food or anything like that. but there i sat, staring at them scarf down fries and chicken nuggets. I got away with not eating anything because i had no money once again, and plus i denied any offerings they made. i only drank two or three sips of fruit punch from their cup, and hopefully to get that out of my system we walked home--almost a mile or so, probably more.
But ohhhh no, once i got home, i was SCREWED.
I had a cup of jello sugar free pudding, 60 cal which i thought was okay on my fast seeing as you don't really CHEW it. And I seemed fine, was drinking some water and relaxing...but then it's like some fat person took over me--OH WAIT, that WAS me!
I had at least a couple bites of some steamed peas and mushrooms...which I thought wasn't THAT bad, even though I broke my fast, but then I got into eating some caramel covered sort of popcorn, a left over egg roll, and a few hot cheetos. I purged it up as soon as I could before my mom got home, I hope i had gotten it all.
So went to lessons, then went to walmart and picked up some more decently low calorie items [i wish everything was under exactly 100 calories, but it doesn't work that way]. I avoided allowing my mom to pick up fast food, and ate only a jello cup, 5 calories, and a uncrustable's cheese sandwhich thing, 140 cal. So, 145 calories in that ONE thing? egh. I didn't run again because i was to fucking lazy, but i did do 80 crunches, 40 for each form, 40 free weight arm presses, and tush crunches. I hope I at least stay down at 126...my weight actually fluxed after my first purge to 125! I nearly had a heart attack...
wish me luck in the morning loves
think slim!
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it's not a matter of beating the scale, it's just the matter of not breaking it
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