Note to self: Anger managment must be worked on ETaOn the positive side, Brandon has now seen my utterly and totally furious and over racting in my anger, and
handled it REALLY well.
I feel even stronger that I'm making the right choice in marrying him if he can handle full on Ani meltdown with such awesomeness.
So that's good. Again, I'd wish I'd not been so blatant in my temper losing, but it did create a tense situation and reinforced that Brandon is in fact a wonderful man ^__^
Also let me add, I when you read the below, it's not about Palin. -_-
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So, I just got back from a Toby Keith concert with my finance, which was way fun.
Up until the last two minutes, when I completely lost my temper in the silent but fuming kind of way. Also the silent but high kicking concrete walls kinda of way . . . and not silent but telling Brandon I'm "fucking fine" kinda way. *sigh*
Yeah ok see Toby Keith did his 9/11/support the troops song. Which in and of itself is fine. I'm very supportive of the troops, and it's not a bad song at all. Also, he started out saying it wasn't about politics but about the troops. Which again is fine. I've known a lot of people who have fought in a lot of wars so leaving politics of specific wars out, I do think joining the army is pretty brave and worthy of respect. So I figured I'd maybe tear up or something because I'm not in a great mindset to deal with death.
HOWEVER
I'm not sure what "not political" means to Toby Keith, but supporting Sarah Palin and calling the liberals "sick" is political to me. So about mid way through the song I got absolutely furious. It wasn't even what he said but the fact that he said anything at all. He DID bring politics into it and absolutely DID make it political, and I so was not.in. the. mood.
So I belligerently sat down--
during part of the song that becomes the National Anthem.^^;;;
An action that cause Brandon much understandable concern. He was praying not to have to pull out his mad boxing skills and defend his idiot wife-to-be who has gotten so mad that she is sitting down during part of the NATIONAL ANTHEM at a country western concert.
Not my smartest moment *sigh*
And then I felt bad because Brandon was worried I'd be mad at him for taking me to the concert or for liking the song or just a lot of things and I didn't want him to have to worry about those things :(
I feel sorta like I ruined the concert, when really, for 99% of the whole thing I was having a great time. It was the happiest I had been all week (I don't think I've publicly posted one what happened, but a close mentor died unexpectedly. I keep meaning to post publicly, but I haven't . . ok except that now I have).
So I know I've told you this a bajillion times already Brandon, but the concert was fun, I did enjoy myself, and thank you so so much for taking me. And thank Mr young for me too, for the engagement gift!
Like I said, the concert was fun. *shakes head*
I was even inspired to dance a little with Brandon in my own geeky white-girl-couldn't-find-the-beat-if-you-p
ainted-it-neaon-yellow kinda way *LOL*
Unfortunately, I just got utterly infuriated during literally the last two minutes of the concert and scared Brandon *sigh* And I wish I hadn't. Or I wish at least I'd not been as visibly angry because it was childish and ill timed.
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