[16 Nov 2002|01:47am] hi all. just switched LJs from paroxysmal to this one. just to confuse you. heh. much love <3 1 comment|post comment

So Its Safe To Say That We've Been Here Before... [16 Nov 2002|11:18am] Hi girls...Sorry for the absence for a few days. So much has been going on in my head. I had a convo with that friend of mine who had been making herself throw up...and she admitted she knew i did it, and "everyone loves me" so she wanted to do it too, to be like me. i had a hard time with that, on many levels. mainly that i was the cause. sooo i was gonna try to stop all this, not look at the posts, etc. that didnt work, every free sec i had i was reading them. i was going to eat normal and not purge. that went to shit also, i ate everyday this week, and purged whenever i had the chance. theres no use fooling myself. im the happiest when im empty. and i dont know how to function normally when not, so new fast here i come. like eating this WHOLE week has made me feel and look like a cow..and honestly its not in my head. i look a bazillion times bigger than i was last weekend. sigh. and when i feel big i dont do things i normally take pleasure in. like i skipped genetics on thursday, because everyday in that class these three boys stare at me for the entire hour and 15 min. and theyre so damn cute. we flirt across the lecture hall, its amusing. and by thurs i felt to freakin gross, i didnt want anyone staring at me. so starting last night...i'm just having it start at midnight. no more eating for me. until thanksgiving break. and then eating minimally just around the fam, but i cant blimp up over then bc i have plans with boys !! and lots of them, haha im such a slut. but with boys from home, its okay bc ive already slept with them.. as of now i have plans with more boys than the number of nights im home...haha oh man. and i know if i eat and blimp up i will cancel plans with all of them, cause thats just how i am. i dont like going out, yet alone being seen and touched by cute boys. i am going to do 10 miles of my walk away the pounds tapes, 2.5 hrs. and then crunches, leg stuff and arms with free weights. i wish i could do the tapes right now, damn roomie for sleeping. i hope she has greek sing practice for a long time so i can do my tapes. i dont do them with her in here.. what i love about me is that while yes, i balloon up real fast, i also shrink real fast too. so bye bye being a cow...anyone else wanna fast with me? 1 comment|post comment

[16 Nov 2002|11:45pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | [drum beat next doors] ] Hello. I'd like to introduce myself. My name is Shannon and I am a student at the University of Delaware. My stats are as follows: Height: 5'2" Waist: 30" Hips: 35" Chest: 35" Thigh: 20" Lowest Weight (while anorexic): 101 lbs Highest Weight (while anorexic): 119 lbs Current Weight: 118.5 lbs Age: 20 I'm stuck. I don't know how to lose weight. Thanks for letting me join. post comment

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