[15 Oct 2002|09:17pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | ram ] today was hard. i had cereal for breakfast and went to a theme park with my friend and had breadsticks with marinara sauce and a raspberry sugarless smoothie, then pasta and corn for dinner. then i devoured a ton of french toast crunch cereal.....i always do okay during the day and then at night i get bored and just eat and eat. luckily i don't have anything bad to binge on, the cereal is the most unhealthy thing i have in my kitchen, its just frustrating. especially since i have no idea how many calories the breadsticks and smoothie were, none whatsoever....i kind of guessed on fitday, and it brought my daily calorie count to around 1730, which seems way too high since i didn't eat THAT much, although there are a lot of calories in cereal and breadsticks. i think i will be throwing the rest of the cereal away and buying oatmeal tomorrow, oatmeal packets are way better cos they're only about 100-130 calories a packet and you have to make one packet at a time so you can't just thoughtlessly binge and binge on it. tomorrow i'm going to disney-mgm studios so i'm going to have some lentil soup for lunch and allow myself a fudge covered apple there, becos i love those, and hopefully nothing else. i've been proud becos i have been sticking to my one-treat-a-day rule, and the smoothie that i got today, while probably high in calories cos of all the fruit juice, had no sugar or anything in it. so hooray. i like how my arms look. now these thighs and ass just have to minimize. bit by bit by bit one of my flatmates is absolutely huge and i rarely ever see her eat. this frightens me. but i'm still under 130. yay. my roommate got all insulted yesterday, i was all giddy when i came home from work cos a girl i was working with, when told i weighed 128 pounds, gasped and said "you don't look a pound over 115." when i told her this my roommate said "how much more than that are you?" and i said "i'm 128, but i want to be 120." and she snapped "that's too low for your height. i weigh more than that and i'm shorter than you are." sometimes its hard to explain to people that whatever they weigh may look just dandy on them, but on me it all goes to my thighs and therefore is not okay. not okay at all. 1 comment|post comment

[15 Oct 2002|10:57pm] i just started taking xenedrine because a lot of people have told me that it worked really well for them...i was just wondering how many people took and if they took it for 2 weeks and then left off for a week or if it always worked for them. Also, does anyone know what the difference is between xenedrine EFX and RFA is? i couldnt seem to figure it out. i luv ya all! thanks so much! 1 comment|post comment

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