Josh's going away party was last night. He's not actually leaving until next month, but it's starting to sink in now that he's actually moving. I'm bummed.



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I wanted to set up my painting stuff outside and work on the Jon painting today, but I felt kind of cruddy all day so I opted to work on this one instead, since it's small enough that I could lay on the floor whilst painting.



I like it so far, I guess, although I'm really irritated with my weird composition decision. I have no plans for that giant black area above her head. It looked cool in the preliminary sketch, but now it just looks stupid. I'm also having a hard time not putting something in her hands. It just looks like she should be holding something. But the original idea was that I wanted a focus on her hands, so if I put something in there it'd detract from that.

I'm thinking of a really simple high horizon line in the background with something tiny on it- like a little house. Whatcha think?

here are 144 icons!

[1-9]Christian Bale
[10-17]Batman:the dark knight
[18-32}Scarlett Johansson
[33-44}Kirsten Dunst
[45-56]Red Sonja:Rose Mcgowan
[57-85]Twilight
[86-102]Moulin Rouge
[103-106]Liv Tyler
[107-115]The Notebook
[116-144]Ever After


please comment/credit when using.
credit for some bases:dont_be_so_base




( the dark knight )

Hello everyone! I wanted to let you all know that I've been too busy/distracted to update/read LJ, but I hope I'll be able to get back into the swing of things soon.

I’m working with photoshop elements 4.0

We are going from > or .

( Click for tutorial!! )

Ахххх...Она прелесть =)


( +8 )

I am lame, and apparently very delayed, but I wanted to thank bachlava for the lovely postcards I have recieved. They are so pretty, and I enjoy reading them :)

( cover article )

( First Look: 90210, City of Ember, and Dexter (now with more Jimmy Smits!) )

( it smells like Chris Pine )

( extending her 15 minutes of fame to half an hour: Katy Perry )

( Dr Horrible wants you to read this article )

Hi!
Here I am with 2 new tutorials using Photoshop CS2; with selective colors :S
I'd like to see your comments and your results! :3
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Ciao!
Eccomi con 2 nuovi tutorials usando Photoshop CS2; con correzioni selettive :S
Voglio vederei vostri commenti e i vostri risultati! :3
Tut. #1: pink/red (rosa/rossicchio).

From: To:

Tut. #2: yellow/cyan (giallo/cyan).

From: To:

( I found myself in crowded rooms.. feeling so alone. )

Clannad [44]
Death Note [24]
Dragon Ball Z/GT [9]
Kanon (2006) [30]
Myself;Yourself [7]
Sailor Moon [18]
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya [21]

Preview:


( More icons here )

I just made the ultimate FAIL in cuisine, and I'm not quite sure how I managed it.  What should have been a tasty beef Rendang curry with rice, ended up being tough little lumps of meat swimming in a sauce which was the wrong colour and didn't thicken, accompanied by a rock hard disc of rice.  WTF?!  I followed the directions on the Rendang sauce packet to the letter, and I've cooked rice in the microwave a hundred times with no problems, so I'm buggered if I know what went wrong tonight.  I hate wasting food (not to mention the half an hour I spent cooking that I could have used doing something else), but the only thing eating that disaster is my rubbish bin. 

I'm having apple pie.  What?  It's fruit.  That's healthy.

 Here are some Mamma Mia, Meryl Streep & Hillary Clinton icons! Enjoy!!!

              

              

              

Well the reason I haven't updated my LJ is because I broke my Laptop on the very same day as my last post. With my luck with electronics it's no surprise (I wrote a blog once about my bad luck with electronics and frying a Mac in my school in Film class where they really are needed and used constantly). Well I got a new one but by the time I got it (like about 3 months ago) I have become lazy in writing stuff and it's not like if anyone really pays any attention to my blogs so.... Well yeah since my last post not too many things have happened just bored at home ALLLLLLLLL summer. :( Nothing important has happened. But I do have a new kitty! She's so cute and she has beautiful green eyes! I decided to name her Bellatrix and Bella both referring to my fandoms. Bellatrix because of Harry Potter. I love crazy and psychotic characters and villains. And Bella because of Twilight, yes I've become obsessed. What can I say? What attracted me was when a friend told me it was about Vampires, Love and Werewolves also when I was reading it there was some sexuality about it [yes, I'm a perv. And Stephenie Meyer is a cockblocker. I hope that Breaking Dawn has some steamy sex scene but I highly doubt it pourquoi? Because again Stephenie is a cockblocker and she's thinking about the teeny bopper fangirlie girls (which annoy me to no end even more now after the Comic-Con thing... they officially made me embarrassed of being part of the fandom but at least there are normal people part of the fandom that are awesome and don't make me embarrassed of being part of it) that will read it. But I still love her for making the book series. lol]. So yeah, she won't really know the difference when I call her Bella or Bellatrix. Actually she doesn't, she comes when I call her by both names. Also I have a little chihuahua named Coco and it's so cute the way they get along. They really do get along. At first Bella was a little hesitant but now she stopped that. I still have to buy Bellatrix a bed though and in the meantime she and Coco have been sleeping in the same bed! It's so cute. I have to take a picture of that soon. Another thing when I first got Coco like about a year and a half ago I was thinking about naming her Bellatrix but I decided not to because I thought it was more of a cat name. And now that I do have a cat... lol.

( Pictures of Bellatrix/Bella. )

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( Ummmmm....... )

thar be spoilers.

I've made a few icons (most of them 100x150) and a few banners of Johnny Depp and Vanessa Paradis. Comments are love. Please, credit www.depplovers.com.br when using (if it isn't already written in the image) :)

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( Got Depp? )

You know, half the time I don’t know why I’m still here. Yes I have my family and a few people I would consider friends. But what am I doing with my life? Nothing. Sure the doctors say that I’m unable to work but honestly, sitting here day after day just makes me realize how much of a failure I truly am. I add nothing to society or even that much to my family. I’m bringing them down with me and that is the last thing I ever wanted. I have lost every ounce I had of motivation. I worry that I’ll never get better and I’ll have to depend on others for the rest of my life. I’ve said this time and time again, as soon as my dad, mom and grandma pass away I’m going myself. Unless something magical happens I know I won’t be here.

I feel like I shouldn’t feel bad for myself, like it makes me that much more of a bad person if I do get down like that. I hate feeling that way. What should I feel bad about? Sure my mom abused me day after day growing up. Sure my dad had a huge alcohol problem that almost lost us everything. Sure I’ve lost two people who mean the world to me. I wish everyday that you were here, keeping me going like you always did. But none of that should matter. I’m suppose to be grown up. I’m suppose to be on my way to making something with my life. But I’m not. I’m an epic failure. There’s no one to blame but myself. I should be able to get over this, that’s what some people tell me. But I can’t. Every time I think about these things it’s still fresh in my mind.

My therapist asked me yesterday if I liked hurting myself. And honestly, I do. I guess part of me is hoping I’ll go so deep one time that I won’t wake up. The other part of me hopes someone will finally see just how bad I’m hurt. Even my therapist wonders if therapy is a waste of time. Way to encourage me doc. Am I that hopeless? Am I that big of a fuck up, that you can’t take an hour out of your week to talk to me? Everyone has their opinions about me. My dad worries constantly. My grandma doesn’t say anything. And mom just makes jokes about it. I’m wondering just how far I have to sink before someone notices that I’m not really here. How many pills and cuts will it take?

You know, the voice in my head, it eggs me on and keeps me doing a lot of this stupid shit. It tells me how worthless I am, how no one really gives a damn, how I’m a little shit who has nothing to live for. And to be honest I try not to let it get to me to much, but somewhere along the line I figured what’s the point? If you aren’t going to help me then why should I?

Without My family and Britt, who might as well be family, I know I wouldn’t be here. I feel silly not talking to people when I know they care but just because I don’t always say something it doesn’t mean I’m not grateful for everything you say and do. The little stuff means more than I can say.

I just wish I could finally be the person I’ve wanted to be.

Title: There's Nothing In This Room But Empty Space
Fandom: Lost
Characters/Pairings: Sawyer/Claire, Jack
Word Count: 840
Rating: R
Prompt: superduperkc wanted her normal, totally crack!pairings, and this is the first one I have in reply to that.
Summary: Future fic. It's day one hundred and eight.