I'm sitting in Jon's kitchen with his sisters right now. They're so fun and I love them. :3

Yesterday was a really really REALLY long day. Like way too long. The kid refused to shower until about 7:30... and he stunk. Like seriously stunk. Like I could smell him from a few feet away... he'd walk by me and I'd just be like "Ughhhh....really?!" And they had a huge pile of dishes in the sink that smelled oh so lovely, also... I made trips to the kitchen as brief as I possibly could. The plus was that I got out at 10, which was awesome as hell... cuz then I got to Jon's and pretty much just passed the fuck out.

I watched him teach his class today. I like watching him teach. It's pretty cute and he gets all macho and stuff.

And today's gonna be pretty cool. He's gonna take me pumpkin picking then we're spending the night @ his friend's house and possibly going up to New Hope. So it's gonna be a fun day... and the shower is finally free... so I'm gonna jump in now.

:)

I was going to wait until I wasn't so angry to write this, but I don't see that happening any time soon.

The tone of the McCain-Palin campaign has been increasingly negative and desperate. If we think back to the Democratic primaries earlier this year, we can probably guess what the reason behind that is. The lying and distortion was infuriating, of course, but I was absolutely appalled when I saw footage from their recent rallies.

When you say that Barack Obama is "pallin' around with terrorists," don't be surprised when someone calls him a terrorist. When you say that he doesn't think the way other Americans do, don't be surprised when someone calls out "treason!". When you paint him as dishonorable and dangerous, don't be surprised when someone yells "kill him!". There are crazy, unstable people in this country. By standing up at their own rallies and making these claims, John McCain and Sarah Palin are proving the stereotype of politicians right. But by standing by and not immediately reprimanding the more unhinged of their supporters, by not speaking up and saying, "No, that is wrong, and it has no place in this campaign," they are giving their silent, tacit approval. And it is disgusting. Everyone-- but especially members of the Republican party-- should be telling McCain-Palin that this behavior is unacceptable. If you have observed their actions and haven't been sickened, then there is something deeply wrong with you. It is blatant fear-mongering, ignorance, and in a lot of cases, race-baiting, and it gives a lot of insight into the character of McCain-Palin.

McCain, at least, clearly heard Obama being called a terrorist. You could see it in his face. But instead of saying "I'm sorry, my friends, I'm going to have to stop you right now like the maverick I claim I am-- Barack Obama is not a terrorist," he just kept going. It is despicable that their campaign didn't calm down their rhetoric and didn't see (or, more likely, care about) the results of it until people began telling them how awful it was. In fact, their campaign released a statement blaming Obama for dismissing angry, average Americans. Oh yes, it's the other guy's fault. How silly of me for not seeing it.

I don't know what Sarah Palin the human being is like, but if her politics and speeches are anything to go by, she's not someone I ever want to know. John McCain, however, is the real tragedy. Eight years ago, he had some honor. Eight years ago he was someone I could respect. The John McCain of eight years ago would be disgusted by the John McCain of 2008. You'd think that after being smeared and slandered by Bush, Jr. and company that he would be committed to running a cleaner campaign, but no, he turns around and hires the same people who attacked his family.

If the McCain camp focuses on the economy, they will lose. If they focus on the issues, they will lose. They have admitted as much. They have to resort to the lowest of strategies to fire up their base, and I, for one, think it should be condemned by everyone everywhere for what it is. These extremists, whose hatred McCain and Palin have been stoking, are closer to being terrorists than Obama is. By aiding and abetting these people, McCain-Palin are most certainly not putting country first.

The difference is obvious. On one hand, we have a campaign preying on the worst of human fears and ignorance. On the other, we have a campaign asking us to work together for real change and to prove that our country is better than the last eight years. My choice, at least, is clear. I do not have a blind, immature love for my country. I see it for what it is and I love it like an adult-- I expect more from America and that is why I'm voting for Obama-Biden.



And while I'm at it, I'm taking the words back-- I'm a proud, socialist-intellectual-elitest-liberal. None of those are things to be ashamed of, and America will be a better place once it realizes that.

Supernatural last night was everything I had hoped. There was brotherly fighting, a few well executed punches and lots of blood and gore :) The show creaters went all out on the gore factor this episode with a guy who eats human flesh. Nasty! I had to turn away. Nice work Show, for making even ME squirm.

Besides drooling over my boys I started a book as well. I'm almost finished with Water for Elephants by Sara Gruen (sp?) I LOVE this book! It hooked me from the first page and I can't wait to finish it up tonight. I read all yesterday evening, stopped to watch Supernatural, then picked the book back up and read long into the night. I'm pretty groggy today but it was well worth it :)

This weekend should be nice and uneventful. I'm going to see lots of my family around town as I've been neglecting them lately and then I plan to READ READ READ my little bookends off :)

• 11:35 Another busy day at work cutting out packaging samples for the Pack Expo next month. Had I known the stuff needed to be done by the 20th.... #
• 11:35 I would have made sure I got started earlier. #
• 12:36 I seem to be hooked on Wendy's Buffalo dipped Chicken Sandwich now. Yumm *OM NOM NOM* #
• 15:16 My fingers hurt from cutting through PVC sheeting all day making packaging samples. Good thing I get to leave soon. #

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So I usually click back and forth between Bones and Private Practice on Wednesday nights and they pulled a fast one on me last night. Bones wasn't on! Granted I'm not a devoted enough fan to watch the whole thing and am perfectly content with passing back and forth between my two Wed. shows, but I was bummed to see that I wouldn't get my weekly dose of the incredibly good looking David Boreanez. And I won't get it next week either, lol. So I watched Private Practice which is an OK show. I like its counterpart better. I've kind of been drawn into it lately for some reason so I just go with it :)

Tonight is the best night in television cause I get to watch Sam and Dean scorch up my screen with their hotness on Supernatural. I'm excited for this week’s epp. cause of the clifhangerish ending to last week. The only thing that sucks is that it’s on at the same time as Grey's but I just catch that one on the internet after it airs. Bring on the Ackles and Padaecki!

I went to the store to get my book, Inkdeath, last night. I should have bought it on the internet, it was cheaper but I couldn't wait. I am a complete creature of instant gratification. If I want something I have to have it right then and there or it drives me CRAZY! DVD's are my particular poison. If I want a movie or a TV show I gotta buy it right away. Someday, when I declare bankruptcy cause I've spent all my money on junk, I'll look back at this and laugh and then cry and then laugh and then cry while I'm still laughing. Sigh.

I fully intended to go home and immerse myself in the Inkworld but instead I went to the library and got a bunch of other books and changed my game plan. Now I've decided to read the books from the library first and then start the Inkbooks over at the beginning so I can be up to speed on whom everyone is. I've been waiting for the new installment for a very long time :) I am in the middle of so many books right now and I am going to try my damnest to get them all read. I've started:

The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (book 1)
Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil
The English Patient

And I got from the library:
Forever Odd
Brother Odd
Water for Elephants

I'm putting the books I've started on hold to read the library stuff (me and library fines, that's a whole nother story) and then I'll finish those others up. Sisterhood is so-so, Midnight seems really interesting, and English Patient has yet to grab my attention so putting them away for a while will be okay.

Anyway, I got home from shopping and the library and instead of starting on some of those books, I decided to rearrange book shelves. I'm so OCD sometimes, it's crazy. I found a bunch of projects that I want to start so I'll be busy for a while. I hate when I get in a creative rut at home and feel like I have nothing to do. But I do! I have this HUGE binder of poetry that I wrote in high school and I want to get it all typed up in word documents so I can get rid of the huge thing. It's going to take me a long time and I'll probably never finish it, but I gotta :) I also have a blanket to finish crocheting and one that's sorta finished but needs a few things to be fixed on it. I haven't had any chance to work on scrapbooking lately because of lack of funds and good pictures. If you never venture out into the world, things never happen to you and I've been a hermit lately. :)

Well, I've rambled on for long enough. Lunch is over and it’s time to get back to work.

I got the sads again yesterday over my friends. I never see my theatre friends any more. Everyone was cast in a show but me. I'm still grudging a bit over Nico's show... she casted someone who "needs work", who she apparently doesn't even like... over me. Still stings.

Since me and Tim broke up I seriously stopped seeing them. I make the effort, I text Zorn and Nico and all of them, I call them up to hang out. But oh hey, who's all busy? Them. I texted Brett something funny the other day. I got a one word text back. So I mean, yeah as much as they all said "things won't change"... they have. They really have.

Even with Zorn. I came to her all the time when I needed her. But even she is flaking left and right. I think I only saw her twice all summer. Sure, she did come to NYC to see my performance with Hypergender, and that was really cool of her. She brought her friend with her that I know pretty well, then after the show she said, "Oh yeah, we're going to a bar!" and they were all dressed up.

...maybe I would have liked to go.

True, Jon's not 21. But he wanted me to go and have fun with them, but I was covered in fake blood, and all I had were jeans and t shirts...

I said I wanted to go, and I just kept hearing, "Hunny it's fine, next time! You can come next time!"

Yeah, next time. On my birthday she said she'd call me "the next time" everyone was going to go out to get food after rehearsal, or the "next time" they were all going to hang out.

Yeah, that happened.

Then yesterday Jon and I were going to go to me and Zorn's favorite thrift store to get birthday presents for his sisters, so I texted her saying we were going. She texts me back and tells me,

"Oh awesome! Nico and I are going tonight!"

Oh? That's cool. Thanks for inviting me again. Next time, right?

I just don't even want to try any more. She invited me to her party on the 25th, but it's not like anyone would care if I was there. I'm just sick of the bullshit.

If people don't want to hang out with me anymore because I'm not dating Tim, because I didn't just deal with his bullshit anymore, then they should tell me.

I feel like they're probably thinking, "Maybe if we ignore her she'll go away..."

But who knows? Not me.

На Блоге блогов появилась заметка о блоге Владимира Соловьева.

Природно сбалансированный смысл жизни(далее ПССЖ) - размножение и развитие человеческой популяции.

Насколько Ваш смысл жизни сложен по сравнению с ПССЖ?

Если сложнее, то Вы больны и вредны для эволюции, как пораженный заразной вирусной болезнью.
Если проще, то Вы бесполезны, и вредны с точки зрения затрат на Вас ресурсов.

• 10:14 Sitting here at work this morning. Image setter decided not to work so I spent 2 hours trying to get it to work when I needed to do stuff #
• 10:15 I am also getting annoyed by my officemate's antics this morning too. #
• 12:15 What a crazy morning. I'm off in search of food now since the guys left without me #
• 16:03 Well today went by fast. Now it's time to relax with some tv and stuff #
• 19:04 Ah Knight Rider then Lipstick Jungle #
• 22:53 it's almost 11 PM and i should be asleep by now but with stuff on my mind i needed to blog about it *sigh* #

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Here's my video. The updated "Down with the Sickness" from Hypergender's Monster Mash.

I know it's been another long stretch of silence from me, but I don't think anyone really reads this anymore :) And that's okay by me cause I can make fun of people and know there's a good chance it will never get back to them, lol.

Anywho, things are getting better for me. The foot is healing and starting to stop swelling so much. I've completely given up the crutches and am getting around the house 100% better. It's still rough walking around stores and around other peopled houses, but I'm making due :)

Last night I ventured out of my pit and went to dinner at my Uncle and Aunt's house. Playing with their kids is better entertainment than most things you have to PAY to experience :) I couldn’t really rough house with them because of the foot but there was throwing up in the air and tickling and lots of cute little kid laughter; the best sound in the world if you ask me.

We had a great dinner and my grandpa was there too. It was like dinner time when I was growing up. My family made it a point to sit down for dinner every night we could and I can remember nights when we would sit for hours laughing, telling jokes, talking about our days. If I ever have a family of my own, I'm going to try so hard to do the same thing.

I'm excited for tonight after work because I am going to pick up the final book in a series I've been reading. The first book was Inkheart then there was Inkspell and now Inkdeath finally comes out. I really ought to read the first two again to get myself reacquainted with the characters, but I’m going to just bury myself in the newest one and try my luck :) I think I remember enough about the previous ones to be okay.

My sister has been sending me texts about her New York experiences and the latest one was about seeing NY firefighters putting out a fire. She didn’t know who was hotter, the fire or the firefighters :) My favorite by far tho was the text about getting shit on by a NY pigeon. Nice one Meg! What is it with you and birds?? :)

Well, that's my news. I'll update again when there's interesting things to tell you about.

edit: OH! I forgot some really huge fabulous news:

Запищал внешний телефон.
- Хотспрингский отдел внутренних дел Арканзасской области. Оперативный дежурный майор милиции Мартинс!
- Генерал-майор Порываев, МВД республики. До 23-00 вышлите мне сводку по суточным нераскрытым преступлениям.
- Слушаюсь, товарищ генерал!
- Всё, выполняйте.
Дежурный отключил связь, отдал поручение помощнику и подошел к телевизору. "В 2015 году пенсии вырастут на 12%". На первом канале выступал президент Путин.
- Врет, наверное. - Майор сел в кресло, убавил громкость и закурил.
Еще лет 10 назад он не стал бы сомневаться в словах президента. 2009 год, гражданская война, голод, как страшный сон. Как гром среди ясного неба кто-то задумал референдум о присоединении к России. Это было неожиданностью и для русских. Они отправили этого, как его... Жириновского и его свиту в США попытаться разубедить американцев. Русские агитаторы кричали о том, как плохо у них на родине, но никто их не слушал.
- У нас нет свободы!
- А нам она не нужна! - кричал народ.
- Вся наша власть воры и взяточники!
- А у нас нет и такой!
- Наши пенсионеры влачат нищенское существование!
- А наши все умерли с голоду!
- Вас будут притеснять! А ваших негров ненавидят скинхэды!
- Мы их тоже ненавидим после Обамы!
- Вас заставят учить русский и отменят английский!
- Cool!
- Не останется ни одного штата, мы их назовем областями!
- Oblast!
- Ни ЦРУ, ни ФБР, ни полиции!
- We love KGB!
- А ваши крутые шерифы и рейнджеры станут участковыми!
- So what!
Мартинс затушил сигарету. Нужно пораньше сдать смену, начальник штаба приказал к 8-00 отправить дежурную машину для перевозки 4 мешков картошки с его дачи.

The Final Cut - Pink Floyd

Through the fish-eyed lens of tear stained eyes
I can barely define the shape of this moment in time
And far from flying high in clear blue skies
I'm spiraling down to the hole in the ground where I hide.

If you negotiate the minefield in the drive
And beat the dogs and cheat the cold electronic eyes
And if you make it past the shotgun in the hall,
Dial the combination, open the priesthole
And if I'm in I'll tell you what's behind the wall.

There's a kid who had a big hallucination
Making love to girls in magazines.
He wonders if you're sleeping with your new found faith.
Could anybody love him
Or is it just a crazy dream?

And if I show you my dark side
Will you still hold me tonight?
And if I open my heart to you
And show you my weak side
What would you do?
Would you sell your story to Rolling Stone?
Would you take the children away
And leave me alone?
And smile in reassurance
As you whisper down the phone?
Would you send me packing?
Or would you take me home?

Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings,
Thought I oughta tear the curtain down.
I held the blade in trembling hands
Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut.

Вокруг одни дебилы, медленно, дурацки размахивая руками, строя идиотские рожи и закатывая глаза, издвавая бессвязные и громкие звуки, они окружают меня, охватывают в плотное кольцо, тянут свои непослушные пальцы к моему лицу. ААА!!!