Work Out Plan

my birthday is on sunday and today i decided that in July i will only eat healthy stuff. it's my first month as a 24 year old and if i can keep my mind to it i'm sure i can stick with the healthy food only. if i'm going to any parties (which i doubt i will) i'll drink alcohol as i usually do. but besides that i'll be healthy and take good care of my body. during the day, before a party, i'll eat healthy, still.

this week has been hell for me: i've eaten "bad" food (potato chips and a pizza) and every time i had eaten it i'd feel soooo sick afterwards. i guess it's just something mental but still. i hope that it'll motivate me to eat better next month. i gotta remind myself that if i eat this or that i'll feel sick for the rest of the day.... and hopefully that'll make me not eat bad stuff. 

today i bought lots of tuna, spices, whole grain pasta and green tea. 

i hope i will get lots of support from my friends here on LJ and in real life too. i really really need it. the last time i had a healthy month i lost 2.5kg/ a bit more than a pound. and one of the weeks in that month was filled with concerts and parties ( i think i drank alcohol 4 days that week). if i could do it then i can do it again. don't you think? :)

perhaps some of you will join me on this quest for a really healthy july?

• To find more time (between my parents having the car, and with the weather here raining constantly) to work out outdoors by the beach.
• To fight the threats disguised as deliciousness, haha.
• To continue finding new creative ways to eat healthy. (I'm having certain days where salads get tiresome.)
• To not get so carried away when I go out with friends and they decide to eat junkie.
• To be at least 190 lbs by August. (I think that's pretty reasonable.)

Hello everybody :) my name is Lene and i'm from Denmark. on saturday i'll be 24 years old and i live in a row house with my budgie Birger. i moved to the city i live in now, Odense, in 2004 and within a year i'd gained 10kg (22lbs i think). since then my weight has slowly increased and i now weigh 95kg (209lbs) and my main goal is to loose 20 kg so i weight 75 kg. my ideal weight is 70 kg though. 

i've always been chubby and therefor i don't want to be skinny, as i don't think i'll feel that comfortable with that. but i want to be a normal size. i want to fit in clothes i like. i do dress in clothes i like right now, but it's so rare i can find something in the stores so almost all my clothes have become grey-ish instead of black (i usually only wear black.... ).
another problem for me being this size is that my joints hurt almost every day. I am hyper mobile and i just started up almost 1½ year ago to train my body so it could get stronger. when i started at the gym my back was so weak that i could not lie on one side and sleep. but now it's not that bad and sometimes i even sleep on my stomach. LOL. so i actually go to the gym for two purposes: to loose weight and to gain strength. 

i've been to a dietitian which was really good and i know how to eat right and all that but it's hard. i'm brought up to eat when i'm hungry and i had to change that. now i try to eat 5-6 times per day but it usually only gets up to 3 times. i also sometimes eat too much at the meals. but i've learned to eat healthier and i almost always look at the description of contents when i buy food. the only times i don't look at the description is when i have eaten the food before and i know from earlier if the food is ok or not. sometimes i do "fall into the water". like this evening. i ate a bag of (low fat) potato chips. i feel so sick to the stomach because of it but i also think that it was MY choice  and I am the one to blame for this feeling. so right now i actually hate myself for that. 
i used to eat a bag of popcorn every evening from i was about 6 years old and till last year. i am struggling with the dinner snacks but sometimes it's ok just to eat a handful of nuts or just drink some water. i don't think that the popcorn i ate throughout my life made me gain weight really. i think they made me keep the weight i gained from all the other foods i ate. this is just my naive thinking. 

this past week or two i've been struggling a lot with going to the gym. not because i don't like working out, cos i do. i love to be there. but i found the cheapest gym in town and it's a bit away from me so i have to take a bus and walk for 10 minutes or take two busses to get there. but i think that it is slowly getting better now. i've been to the gym twice this week: on tuesday and today. *yay for me* but my goal is to go there every 2nd day and work out two hours each time (2x30 min on the excersize bike and 60 min working with the muscles). 

i made a list with 10 things i'd like to achieve with my weight loss and body strengthening. if any of you are interested in seeing that list i can write it in an other entry :) just ask me about it. 

tomorrow i'll start to write down my sleeping-, eating- and work out habits down in a notebook. i hope this will help me sticking to my diet and the working out at the gym. i told my mom about this plan and i'm sure she'll ask to see it the next time she visits me (which will be in a while as she lives far away). so i'll try to keep this "diary" for at least a month. is this a good or bad idea? what do you think?