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enough

Fri, 22 Feb 2008 01:10:01 GMT

I'm quite the sneaky person and I found out that my boyfriend is proposing this next summer... and I am a fat mess. I HAVE lose this weight before he comes home from school for the summer. I don't want him asking me to marry him while I sit or stand there uncomtfortably wondering is my gut is sticking out. I have to be thin and careless.. .My college eating habits have gone WAY too far. My goal is to lose 5 pounds before comes home for spring break on March 5. and then lose 15 pounds more after that before May when he comes home for the summer.

stats=
cw 145
stg 140
ltg 125

So I plan on eating a super low calorie diet and working out EVERYDAY

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym after work and class and doing a half hour on the eliptical,

Does any one find results in doing crunches? I'd like to do some but I'm afraid they will just make me buik up,

http://i28.tinypic.com/2mw8314.jpg

Here''s a picture somsone took of me today.... when I saw it, I decided enough was enough

Oh yeah.... here's pics

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 02:22:31 GMT

Depressed

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 01:55:54 GMT

As a freshmen in my first semester in college, everything was going so well. I loved my classes and such..

But now.... I just feel shitty... overweight and just bad.... weighing 135 lbs (5'7)..... its just so bad.

I was falling in love with a boy from Germany... and falling out of love of what was a relationship going nowhere. And now... the old relationship wont go away.... and the German boy.... has seemed to abandon me. I dunno...I just want to be weightless....

I haven't been ana in two years, but if anytime was the right time to start again, it would be now.

Fri, 18 Aug 2006 08:49:58 GMT

i guess its about time i delurked. stopped posting eons ago but i do still read. guess everything thats been happening in my life has just been making me sick n tired. thought i could let go of this shit but its really easier said than done. sometimes i fantasize about how thin i'd become and how everyone around me would start to notice n care about me more. is that wrong? gosh i feel so bad about thinking this way sometimes. on to the NEW introduction. i guess im no longer the person i used to be, or thought i was. thus the need for another intro above everything else. no pics yet though. maybe when i feel less like a fatass.

Username: bestlittlegirl
Gender: Femme
Age: 18
Location: a little country in Asia which most people havent really heard of and would assume that its part of China...but its not really.
Ana? Mia? Both?: Used to restrict like crazy for a period of time back when i was around 15 or 16 but now i guess an accurate diagnosis would be EDNOS. and no i dont purge, i couldnt even if i tried. somehow there exists a morbid fear of vomitting for me.

Height: 5'4
CW: 99
LW: 85.5
HW: 105.6
STGW: 90
LTGW: 85 or lower
Favorite quote: dont really have one right now. quotes dont really seem to work for me anymore for some reason.
Biggest thinspiration?: real people really inspire me. especially when they've come a long way and i look at them n just know everything's possible. but celebrity wise it'd probably be kate bosworth or nicole richie. nicole's really cliched but its just amazing how she used to be big n now she's just so small.

have u guys ever felt like u couldnt stop being depressed n couldnt stop crying even if you tried to be happy about everything? it just kills when i go through times like this. and maybe thats also why i feel like i NEED attention. gosh i sound like some needy freak. im sorry.

weekend goal

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 19:56:11 GMT

My goal this weekend is to NOT give in to all the picnic food that is sure to be shoved in my face. Whey do people feel the need to stuff their faces just because it's a holiday? I'm going to drink lots of water while I'm sitting around at parties and only eat fruit.

ana goes bad

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 02:45:44 GMT

My exboyfriend who RECENTLY left... I'm still incredibly in love with. Like... I could spend my life with this boy. But he wants me to eat, gain weight back, be happier, and stop crying whenever I see him. Every time I've seen him since I've been out of the hospital (for not eating) and he broke up with me because he couldn't handle my depression. I start hysterically crying. Like I can't control it. I miss him soooo fucking bad and I love him with all my heart, but he doesn't understand how much he is asking when he wants me to go back to the way I was. I mean.... somehow I can't be happy again without him, yet he wont see me again until I gain weight and somehow pull myself out of this depression. I can't stop crying sometimes. I mean it feels so weird to sleep without him. Its so awful. I mean I don't want to be fat and everything, but I love this boy. And he shouldn't complain about me being skinny, I mean he's SUPER skinny for a guy and I think he's so gorgous the way he is. I don't know what to do. I wake up crying in the middle of the night because I miss him so bad. I call him crying in the middle of the night and he's so angry. He doesn't want me crying anymore and wants me to be happy again yet I can't be happy being fat again and I can't be happy without him.

feelin good

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 21:20:32 GMT

Today I had a ff yogurt, a banana, 1/4 cup raisons, and green tea. I just did 30 minutes of step. I know I should've gone longer but I was kinda tired. Then I did abs and arms. I plan on having some veggies for dinner... I hope I can resist binging. Tomorrow I'm gonna totally bump up the exercise.

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 17:10:49 GMT

Im new...
My name is Laine.
Im currently 5'9 and 140 lbs.

I have a quick question,
Im bulimic and just purged,
all ive eaten today is an apple and a tiny bit of cookie dough.
but when i threw up,
it looked like i was throwing up my insides...
like, blood clots or little bits of my asophagus(i know i misspelled that word..sorry)

any of you have any idea what im talking about?
Is this normal?
Ive always had bulimic tendencys, but ive just recently moved out and now im purging more and more often....

thanks for your help!

A new beginning...

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 22:39:09 GMT

Today I feel like I'm starting all over again. I know this time will be different and I won't slip like before... I just feel it. I went to the store and bought fat free chicken broth, green tea, and flavored H20. All I've had today is a fat free yogurt and a banana. I'll probably just have some broth after my work out tonight. Does anyone know how long you're supposed to wait after working out before you eat something? I'm waiting for some work out videos from the library so until then I'll do elliptical and weight, etc. I just know everyone I will be talking about me eating "weird" again but oh well. They can stay fat... not my prob. I totally want to be as skinny as Nicole Richie.

New Problem

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 16:33:41 GMT

Soooo... I've lost a bunch of weight and my stomach, legs, arms, and face look sooo much better.... but for some reason my back looks... chubbier?

I don't know... for some reason my back has never been a problem area but now I'm noticing that it looks like I have love handles or something. Has anyone else had this problem after dropping weight?

Any ideas?

HAPPY!

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 15:28:20 GMT

i finally improved!

new stats-
cw- 124
hw- 140
lw- 124
stg- 125 (I MADE IT!!!!!! and I've held onto that weight for a week now..)
ltg- 120
height- 5'6

I'm new!

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 18:28:13 GMT

ht: 5'5
cw: 108
hw: 115
lw: 105
gw: 95-100
anorexic, heavy use of diet pills

Hi everyone, I'm new to LJ and I'm looking for friends :) Most people don't understand what its like to be anorexic so i came to find people like me who do~Please feel free to message me!

reborn

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 03:52:09 GMT

Updated Stats-
height: 5'6
cw: 130
hw: 140
st gw: 125
lt gw: 120

I went to a eating disorder specialist for bulmia and compulsive eating cause my mum made me. The lady was fat as hell... not exactly encouraging. I mean it makes you wanna go "fuck i don't want to stop what im doing.. i might end up like you".... but yeah... she told me my face was "full" around my jaw bone because the muscle there was realy big from throwing up... i was so fucking depressed after that... but yeah.. i haven't been able to bring myself to purge cause i need to make my face thinner... i did research and it is true... purging can make your face fuller...... ew.

i feel gross... im so muscular.. and i need to get rid of it.... my legs are nothing but two disgusting hunks of muscle... i say this because they are seriously rock hard muscle.. no fat... but still huge because there is so much muscle... any ideas?

as for now... im sticking to a restricted low cal thing.

i have another question... if you saw a person with my stats in a two piece would you be sicked.... i mean i know its gross but would you seriously be like "OMG WHAT A FAT ASS?" cause im afraid to go swimming tomorrow... i dunno.. i need truth ladies.

thanks!

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Fri, 05 May 2006 04:49:06 GMT

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Fri, 21 Apr 2006 23:53:44 GMT

I have updated with new pictures.... please read the paragraph before the pictures before you comment i would really appreciate it
thank you so much girls ♥

http://lolypop123.livejournal.com/

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 05:27:09 GMT

okay so this will be going out to all the ana communities i am in. i'm a totaly newbie to the LJ aspect of it.
here are my stats for right now:

Name: Maddison
Age: 19
Location: ontario,canada
BMI: 27.6 -PUKE-
Height: 5'3
CW: 156
HW: 165
LW: 105
STGW: 120
LTGW:100

i'm starting a 5 day fast today(march 12 till easter)with two other girls. hopefully i will be updating my journal with pictures and 'reports'.
if you'd like to do a fast email me at hips.n.hearts@hotmail.com or AIM at HeyLush1hearts1 .
i have AIM and MSN .

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 17:55:46 GMT

hEY--

I have updated my journal with new pictures... please comment and critisizee and guess my weight.. i am 4'10
thankk youu

http://lolypop123.livejournal.com/

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 00:40:09 GMT

Diet pills....
Has anyone ever been on them and actually seen results ((weight loss or curbed appetite??))
I am very curious aboutt them so please share!!

Also.. how old do you have to be to buy the certain product you are talking about?// is the age specified

Thanx so much

xx
tal

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 15:44:20 GMT

ht: 5'6
cw: 130
hw: 140
lw: 115
gw: 120

method: ana tendacies, diet pills

background: competitive swimmer, very muscular (how can I fix that?), pollovegetarian (i know that sounds weak), bi polar

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 01:20:31 GMT

I left for a while because i got very very side tracked and my eating disorder went int he complete opposite direction. Lets just say my ED phycoligist and my nutritionist are VERY happy.... I started waking up each day sneaking food into my room and binging. I am ready to stop and it has been driving me mad. I am ready to be weightless and invisable.
I had a physical today and here are my stats:

Height - 4'10
Weight- 93

I have gained so much, my bmi is gross.
My new diet started today and isnt going to end until i cant stand up anymore. Eat as little as possible but more then nothing so my metabolism gets a kick and work out.

Day one-
Workout--- no workout because ive been eating for liek 2 months (binging) so now that im in starvation mode again my head is poundingg!!!

Food intake-
1 yellow apple
6 pineapple peices (the diced squares)

Pictures:

Diet day 1 (( will take more pix next monday ))
Critisize me please!

http://lolypop123.livejournal.com/

looking for a fasting pal

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 18:55:46 GMT

Hi everyone...
I shut down my old livejournal account in October because I thought I was going to continue losing weight alone. I felt like I was getting obsessed again and that the community was making my eating disorder even worse. For a few weeks, I was doing great on my own- but then I totally lost it and gained I don't even know how much weight. I am too afriad to weigh myself but I know it's bad because my "fat jeans" are tight now. I am 5'7" and here are my stats...

CW: too scared to check.. I can't until I've fasted for at least a few days.. I am sure it's over 120 now
LW: 102
HW: 134

Most recently, I was 112 in October.. I am guessing I must be like 125 now but I will check back in a few days. I started a fast today-- planning on going until Sunday to start. Anyone care to join? So far, all I've had today is a cup of coffee and two sugarfree redbulls. I WILL be ingesting some calories because of alcohol tonight and tomorrow, but NO FOOD. Please let me know if anyone wants to be my fasting buddy.
Think thin, ladies!
Kallie

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 02:19:28 GMT

http://www.livejournal.com/users/lolypop123/8163.html

new pictures!

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 00:03:37 GMT

BY THE WAY I AM 4'10.. KNOW THAT BE4 U COMMENT ON PICS SRYY!!!!!!!!11