Current location:	missouri
Current mood:	crazy
Current music:	tlc

FEARLESS FBI
                                                                                          Gaia
I had been keeping an audio log of the past forty eight hours. A 
way to organize my thoughts and keep myself company as 
well as keep myself focused and awake. Right now its sitting in
the glove box of Catherines Altima.If i dont survive the next 
few hours(and thats looking more and more likely),Im sure
the fbi will eventully find it and dissect it.I hope it will explain
everything for them.Why i went AWOL.wHY I EVADES arrest.
Why i didnt contact them with my leads.
      Ionly wish i could make one more entry.If i had that 
recorder with me in this dusty,dim cellar and the Vin Diesel
look alike with the ruger pointed at me could somehow find it.
in his heart to untape my mouth ,this is what i would say
Im sorry
Im not sorry i followed up on Cathines disappearance 
because i was right,after all,that something sinster was up. i
just never imaged that Cathine was a part of it. What i am
sorry for is not trusting Malloy,Bishop,and the whole fbi system.I let my frustation over the way Cathys case was handled resurrent the cynical,loner Gaia,teenager Gaia,the gaia who found it diffucult to trust the cia and even her own father.
Id probably also say im sorry that i never got the change to
talk to my father and ask him the questions ive been lugging
around inside of me for years. Like...why couldnt he just be a dad after mom died.and whether or not he sees any of mom in me.
Id explain how sorry i am that i cant hang out with my brother,d, one last time on his farm.watching him milk cows and cuddle the baby chicks.