| Thanks guys! |
[May. 8th, 2008|12:05 am] |
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I didn't get to respond to anyone's responces to my earlier post, so, I wanted to say thank you to everyone who responded. All of your comments were helpfull. =)
::safe hugs:: |
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[May. 6th, 2008|09:10 am] |
x-posted to personal journal |
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| Thinking... |
[May. 3rd, 2008|09:11 pm] |
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There have been a lot of depressed and/ or suicidal people lately and I've been trying to the of a way to help.
When you get depressed, you lose sight of all of your goals, values, and purpose in life. Life is meaningless and you don't see the point in trying because there is nowhere to go.
So... I was thinking. When you are in a somewhat stable state (not really depressed) you could make this chart. Bare with me...
On the chart you have short term, long term, and life time goals. You write your goals, then next to it you right why you want to accomplish it. What accomplishing it would mean to you. Then, why you know you can accomplish... what about you makes you about to accomplish that goal. That way, when you are depressed you can look at that chart. The short term goals give you a reason to try now, the long term give you something to look forward too, and the lifetime goals give you a reason to live and push yourself through the depression. Writing down how will accomplish it will help you feel less overwelmed, and writing down why you want to accomplish it will give you sense of purpose. Writing down why you know you can accomplish it will help you remember that you do have good qualities and you are capable of accomplishing something positive.
Next on the chart you right down what keeps you going... kids, pets, art, significant other. Best reason would be "YOU". Even if it's silly... like... watching a certain show on a certain day. =) Next to those write down why they mean so much to you, and what negative impact it would have if you were to make a bad desicion.
Lastly, write down your coping methods. Hotline numbers, friends numbers, hospial's numbers, poison control, 911. Personal coping meathods too. Such as music, writing, drawing, walking, exercising... whatever it is! Sometimes when we are drifting away we may have a hard time even remember to dial 911.
If you have this chart ready for you when you need it, it just may help you cope better, make better decisions, and get through it easier.
I hope someone finds this helpfull. I do these sort of methods on my own. Sorry if it sounds all therapisty. I got it from my own head... it works for me and I hope it works for someone else too. =) |
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| personal issue... |
[Apr. 27th, 2008|01:07 am] |
| [ | How I Feel |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2008|01:41 am] |
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This is from my journal. Work is really getting to me. I'm a tae kwon do instrctor, and one of the head instructors that run the school. I've just been stressed and sort of emotional in general, but work definitely isn't helping.
As of right now.... I love the people I get to see at work, I love class, Mr L isn't my biggest fan, and I'm not enjoying work AT ALL. |
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| I Feel Dead Inside |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|04:04 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | depression | ] |
| [ | Where I am |
| | home | ] |
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| | aggravated | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | none, watching shitty TV | ] |
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| A public appolagy of sorts? |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|12:26 pm] |
| [ | How I Feel |
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My last post seemed to have caused a bit of drama. Whenever I post, it causes drama. So, I just wanted to say sorry to anyone I may have offended. THE LJ - CUT ISN'T WORKING FOR WATEVER REASON. TRIGGERS MAY BE: DISGUTION OF THE WORD "WEAK", DISGUTION OF SUICIDE, MENTION OF SI, THOUGHTS ON ABUSE, SOME OF WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH, FRUSTRATION WITH NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE ADEQUATELY, FRUSTRATION WITH BEING MISUNDERSTOOD.
I'll just try to refrain from posting, and just comment if I have something helpfull to say. |
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| Report It Now Rally April 29th at Noon, In front of the State House |
[Apr. 22nd, 2008|11:57 am] |
Hello, Bostonians!
Please join us on Tuesday, April 29th at 12:00 p.m. in front of the State House at the Boston chapter of the Report It Now rally. The Report IT campaign is a nationwide rally of people affected by sexual violence and abuse speaking with one voice to report it at the same time in states across the country.
The campaign was developed to raise awareness on the vast under-reporting of sexual violence including rape, incest, and child sexual abuse. Report IT will, for the first time ever, bring together victims in a show of strength, solidarity and voice to demand an end to sexual violence and improvements in the legal process to stop the systematic re-victimization that discourages reporting.
This is also an opportunity for those who, under whatever circumstances, never got the chance to report abuse committed against them.
( Full Press Release )
Please spread the word!
You can download the flyer here!
Thank you Elizabeth for organizing the Boston event. I hope to see some of you there. We appreciate anyone who can come and stand in solidarity with survivors or supporters, for however long you can manage.
Love,
Bean
Cross-Posted. |
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| I am not employable |
[Apr. 21st, 2008|04:11 am] |
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[Apr. 21st, 2008|08:50 pm] |
| [ | How I Feel |
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I'm going to update you all on some of the stuff that has been going on with me and my so called life... It may be long, or short... but it goes where my mind goes, and I need to get this all out of my head.
( Cut for-- Friend problems, family problems, mention of past rape and past abuse, brother getting out of jail, having a warrant go back out for my brothers arrest, mention of drugs, stressful situations, dealing with chronic pain, dealing with depression, dealing with suicide Ideas, and I think that is it... warn me if I missed anything. )
And that is all I've got to say on all this. I'm sorry if anyone actually read this. But props to you if you did.
With hope.
~a |
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| Sad. |
[Apr. 20th, 2008|10:37 am] |
This is an entry from my personal journal. Sometimes it seems like you can't get away from it.
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| Report it now rally coming up in Seattle... |
[Apr. 16th, 2008|02:04 pm] |
Report It Rally
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 - Nationwide
Join Us in Making History!
WHAT: Report It Rally
WHEN: Tuesday, April 29, 1:00-3:00pm
WHERE: UW Campus on the HUB lawn
WHY: Over 80% of sexual assaults go unreported. Survivors across the country are often re-victimized in the criminal justice system. It's time to take a stand! Join thousands of people across the country in an unprecedented show of unity for all victims.
Ø Together we will break the silence of sexual violence!
Ø Together we will speak in one voice for all victims.
Ø Together we will call for an end to the injustices.
Ø Together we will all Report IT on April 29, 2008 -- Angela Shelton Day.
Questions/RSVP: csforrester@yahoo.com
www.ReportItNow.org |
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| Empowering Songs |
[Apr. 16th, 2008|02:08 pm] |
I don't think I need a cut for this, but will gladly put it behind one if need be. I am working on a mix cd for the members of my support group. I'm hoping to receive some suggestions about empowering songs, songs that you like, songs for survivors, songs that honor women, etc. etc. If anyone has any ideas, please share! I want this to be a great cd & I know that you all have a bit of magic up your sleeves.
Thanks,
carrie |
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| Two sides of one coin... |
[Apr. 15th, 2008|12:42 am] |
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It's insane how much a diet change can effect for mood and overal outlook on life. I think cutting out caffine and starting the natural supliments that I have are part of the season I haven't cut in two years, and the reason abuse is easier and easier to handle. This is the first spring I haven't been suicidal. Bad things happened to me when I was 12 in the spring.... I'm 20, and this is the first year I've felt stable.
Here is an exaple from a recent entry from my journal.
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| My first post here. |
[Apr. 14th, 2008|04:36 pm] |
Keeping Secrets
Loose lips sink ships...
(x-posted to personal journal) |
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| April 29 Report It Now Columbus, OH Rally! |
[Apr. 14th, 2008|11:15 am] |
If you live in or around Columbus, please join me, the Survivor Archives, and WASP of Ohio in the rally at Noon at the courthouse!
In honor of Angel Shelton Day, we are rallying for "Report It Now" at the courthouse.
Date: Tues, April 29
Time: 11:50 AM
Location:
Franklin County Court House
373 South High Street
Columbus, OH 43215
Email me if you have questions! edensurvivor at yahoo dot com ! Put "Report It Now" in the subject line so I won't think it's spam! |
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