[12 Oct 2008|01:09am] imperfectstarx This song by Boxcar Racer called "I feel so"...describes perfectly how I'm feeling. Sometimes I wish I was brave I wish I was stronger I wish I could feel no pain I wish I was young I wish I was shy I wish I was honest I wish I was you not I 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over Sometimes I wish I was smart I wish I made cures for How people are I wish I had power I wish I could lead I wish I could change the world For you and me 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over 'Cause I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over I feel so mad I feel so angry I feel so callused So lost, confused, again I feel so cheap So used, unfaithful Let's start over Let's start over Let's start over try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [11 Oct 2008|05:04am] moonlights 11:31 garbage man. you're gonna get ded. # 11:40 it's snowing in reno and so fucking hot here # 15:36 hiccups gtfo # 15:44 i just found a u-bra at ross for $6. ilu ross # 15:58 twitpic.com/fk0d - high tech cashiers at ross # 17:00 ralphs's bagel selection upsets me # 17:52 my manager has given me the option to go see sherwood tonight or go to work. i saw them wednesday. i have 11 minutes to decide, help # 19:08 fuck I'm stuck in patd induced gridlock while on a delivery # 23:10 christina has never heard of pbr, WHAT # 02:37 straight up i fucking HATE parents weekend # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[11 Oct 2008|04:07am] forget_the_fire so yo. i drank 3 rock star energy drinks in like 2 hours tonight. i still can't sit still. it's terrifying. i'm vibrating. but at least i was - quite literally - climbing the walls. that's me and gregresch. chillin' on the ceiling. yep. i need sleep. i need a dose of my other half (you don't know how much i miss you). i need to be held. for now, i guess i'll try sleep. try to remember and hold on forever

[10 Oct 2008|03:33pm] imperfectstarx I'm lost. I'm confused. I think I'm just getting depressed...and I dont know why. I have no reason to be. I'm trying my best to hide it, but I cant anymore. I dont even want to hang out with my friends. I push myself too though, Because I cant just sit home by myself. I dont know how to make myself happy. There's nothing to really be happy about. I'm stuck and I dont know how to get un-stuck. I really feel like, theres nothing there anymore. I'm just coasting along. I cant help or fix the way I feel. No one can. I just need to be away from people. 1 memories try to remember and hold on forever

[10 Oct 2008|12:52pm] _____analog i'm back, and i kinda realized that i missed you because i wanted something to hold onto. well, i can hold onto myself and i'll be just fine. try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [10 Oct 2008|05:03am] moonlights 09:57 wtf LA, why does everyone drive like an idiot when a cop is around...shouldn't that make you drive better? # 10:00 looks like its going to raiiiinnnnn # 13:14 fuckkk i need to leave for class and some guy parked his semi behind my car in the parking lot # 16:21 oh, i guess there was a REASON no one was parked there # 18:19 flyering blows. so does gridlock # 21:18 not gonna lie i'm a little homesick # 21:53 um so innerpartysystem FINALLY ventures west and the one LA area show is 21+ WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT # 02:22 yay re-bonding with natalie and jackie # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[09 Oct 2008|10:42am] heaven5ent i really suck at updating. last weekend pretty much ruled. Friday Jeff & Pat had another Revel, where EVERYONE came (just about) Hannah, Hanna, Margaret, and I all met up at Mags apartment to get ready and then we left I took like 100 (literally) pictures with Margarets camera and then we all went back to Pat/Ryan/Devin's house Saturday was Hamilton and it went really well we had another drunken encounter with an unnamed girl who hopefully realized she made a fool of herself but otherwise hamilton ruled OTS played reallly well and so did The Hint afterwards Jesse had a HUGE party and everyone in the world was there (almost) there were just people all over his house, it was insane Lindsey, Margaret, Hanna, Lou, Ed, Scott, & Mike Lombardi all came back to my house and we had a slumber party it was lots of funnnn Sunday was a lot of re-cooperating Chrystie and I got lunch in Westminster and then we just drove around it was really nice to just talk and listen. then we went to Target where I spent entirely too much money but now i feel super sick and flu-like and it blows but its a jewish holiday so i'm relaxing all day this weekend- friday - dinner party with jamie/woods show? saturday - girl talk with jamie sunday - bowling show! try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [09 Oct 2008|05:05am] moonlights 11:42 def didn't go to my first class today # 11:45 omfg garbage man. STOP # 15:32 oops fell asleep until 3:30 # 16:18 why am i still tired?? I'm trying so hard not to depend on caffiene, but off to starbucks i go # 17:15 HAHAH someone left a church's chicken ad in my mailbox # 17:38 finally met the other person feeding the kitties yay! # 18:11 parking makes me soooo angry # 18:14 to see sherwood or not to see sherwood tonight # 19:32 really stressed for no apparent reason # 20:53 found a spot on the street like 5 seconds from the troub. yesssss # 21:25 um how did sherwood go from selling out the knitting factory main room to there being like 6 people at the troubadour. what the actual fuck # 21:41 u at shows haha # 21:41 someone just ran up to me and was like HOLY FUCK YOUR PHOTOS ARE AMAZING! it was scotty but still, not the thing you expect to randomly ... # 22:54 "i want to move to a bigger city, i want to live in a smaller town, i want to make up my mind so i can stop moving around" new sherwood ... # 23:26 i ran into the he'd of the militia group, who added me on fbook a couple weeks ago, and we talked about being fbook friends # 23:26 but i said i had no idea why he added me bc i thought being like OH YEAH BC YOU'RE THE HEAD OF TMG AND I APPLIED TO INTERN THERE would b ... # 00:06 pink's? # 00:57 i don't pay for my bacon, bitch! # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[09 Oct 2008|12:25am] _____analog i just think it's best, cause you can't miss what you forget. so let's just pretend everything and anything between you and me was never meant. try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [08 Oct 2008|05:04am] moonlights 05:08 aha! 5:05am and my woodstock paper is finally done # 13:35 getting ANYWHERE in LA in a timely manner is impossible # 15:47 as interesting as this lecture for reals is, i can't stop dreaming about togos santa fe wraps # 16:43 once again, some brilliant soul in my apt complex has decided that bc its 94 degrees out we must OBVIOUSLY have the heater on in the hallway # 19:32 why must in n out a) be so far away and b) be the bearer of all my deliveries # 22:39 my last class tomorrow is cancelled and second to last always lets out early....what am i going to DO with this time? done at 1:30?! # 23:02 more brilliance courtesy of DPS: "On Sept. 30 at 6 p.m., a staff member reported that someone entered her secured office in Waite... # 23:02 ...Phillips Hall after business hours and consumed food on a reception desk, leaving the litter behind. No property was removed." # 00:53 tryin to rest easy about being parked on the row # 02:29 i should really look into going to less music video shoots and writing more papers on time. FUCK # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

Was it ever worth it? Was it just a curse? [07 Oct 2008|02:53pm] forget_the_fire He is the exact opposite of the kind of guy I would normally go for, yet I cared - and still do, yet in a different sense - about him very much. And I just figured out why. The answer was right in front of me the whole time. I just didn't see it, because I didn't want to admit it was the truth. The reason everything seemed so great with him was because he is everything you're not. He is the perfect distraction from the one person I can't get out of my head, because he is the exact opposite of everything I want. How can I think of you when I'm with your polar opposite? I guess the only bad side in that is that you're what's good for me. I mean...down to looks, you two are polar opposites. He is tall and skinny. You're tall, but you actually have a build. His hair is always perfect or it's under a hat. Your hair is curly and a little messy all the time and I love that. You've got these wide, honest eyes, while he has brown eyes, sure...but I never trusted him when I made eye contact with him. He always has to match and make sure everything looks good, where comfort matters more to you, yet you always look good. And personality? Forget it. You two would hate each other. Utterly hate each other. I consider both of you my close friends. But he is one end of my personality's spectrum where you're the other. He is the life of the party, the center of attention, the flirt, the one that if he can help it isn't going home alone. Physical relationships mean nothing to him. Actually, very little means anything to him. I like to think I meant something to him, but I severely doubt that. You...people notice you, whether you realize it or not. People always notice you, but it's not because you're in their face, begging for attention. You're quieter. You're not a complete drunk like he is. I don't want to use the word shy or reserved, but next to him...you are. People have respect for you. Him? They don't have to, as long as they're happy he is there. I don't know how it took this long for this to hit me. I should have realized it right away. The only reason we worked was because I was doing everything I could to get over you, because you went and moved back home. I knew I was going to lose you eventually, so I was doing everything I could to get over you before you left me behind. So I went for someone that would make me not think of you. I thought it was going to work. Then I'd see you and once again, nobody but you existed. I believe people can be hurt a hundred thousand times over. But I think they can only have their heart broken once. Because I'm really starting to believe there is only one person out there that you'll never forget. 2 memories try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [07 Oct 2008|05:04am] moonlights 11:48 mm resting on a patch of grass # 11:49 if this says it must be turned in as a 6 page business plan....what does that mean # 13:34 i got 3 replies about wtf is a business plan and none of them made sense. hahaha fuck # 13:56 more grass sleeping yesssss. now its quiz time # 16:33 2.5 hours to write a 6 page faux "business plan" on fixing woodstock '99...YAYYYY # 20:25 holy fuck that was some tasty chicken # 20:26 abandoning the woodstock assignment for htl. haha fail # 03:16 omfg someone PLEASE move into elsewhere with me ASAP # 03:16 htl video shoot = my hair caked in mashed potatos and ketchup. charming # 03:39 ok i have said a million times that i did the best parallel parking job of my life but TONIGHT wins. <6 inches on either side of car, WHAT # 04:12 @tanglehymn sometimes i get this odd usc 'your login session blows' error & it has this little dragon on it that reminds me TONS of your's # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[06 Oct 2008|04:26pm] _____analog jesus christ, i'm petrified of your response. try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [06 Oct 2008|05:04am] moonlights 17:44 i miss a lot of things. right now, arizona and summer # 18:09 going home for thanksgiving almost official. i need some cheap lax parking options? # 19:04 ughhhh classical concert for muhl 315 # 20:01 @amandaftw fyi we're going to sushi pier while I'm home in nov ahahaha # 21:11 wtf just met a cute boy from tahoe...who works at the starbucks across the street from my apt? # 21:14 @amandaftw nov 26 - dec 1...why wouldn't you be there? # 21:45 @selenemarya then make an appearance in reno # 22:50 bought my flight home! # 01:07 @fakeitenough tempura is japanese breading. sort of their (far more tasty) equivalent to what we bread fried things in # 02:08 oh homework fuck you # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[04 Oct 2008|03:24pm] heaven5ent i forgot that last sunday lindsey and i were guest listed via robby for angels and airwaves & the friday night boys robby bought us a round....of 10 beers haha. love that kid. ok. so last night was FUCKING RIDICULOUS! im pretty sure ALL of my friends, minus the j's, were at revel. and it was absolutely fabulous. i took an exorbitant amount of pictures...on margarets camera. i was in charge of pictures haha. and they all look amazing. theyre on mags' facebook and soon some will be on mine as well. im comparison to last weekend, last night had absolutely NO drama, just the way it should be. i love hanging out with my girls on the weekends, its the best ever, and hanna came home as well i also love the fact that hannah and i are getting super close again, its nice same for lindsey, and mags actually lol, although mags and i never really stopped seeing each other lol its ALSO super nice to see all the guys again, and its especially nice that james and i are so close and its not awkward, and its nice hanging out with ben again as well. this is all me rambling because i need to type fast and get dressed and be at hamilton by 4:30 try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [04 Oct 2008|05:03am] moonlights 13:47 is it possibly acceptable to be that guy at a 3oh3 show if you're wearing a jersey (as a dress)? # 14:42 @falloutboyy well being a 3oh3 show is what makes you that guy haha # 15:40 wow massive police activity # 15:49 omg i love everything in this store # 16:25 to buy a push up bra or not to # 16:25 @selenemarya some place in this malled called bliss, idk if its a chain, they sell accessories and they're all amz # 16:53 twitpic.com/efe7 - @selenemarya this store # 17:08 @amandaftw jealous, i miss sushi pier so fucking much # 17:23 @caitran do it, i live in the hood and i don't mind haha # 18:29 twitpic.com/eg4k - hahahaha what # 20:20 WHOA THERE WAS DEF NOT A FUCKING TARGET ACROSS THE STREET FROM CHAIN BEFORE # 20:29 @falloutboyy admittedly its been a bit since i had windows but back when i did it took me 8-10 hrs to defrag? # 20:54 who here is going to the htl video shoot? i think I'm gonna opt for class because I've already skipped that once a week class twice # 20:55 HOWEVER i will come by after class to see the dues, but i need someone to text to tell me where in the shoot you are # 21:41 i think tila tequila is here # 21:49 uhh some guy in 3oh3 just pushed a security guard and the guard threw the other one in the crowd ahahaha # 21:55 how did a cake get onstage....? # 21:57 um now the cake is being fed to the audience ahahaha # 22:05 one of the dudes just ate SHIT onstage # 22:17 there's a traffic cone onstage? # 22:17 @falloutboyy I'm on the side part next to the stage, you won't see me # 22:20 BOOBS # 22:21 @falloutboy only to the new songs # 22:21 @falloutboy yes she is flashing them she has no shirt, hence the BOOBS # 23:54 "this dude wants to be epared" # 23:57 dead stop on the 5. wtf # 03:01 yesssss i will be going to the rave that 3oh3 is playing across the street from my apt for free tomorrow # 03:18 i can't handle this shit. stop talking fucking shit my door is OPEN and christina's asleep on the couch, you can talk to us you know... # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[03 Oct 2008|07:31pm] forget_the_fire They found a body in the lake at Kennedy Park. What the FUCK. try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [03 Oct 2008|05:04am] moonlights 09:09 WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS BANANA # 16:48 @heycrys wait vons DELIVERS groceries?!? # 17:13 twitpic.com/e9s1 - feeding my kitties # 17:13 twitpic.com/e9s4 - two of them have names, the others have yet to be named. this is tiger # 17:22 @heycrys holy fuck i know how I'm getting groceries now. the nearest vons is a few miles away though so hopefully they deliver to me # 18:06 my roommates are playing palin bingo # 18:44 @falloutboyy www.palinbingo.com enjoy # 18:55 goodbye dashboard lights, it was nice knowing you # 19:58 to drive to fucking PALMDALE for this is hell/iata or not to...that is the question. (there's already 2 LA area dates) # 21:41 fucking wingstop needs to learn how to start call in orders before you get there to pick it up # 21:42 @itskatyyo i know right! that's what I've been sayin, its a real odd cat bc it looks like a panther the size of a housecat # 21:49 the guy behind me (not directly, obvi) is driving down the wrong side of the street # 22:21 twitpic.com/eb1d - this looks like a photo of nothing, but its actually of my dashboard (and road ahead) at night... # 03:31 why was i at the engineering frat til 3:30?! WHY? # 03:40 "HOLY FUCK! THAT GUY HAS A GOLF CLUB!" yeah totally normal on the row, right? # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

Tweets for Today [02 Oct 2008|05:02am] moonlights 11:46 its the first day of october and I'm wearing a tank top and shorts and sweating...and its not even noon yet # 13:18 why is it 101 in october?? # 13:48 twitpic.com/e3ka - a big fucking squirrel...this guy wasn't scared of me at all, i got an inch away and he just stared # 14:02 @amandaftw yeah, my head is all fucked from it, last week i was like WOO XMAS and now I'm like I CAN'T WAIT FOR WARPED ITS SUMMER! # 15:39 @caitran i love swingers!! you should # 19:09 carwash time! if that motherfucker with the leafblower and the dirt piles shows up on my street again I'm gonna be pissed # 21:13 @falloutboyy haha doing shopping for people's riders is always fun, it's like "wtf they requested THAT?" hahahahaha # 23:12 carwash time! if that motherfucker with the leafblower and the dirt piles shows up on my street again I'm gonna be pissed # 23:20 songwriting homework is harder than it sounds # 23:21 @heycrys rocky is one of my favorites ever # 01:22 "he would just come out of the shower, without a shirt and......a tray of bacon. mmmmmmm." # Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter try to remember and hold on forever

[01 Oct 2008|05:46pm] thedrownerszero This summer needs to get out of my head. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Would you like that?  Would you like that? try to remember and hold on forever

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