Whats the point of living? Whats the point of suffering like this? When the whole wold is turned against me. I am only human, how much more do you think I can take? How much do you think I can bear on my shoulders? I can’t take your emotional abuse much longer or else I will break. Please just let me be. Led me draw these red lines of pain and drown in my sorrow and misonctent, I am a selfish bitch, what more do you expect? I am a failure in every aspect, a miserable woe. What more do you want from me? My sould aches in thirst and longing, my heart is nothing more than a block of ice. You taught me how to be cold, you taught me how to cut everyone off like they didn’t matter. That’s why I cant get close to anyone, this is why they tell me I’m cold. Why cant I rise to your expectaitions? Whey do you hurt me like this? Am I just a big sorrow, who has let you down? Am I just another one of your regrets? I just want it to end. I just want to put an end to it all. There is nothing to look forward to. Everything that I have ever wanted, was handed to someone else, right in front of my face. I could just go and put my hand down my throat, and pull my heart out. I watch you cry, my insides churn. I know that  I am the cause of those tears, and that fact alone kills me.Please don’t cry, please don’t weap. You are in enough pain as it is. Why do you want me burdening you? I have failed you, im sorry. I’m not perfect and I know that, but I have told you that I am. I have failed you, I couldn’t live up to my lies, or your expectations. I have done nothing but brought pain to you. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. I don’t want to be the cause of your tears anymore. I just want everything to return to normal. I want to go back to when the sun was shining,. But that is impossible . The darkness has settled in, it’ll never leave me. Don’t bother with your concern, not bother with your worries. Don’t wast your time on me. I am not worth your sympathy. I am a fallen angel, I don’t deserve mercy, no one can mend these broken wings. So I beg for your forgivenesss, I am your biggest failure. Everyone has left me. Everyone who mattered walked out of my life in a single instant. THEY LEFT! WHY!? Is this my cruel fate? Was I destined to be alone? I cant take this anymore!I cry out to you but you can’t hear my plea. You simply get angry and tell me to stop acting like a bitch. Why can’t anyone see my pain? Why can’t anyone understand that behind this smiles, a tortured soul cries? I’m so tired…I just want to fall into an eternal slumber…nothing can make it better now…nothing can heal these wounds. Just let me lay in stillness and drown slowly in a river of blood.

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