&iwas [born just to meet you]

Fresh meat NOM NOM

Wed, 07 May 2008 18:51:36 GMT

Um...Hi. I'm new here. This is my introduction. Lame but, eh.

My name is Rachel, feel free to call me Sami. ~~Because I hate that name~~. I'm 20 and in college and I love Evangelion. ~~Even though I'm still kinda "WTF" on what's going on L-lawl.~~ KaworuxShinji are a cute pairing and I obviously can't see Shinji with anyone else. I mean...I see how being with Rei or Asuka could work with him but...ehh....Kaworu just seems much better.

I don't write fanfiction because I suck at them and I can't make icons either because I don't know how. But I'll read fanfics though! So, I guess I'll be leaving comments and such! Lame introduction is lame and I sowwy for that. ._. But...yeah..um... HI =D!

Looking for fanfic

Wed, 07 May 2008 03:00:09 GMT

Ive always loved this pairing and had a specific fanfic of them that i used to love to read. But recently i cant seem to find it anywhere. I was hoping someone here could help. I havent read it in almost 2 years but i do remember some of it. Kaworu comes back to life and goes looking for shinji, shinji at first doesnt know what to do, but hes really happy to have him back, but his friends dont want them together, but shinji doesnt care and stays with kaworu. but people find out what kaworu is and come looking for him and take him away. and since shinji has slept with him they take shinji too and take them to a facility where they monitor them and keep them locked in a room and experiment on them, but Kaworu keeps giving shinji hope that they will escape and be happy. Thats the most i can remember. Does it sound familiar to anyone? i could really use the help. thank you.

Two Videos

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 03:58:15 GMT

Title: Two Videos
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing(s): 5x4b, implied 3x5, 3xDinosaur
Rating: NC-17
Genre: AU. An x-factor has put the events of End of Eva in a holding pattern, so the boys are just bumming around NERV as usual, waiting for the next Angel to show up.

Kensuke was having a picnic on the escalators.

The massive NERV peoplemovers honeycombed the structure below Tokyo-3 from street level to the Geofront. This one was over a mile long and unless he walked to speed the pace it would take more than 10 minutes to reach the end. So Kensuke sat down, opened his knapsack, had himself a picnic and admired the towering pre-stressed concrete construction.

This was why Kensuke didn't notice the figure standing at the base of the escalator until he'd almost arrived. He groped for his ID card—YES he was allowed to be here—then relaxed as he realized who it was.

Kaworu smiled as Kensuke stepped off the escalator. "Hello Kensuke!"

Kensuke shivered. Kaworu was nice enough, but something about the other boy set him on edge. It wasn't the freaky white hair, or the freaky red eyes or the freaky albino skin… it was that when Kaworu smiled- he SPARKLED. Boys, Kensuke thought firmly to himself, should NOT sparkle.

"Uh, hello Kaworu. How'd you get down here before me?" Kaworu had been in the command center when he left, and this was the quickest escalator-trail down to this level. Kaworu could have run…

Kaworu pointed. "I took the elevator."

Ah yes. The elevator. Direct transport from level-to-level, its use was restricted to top-priority personnel and it required a passkey that a low-level NERV guest (such as himself) lacked.

When the school shut down Ms. Misato has invited Kensuke to move on-base and keep Shinji company. It had been a good idea- Shinji was very depressed, but with some coaxing he'd turned the corner. Then despite Kensuke's pleas to the contrary, NERV had bypassed him—again—and brought in Kaworu to pilot Evangelion Unit 2. Kensuke resented the little freak, but Shinji had warmed to him, so he tried to be polite. "The escalators are a bit of a hike. I packed a lunch."

"I saw." Kaworu said. "In fact, I came to find you!"

Kensuke blinked. "It something wrong? Do you need a pilot?" Shinji was out of town at the moment.

"Eh? No, nothing like that." Kaworu pressed on in the face of Kensuke's obvious disappointment. "Actually, I just need a favor."

The Elevator doors slid shut and Kensuke gazed wistfully at the passkey as Kaworu pocketed it again. "That thing lets you got anywhere on the base?"

"Yes."

"Including Terminal Dogma?" The lowest and most heavily-secured levels of the base. Kensuke's guest-ID couldn't closer than 10 levels from there.

"Yes."

"Could you take me there?"

"Not without getting into a great deal of trouble." Kaworu sparkled again.

Kensuke pouted. "Whatever. What's this favor you wanted?"

"Ah! It involves Shinji. As you are doubtless aware, Shinji-kun has been on edge since," here Kaworu faltered, "that incident."

"You mean the thing with the dinosaurs?"

TEN DAYS AGO

Kensuke was walking down the hallway, minding his own business, when…

"OMG, WAT TEH HELL IZ TIS?"

"…Shinji?"

"SRSLY, WAT TEH- NO! KEEPS BACK! HEY!"

"Shinji!" Kensuke started running towards the other boy's screams.

"HEY! HEY! HEY! STOP TAHT!" There was a tearing sound. "DATS MY PANTZ!"

"What the hell?" Kensuke redoubled his pace.

"WAT R U—NO! BA- BAD TO-hehehe-BAD TOUCH! STOPPID TAHT TIKELZ!"

Instinctively, Kensuke reached for his videocamera.

"WAT NAO? NO! KEEPID AWAI! NO NOES, DOES NOT WANT! DOES NOT- AHHHHHHHH!"

Kensuke's thumb jammed the 'record' button as he rounded the corner- and stopped dead. "Holy shit, Dinosaurs!"

THE PRESENT

"Yes," Kaworu said distantly, "The thing with the dinosaurs."

"Poor Shinji." Kensuke shook his head sadly. "He had enough issues to deal with; his father, Toji, Asuka, his MILFy live-in guardian… the last thing he needed was to be sexually assaulted by Velociraptors"

"Indeed." Kaworu agreed. "And the circumstances, which we will not go into, were so peculiar!"

"I'll say! And yet- they make perfect sense." Kensuke sighed. "Did you hear Shinji made the Marduke Institute replace all their door handles before he'd visit? Because Raptors can't turn doorknobs."

Kaworu deftly redirected this conversation. "It is that trip I wish to speak about!" Two days ago Shinji departed for simulations with the new F-Type Armor, and he wouldn't be back for at least another week. "I am worried he will get lonely. I wish to send him a howdoyousay… 'video greeting card' to keep his spirits up."

"Oh hey," Kensuke brightened, "that's a great idea!"

"You will help?"

"Of course!"

Kensuke finished positioning the camera tripod. "There."

"How can I tell what the camera is seeing?"

"Oh." Kensuke flipped the viewing window around so it faced Kaworu. "Here." They were filming in an unused NERV meeting room.

"A bit wider."

Kensuke made the adjustment, then hit record and joined Kaworu in front of the camera. "Hey Shinji. Ayanami sends her best even though she couldn't be here."

Kaworu faltered, "She does? Oof! She does!" He resumed waving. "Apparently we asked her!"

"Sorry to hear you've been having nightmares. Commander Fuyutsuki asked me to reassure you that the ventilation system has been completely raptorproofed in your absence."

"We all saw Kensuke's video of you!" Kaworu was still waving, "Hyuga says it is truly fap-tacular!"

"Kaworu!" he hissed, blushing.

"I have no idea what that means, but it sounds good!" Kaworu, if possible, sparkled brighter.

"I am editing that out."

"Why? Is fap-tacular bad?"

"Silence!" Kensuke held up his hand. "Lets see… news from home. Unit Zero is done being repaired. Ritsuko showed up again right after you left, won't say where she's been, but apparently her cat died. Aoba's doing a concert tomorrow…" Kensuke searched.

"He's only been gone for two days." Kaworu dimmed the sparkle a few notches and looked seriously into the camera. "Things are much as you left them, but your presence is missed. I eagerly await your return."

"We all do!" Kensuke snapped his fingers. "Kaworu finished his synch tests and he broke your old record- again."

Kaworu smiled modestly. "Kensuke pestered Ritsuko to let him perform a synch test of his own. She finally promised that if you're not back for next week's test, she will evaluate him in the Simulation Body. Six days Shinji, hurry home."

"Hey!" He shoved Kaworu. "That was a surprise!" To the camera, "I was totally going to mention it." Kensuke sniffed and pushed up his glasses, "don't let Kaworu bully you. Take as long with the F-Type tests as you need. After all, your safety is the most important thing— YAARUGH!"

Kensuke hadn't seen Kaworu's hand snake around to poke him on the back of the neck. He jumped almost a meter. "You see," said Kaworu, "Kensuke is so nervous. Someone who does not like to be touched is bad company."

"Your hands are cold!" he huffed.

The other boy flicked his fingers dismissively. "My hands are exactly 37 degrees at all times, just like humans."

"It's creepy when you say it like that!"

Kaworu reached out to deliberately poke Kensuke again, and this time the boy steeled himself for to react. Kaworu responded by poking harder, giving the boy gentle shoves as if to push him over. "Misato's 'Pen Pen' has gone missing again. Apparently this is NOT related the unpleasantness."

Kensuke tried to fend Kaworu's hand off- unsuccessfully. "Mrs. Salinski's cat is missing too. Misato wants to find the lovebirds before she's pregnant this time. Stoppit!"

Kaworu sighed and sidled up onto the table he'd been leaning against. "Come home soon Shinji-kun, there are things I can do, and you left before I could share them with you." He reached out and yanked Kensuke's collar, sending the other boy stumbling back into the table. Kaworu caught him, mostly.

"Hey!" Kensuke rolled his eyes. "Come home soon Shinji. We all miss you. Ow!"

Kaworu grabbed Kensuke's shoulders in a surprisingly strong grip and leaned forward, ignoring the other boy and focusing on the camera with a frightening intensity. "Keep in good spirits Shinji. I am going to make you very happy when you return."

"Kaworu… that hurts…."

"Eh? Gomen." He released Kensuke's shoulders, smoothing the (rather deeply) pinched material of his shirt. "I'm sorry."

"It's fine. Um."

Kaworu continued to smooth Kensuke's shirt, now moving downward. He looked back and forth between camera and the boy perched awkwardly on the table. "Ah ha! I has an idea! This is good idea!" he enthused to Kensuke.

"Yeah-okay. Let go Kaworu." Kensuke tried to stand up, failed due to the awkward angle Kaworu was holding him at. "Damnit… let me go!"

"Ah ah!" He shook his head, "I have A+ plan for raising the fighting spirit of Shinji Ikari! In this plan I shows with Lillum what I can do, for Shinji-kun's previewing enjoyments!"

"What are you talking about?" Kensuke was getting desperate. Kaworu's stupid hands were making his stomach flip-flop, and pulled back at this angle there was no hope of concealing it if the twisty-squirmy feelings moved any lower. He bucked again- and howled because he succeeded only in slipping an inch and banging his tailbone mightily against the tabletop.

"Hush Lillum." Kaworu pulled him up- finally getting his butt in a sitting position on the table. But before Kensuke could use their equal footing to escape Kaworu's hands had snaked around his chest, grabbed his shirt by the placket, and pulled!

"Hey now!" Buttons popped willy-nilly as Kaworu pulled his shirt open. "What are you- ohh…"

Kaworu leaned in close from behind as his hands danced across Kensuke's now-accessible chest. Simultaneously going for both Kensuke's armpits, fingers lightly tickling, sent a jolt through the boy which finally shut him up. "We are showing Shinji what Lillums can do."

Kensuke arched his back as Kaworu's hands moved down, tracing ribs, opening across his belly like a flower with fingers hard and tight… Who cared if he popped wood? It didn't make him a pervert if Kaworu was already perving on him, right? Well, perving on Shinji, with Kensuke as his proxy…

Kensuke decided he was fine with that. He was neither side of this perving, just an innocent man caught in the crossfingers—crossfire—and that made it totally and completely not gay when Kaworu leaned in and stuck his tongue in his ear, making his twitch like a tazer—tongue—wet—thing—that…

He gave up on coherent thought.

Kaworu speared his hands down across Kensuke's belly, sending his fingers into the boy's jeans. The elastic waistband thwarted him only momentarily before he could reach out and grab a handful of-

Kensuke moaned incoherently. Kaworu smiled suggestively for the camera and rubbed against the boy's neck. 'For you' he mouthed to Shinji. The fly took only a moment to pop open, then Kaworu pulled Kensuke towards him while bringing his own legs around to pry Kensuke's open.

Kensuke was spread open obscenely, jeans and boxers pulled down under his balls, shirt hanging loose, legs wide and arms dangling uselessly and Kaworu was spidered possessively around him. His torso glued to Kensuke's back, his faced pushed inward against the boy's freckled cheek. Slowly, he began to masturbate the other boy, their bodies moving as one.

Somewhere, distantly, Kensuke was aware that Kaworu's own hardon was pressing into his back through several layers of clothing. He decided to forgive him this.

Kaworu half-sang softly as he awakened Kensuke's willing body. An off-tune and deeply obscene story about innocent boys betraying themselves to become something dirty and powerful. Kensuke's eyes were unfocused, aimed vaguely at an unfamiliar ceiling, and his breath came in irregular, desperate gasps as he let Kaworu happen to him, over him, touching, rasping, sticky, breath on his shoulder. His stomach muscles tightened spastically as he plateaued again. Once, maybe twice more and the pressure would build and coil around itself instead of sending waved out to his fingertips…

Kensuke whined as Kaworu's movements slowed. He pushed instinctively, seeking the retreating hand, but found only empty space. His dick waggled in empty space, weeping goo, and his body contracted, trying desperately to fuck the air. No fair, no fair. Kensuke's eyes screwed up and he inhaled heavy, smelling Kaworu trying to get enough of his sex-smell to push his brain into overload, not back down to where he had to think…

Slowly, Kaworu reached out to pet Kensuke's abdomen. Slow, sultry strokes that had the boy crying out because they were just not-quite-enough to offset his ardor's ebb. When Kaworu rolled his thumb over the boy's balls—though it sent a painful electric jolt up his body and out the back of his eyes, causing every muscle to spasm and his ears to pop—it was a fading sort of arousal that left unsatisfied keening emptiness where it had been. Through all this Kaworu kept his eyes fixed on the camera. For you Shinji. Come home so we can do this Shinji.

"Not fair…" Kensuke mumbled as he regained the capacity for speech. "'s jus' bad form, leaving a fellow in need…"

Kaworu patted him on the stomach. "Shh... Lillum boys have other things to show."

Kensuke hoped that didn't mean Kaworu planned to do him up the butt, because he might agree to it just now.

But instead Kaworu disengaged himself from the boy, sliding off the table while Kensuke collapsed back onto it. He smiled, and maybe swaggered a little for the camera as he sat down again next to the boy, looking down at his heaving chest.

If Kensuke's eyes were open, he might've seen the wink Kaworu aimed into the future at Shinji.

Kaworu leaned forward and kissed Kensuke, openmouthed. Kensuke flinched and tried to pull away, but a single finger on his breastone stilled him, promising something if he was good. Kensuke's brow furrowed and he made little whining noises through his nose as Kaworu's tongue snaked into his mouth, seeking. Where… where…? Oh dear, was his tongue retracted entirely to the back of his throat, keeping well clear of the invader? How disappointing. Kensuke's eyes screwed shut as Kaworu probed his palette, worrying at the fillings in his upper teeth. He winced when the unfamiliar muscle rubbed up against the veiny soft underside of his own, tickling. By the time Kaworu retreated Kensuke had gone entirely soft and his entire world had narrowed to the finger tracing slow circles on his breastbone, trying to blot the other stuff out.

Kaworu pouted. "So stubborn. Not quite bad, but stubborn." His hand drifted to Kensuke's nipple and he leaned in again, this time to suck lazily down the length of Kensuke's neck and his collarbone. The boy gasped and shivered, Kaworu found this much more encouraging.

With his free hand he tugged at Kensuke's pants and boxers until the teen's scrawny legs hung unencumbered over the edge of the table. Somewhere in the process he'd lost one of his socks and his toes flexed in time with the swabbing of Kaworu's tongue.

Slowly, Kaworu traced a line down Kensuke's chest, maybe pausing to flicker over a nipple, his fingers reaching feathery up into the boy's armpits, down where his ribs came around, down with the curve of his hip…

Kensuke's breathing quickened as Kaworu moved round in front of him, planting kisses on his belly and nuzzling close. Awkwardly he propped himself up on his elbows to watch, the earlier fear boiling away in a frisson of anticipation. Was Kaworu going to…?

Kaworu leaned into the hipbone, pressing back against the tentative bump Kensuke sent him and inhaling. His fingers came up from behind, tracing the line between asshole and scrotum before gently rubbing/scratching the peachfuzz on the back of his sack. Kensuke wasn't quite erect again yet, but things were clearly happening down there, bouncing against his chin. Kaworu smiled.

With the barest glance back over his shoulder Kaworu leaned in and took him in his mouth.

Kensuke's eyes rolled back in his head. "Oh shit," he whispered, amazed. "oh shit oh shitohshit…"he half-collapsed as his arms came up, and was rescued by Kaworu's hands brought round to support his lower back. His shoulders bunched and he let his head roll back. It was like nothing else he'd ever experienced. Hot and wet and sucking and a tongue dancing round and round his dick- his DICK inside Kaworu's MOUTH and the two ideas somehow seemed to merge perfectly… "Oh shit—Shinji you HAVE to try this."

THAT earned him such enthusiastic oral praise that it momentarily took his breath away. It also made him realize that Kaworu's goals here were not the same as his own. He was, Kensuke realized in a moment of perfect clarity, making this tape for Shinji, 'cuz he wanted to suck HIS dick (and maybe other stuff Kensuke wasn't going to think about) and make HIM happy. He was keenly aware of visual the camera was recording—Kaworu's head buried between his legs. You couldn't SEE anything.

Well then, for Shinji. He wasn't going to last very long anyway.

Kensuke began giving little thrusts of his hips. It didn't do much, his angle was all wrong, but it looked great. To his surprise Kaworu adjusted to match his rhythm and the result, again, was magical. He swore quietly between gasps. Finally he reached down and, for the first time, Kensuke initiated contact with Kaworu—just to put his hand on his shoulder, but after a moment that hand slid up Kaworu's neck to gently grasp the back of his head. He was in control now- the gentlest pressure has Kaworu moving faster or slower, drawing in close or pulling away. Pressure with his thumb, he discovered, sent the boy's tongue in a spasm of—words—not—work—good.

Kaworu's hands snaked up his body, seeming to maximize the surface area touching between their bodies. Kensuke obliged him by tightening his legs around Kaworu's middle. Their newly-restricted motion lent a desperation to their movements and when Kensuke's stomach twisted around itself he knew it was nearly over.

"Shinji," he breathed, "I just want you to know…" Kaworu was doing a little twisting thing with- "that I'd understand… if you went just a little gay for this."

The floodgates burst, and he came. He gave animal cries of extacyand he puched forward, cockhead swabbing the back of Kaworu's throat, then pulled back—almost giving Kaworu enough time to recover—then pulled the boy's head into his hotness like a thing to be fucked, each contraction raising him up and curling him forward until he was wrapped around Kaworu's fuckhole, clutching his head like a beachball between his legs- giving quivering microthrusts that sent pleasure-pain ricocheting between his balls… His eyes were wide but all he saw was colors as he drew back, schlicking his oversensitive dickhead across Kaworu's paradisiacal tongue, then jammed forward, unloading his last dregs against the boy's tonsils with a moan.

Kaworu took it all. His hands supported Kensuke, reassured his actions and at last… just gently stroked his back as Kensuke collapsed, spent.

Kaworu disengaged at last as Kejnsuke's breathing returned to normal, releasing the boy's softening member. There was cum running down his chin, which he wiped off unselfconscisuly.

Kensuke looked at him, eyes beginning to focus again. "Just so we're clear, I don't like guys."

"That's okay," Kaworu sparkled, "I don't like you."

EPILOGUE - THE MARDUKE INSTITUTE

Shinji was on break. The Simulation Room was busy analyzing the results of the last test, so he sat in the Big Chair drinking electrolyte-replenishing juice and relaxed.

One of the techs came in with a package. "Ikari-san?"

"Yah?"

"You got a package. Looks like a video from home. Do you want to view it in your quarters?"

Shinji looked at the dark, unguarded corridors that led to his personal space and frowned.

"For the last time- there are no raptors here!"

"That's what NERV would have said, right before they discovered the raptors."

The tech shrugged, Shinji had a point. "Do you want to wait until later then?"

"Nah," Shinji finished his drink and re-settled himself in the Big Chair. "Just put it up on the Big Screen so everyone can see."

"Alrighty then."

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 04:08:06 GMT

Title: Birth of Evangelion
Rating: R? There's sex, but not very explicit or anything.
Summary: Uh... Kaworu is dead, Shinji is all depressed and crap and Misato's not exactly helping, then he finds out that Kaworu is really ALIVE, and then stuff happens!
Language: Spanish

Link~!

Anyway, I was told that this is already available in English, so.... I guess, if you have any doujinshi it would be nice to link to them on here so that I don't make the same mistake in the future? XD

X-posted (is that the right term?) on last_seashore and 3rd_child_fans

|Meet Me at the End of the World: 6/12|

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 22:16:02 GMT

So, almost after a full month, R. manages to pull herself together and finally post this bugger.

It is shorter than the previous chapter, but I think it makes up for it with the pure factor of multiple mind-trips. ~~And God, did it ever take ages to get right.~~

Anyway, without any further delay (and believe me, I can still keep delaying):

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Rating: PG-13 this chapter.
Genre: AU. Ikari Shinji, the last angel, cannot find it within himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Chapter: 6/12, association.
Notes: The previous testings are taking their toll; there is research to be done, notes to be fixed, and beneath the seeming calm is a deep undercurrent. Hesitance and strain are becoming apparent, and avoidance is not at all helping this. If anything, everything has become much more confused since Shinji's initial appearance.

Previous parts / Side-pieces:

I. reality testing
II. uber-ich (super ego)
III. symptom
IV. counter-wish
V. counter-transference

Asuka: Pride is a Small, Red Bird

(And the dawn had been coming in, then. Gray and soft. Quiet. And Nagisa had felt something he couldn't quite name. Couldn't quite place. And it had tightened behind his ribs. Had nested in there. Had provided words that didn't quite fit. That didn't belong.)

[Fic] Asphyxia, Ver. Three

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 04:16:27 GMT

Summary: Kaworu's suffocating, and so is Shinji for that matter, and they shouldn't need hands at their throats to make them realize just what kind of predicament they're in. A short collection of oneshots. (Also available on the kink meme)
Rating: T?

Link~!

|Vincit Omina Amor - another K/S fst|

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 13:26:40 GMT

For a change in pace, I am actually not posting fic, ~~which will likely shortly be remedied~~, but an FST.

With that said, there are obscure artists, lots of piano and acoustic guitar, and otherwise a cover I spent way too much time coloring.

So, yes. Do enjoy?

|download?|

Track Listing:

i.) you are the moon | the hush sound
you don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear/it floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier/all the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas/the shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe/

ii.) it don't matter to the sun | rosie thomas
there will be tomorrow/even if you choose to leave/because it don't matter to the sun no, no/it matters to me/

iii.) run [acoustic] | snow patrol
I'll sing it one last time for you/then we really have to go/you've been the only thing that's right/in all I've done/

iv.) three gymnopedies | satie
[instrumental]

v.) the scientist [acoustic] | coldplay
I had to find you/tell you I need you/tell you I set you apart/tell me your secrets/and ask me your questions/oh, let's go back to the start/

vi.) kaleidoscope | katie havnevik
you know me/how troubled I can be/but, through your kaleidoscope/I let go/because you show me/the world as it could be/through your kaleidoscope/it's beautiful/

vii.) hurricane | the hush sound
and since the roof fell in, I'll lean on what matters/caught in the slightest wind/everything else unravels/you're standing in my doorway seven cities ago/the days are racing, but you come back too slow./you're the finest thing that I've done/

viii.) rescued | jack's mannequin
and say you'll miss me (say you'll miss me)/one last time/I'll be strong, but whatever you do/please don't get me rescued/

ix.) become | the goo goo dolls
and I can't be the stranger/that's been sleeping in your bed/ just turn around and come to me/and I feel all the pain inside/and everything you've been denied you feel/it's all you feel/

x.) broken | lifehouse
the broken locks were a warning/you got inside my head/I tried my best to be guarded/I'm an open book instead/I still see your reflection inside of my eyes/That are looking for a purpose/ they're still looking for life/

xi.) the district sleeps alone tonight [cover] | joanna lee
you seem so so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex/a stranger with your door key/ explaining that I am just visiting/and I am finally seing/why I was the one worth leaving/

Go enjoy your free music. ♥

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 19:48:34 GMT

To think I lurked here for awhile and i've only just joined...

I've been into Evangelion for awhile, even if I did start watching it back wards, and my love has only grown.
Currently i've read the manga, up until the point it seems to have stopped at, and angelic days. I am currently reading Gakuen Dantenroku.
I've also seen the new movie 1.0, thank you internet, and I must say it looks promising for more Kaworu.

As i'm sure you can tell i'm a Kaworu fan. I love seeing the variety of ways he's portrayed and how he acts in different mediums.
I've recently started to play as Kaworu in an RP although there are no other evangelion players there...

I sure like most people here I believe that the pairing is practically canon. Likewise i've supported it since that fateful episode as i'm sure most others here have.

As an offering I bring you a fic I did awhile ago, yes it's only on FF.net...
Here
It'll be fine for all ages.
Please excuse it for being on the bad side of my writing, I'm not entirely please with it, as it was a test into expanding my writing into other fandoms.

|Meet Me at the End of the World: 5/?|

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 21:40:05 GMT

This AU is getting to be longer and more involved than I originally anticipated. However, since it was my break this week, it gave me ample opportunity to write it. Even in-between all the hours of SSBB I put in, this week.

Frankly, I'm scared of the length of this particular chapter. I'm especially afraid of the fact I'm getting into the marrow of the characters. Slowly. I've pushed them in ways that have never been really monitored in the series, so -- Yes. It was a hard chapter to write. I'm not going to lie. Hahaha.

Anyway, without further delay (and really, I can delay longer):

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Rating: R this chapter for disturbing imagery and general underlying details on a particular psychosis.
Genre: AU. Ikari Shinji, the last angel, cannot find it within himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Chapter: 5/?, counter-transference
Notes: Katsuragi's had enough, and Nagisa's intentions only serve to boggle Ikari further as he desperately tries to reason with himself.
Previous parts / Side-pieces:

I. reality testing
II. uber-ich (super ego)
III. symptom
IV. counter-wish

Asuka: Pride is a Small, Red Bird

((And Nagisa standing near to him, his red-undershirt bleeding through the white of his over-shirt. An apologetic frown pulling at his lips. His fingers, pushing back his hair. (Mumbling: 'I knew I should have brought an umbrella.'))

[Fic] Radiation Sickness

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 18:23:57 GMT

(ranfromrain, the only difference is that I added a paragraph in the middle. It's not that good, either. XD)

Summary: Hiroshima, after the bombing.
Rating: T
Link~!

No, seriously! We need a new layout! Anyone wanna try~?

Hola!

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 14:04:00 GMT

I've actually been into Evangelion for a long time. It has always been my favourite anime, even though I always skipped to watch the ep with Kaworu. XD;; (Like somebody else mentioned below.) You can't blame me for being impatient! Kaworu/Shinji is precious yo.

Anyway, I am finally gonna watch Evangelion 1.0 the movie tomorrow. Excited! Thus, I decided to join this community, because hey, I think it is finally time to find back a bit of my old craziness. I am actually rewatching my VCDs now to prepare myself for tomorrow.

The pairing of Kaworu/Shinji... To me, it is canon. I have never doubted it, especially with the way Shinji acts around Kaworu. My other not-so-secret love in the anime is Asuka. I kinda go blank when she appears. ^^;

So... A good day to you guys! \o/ And feel free to ask me anything to say hi!

PS. It would be awesome if you guys can shower me with fic/doujinshi recs, preferably of happier stories though for the former.

[Fic] Ring

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 20:56:59 GMT

Summary: Post series, Shinji tries to forget. (Do you have a better one...? ;_;)
Rating: T
Link~!

Kaworu's in there, I swear! You just have to squint a little. :D

following the rules!

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 11:21:12 GMT

The userinfo says introduce yourself when you join, so I shall do so! I'm tsutsuji, writer of yaoi fanfic and such, and fan of this pairing - even though, I must admit, I haven't even watched much of Evangelion, only the first few episodes and then I skipped ahead to 24. I'll catch up with the rest someday! Plus I've skimmed through Angelic Days, if that counts for anything. (It's cute, but y'know, it could seriously use an alternate ending...)

I'm also a rather big fangirl of Ishida Akira in general. Kaworu is one of his best-ever characters - I'm also quite fond of Xelloss, Chrono, and Hakkai - three demons and one Angel, hm. It must be fun to be him.

I'll be hanging around and reading back through the entries, looking for fics, icons, and philosophical discussion, naturally. I don't feel qualified to write fic for this pairing yet, but I'm working on it. See ya!

[Music]

Fri, 07 Mar 2008 02:25:06 GMT

[Click.]

[And an extra song, because I'm an upload-addict.]

(Please comment if the link[s] go dead, and I'll replace them. And not allowed? Please to be deleting! :O)

|Meet Me at the End of the World, 4/? + Side-piece|

Thu, 28 Feb 2008 14:52:11 GMT

After about four rounds of re-writing this monster of a chapter, I am done with part four of this series. (Thankfully.)

College ate my soul, but I'm still doing this in my spare time. (Which equates to: In between classes.)

So, without further ado:

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Rating: PG-13ish this chapter.
Genre: AU. Ikari Shinji, the last angel, cannot find it within himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Chapter: 4/?, counter-wish
Notes: Katsuragi has her work cut out for her, when the testing results turn out to be more worrisome than intially anticipated.
Previous parts / Side-pieces:

I. reality testing
II. uber-ich (super ego)
III. symptom

Asuka: Pride is a Small, Red Bird

('I assume we'll be keeping this from them?')

Along with this, there is also a side-piece dealing mainly with Kaworu's and Asuka's dynamic:

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World: Pride is a Small, Red Bird
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Chapter: Side-piece 1/?, takes place before the beginning of this AU.
Characters: Kaworu, Misato, Asuka.
Summary: The "domesticity" of the Katsuragi household. (Pre-coma, pre-arrival of Ikari.)
Soundtrack: Passenger Seat | Death Cab for Cutie

(And Sohryu's breath would always sound just as red as her hair was. As red as her lips and eyelashes were. And how, just for one instant, her arrogance would subside. Cool. With a faint lull of his words and a brief flare of irritation. Water to steam.)

Enjoy. ♥

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 06:27:57 GMT

Hello everyone, first time poster and Kaworu cosplayer with a sexy Shinji here! ♥

I come bearing smut, btw ;D

Title: Alternative Process
By: Lady Tzahra [lumin0l]
Pairing: KaworuxShinji, durh~
Raiting: PG-13/R?
Warnings: Yaoi [HJ, lime, etc.], my photography fetish?
Disclaimer: I OWN NOTHING.

Description: AU Shinji's taking a photography class at school, and, while staying late to print, learns there's more to do in a darkroom...

“Two seconds, four seconds, six seconds, eight seconds, ten seconds,” Shinji said softly to himself as he removed his test strip from under the enlarger and placed it carefully in the tray of developer on the other side of the dark room. He gently lifted the tray with the tips of his fingers, making the liquid move gently back and forth over the paper, the image slowly coming into focus.

He smiled softly. It was a photo of Asuka and Mistao he’d taken when they were laughing about something to which he hadn’t really been paying attention. They didn’t know he’d taken it, and he didn’t plan on showing it to either of them, especially Asuka for fear of her deciding he was going to use the photo for untoward purposes, but seeing them happy and carefree made him happy. Even if it was only for a second in a photograph.

He sighed as he picked up the wooden tongs and gently moved the dripping test strip from the developer to the stop bath. He kept his eyes on his watch, careful not to leave it in for two long. According to his watch it was late in the afternoon, but he’d told Misato he’d be staying late at school to print his photos and to expect him after dinner. He didn’t mention to her he’d also planned to spend any extra time with Kaworu, a thought that made him blush deeply. He shook himself mentally and quickly transferred his test strip from the stop bath to the fixer. Thirty more seconds and he could see it in normal light.

“Where is Kaworu?” He wondered aloud. Probably wandering around the halls upstairs, more than likely humming something to himself. Shinji couldn’t help but smile again. “Five, four, three, two, one.” He placed the test strip in a plastic tray and opened the heavy door into the classroom. He blinked a few times, his eyes used to the soft darkroom’s red light rather than the florescent in his classroom. He examined the test strip critically for a few seconds, deciding which exposure time was best.

“That one,” a soft voice said right in Shinji’s ear, making him jump.

“Kaworu! You, you scared me,” he said, turning around suddenly and finding himself face to face with Kaworu, who smiled.

“You scare easily,” he replied, making Shinji blush. Kaworu returned to his position behind Shinji and placed his chin on his shoulder and pointed to the six second exposure. “That one is best.”

“You think?” Shinji began to relax, and had they not been in school would have leaned his head to one side, inviting Kaworu to attack his neck.

“Of course,” Kaworu replied, snaking his arms around Shinji’s waist, hugging him closely to him, but Shinji pushed him away and faced him, though didn’t look him in the eye, still blushing.

“I’ll go print it then, it won’t take me very long.” Shinji turned to return into the darkroom and knew Kaworu was following him. The heavy door shut tightly behind them, plunging them back into a state of red semi-darkness. Shinji dropped his test strip back into the fixer and reached for a full sheet of photo paper.

“You really like photography, don’t you?” Kaworu asked lightly, touching an enlarger curiously.

“Yeah, it’s really...” Shinji placed the paper under the enlarger and set the timer to six seconds.

“Calming?” Kaworu offered, his attention now on Shinji, who pressed the EXPOSE button, making the light come on.

“Yes,” Shinji replied simply. Both of them watched the image appear on the paper and then vanish after six seconds along with the light. Kaworu was still watching Shinji intently as he carefully took the paper out from under then enlarger and placed it into the tray of developer. He went to stand behind the other boy again, placing his chin on his shoulder so he could watch.

“What is that?” Kaworu asked.

“Developer, it makes the image appear on the paper, see?” Kaworu’s eyes widened as he watched the image slowly begin to appear. Shinji rocked the tray back and forth gently.

“I see...” Kaworu breathed in deeply in fascination. Shinji smiled, a little proud that he could impress Kaworu when it was almost always the other way around. “You smell like developer.” Shinji blushed.

“I-I’m sorry, it tends to, get on me, um,” Kaworu gently kissed Shinji’s neck, placing his hands on the table in front of him, pressing himself up against Shinji.

“I don’t mind,” he replied softly right in his ear. Shinji gasped quietly as Kaworu proceeded to cover his neck with teasing, feather light kisses. His eyes became half-lidded and he inhaled deeply, the chemical smell suddenly making him feel light-headed. “Your photo,” Kaworu breathed softly, biting Shinji delicately on the ear, making his breath catch in his throat.

“Ah, ah right, um,” Shinji exhaled shakily before reaching for his tongs, picking up the photo and setting it in the stop bath. Kaworu laughed softly against his neck.

“I like that photo,” he said matter-of-factly, taking his hands off the table and wrapping them around Shinji’s waist again, the sensations against his neck intensifying.

“Th-thank you, Kaworu, don’t-”

“We’re not going to get caught, no one else is here, right?” Kaworu’s grip tightened around Shinji and he felt something semi-hard pressing against him.

“I need to concentrate on this,” Shinji said firmly, checking his watch and moving the photo to the fixer.

“You seem to be doing fine to me,” Kaworu replied, followed by another light laugh and a firm bite on the neck. Shinji shuddered and bit his lip, trying not to make a noise as he felt himself harden and face flush. “You’re always so resistant, why?” Kaworu asked, his hand carefully slipping into Shinji’s pants. Shinji cried out as Kaworu’s long fingers began to gently tease his erection.

“I-I’m not, we’re in school, and, ah!” He groaned softly as Kaworu deftly began to stroke him, up and down, attacking his neck once again. Shinji felt his knees begin to shake and gripped the table to stay standing. “Kaworu, no, I-” Shinji grabbed Kaworu’s wrist and forced him to let go, but only so he could turn around and kiss him full on the lips. Kaworu gasped softly against his lips and thrust his tongue into the other boy’s mouth, tasting him. Shinji wrapped his arms around Kaworu’s neck, desperate for more as he began to grind his hips against Kaworu’s.

In response Kaworu gripped Shinji’s ass and lifted him up onto the table, pressing himself between his legs for better access. Shinji let go of their kiss and cried out softly as he wrapped his legs around Kaworu’s hips, desperate for more friction. Using one hand to keep Shinji steady Kaworu reached between them with his other, hurriedly unzipped his pants and began to grind their erections together. Shinji cried out again and Kaworu bit down hard on Shinji’s neck to keep himself from making a noise.

Kaworu felt fingernails dig into his back as he took both of their erections into his hand and began to pump them fast, the white hot sensation coursing through both of them, making Shinji moan again. Kaworu felt his own self control begin to leave him let go of Shinji’s neck to kiss him full on the lips, breathing hard through his nose as he ravaged his mouth, beating his tongue into submission, his grip on their arousal’s tightening. Shinji was groaning into their kiss, rocking his hips back and forth, and Kaworu could feel a familiar heat radiating from him. He knew he was close, they were both close.

Shinji dragged his fingernails across Kaworu’s shoulders, pulling the fabric on his shirt almost tight enough to tear, squeezing him even closer with his legs. “Kaworu,” he groaned weakly, after letting go of their kiss. “I’m, I’m going to-”

Shinji cried out Kaworu’s name as his entire body shuddered violently in release, just as Kaworu came as well all over his hand. He leaned forward, his other hand steadying himself so his weak knees wouldn’t give way. Shinji was holding Kaworu even closer than before, wanting to stay this close for as long as he could, gently breathing his name in and out. Kaworu swallowed as he rested his head on Shinji’s shoulder, inhaling deeply.

“Mmm,” he breathed contentedly after a few minutes.

“What?” Shinji asked, still slightly dazed.

“Now you smell like sex and developer.” Shinji blushed furiously and hurriedly disentangled himself from Kaworu, sliding off the table and pulling his pants up. Kaworu looked at his hand, still covered in juice before gently sucking every finger clean. Shinji watched him just as intently as Kaworu had watched him print his photo a few minutes ago, his eyes half-lidded and face flushed. Kaworu stepped forward and kissed Shinji deeply, both of them loving the way they tasted. Kaworu pulled away and smiled at Shinji.

“I think your photo’s ready.”

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 19:19:51 GMT

Hello there, today I bring you seven Kaworu/Shinji icons~ enjoy! :D

Minami-Ke [5]
Card Captor Sakura [7]
Neon Genesis Evangelion [45]
Gurren Lagann [2]
FLCL [1]
Dragonball [2]
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya [26]
Lucky Star [22]
Code Geass [5]
Lovely Complex [2]
Higurashi no Naku no Koro Ni [2]
Death Note [1]
Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei [25]
Phoenix Wright [3]
Skins [7]
Aya Hirano [24]
Aya Hirano/Yuko Goto/Minori Chihara [3]
Kate Nash [16]
Lily Allen [3]
Beth Ditto [2]
Alex Turner/Alexa Chung [2]
Love Music/Hate Racism [2]
Random [11]

Hope you all like! :

Oh God I feel so sick. D:

|Meet Me at the End of the World 3/?|

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 03:23:42 GMT

Finally, an update. I'm actually rather apologetic, because I had a once-a-week schedule in mind, but as you can see, that clearly fell short of my expectations. College, really, has eaten up any of my free time.

However, I've got an update, now. Hahaha.

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Rating: PG-13, this chapter.
Genre: AU. Ikari Shinji, the last angel, cannot find it within himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Chapter: 3/?, symptom.
Notes: I lied, Kaworu got a memory. I figured you needed a bit a background on the, uh, protagonist. Yes. Also, Ayanami is quite an enjoyable write. ♥

Previous Parts:
I. reality testing
II. uber-ich (super ego)

(Anxiety gripped him. But, her expression remained the same. As though she was waiting. As though--he tried to push down the feeling. ('I have to--' He drew in an uneven breath. 'But, how are we---?') )

[Fic] Asphyxiation (Again! :O)

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 02:50:31 GMT

I didn't look this one over as much because it's been sitting around for so long, so there might be some typos.

Summary: Kaworu's suffocating, and so is Shinji for that matter, and they shouldn't need hands at their throats to make them realize just what kind of predicament they're in.

Chapter Rating: T?

Link~!
Hmm... I just realized how short it is... Gah!

taking 1 pre-order for kotobukiya kaworu figure

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 23:19:41 GMT

sold thank you

|Meet Me at the End of the World 2/?|

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 19:22:42 GMT

'Lo, the massively revamped Meet Me at the End of the World chapter. I decided, rather abruptly, that I had immense dislike for the last version, and subsequently re-wrote it.

Notably, we're going to be seeing a lot of Rei. I forecast this. 100% chance of Rei, following this chapter.

Unfortunately, I had to deviate from the manga a bit, and incorporate elements of the anime, 'lest it would have become cluttered.

However, with that said:

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Rating: R this chapter for disturbing imagery (ex: blood, et cetera) and general underlying details on a particular psychosis.
Genre: AU. Ikari Shinji, the last angel, cannot find it within himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Chapter: 2/?
Notes: From here on out, the beginning is going to be reserved for random memories from one Ikari Shinji. I need to shed some light on the boy, after all. Also? Oh, lord. Instruments. ♥

("NERV is a complex facility. Think of it like the human body. There are hundreds of arteries. Thousands of veins. Millions of capillaries. Countless manners in which you can and will get caught, should you become foolish.")

|Meet Me at the End of the World, part 1/?|

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 21:52:54 GMT

It seems I might have become very ambitious. It turns out that I was having a discussion one night with a good friend of mine and she suggested something very interesting on a thread, knowing I would snag it as soon as I saw it.

I did.

However, it seems that it will become a multi-chapter fanfiction, the first in many years from me. I am more notorious for participating in "two-shots," but this will likely be the first to draw more than three from me.

So, a fanfiction (again), part 1 of...Well, unknown at this point:

Title: Meet Me at the End of the World
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Chapter: 1/?
Genre: AU. Prompted by my partner in crime, measuringlife. Role reversal: Ikari Shinji is the last angel who cannot bring himself to kill the Third Child, Nagisa Kaworu.
Pairing: Eventual Kaworu/Shinji.
Soundtrack: "A Year on an Airplane" - Daphne Loves Derby, and "Fly Me to the Moon (In Other Words)" - Hikaru Utada.
Notes: Plot points will be maintained, though twisted accordingly to fit the characters. Personalities remain intact. Shinji is still the Hedgehog-ish boy we all grew to love, and Kaworu is still too blunt and forward for his own good. The only thing that is different is the occasional blending of the manga/anime and the (very subtle) sub-plot.

("The common man's tribute to joy, Shinji-kun.")

moodtheme

Sat, 12 Jan 2008 18:53:03 GMT

find them here at fifth_children

|fanfiction x2|

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 09:20:26 GMT

Hyper-productivity apparently results from a high volume of well thought-out prompts. Naturally, I will be blaming my partner-in-crime for this sudden influx of fan fiction in general. (In other words, this is very unusual. Normally, I go for months without posting in a community journal.)

Keeping the community active! Yes!

To spare you folks more entries potentially clogging your f-list, I am providing a link to my tags, because when I said influx, I meant it.

With that said:

Title: if man didn't dream (there would be nothing at all left to question)
Series: Neon Genesis Evangelion
Rating: PG-13
Prompt: January VI, ambiguity.
Pairing: Vague Kaworu/Shinji.
Summary: Sleeping in Kaworu's bed shouldn't have been any different than sleeping in his.
Notes: Spoilers for volume X and XI of the manga.

("Just in case," Kaworu had murmured. As if waiting for something. His hand had unnecessarily rested itself against the curve of his shoulder. And Shinji, detached and frustrated and ultimately much too lethargic to even be bothered, had let it stay there.)

And:

Title: a composition: for the beauty of death, for the post-apocalyptic
Series Neon Genesis Evangelion.
Pairing: Vague Kaworu + Shinji.
Genre: Experimental, stylistically and in its telling. Stream of consciousness.
Rating: PG-13, for disturbing imagery.
Prompt: January XXVII, the private wound is the deepest.
Summary: In the months marking the almost twentieth year since Kaworu's death, Shinji begins to forget.
Notes: Wondering what happened to Shinji exactly in the last one? Here's your answer. (If you were wondering, I enjoy psychology more than I should. Also, I feed on random research.)
A connective piece to: a score, for the end of the world (ode to joy)

(Nearly twenty years after Kaworu Nagisa's death, Shinji Ikari began to forget.)

Concrit is very much appreciated, and I am also looking for a beta. (Given my tendency to have to go back and edit my work obsessively, it gets a bit hectic when I am required to write a large number of fanfictions, never mind having to go to work and perform other daily activities on top of it.)

Also, as promised: Here is the tag. (I might come back later to make an icon post, but right now I'm a bit too wiped out to do so.)

And with that, it is time for me to either: A) Go to bed, or B) Just keep staying up and take a nap later, being it 4:18 in the morning.

FANART! It's Not Love

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 01:59:46 GMT

I was inspired by this fanfiction http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3992332/1/Asphyxiation of the manga version of NGE. So depressing...