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Привет, Друзья! Сисадмин у президента. Сисадмины себя узнают!
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[May 27, 2012 @ 2:09am] |
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So i am new to this but after reading posts i decided to join. Today is one of those days where things sucked. My boyfriend recently found out about Mia and well is less than happy about it..... long story short i ate dinner with him, had to, and could not purge. i felt so icky and tired afterwards... this was about 8hours ago and i feel like i swallowed a rock still, the heavy full feeling. i tried sleeping and walking and so on.... any suggestions on how to get rid of this heavy feeling? it is horrible and i still feel like i need to purge even tho i know that for one its not going to help and that i cant... ughhhhhhh
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I think you all are beautiful girls. :)
I spent the night at my boyfriend's house last night, managed to go the whole night without eating anything and he didn't suspect a thing! This morning, he woke me up with "bubblegum cupcakes"...I know, sounds gross. Well, it smells gross. It could attract an entire colony of ants from about 20 miles away. I told him I didn't want any. Then he tried to get me to eat an egg sandwich...turned that down as well. Then he made an omelette...and I had some. Not a lot, but I didn't want to make him feel bad, he went through all that trouble fixing me breakfast and all. That was at 10 AM this morning. It is now 5:30 PM and I haven't had anything else besides a tall caramel macchiato. I know...probably loaded with CALORIES!!! But, I need to stay up tonight. I'm studying to take the MCAT in about 2 months and I really want to get a good score.
Med school, here I come!
I hope everyone else is doing well!
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[May 23, 2012 @ 7:44pm] |
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Hey there. My name is Courtney and I am ready to go ana. I'm tired of being fat. I am currently 5'3 and weigh 123. UGH. FAT COW. But I;m just beginning this and would love an ana buddy. If your interested text me at 770-842-1302 :)
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Ugh I hate the way my boyfriend eats, he chews so loud! It is so unattractive and annoying!
Anyway, it is 7 PM in New Jersey. All I've had today was 2 saltine crackers and an unsweetened iced green tea from Starbucks. I feel a little light headed, but overall I think I'm doing ok. I haven't binged, so I'm happy about that. :)
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[May 24, 2012 @ 12:57am] |
Hi,
I haven't been on LJ or more than a year. I was in therapy and not anymore. I don't know if it works and it was expensive. My weight still goes up and down so much.
HT: 5'6"
CW: 158 or 72klg
LW: 121 lbs or 55 klg
GW: 121 lbs
I have EDNOS or basically everything (it's complicated). I've been feeling really alone and a bit sad and my husband is a really sensitive guy and so I don't talk about it with him. Recently i've been purging about 3 times a day and I really feel like/think I need to restrict again. I don't think there's another way.I've been feeling really dizzy and tired too, but out of control. I wish I could just eat whatever I wanted and not gain weight or I had a super fast metabolism or something. I started with binging since I was 5, then restricting when i was about 11 then obsessively exercising and finally in the last year started purging.
I'm a teacher and am young, but am around high school teens, some of which have eating disorders, but I also have to keep mine a secret from the school and the kids. Even if I wanna say, hey i understand. It plays with your head to see it happening in front of you and to feel so alone and not able to say what you want. I really care about my students. I can't say anything cause I could be fired. I want to be a good teacher and not a bad influence. Other teachers aren't open minded about talking about stuff. I'm Canadian but live in Italy (which also adds to the feeling alone thing) and italy is really a conservative place. i love this site cause it helps when I feel alone and to see others here with similar problems. thanks to everyone who posts.
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[May 22, 2012 @ 11:14pm] |
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Hi everyone! I'm Ani, new to this community and actually new to livejournal as well. I've had anorexia for 6 years now, diagnosed at 16 y/o and am now 22. Here are my stats:
HT: 4'11"
CW: 130 lbs - this is also my HW
LW: 88 lbs
Long term GW: 90 lbs
I know, I'm gross. I feel gross. I was on birth control for 3 years and I blew up like a beach ball. I hate it. I am hoping to lose all the weight because I can't even look a't myself in the mirror, nothing fits me, and I just feel horribly disgusting. :'(
Hoping to find some new friends here who understand what I'm going through.
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[May 18, 2012 @ 11:21pm] |
Hi, I'm new to this community. I'm a member of another "ana" community but looking for some more people to mix with, hopefully in an active community.
So, here's the low down:
My name's Steph.
Height: 5'6"
Current Weight: 108lbs
Highest Weight: ~120lbs
Lowest Weight: 92lbs
Short Term Goal Weight: 105lbs
Long Term Goal Weight: 95lbs
Diagnosis(or what you feel you are): Previously anorexic, currently EDNOS
Current "Diet": 2468 for a couple weeks, otherwise anything less than 1000cal, usually ~600cal
So Hi everyone! =) xx
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[May 13, 2012 @ 7:30pm] |
Hello lovelies, you can call me Collar. I was introduced to Livejournal today and just happen to come across this community. Anyway, here is my application. I hope I get to know all of you as I explore this vast new website.
Current Weight: 148 lbs
Highest Weight: 152lbs
Lowest Weight: 135 lbs
Short Term Goal Weight: 140 lbs
Long Term Goal Weight: >110
Diagnosis(or what you feel you are): EDNOS, Restricting diet with purging, no loss of period.
Current "Diet": I am currently looking for new Dietary options.
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[April 30, 2012 @ 7:18pm] |
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Hello Haven't been on here in ages, I kind of "got better" aka "got fat". I'm so embarrassed i don't even want to put my stats on here =/. Am trying to loose weight as fast as possible.
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[April 23, 2012 @ 12:21pm] |
I'm feeling slightly smaller today, so I thought I would post a photo, apologies for the poor quality, I lost my camera and so can only use the webcam on my laptop! Wouldn't normally do this, as I don't think i'm thin enough, need to be much much thinner than this.
But all the same this is my progress so far, be kind! Hope all is well with everyone else :) x
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[April 21, 2012 @ 9:14pm] |
I just ordered the insanity 60 body changing DVDs and im actually soooooooooo excited.
Its a 45 min workout programme over 6 days,
Anyone tried it ? i looked it up on youtube and it looks hard core but with amazing results.
Food wise ive been living on oatmeal with half a grated apple in it with cinnamon, water, sugar free red bull and black coffee.
Ive decided this will be the year I get my life on track. gonna pass my driving test, travel in the summer, save money, get my hair the way I want it and GET THE BODY!!!!!
currently 112 but my thighs look massive : /
hope you are all well. :) x
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[April 03, 2012 @ 12:50pm] |
Good afternoon pretty people! :D
Soo last night I went to a party but it ended up being a smoke sesh. It was seriously one of the best highs I've ever felt in my life. But when I get really high, I twitch. A LOT. Does anyone else? Anyways afterwards we got insane munchies and went to McDonalds. We all ate, a LOT. :( Even when I left her house I went straight to McDonalds & got more food! Then I went tanning & this place has the WORST lighting. If you ever want to look at yourself and feel like shit x 32409823049 go here.
But it made me think a lot, I'm only getting worse. I need to step it up! No more food for the day & run a mile. But let's be realistic. I'm going to try very hard, I must lose this damn weight!!! My mom said she noticed I was gaining :( Seriously the worst feeling ever.
But another bad feeling is when my mom tells me how proud she is of me over FACEBOOK when I smoke & drink & have had sex & have an ED. I feel like I am leading this messed up / picture perfect double life. Blah. There's my rant.
But I got a new tanning package, I upgraded so I feel wonderful. Tanning always makes me feel better. :P It's just another way of coping haha I have no idea. Welp, I love you all & I hope everyone has a wonderful day. xx -t <3
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[April 02, 2012 @ 7:10pm] |
Hello lovelies! Sorry I've been away for a little bit, I worked SIXTEEN hours this weekend! I can't wait to see my paycheck ^-^ So it's Spring Break & I'm going to be working.. but today I dropped some clothes off at Plato's closet & got a cute Ed Hardy Shirt. I swear, it doesn't make me look like a douche bag!! Hahah I might post a pic of it on my blog later, it's loose fitted cute.
I haven't been eating well at all, especially with work. I'm just so hungry & I eat late. It's awful. I'm going to be working on my abs a lot more though, even if I don't run. Random--- Nicki's album leaked!!! I LOVE HER <3 She's my favorite. Lol
Tonight I might be going to a party, I'm never in the mood drink lately because of what happened last time :/ Not only did I throw up, but make out with my best guy friend (who is strangely enough my ex's cousin) -___- I just want to smoke tonight. I always feel in my right mind then!
Sorry for such a long post I just had a lot to say! I love you all & hope you all have a wonderful week :)
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[April 02, 2012 @ 6:45pm] |
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So i starting actually feeling good about myself for a change, and i started pretending to be normal. I went out with "friends" and drank Starbucks and ate food, like real food, not just carrots and celery with mustard. I laughed loudly and played around and joked with everyone. And then, like it always fucking does, something in my brain snapped again and i realized what a complete loser/bore/waste-of-flesh/baby/fatty i was. And i woke up a week ago and realized that i gained 15 lbs since January and now none of my clothes fit and my "friends" are really just feeling sorry for me. I feel so pathetic now. Damn, i hate when my rose colored glasses come and go like this. So i feel like I'm back at square one. Hope people are having a better week than me.
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[March 28, 2012 @ 8:35pm] |
I came home straight binged (not even saying how much I ate) then took a 3 hour nap. :(
I don't know why I have such a problem with binging lately. It's starting to tick me off.
I will most likely run another mile tonight then just have a salad. I just want to see 149 pounds before the week is over! :( Spring break is next week! I'm not going anywhere, just working my butt off. Oh well, money over everythingggg. Hahaha jk :)
I was starting to see some progess in my tummy! It started to look flatter. What do you guys see first to go when you start losing weight/toning up?
I hope everyone has a good day!!! xx
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[March 27, 2012 @ 10:39pm] |
I failed miserably today & on top of that, I'm failing pre calculus. :(
Tomorrow I am DETERMINED to do awesome, focus on my homework & run a mile/workout.
I noticed when I eat more than like 1200 cals my stomach feels all bloaty & awful, so it's just another reason to eat less.
I hope everyone has a good day tomorrow! xx Oh btw I love my highlights now & successfully uploaded pictures of them to my blog so yay!
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[March 26, 2012 @ 7:34pm] |
Well this weekend & today has been awful. My eating habits were a complete wreck. I went to that party & threw up, threw up the next day & was sent home from work. Ugh. Whatever I made some fun memories.
I'm just going to fess up today to what all I've eaten. (I'm so ashamed)
- Mini Wheats (190)
- Apples (35)
- Ice Cream (135)
-Hamburger (150)
-Chicken Fries & Ravioli (600 i have no idea)
& I'm going to finish the night with a salad (80)
So my total is 1200ish. Wait no I had mini donuts too, so 1500ish. GAH.
Whatever, tomorrow's a new day & I'm going to run a mile tonight & work my abs. :)
Oh, my highlights are barely noticeable lol wonderful. -___- I'm just gonna go gradual but I'll still post a pic on my blog. I was getting so good at saying no to food again! MINI DONUTS ARE MY WEAKNESS. I specifically asked my mom for fruits & vegetables & that's what she brings? and now this shit?! Hahah oh well. Tomorrow will be much better :)
I hope you all had a better weekend and day than me!!
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[March 23, 2012 @ 4:30pm] |
Hello lovelies. It's finally Friday and I find out that my soccer practice and game are both cancelled and what do I want to do? Go home, eat a little, clean, and sleep. I don't even want to go to my best friend's men's volleyball game because a) I HATE getting ready unless it's for something fancy or fun & b) They want to go to Buffalo Wild Wings after -__- I'll search the menu and find low cal stuff if possible.
But I've already eaten quite a lot today already! :(
- 1/2 bagel : 125
- SmartOnes Fettucini : 260
- Cadbury Creme Egg (I'm on my period, I MUST have chocolate!!!) : 150
So my total so far is 535. I feel like I'm not getting as hungry! I used to come home from school RAVENOUS! Decisions, decisions. I will most likely post again before bed if yall don't mind! :) I hope everyone has a fantastic day. But in better news, EEP! Less than 24 hours and I get highlights! GET HYPE! Okay well I'm going to bed now so sweetdreams to me!
xx <3
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[March 22, 2012 @ 10:26pm] |
Hello lovelies! Today was pretty decent.
My food intake :
-Half a bagel: 125 cals
-Lean Cuisine Pizza : 350 cals >.<
-Subway sub (counted up the cals)290 cals
-Random bites out of the chocolate bunny (I NEED TO RID THIS BUT ITS LINDT SO ITS SOOO GOOD) : 100
TOTAL : 900ish. I'm pretty proud guys!
I had soccer practice for like an hour today so I'm feelin pretty good! I might do a minute of planks later, this gut has GOT to go.
When I weighed myself I was 154. In an earlier post I said I was pushing 165 I meant 155 my bad!!
I just don't know when I'll actually see results. I'm so impatient >o<
I hope everyone has a good day, smile tomorrow's FRIDAY!
OH! Quick thing, I'm getting highlights for the first time! I'll be a lil blondie! & also I'm going to a party (drinking) this Saturday. I don't even want to think about the calories -___- & no one worry, I'm always safe, I NEVER drink & drive and I'm aware of my surroundings. Okay everyone, ttyl!
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