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[Nov. 16th, 2009|07:23 pm] |
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You're scared. You want to date me. I know it. But you're scared and you're making up excuses. You say you only want friends with benefits? Well, I don't want to sleep with you and then forget you like I did to all the rest... |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|11:05 pm] |
I really do believe in karma. It is the only spiritual thing I believe in.
I want to sleep with you one last time because I think the passion would be incredible. I never would though.
I'm scared your problem will be the undoing of us.
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|03:26 pm] |
the only thing still holding me back
from full recovery is the irrational thought that
if i got frail and delicate enough you'd
you'd try to save me and in doing so realize that
you should be with me and not her.
because i need you to be my wonderwall_x |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|01:11 pm] |
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The hardest decision I've ever had to make is the choice between the straight& narrow path, and the path I want to take. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|01:06 pm] |
i still think about her everyday.
i hope you know it hasn't stopped.
it's driving me insane.
why won't you see me girl.
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|10:59 am] |
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you have my entire heart.
everytime you mention our future
my heart races & my breath shortens.
please don't get my hopes up. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|11:02 pm] |
I thought it hurt because you broke my heart (romantically).
Now though, I realise that I was far more upset and heartbroken over losing my best friend. I don't want you back romantically, but I miss our friendship (even if being around you is a dangerous idea).
Yes you broke my heart, but its the friendship break that really killed me, and explains why I got so upset and crazy. I'm sorry. It hurts to know you don't care and have a new best friend. But that's life. I'll just make sure you don't kill yourself from afar.
Not that you'll see this, but I still care, and I'd drop anything if you needed me. And knowing that I'd do that will have to be enough for me. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|04:12 am] |
And I'm getting an abortion.
On the bright side: He's sticking by my side... and even paying for it.
Secret (but not really): I love him. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|01:08 am] |
I'm in the same predicament I was in..but this time another guy in the mix....ugh...
Sometimes I want the old me back because the old me would actually tell them how I feel. Ever since coming off that relationship, I'm soo afraid to get hurt. and my confidence has taking a beating/ Besides every time I do confess my feelings...it never seems to go right. But hey love and life is all about taking risks right? Hopefully I'll muster enough courage to tell them.
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|12:21 am] |
I'm such a hypocrite.
The puffy red marks of the latest attempt to cut myself are right beside the faded writing I wrote for TWLOHA day. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|12:01 am] |
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We've been dating for 11 months now. In my previous 2 long-term relationships, I was making plans to end up with those guys by now. I've made no such plans with you--this scares me. What're we gonna do after we graduate? Can you see us together then, or am I just wasting my time and yours? |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|09:58 pm] |
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I am so worried about you. |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|09:32 pm] |
Today is her birthday.
You're coming over tonight.
I should feel guilty, but I don't.
Because it's nice to be the one you cheat WITH.
Instead of the way it was before. The other way around. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|08:54 pm] |
1 - I want to be a advid blogger of fashion and food and post pretty pictures with a awesome camera. And people will actually find my blogs interesting
2 - I had a dream I gave my life to save my favorite band from a zombie apocalypse.
I would and will give my life for them
3 - Writing college essays makes me realize that I am nothing
No job experience
No community service
No extracurricular activities
So social life
No outstanding talents |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|01:53 am] |
I told her my secret.
She still loves me.
Thank fucking god. |
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[Nov. 16th, 2009|12:37 am] |
you're the loveliest guy i've ever been with.
but why am i finding it so hard to fall in love with you? |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|03:42 pm] |
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It pissed me off when my aunt took a picture of my grandpa, dad, and adopted brother and said that this is "three generation sitting right here". ( Yeah.. ) |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|10:52 am] |
1."Are wild strawberries really wild? Will they scratch an adult, will they snap at a child? Should you pet them, or let them run free where they roam? Could they ever relax in a steam-heated home? Can they be trained to not growl at the guests? Will a litterbox work or would they make a mess? Can we make them a Cowberry, herding the cows, or maybe a Muleberry pulling the plows, or maybe a Huntberry chasing the grouse, or maybe a Watchberry guarding the house, and though they may curl up at your feet oh so sweetly can you ever feel that you trust them completely? Or should we make a pet out of something less scary, like the Domestic Prune or the Imported Cherry, Anyhow, you've been warned and I will not be blamed if your Wild Strawberries cannot be tamed."
Secret: I wish I could come up with something like that. I've always wanted to write a poem where it made no sense but it worked. I've tried 100 times and I always fail =/
2. I want to go back to New York SO bad. I keep having this idea that my life will change and turn around if I just leave L.A and live there. I'd leave everything behind here and move on....but that would be running away. I have reasons stopping me which brakes my heart.
3. I don't care that you are talking to her (if you are.) I care that you might be lying to me. See that my problem! I tell you if ____ talked to me or if I saw him today. I'm always going to be honest with you. So just do the same. Don't hide things from me, even if it hurts me. It would hurt me even more if I found out you were lying to me. Thats just how I work. |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|01:40 pm] |
He wants to get married in a Las Vegas chapel.
He has no idea how much my heart dropped me when said that.
I want a REAL wedding. |
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