I have had an eating disorder in some form my whole life. I am desperate for somebody to talk to who understands the hell that I have to go through and who won't assume I'm shallow. I cannot take this anymore. Being alone in my hell.
On days I have gained weight or am bloated or eat more than usual I consider suicide. It is the worst feeling in the world to have nobody around you understand what you are going through.
So I don't know I was hoping to find somebody who could understand.