wrote these last night...i dont know what to make of them. i havent written in a while, so i dunno. i know that this is a quotes community, butread and tell me what you think???? pwease *batting eye-lashes and SERIOUS puppy-dog eyes*

i write this with a full heart.
a full,
scared,
insecure,
beautiful,
begging heart.
again i let myself go,
again i find my heart breaking.
though this time it's my own doing.
it's what?!
3:00 in the morning
and all i can think about
are ways to get him back.
(if that can be dane at all).
at this point i am so
vulnerable,
terrifide,
scepticle,
enchanted,
and obsessed
with the he makes me feel.
the way
he makes me think.
the way
he puts me at ease.
the way
he excites me.
the way
he mezermizes me.
so i'm here,
he's there.
i've got a sickening feeling inthe pit of my stomach
caused by the tought that i have lost the only boy who has ever made me feel
excited,
aprehensive,
amazed,
beautiful,
accepted,
flawless,
loved
and appricitated
all at the same time.
and i have just writen him a letter
explaining why i found it nessesary
to break up with him,
but have realized how stupid i am
and am begging for him to take me back.
hoping against hope that he misses me enough to opne the email
(yes email
because i am too much of a pussy to call him)
and brave enough
to take another chance on me.
so i write this with a full,
terror filled heart,
that reasts in the hands of a boy i may have hurt.
god,
what have i done?

*haven't written one like that before...tell me what you think ;)*

it's hard to go to sleep,
knowing that you won't call.
knowing that i won't talk to you again.

it's hard to go to sleep,
knowing that you're somewhere out there
wihtout me

it's hard to go to sleep,
with this sickening feeling in my stomach,
that hasn't quite left yet.

it's hard to go to sleep,
because i know all of this
is self inflicted.

*it's alright...i was tired ok!*


xox-lix

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