1. ran the mile in 8:43
2. went home with my friend, ran for a bit more, walked most of the way (she was upset over a fued with her dad and didnt feel like running. we didnt go very far. i snacked on a southbeach diet honey nut bar [90 cals] and like three or four [nasty!!] wheat thins)
3. ate a mini red velvet cupcake (like really mini) and binged (and i mean binged, couldnt put it down, regardless) on a bowl of rice (i basically had to put it down, it had ramen seasoning and too much salt my dad put on, hehe)

i flipped out and took the scale, moved around the room and got about 4 different weights. i ran around my whollleeeeeee neighborhood twice. i coudlnt stop. i ran as fast as i could and blew as many wish flowers as i could. i couldnt couldnt stop. i wished for 89 pounds by june first, by tomorrow, by the end of the weekend

i came home, and weighed myself. 95 with water weight.
i recently weighed again, and i was 94.5

ive been having trouble pooping, obviously with restriction, and its better now. maybe TMI, but it hurt. ughh. well... at least i got some food out.
i also sat in front of the toilet and tried my hardest to purge more than ever. and it didnt work. id like to ask (dont preach, im not asking) tips, or whatever you o other than pens and toothbrushes and fingers.

my mom's really worried. she thinks im really weird and not eating and doing stupid things at school (i skipped ONCE, yesterday.) and ascting weird and not talking bla bla bla bla bla. all because i went out running so many times today and went to the dock. ???