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[29 Aug 2008|11:45pm] |
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gah... i feel like a lion sittin in a cage. i want to be at the game so bad. errrs. i cant sit still its like im having withdrawls or sompen. its killing me. makes me feel like a lil kid too being punished. wich is exatually what hes doin probably punishing me. he told them that i might be able to come back. like wtf. its not like it will be much defferent then when we were togeather. i was never all over him durring the game hell the last two times i didnt even sit by him. we dont talk much other then about the game a half the time i didnt really talk to him anyways cause he was in DM mode. so i would talk to everyone else. then if i did have to talk to him it was in game. so the only major thing changing would be me goin home instead of stayin the night. really i we dont have to be best friends he can still not like me i juss wanna play. gah like really. errs
earlyer today i wasnt worried about it cause i had stuff tod do. like i was off with my mom an sister. we went to loop for lunch then we went to dicks sporting then to target. i got a computer desk an a chair. then i came home an rearanged my room wich took about an hour to get it the way i wanted then i had to put them togeather wich was like almost another hour. then more rearanging.. once i was done with that i was bored again then i had to fix sompen on my chair an in the process i busted my lip open on the inside so now its kinda swollen. then. googley bear called an talk to me for a lil while then john called an talked he told me what derrick told him was happen on johns side of the game. cause john didnt go. then i talked to googley bear some more then matt called me an clued me in on some more of the game. then i talked to googley bear some more mostly explaing the game to him cause he said he didnt get it. then he fell asleep. an i juss texted matt an he said they were fighting dragons. gah i want to be there errrs. really thats the one thing i look forward to every week. an i would be there if not for derrick being a bitch about it. gah its killing me. i cant sleep. ima try to tho. im juss so i dont even know wat to call it mad? frustrated? aggrvated? all of them gah just caged. blah... errrrs. so thats today..
ima text derrick tomorrow and see about him bringing me my comp and stuff. i dont have a car to go to him an he wants it out so bad. he never gave me an answer weather or not he was goin to so ill bug him tomorrow about it.
errrs yeah still mad. mostly cause i had to kiss ass to him juss so he could "think about bringing me back in" gah wtf. really. juss gah!! ha i dont even care that we broke up really. i feel kinda relived. like i was walkin on egg shells around him an tryin so hard not to break them. now i dont have to worrie about it. my time is not spent wondering if the next thing i say or will make him mad. so yeah i can go over there care free now cause i dont have to worrie about him what ever his feeling or doin is his problem. i just want to play. i sent money an time on that game. just like the rest of them. and its selfish of him to not let me play. this more then most helped me relize who i was actually tied to.
blah thats enough of my complaining. i should go to sleep that way today will be over with. but if all else fail i have clothes to put up.
1:40am
one more thing i juss thought about cauae i asked matt if derrick said anything about me at least gettin half xp or not an matt said that he hasnt said anything about it yet. so i asked matt to let me know if he does cause i didnt want to piss him by asking. matt being a doll of course said he would. so my egg shell comment came to mind. it made me think about walking on them again. but this time is different cause im avoiding the shells all togeather by juss not talkin to him. this way derrick cant say that i did sompen an have some excuess not to let me play. if he says i was not talking to him. i would simply reply with you were not talking to me. because i was the last to say sompen to him and as far as in concerned im still waiting on a reply. so he has nothing aginst me. :-D
2:45am
yeah couldnt sleep an didnt feel like puttin up clothes. matt was talkin to me most the time. juss got off the fone with him. he said that they got 2000 an somepne xp damn thats a lot. said that all the work we did to heal the villiges was for nuttin. they ended up killing all them. and matt along with them but they brought matt back. an tom was pushing dragons off cliffs and stuff gahh. derrick didnt let me come on purpose. matt said he didnt menched weather or not i get half xp gah i could understand if i juss didnt show up. but thats wasnt the case he wouldnt let me come. err.
yeah an i just texted him about my stuff an he said he will bring it around noon. i said thanks to him and i didnt even get a your welcome back. gah.. he said he didnt hold grudges what bull shit. gahh
i might ask him then about the xp. errrrrrrs im so mad right now. like really i want to hit sompen.
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[28 Aug 2008|11:50pm] |
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Looking for other Houston ppl with kids to do stuff with on weekends when I have my 2 and a half year old
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[27 Aug 2008|06:01pm] |
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Free book download, Cultivating the Web: High Tech Tools for the Sustainable Food Movement, on http://ping.fm/nV1qG (Netsquared)
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| Dragon*Con |
[26 Aug 2008|08:59pm] |
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So we leave for Dragon*Con Thursday evening. Cool!
Two weeks ago Joe ordered some Stargate patches for us to put on our outfits so we'd have at least one costume. I'm waaaaay burnt out from work, so I didn't get to finish our pirate costumes, so we were going to just do Stargate.
It seems like that might not even happen!!
Because the place we ordered the patches from, www.AmericanPatches.com, is taking forever and a day to get our patches to us.
Joe swears up and down that he had checked the site for any word on how long shipping would take because we wanted to get these in time. Also, he noted in the PayPal comments section for the guy to please let us know if the patches were back-ordered because we need them for Labor Day weekend. The guy wrote back and said it wouldn't be a problem.
Here we are, two days to go and we might not get them after all. SUCK.
Last resort? Well, we can print on transfer paper... I've got a ton of interfacing and we can make our own "patches". I really hope it doesn't come to that because we paid freaking $32 for patches that better get here. ._.
Oh well... I don't need to worry any more anyway, goodness knows I've had enough to worry about lately. This is just one more little thing, so, I need to just let it go.
The good news of the day? Joe had an interview with the county for an opening for a water meter reader. Since he'd been working for a subcontractor, the job he was in was technically temporary, and it's basically now been made permanent by his being brought in for the job with the county instead of the contractor. So, that's a good thing! He'll get steady salaried pay, holidays off, and benefits covered 100%. It's about 99% definite at this point-- today they had him do paperwork and drug testing, and they told him he'll be getting an offer letter. But they bent over backwards and gave him an interview today instead of Friday, which, according to the personnel department, was the only time they had available. Which means they want him in that job. (And it probably helps a little that I've sent baked goods with Joe to work and they all commented on my cinnamon rolls and breads when I met them at a gathering Joe brought me to a few weeks ago.)
Okay, I'm exhausted so off to bed with me. Yes, this early.
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[26 Aug 2008|10:40am] |
I just RSVP'd to attend Save Ferris... Save Lives!
80's night John Hughes film fest benefitting the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society Sept 6 @CarolineCo http://ping.fm/gtiRj
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| and Life continues... |
[25 Aug 2008|06:58pm] |
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Here it is, over a year later, and life continues on its path of radical change. For the better this time. I'm now happily in my own apartment, paying my own bills, working full time, a full time student going for my bachelor degree in Psychiatry, I have a 3.93 GPA, I've been in a relationship with Anthony for over a year, I have a diamond ring on my finger, we're getting married in April, and having a baby in October. Happy, right? Then why do I still feel a sinking feeling when I'm alone? My best friend had to move to Texas, and my sister ended up showing her true colors. She took my best friend from me and fucked her way in between 2 children and their father. It's the same everywhere I go. People love you until they find something else. Whatever. New life. New me. again. I've come to terms that the old me died a long time ago.
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| car sharing |
[25 Aug 2008|08:28am] |
so the other day ryan took my engagement ring and drove all the way to orlando and back to get it fixed and cleaned. (my ring has to get cleaned by them once a year or we lose the warranty.) i had intended to go with ryan, but stupid fay made me miss work for a day so i made it up so i wouldn't lose pay. seriously though, what the fuck is wrong with some women? why are you in the mall getting pissed because you want your foundation matched and we're closing due to TORNADOS. go the fuck home and stay there. you won't need to be wearing foundation to cover your ugly face when there's no power, no one will see your age spots in the dark, promise. but i digress. the real point of this is to say how much i love my car. to drive to orlando, all around orlando, and back... $30 in gas. sweetness. so, naturally i don't want to share my car, but ryan's truck broke last night so we'll be sharing my car. i'm sad. he took my car to work today and as i'm off.... i get to wait for natalie to come pick my lame ass up. hopefully it'll all be fixed by this weekend and then after we buy our house ryan is getting a new truck. thank jeebus.
in other good news, dee dee is in town! i love it, it's like a little slice of costa rica. she's taking me to go eat some sushi and i can't fucking wait. even if it does me afterwards she'll try to drag me to a badfish show because they somehow are always in town when she is.
i only have 92 days left of pregnancy. i can't wait. baby is really starting to kick my ass, literally. it's his way of telling me to hurry my ass up and get to gainesville to buy the last of his things. oh, i bought a sweet crib and changing table for $450 a few days ago off craigslist. i looked the set up online and it was $2,000!!! i figure god can't hate me as much as i thought, because everything with this baby is just coming along so easily. hopefully it keeps it up that way. now if we could just find him a name we'd be all set!
in other fun news, ryan finally told me what he's planning for my birthday. and by told me i mean he had to as i found the hotel reservations and all when i looked at our bank statements online. we're going to the keys! (just let me tell you how pissed i was when i saw a $100 charge for the 'hibiscus suit'.) but now that i know it's for me, i'm suddenly not pissed anymore ;) we seriously need a vacation. and who doesn't love driving over the seven mile bridge? lol. oh, and baby permitting, i get to swim with all the dolphins and sea turtles, i turned down the sharks though. so far that's all i've been able to get out of him, he won't tell me the rest. but i assume that's because he wants to go to ripley's believe it or not or something, lol.
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[24 Aug 2008|11:49pm] |
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gainesville is the loneliest city i've ever been to.
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| baby names pt. 2 |
[24 Aug 2008|03:05pm] |
Braedon James McCann
Aiden James McCann
Landon James McCann
Riley James McCann
seriously. why can't i find a name that just 'fits' my baby that i just love and know that that's the right name?
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| fay can blow me.. seriously |
[22 Aug 2008|01:25pm] |
so last night they closed the mall at 6, but i still got paid for my whole shift. sweetness.
ryan and i lost power for about an hour last night then it came back, thank god. i busted out all the candles, but i don't think we even have a flashlight or anything. trips to wal mart and target were not successful.
today they just issued a tornado watch for duval so my boss called and told me not to come in at all. yay no work, boo no pay. my nana has been without power since last night. and a tree fell in my moms front yard and took out the power lines. so she can't leave the house until jea comes and makes sure the wires aren't live. wtf, fay was just a tropical storm, charlie was way worse. faye is just annoying as fuck. my t.v. keeps flickering on and off and the tornado warnings every two minutes are super annoying too.
i hope ryan comes home soon. i don't want him to be all the way in st. augustine.
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| I tried!! |
[22 Aug 2008|08:37am] |
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So I tried to go in to work this morning but man, the weather just KILLED the route!
We live off of A1A, which is basically right on the beach. There's no other roads to take to get out here, no "back route" if you will. You can navigate through neighborhoods and subdivisions to find a way around a certain segment on A1A but you can't simply get off the island without setting foot (or tire) on A1A.
First thing I saw when I turned off of our road and onto A1A this morning, the first thing I see, the next street down, is a downed power line right across A1A, and police directing traffic back into the subdivision.
Adding that in to the fact that I read this morning that Vilano Beach has had four FEET of beach erosion, causing workers to keep a very close eye on the road over there and possibly closing it down later today if the winds and rains keep up, I decided to not even take the detour. I turned right back around and came home, and called in to work for a second time.
If the weather clears up some later today I may try to get in to work yet, but the weather seems to be getting nastier and nastier. Looking outside, there's the forceful winds we had yesterday, but now we're on the east side of the storm, which means RAIN. This is the half that's been siting out over the Atlantic all day yesterday and sucking in moisture. It's been driving rains since I got up at 7 this morning.
So I guess I'm glad I get to stay here again today; if it's nicer tomorrow then perhaps I will go in to work for a bit to make up some time. Especially since I'm missing a day of work next week for Dragon*Con. D:
Back to arts! :D
Edit:
This is right down the road from me. :P
(And stupidly, a little farther to the north of the boardwalk where this photo was taken? Some dude's building a new house. DUH.)
And this photo was taken of the fort lawn, where we sat to watch fireworks two months ago:
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| Back Online For Now... |
[21 Aug 2008|03:28pm] |
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Well the power JUST came back on, as Joe decided to head down A1A about a mile to see whether the camp store was still open to see if they had ice. It had been open this morning but it had already closed by the time Joe got over there. As soon as he got to the camp store, the power came back on, but he's still gonna try and get some ice just in case it goes out again. We were lucky it was only for a couple of hours. I read my book and fell asleep. :P
Fay's being a monster right now though. The winds are pretty hard here in the eye of the storm. She's not raining on us too much but these gusts make me definitely glad I stayed home today. She's also decided to start moving again, thankfully; earlier this morning she was simply stayin' put over top of Daytona.
If nothing else, this storm makes me *certain* I don't want to weather anything more than a tropical storm here in this house we're in... :P
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[21 Aug 2008|02:53pm] |
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We lost power to Fay, can get weather from cell still. Bored out of my mind! We are in the eye... :P
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[21 Aug 2008|01:09pm] |
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Bye bye power! D:
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| FAY |
[21 Aug 2008|06:41am] |
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Yay storm!
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[20 Aug 2008|05:27pm] |
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This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years.
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| I'm here ! |
[20 Aug 2008|11:29am] |
I forgot I had a livejournal...
:D
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| dr. apt |
[19 Aug 2008|10:20pm] |
so my apt today went really well, minus a small part.
my doctor is so amazing. he's completely supportive of me wanting a natural birth. and because he's as old as time, he knows how to deliver babies who are breech. he answered all mine and ryan's questions, and he was just really laid back and funny.
the down side is i'm stupid and forgot that it was my appointment this morning. so i had apple jacks for breakfast. helloooo sugar. so i failed my one hour gestational diabetes test by three points. so they want me to go take the three hour test, but i think i'm going to call and tell them i'm stupid and see if they'll just let me retake the one hour at my next apt. bad idea?
after we left the hospital, ryan and i went and picked up the crib and changing table that we found on craigslist last night. it was a $2,000 set that we bought for $450. it's absolutely beautiful! we are in love with it.
after unloading all the new furniture we rushed back to the apartment to meet greg and go look at houses. we actually found one we like! yay! the other three were just not so great.
i finally got around to setting up a paypal account, so prepare for us to go broke because i'm buying up all the cute baby stuff online.
in other fun news, my birthday is in 22 days. ryan is planning something outrageous to make up for lack of alcohol.
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