Fallingstar ([info]0_lostinabook_0) wrote in [info]30_angsts,
@ 2008-04-13 11:19:00
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Entry tags:princess tutu, rue

Fic: Who am I?

Fandom: Princess Tutu
Title: Who am I?
Author: 0_lostinabook_0
Theme: #6: Curiosity (~listen to your heart cry)(table here)
Character: Rue
Rating: PG 
Disclaimer: Princess Tutu does not belong to me; it is the property of Ito Ikuko.
Summary: Takes place during Act VIII (Episode 8), while Rue tries to remember what happened the night she first transformed into Kraehe. 

STOP!

 

And just like that, he was gone.

 

If only everything in her life could be as easy.

 

Rue slowly removed her hands from over her ears, half-expecting another question from her love’s heart shard to cut her to the core, but she was greeted only by a welcome silence, and a soft red glow from the black velvet box.

 

In another moment, she had shut the box and thrown it into her drawer, still shocked and surprised. She stood there for a long moment, trying to catch her scattered thoughts, which were beating against each other like angered birds.

 

Rue focused on the simple facts. Firstly, she had (somehow) obtained a piece of her Prince’s shattered heart, an event which she had no memory of. Secondly, said piece of heart had then riddled her with questions, which meant that it was the feeling of Curiosity, or something around those lines. Thirdly, she had no idea what to do next.

 

The ballet student slowly walked away from her dresser and sat down on her bed, automatically drawing her knees to her chest.

 

Think, Rue. There has to be a logical solution for all this…

 

She certainly wasn’t letting that heart shard out of the box again. Even though she had done it accidentally, the questions that it had asked her weren’t something that she wanted to think about right now. Personal pain aside, letting the heart shard out would only mean that Princess Tutu would find it again, and then she would return it to Mytho…

 

Mytho… My prince…

 

What would happen to Mytho if he continued to gain back pieces of his heart? Would he continue to stay with her? Or would he—

 

Rue refused to finish the thought. It was silly to even consider it. Princess Tutu, a rival….hah. She had always been with Mytho, and would always love him—he knew that.

 

Didn’t he?

 

…The heart shard. Think about the heart shard.

 

Maybe she could ask Fakir…?

 

No, that was a stupid idea. Fakir hated her. He never wanted anyone to be anywhere near Mytho, and for someone to openly be his girlfriend…

 

Also, if something had happened with Princess Tutu and the heartshards last night, it was most likely that Fakir already knew about it. Mytho told Fakir everything. He didn’t understand what it meant to keep some things to himself. And if she had been involved in… whatever happened last night, the odds were that the overbearing best friend knew about that too.

 

Besides, he probably wouldn’t be much help to her anyway. Even the idea of talking to him on such a subject sounded idiotic. They both wanted the same thing—to keep Mytho as he was, heartless and perfect. They merely had different ideas of achieving those ends.

 

Which meant that Rue was on her own to come up with a solution to her paradox. She frowned into her knees. The truth was that she wanted it gone, far, far away from anywhere it could find her and pester her with questions that she couldn’t answer…

 

Who are you?

 

Why did you bring me back with you?

 

Why do you don black feathers?

 

Do you have a special power dwelling within you?

 

Who are you, really?

 

…But why would it ask me such questions? Rue’s brows furrowed. What happened last night?

 

She closed her eyes for a long moment and thought.

 

Her mind was a maelstrom of black feathers. They closed the gates to her memory on all sides, refusing to let her through.

 

Don’t look, you shouldn’t see…

 

But Rue had already found what she had wanted just outside the gate.

 

Last night…

 

I saw Princess Tutu return a piece of Mytho’s heart to him. Mytho also wished for its return…

And then… I saw that…

 

And after that…

 

What…?

 

Who…Who am I?

 

Who are you, really?

 

Feathers… black feathers…

 

Everywhere…

 

“Give it back!”

 

Red eyes glinting in the darkness…

 

“I will give you nothing. I will let you do nothing.”

 

Who am I…?

 

Rue slowly turned to stare at her dresser. Red light was seeping through the cracks. Her eyes narrowed.

 

There was only one thing left for her to do, then.

 

She would keep the heart shard. She would hide it away where no one could find it. Everything would stay the same… Mytho would still be hers, as it was meant to be.

 

She wouldn’t worry any more about the questions the heart shard had asked her. They were stupid, pointless and a waste of her time.

 

It didn’t matter if she was someone else. She was Rue now, and always would be.

 

The red light flared, as if bursting to ask another question, but then faded away inexplicably.



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[info]haleysings
2008-04-13 07:57 pm UTC (link)
Ooooh, very good! I, uh, love angst, so I'll probably be watching this fairly closely.

The heartshard of Curiosity has always been my favorite...partially because of how it asks questions that reeeeally get under people's skin. So this was a lot of fun to read. ^^ Rue's introspection was really good, it really revealed a lot about the relationship Rue has with Fakir and Mytho, as well as her own struggle during that particular moment...and the last sentence was a great, great line to end on.

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-13 08:24 pm UTC (link)
Thank you! <3 This is actually my second attempt at writing angst, so I'm glad it came out well. ^_^

It was the prompt that actually made me go and claim Rue for this community, since I always imagined her going "OMG, WTF" right after the heart shard scene since she didn't remember at first, and all that. lolz.

My muse is practically doing backflips over the other prompts this comm has given my soooo many ideas, since it's been angst obsessed lately dunno why, since I'm not depressed myself or anything so expect to see a lot more! ^_^

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[info]mase992
2008-04-13 08:42 pm UTC (link)
That was excellent! Truly! It was great how you were able to grasp Rue's confusion and one can see her asking those questions to herself and wondering about her true identity that's clad with black feathers (and angst wins :D ! ).

You've left me wanting more XD .

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-13 08:59 pm UTC (link)
Thank you! ^_^

Oh, I'm just getting started. XD

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[info]blacksheep91
2008-04-13 10:46 pm UTC (link)
Yea, new fic ^_^

Loved the bit about the "gates of her memory", nice imagery. :D

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-13 11:06 pm UTC (link)
Thank you. ^_^

I was thinking about how she had surpressed her childhood memories as Kraehe in order to be with Mytho, and the "raven wings" seemed to fit into that. <3

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[info]serika_san
2008-04-14 08:17 pm UTC (link)
Nice characterization of Rue! ^^ She can be a really hard character to identify with and write well, but I think you came through nicely.

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-15 12:30 am UTC (link)
Thank you! ^_^

The muse reacted well with the prompt. <3 But just to be sure, I rewatched that episode again, just to get the feeling right. I'm glad that it came out well!

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[info]nights_fang
2008-04-23 09:45 am UTC (link)
This is done rather well. Actually Rue has been done quite perfectly

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-23 02:58 pm UTC (link)
Thank you! ^_^

I was actually kinda worried at first that I wouldn't be able to capture Rue's character... but I'm glad that it turned out well!

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[info]nights_fang
2008-04-23 03:55 pm UTC (link)
I can understand why you'd feel that way. Rue is a pretty much an extremely complex character. Moreso than the other main characters

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-23 04:29 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, she's got so much stuff going on in her life that it's kinda hard to get in her head and understand what's she's thinking. I guess I pulled it off though, if the comments are anything to go by. ^_^

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[info]nights_fang
2008-04-23 06:02 pm UTC (link)
You did more than pull it off. You actually capture her character perfectly. Much better than many other writers I've seen trying to do her.

Oh and I forgot to mention. *hits head hard for this* I totally love your Rue icon.

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[info]0_lostinabook_0
2008-04-23 10:51 pm UTC (link)
Oh, thank you! ^_^ I got it a while ago (from [info]tutu_icons I think), and I just thought that it fit waaay too perfectly. ^_^

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