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I'm new and need help [28 Dec 2006|07:03pm]
If whoever has time, please read my latest posting and leave comments . . . I'm so lost
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[01 Dec 2006|12:03am]

I feel like I am at a crossroads with no clue on which way to go.

There is a woman that I have been friends with for a couple of years now. I love her (in a non-romantic way) and I totally respect her. Having her as a friend has been a huge + in my life. Up to a certain point in time, I felt that we had this close connection and we could confide in one another about anything: from the sad to the silly. Everything was going really groovy.

Then about nine months ago, this friend started hanging out with another group for the first time. No big deal because we all have our own circles of friends. This is different though. At first it was nothing but gradually over time she has been spending more and more time with them. Okay, fine, but I also feel like we are drifting further and further apart now and that scares me. We do talk and hang out sometimes and she has told me she loves talking with me, but it isn't the same to me. I feel like such a burden now that I am trying to distance myself from her a little because I don't want to bother her. It pains me though considering how often she has told me before in the past that she loves me and thanks me for our continued friendship. If that is the case then why do I feel like crying because I feel like I am losing her to these friends?

I know she can not spend all of her time with me and I wouldn't want her too. But I am very torn and very hurt by feeling like I am not important to her anymore. I want to tell her how I feel, how much she means to me, how much I look up to her, and how much I fear that I am losing her....... but how should I go about doing this or am I just being a whiny jealous bitch about it?

x-posted in hopes of getting a variety of advice
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[28 Oct 2006|08:11pm]

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[12 Aug 2006|03:57pm]

To this day, I feel loss. I have a lack of understanding as to why it's so hard for me to accept how I feel, the pain or hurt or whatever it is. I want to derail it, but I think about it when I'm alone or when somebody brings it up. I don't really allow the feeling, even now, as I talk about it. Im knotting in the stomach, uptight....I feel guilty. Morally, in this day and age, it's not the end of the world.
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[26 Jul 2006|01:14am]
I joined here about...a minute ago.
Have a couple questions. And no one to ask them to.
So ... here i am.

I'm not one for dramatics or whining, so i will try to keep the story as concise as possible.
I am fifteen, i'm about to enter 10th grade at a Catholic school. I'm not Catholic.
Last year was my first year at a Catholic school.
In April, a good friend told me that she loved me. (I am a girl.)
Let's just say, i was a little shocked. At first i was thinking, Oh, she's telling me she's gay, that's okay i have no problems with that.
Then she finished what she was saying.
I avoided her for a while, but...finally i had to speak to her. I told her that she was one of my best friends, and that i wanted to keep it that way. That i just didn't feel that way about her or whatever.
Then, at the end of June, i realised that we just might be more than best friends. On the first of July i sent her a very long and confusing email on the subject. There's more to explain here, but the point is, we ended up...'together.'
See the problem was that it is summer vacation and we live a bit far away from each other. So we resorted to spending hours at a time on the phone, much to the dismay of my mother.
Last Sunday (it is Wednesday morning), she came over to my house to watch movies. We exchanged CDs we'd made for each other, and she also gave me a couple of DVDs that she'd burned.
One of them was Imagine Me and You.
I don't know if anyone has seen that movie. She told me it was sweet. Which it was. She did not tell me that it was sad. That is should have made me cry.
Well, i was crying. But not for the reason i should have been.
See.  I admit, i'm a bit cynical. I don't believe in a god, i mostly just believe in science. The human race baffles me to no end. We are such an exception to everything.
Which is part of my problem.
I never believed in love. I thought that she had proved me wrong. I have now realised that...well, i think i was right the first time. She is an amazing person, and i cannot describe how much i care about her.
And yet somehow, i've always got thoughts nagging at the back of my head. Thoughts like Love is all about self-gratitude. That people only say i love you to hear it said back.
Thoughts like Love can't exist. Especially not love at first sight. It is completely ridicolous that you should see someone and immeaditaly know that you were meant to be together.
Among other thoughts. So many others. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense, but i guess the advice i'm looking for is if i should tell her what i'm thinking. I feel horrible, because i know that she will be so sad if i do say it. You should have seen the way she reacted when i told her i thought i loved her too.
But at the same time, none of it's real. And i feel hypocritical pretending to love her when i don't actually believe in love.

Hope this is the sort of thing you all give advice for. ANY thoughts on the matter will be appreciated. Thank you.
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No Help In Sight, or Not In Me Anymore [08 May 2006|02:13am]

Folks, I'm sorry that I haven't been on here in a little while. It seems that I can no longer find it in me to write. My mind is so mixed up that I really don't know where to start. I don't understand what all has happened to me, so how can I put it in words for you all to understand.

For one, I find myself retracting back behind the wall of indifference. The wall that I have lived so much of my life behind. The wall that helps me to keep everyone at arms length with out me worrying about being hurt by them. It's almost like I have drawn back and would rather let the world pass me by while I sit at home in my loneliness and just let it be. I feel more alone then ever, yet at the same time I also feel more at peace. Maybe it's just my mind trying to make its self believe that I am happier alone. I find myself not wanting to get close to anyone for fear that I will tell them something about myself that will come back to hurt me. When I'm in a group, I always find myself steering the conversation away from anything that may include me and what I think, or I find myself thinking several answers ahead trying to find that "Safe" answer.

I do miss the way I use to be, I want to get back to it. Go back to being the person that didn't hunt for the "Safe" words, the one that would say or write exactly what he thought, what he wanted others to know. Will there ever be a time when I am back there?? When I am back to being the person that would go ever so far out of their way to help someone if they could??? I do hope so.

Maybe in time I will find it easier to be on the computer, easier to tell you all what is going on, what I am thinking. To be able to lend you encouragement. But for right now I can't find it. I can't find the person I want to be no matter how much soul searching I do.
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Me vrs. unwanted guest/Too Many People around [29 Mar 2006|06:28am]

[ mood | bitchy ]

It's early in the Morning and I feel the need to put feelings down on paper, or in this case, the Inter-net. As the title suggests, this is vent time.

I just want time to myself, is that so much to ask?Collapse )

Ok. While I still feel the inner turmoil over my feelings about always having people over at my house, I do think that it is time I end this Entry for tonight, today, what-ever. My mind is drained, as my body is with what time it is. Hopefully I will be able to do my normal daily routine of Phone Calls to distant friends today, god knows that I am going to try. I hope too that everyone is having a good day and that they are happy where ever they are at.

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To all the ladies: [27 Feb 2006|10:45pm]

I'm getting bitched at by a girl, because I made a community.

True, I got vehement at first, because she said this:
"I don't trust anything that bleeds like..a gallon in three days and doesn't die."

And she calls herself a feminist...?
Eh, who am I to tromp on what a person calls themself.
I call myself female, and she's tromping on that...

As it is, this community, we_are_she is really pissing her off.

She's already advertising in her lj not to join it, but she's supposed to stay out of my posts, because she's 'done with this fiasco'.


What do I need support for, you ask?
I'd like you ladies to join, and show how PROUD you are to be female. Prove her wrong, that being a female is not a bad thing. PLEASE, show your support.
You don't have to be a feminist, no, but at least be PROUD of being female, I'd love it if you helped me with this. It's been depressing me, and I've only made the group yesterday...

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[04 Feb 2006|12:30pm]

I had half a bottle of raspberry vodka last nite.

shit, i finally can get on the computer.

i need help. how to get rid of my hangover.

i have thrown up around 15-20 times.
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Confessions of a sick mind or a Cry for Help? [30 Jan 2006|07:06am]

[ mood | worried ]

Hello again everyone. I know that it has been a long time since I truly updated. For those of you that actually care I must apologize. I did not attend the Psychologist appointment. I don't know if it was fear, or plain stupidity. I have called to reschedule though, but they can't give me a new date for a couple of months yet. I actually set back and took a look at my life here recently. The day before I was to go, I typed a huge long entry for LJ but couldn't bring myself to post it so I saved it on my hard drive instead. I think that the time has come to go ahead and type it up and post it. It may explain a lot to some of you, or explain very little to all of you, on that I am not sure.

Past Entry. First typed up on 21-January-2006.Collapse )

Well, I am not sure, but I think it is my fear of that actually happening that made me cancel the appointment. That it is my fear of being locked away from the people I love and care about, that it is my fear of being put on something that will make it so that I don’t think for myself, or that both will happen to me. Now I know that there is nothing wrong with being put on something. That there is no shame in taking anti-psychotics, or anti-Depressants, but I fear that by being put on them that I will become someone less then who I am. That I will no longer be able to be who I use to be. I know people that are on some drugs for their problems, and it has made it where they don’t seem to care about anything or anyone. And when they start caring, they have their dosage upped and go back to not giving a shit once again. And even though that is where I almost am now, I still care about some things, about some people. To me, to stop caring about everything and everyone would be worse then death. Is the fact that I care about this at all a good sign? Does it mean that there is hope for me? Maybe I need to drop all my so called “Friends” and start again. Maybe by loosing those that seem to lead me into my destructive habits I can enact at least some change in my life. Maybe I need to stop thinking about it all together and just sit back on the doctor’s chair or couch and tell him that I need to be locked away and tell him exactly why I feel that way. But my fear of losing everyone comes back in against me.

On the up side of things. Tuesday I will get paid then it is straight off to the Car Dealer to pick up my new (Now that’s a joke. The body and seats prove that it is anything but new) car. Guess that means that by the third of the month I will be completely broke again. I am also looking into finding a second job to help out with the bills. Maybe I will go back to being a waiter in a restaurant. I mean, the tips would be great and I know that I can do good at that job. Maybe I can actually end up getting my TV turned back on with out having to lose something else. Not that I have much else to lose. Lets see, Gas, Electric, Telephone, Car, House, Insurance. Nope, not a huge list there to loose.

Well, before I start sounding too pathetic I guess I will end this entry. I just want everyone to know that I will get better, I just don’t know when or how. I am going to spend some major time focusing on taking care of myself, on working on healing. Maybe I will end up going back to some of my old ways. Go back to reading the bible again. Maybe go back to studying acupuncture and having it done again. Maybe go back to my eastern studies of Aroma Therapy. Go back to meditation. Anything to stay who I am and not be changed too drastically.

As always, your comments and thoughts are welcome and greatly appreciated.

Your Friend

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[22 Dec 2005|07:46pm]

[ mood | apathetic ]

What is this darkness that descends over everything? What happened to the me that found some enjoyment in life? I no longer go out and do the things I once found enjoyable. It is as though everything that I enjoyed has left me, left me here to sit and wait for...for nothing. There is nothing that I look forward to anymore. Maybe it is the holiday seasons, the loneliness that always accompanies this time of year. The fact that I have no family around to spend it with, the fact that I don't truly have any friends. All of them just use my friendship because they know that I will help them in anyway possible with out requiring anything of them, yet the times that I need help with something minor they are all too busy to do anything even though their idea of being busy is staying at home and listening to the radio.

No longer do I go and play D&D, no longer do I go to play pool with the Scott's. All I am left with is sitting alone here in the house, watching the clock tick by for now I don't even have TV to fill my emptiness. I log onto the computer, only to turn it right back off because I can't stand sitting at it. I hear about the problems of the world, the problems of others and feel self despair instead of feeling sorry for them. What's going on with me? Why do I seem so apathetic, so lethargic, so phlegmatic?

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[18 Nov 2005|08:32pm]

You may find your answers hereCollapse )
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[20 Oct 2005|09:59pm]

Im new.Collapse )
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[15 Oct 2005|10:55am]

Hi everyone again!
- It's been a long time since I've written and asked for advice. Last time I was livejournal and recieved a bunch of replies was back beginning of August. I just want to thank everyone for taking time and writing their comment and advices for me. they truly helped! xoxox!

But there's another delimma. I'm not going to make one of the 'longest' post that someone has seen so im going to try and make it short as possible. I'm the girl that posted about being with her boyfriend for two years and got back together in the summer and he heard rumors that I slept around and cheated on him and he didnt believe me and said some hurtful things to me that I tried to commit suicide and ended up having to seek help. Well he just completely stopped talking to me and we havent spoken or seen each other in over 2 1/2 months. Well now he started to contact me, and tried to talk and now he wants to get back together and realized he made a mistake and NOW realizes that I was telling the truth and did not cheat on him. I mean he told me it was a mistake to love me and a mistake to get back together in the summer and now he tells me he realized what he had when he lost me and never wants to lose me. He tells me how much he loves me and needs me... but he hurt me so badly that I dont know what love is that i dont know about caring and I dont know what to do. I love him and still care for him just indifferent wants. He thinks we're back together but I want to be with him but there's something that's holding me back. I mean he LEFT me, he didnt TRUST me, he couldnt even TALK to me about it just falt out accused me of cheating and stopped talking and put me through shit. I dont know if I need time to myself or to try and slowly get back together... Im scared of getting hurt and for him to lie and I dont know what to do! I guess you can from coming back to school and starting a new life without him and meeting new people and trying to move on helped and I became adjusted to it and out of the blue right when im getting my life back on track he starts talking to me,and it's like I'm not used to this that I'm being all thrown off... and starting to get all depressed about it. I need as much help as possible please! I dont need this anymore in my life I just want to be HAPPY! I hope you guys can help!

Thanks Guys! Love you LJ!

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[11 Oct 2005|06:45pm]

Hi. I'm new to this community & I really need some advice. First off, I'm 17 & I dont have many friends. 3 years ago I messed around online & made up a life. I became very close to this one girl & still am. Well, she's been wanting to meet me for the longest & somehow I've managed to get out of it. The guilt, of course, has eaten at me until I'm at the point I am. I'm ready to kill myself. I'm not sure what I should do. I feel I have no one to talk to about this. I don't want anyone to find out because I regret it terribly. We are still close but I'm tired of all this. I just want to live my normal life. As much as I want to be close to her just as me I kno it isn't possible. I feel trapped & I'm about to end my life over this. Can anyone give me any advice? I would prefer if it's 100% negative then to just not reply. Can you help?

Thank you for your time.
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[04 Sep 2005|10:59pm]

[ mood | determined ]


As most of you know by now (just judging by the wa-- I mean content-- on my friendspage), recently Hurricane Katrina blew through the United States Gulf Coast and left devastation in its path. New Orleans has been all but obliterated, and many parts of Alabama and Mississippi have also suffered tremendous losses.

Now, I'm pretty much flat broke right now myself, but I've offered up my services for the community above. CALLING ALL FANFIC WRITERS, BETAS, FAN ARTISTS, WEB HEADS, ICON/BANNER/LAYOUT MAKERS! Go join, offer up services as you see fit, and the people who commission you will pay up their money to the victims of this natural disaster.

Go on. Now, doesn't helping people with your talents just make you feel GOOD? Feel free to spread the word.

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[16 Aug 2005|12:22am]

I no longer know what to do. I've been with this guy for two years, dating pretty seriously. We met our senior year of high school things were going really well...Then we went off to College, separate colleges 3 hours apart from one another. We've been this strong dependency on each other where we would visit one another on the weekends. We loved each other so much but arguments started... The long distances were really hard. I felt depressed and would cut myself it was hard and at times I'd fly back home to be with family because I was so homesick. Anyway... we fought and fought over the stupidest things. I then transfered to the school where my boyfriend was. I did not go there because he was there.... I actually was accepted there 1st semester but didnt want to go to the same school because I felt that there would be wayy too much dependency but I transfered to get into this program that I wanted to study. January when I first arrived things were a little cold towards one another had arguments here and there, but we had our good days. It just seems as though once we left home things started to fall apart. I mean dont get me wrong, the relationship we had was healthy. So febuary came around and things just got worse and worse and we became distant. He was upset that I was making more friends than him and I had only been there for one month. As a side note, 1st semester I did not go out at all to show that he can trust me you know... anyway so we started to do our own things. As Febuary came to an end we decided to take a break because the arguments just got worse and worse... So we hardly spoke it was really sad and upseting because he was my best friend.... I started to go and meet new people, try and make new friends it was hard because alot of the times I did not want to go out because he was always on my mind and I wanted to be with him. I guess by me not going out as much 1st smester I needed to get my energy out. He was ready to settle and I wasnt I mean dont get me wrong 18 years old I want to go out and have some fun first you know. He admitted later on he was controlling a bit but also on my part I wasnt thinking of his feelings in which I should have. Anyway... So I had a bad experience in the past 2 years ago where ever since I've had big issues being alone with a guy. So I've always had this (i know im a dork but w.e) buddy system thing with a close friend that we'd stick together no matter what... so when a guy wanted to hang out I'd always ask to hangout as a group and I'd bring a few friends along, so what if I didnt get to know the guy one on one but at the same time, I felt more comfortable around people I knew and trusted. I kissed a guy at the end of the school year but it meant nothing at all.. I wasnt looking for a relationsihp and he commented that the kiss we had felt like his 5 year old cousin would kiss him goodbye... I was like uhhhhhh ok?!?!?! lol messed up but whatever it meant nothing. Through all this time it was hard because I kept thinking about my ex. There's a reason as well why he broke up with me. When I was at a kegger I was with friends and we were all just joking around and a friend and I for a silly reason gave the "peck" face but later on in the pic looking at it looks like we were kissing and I guess it was bad... and my boyfriend didnt know what to think and it was understandble... and he wouldnt want to talk to me... I mean my friend that was in the picture with me is gay.... so I dunno... anyway.... So summer arrived and we havent really spoken or seen each other... we lost touch or I guess you can say cut communicating for about a good month... and started to talk it was hard at first being 'just' friends but it was nice to see him than not seeing him at all. Beginning of June, I had mentioned to him that I was sick from the pregnancy I had with him a year 1/2 ago... I dunno if it was out of pitty or because he really wanted to at first but started to hang out... later on I knew it's because he wanted to. Anyway, he held a get together where he drank ALOT with his friends and did his own thing, he thought that this get together would help me be a little happier and not to think much of the worst that could happen... so I got to see my friends and I was happy. Anyway so he got really really drunk pretty much close to alcohol poisining, everyone left to go to a party and I ended up staying at taking care of him. Yes, we were only friends and I didnt have to stay and I could have gone to the party with my friends but I loved him and still cared and I mean if I were in that position I knew he would do the same for me...so I made sure he was still breathing and he was alright. I would check up on him almost every 10 minutes... I didnt get much sleep but i was worried. The next morning he didnt remember anything so I had to tell him the entire story... since that night it was like we became closer as friends... still hard being 'just' friends but it was nice... Later on, two weeks, I wrote him this note, because earlier in the summer he wanted to know how I felt and I didnt have the right words really so I told him I would let him know when I knew what I wanted to say... and I wrote him this letter with a card and it's like he rejected me, I was so upset and devistated but we started talking and ended up hanging out the rest of the night and we ended up sleeping together... and since then we started to fool around we didnt know what was going on, sort of confusing, it felt right at times and it felt wrong at times but we still loved each other and missed each other. We'd hangout everyday without the affection towards one another it was nice. As July came along I went to Canada for vacation for 2 weeks.... we tried to keep in touch as much but the long distance was hard because I had family things to deal with and he was working everyday. When I came back a couple days after I came back, we went out for dinner and a movie. We talked alot about our past relationship with one another and questioned how things would be. We truly opened up at dinner and at times I wanted to cry but I managed to hold it all in. Later on that evening as we were getting ready to see a movie, he asked me "why dont we give it another shot" and I was happy but surprised at the same time to hear him as that. I was not sure if I wanted to because we did argue alot in the past and was really hurt and I didnt want to get hurt again and he said that if it didnt work out we'd promise each other to remain best friends and still be there for each other.... so I said alright... it was weird to go back again to dating the holding hands and affection it was weird but took time to adapt to. So things were going well... we agreed that the relationship would only work if there was trust and communication so we started to communicate more. If something was wrrong we'd talk about it and we did. It's like we became closer in a way and I was somewhat starting to get happy or feel what happy was like. It was like a natural high... anyway... Beginning of August his friend from school Mike, came down to visit him... and I dont really like the kid because I felt like he was a bad influence on my boyfriend but I didnt know him much so I gave it another chance to get to know him. So my bf had a last get together on a friday and alot of people showed up... we drank alot and caught up with friends it was nice... but my boyfriend didnt talk to me as much and I guess it was understandble bc there were guests but it bothered me because he'd have his hand around my friend and talked to her face pretty close... it was as though he were talking to her more than me... and I guess it was a form of jealousy but Im sure he wouldnt like it if I were like that to a guy that close to his face... anyway I got sick later on in the night and almost passed out outside.. he didnt care to see how I was and it hurt because earlier in the summer I was there for him.. and he got all upset.. an yway I tried to talk about it in the morning and he'd deny it but w.e he apologies so I was like hm ok he does care ok. Saturday night he went to his dad's house with his friend and mentioned to me that he wanted to hang out, so I invited him and his friend over and to ask other people to come but he told me they were too tired and wanted to stay at his dad's. Later on I find out they went out I just wish he was honest... We planned to go to the beach monday and tuesday so we tried to plan it out sunday night... on the phone he was cold and bitter... when I wasnt done talking he thought I was done and yelled out "BYE" and I asked if I could finish and he yelled "hurry the fuck up" and he's never like that he's always sweet and kind.. so I didnt knwo what was going on. He then avoided me for several days... I find out from a friend that my bf was avoiding me because "I slept around at school, and cheated on him" It hurt that people would say such a thing because I'm honestly not like that. I've NEVER EVER EVER cheated on him. I believe no person deserves that at all to be cheated on. and a cheater has no self dignity or respect for people. Yes I will agree that we've lied towards one another but I would never lie in a way that would hurt the relationship. I dont understand! Yes I did kiss a guy but that was when we broke up. I mean he kissed a girl in september when we were TOGETHER and told me in April... he asked me if I did anything with a guy and I should have flat out told him about kissing a guy but I didnt think it was that big... i still should have been open about it. I do remember when I came back from school I spoke to a few girls... and they thought I'd move on fast from him so I didnt want to seem like wuss or like a dependent freak on him so I made up crap that I moved on from him and got with all these guys... but I never thought that would get back to him... I mean one of my friends she even commented what a bad liar I was and knew by just looking at me that I loved my bf too much to do that... and it was silly and stupid for me to do but I just hate it when people make fun of me... and it didnt cross my mind and I should have told him but I didnt think it mattered. I mean he knows my past and he knows that I get uncomfortable around guys alone. I wouldnt be in a room alone with a guy I didnt know or a guys he didnt know like my guys friends from home I was fine because I really knew them... but he doesnt believe me.. and I dont blame him I mean people will believe the worst. If I cheated on him while we were together, why would I be around all the argument why would I stick around to try and fix it, why would i cry every night wanting to fix things with him? He yelled at me saying that he didnt hate me but I feel like he does. He told me I was a mistake everything was a mistake getting back together and loving me was a mistake. It hurts sooo much to wake up everyday and know that everything was a mistake to him.... I mean god I should have been honest with my girlfriends... I just dont know what to do... I wrote him a letter explaining everything but he prob thinks that Im just lying and I dont know what to do... and this is where I'm asking for your advice... I never cheated on him. I did so much and went out of my way for him why would I cheat on someone I love that's what I dont get?!?!?! WHAT DO I DO!?!?! i feel like he's not going to talk to me anymore... and he hasnt. We go to the same university just live like 2 minutes away... we weont have internet or a phone right when we get there bc we will be living in a new house separate houses... do I give him his space not communicating and then stop by his place and tyr to talk to him? or let him come to me?! it's not even that i just really want to make him see that I am telling the truth... I feel like im in a movie where a crime as been committed and i'm on death row for it and I didnt even commit the crime you know... I've been crying everyday straight had no motivation on going out and became suicidal... i feel like I have nothing to live for... and i havent done anything stupid because I keep hoping the next day that he will realize the truth and speak to me.. but I dont even know if he read my email that i wrote to him or not. I NEED YOUR HELP because im starting to become depressed and I've almost done stupid things that I'm getting sent away for help before school and I just need ur help on giving me advice on what to do. He's my life, my sanity! I used to cut and was depressed but he helped me stop and he taught me what love was and he was my best friend and it's like a huge part of me is missing... please help... - as many people as possible would be nice to hear just to see what you guys say I would truly appreciate it.... as you can see I am truly upset... and falling into a depression over something stupid I did... from now I im sticking to the truth and not making up stuff just to try and make myself feel better... and to be honest no matter how much people will make fun of me... it was a mistake and he's never going to believe me. I just hope that one day he realizes that I was telling the truth.... I pray.
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New Advice Community [03 Jul 2005|11:58pm]

Hi Guys,
My name is Kate and I've set up a new advice community. I do not want you guys to leave this community, but I hope that you will check mine out and if you like it, you will join. I am a trained professional. I work at a psych clinic in Los Angeles and have a B.A. in Soc and I'm working on my Masters in Psych. I am open to any and every problem. The link is http://www.livejournal.com/editinfo.bml?authas=katie3878

Thanks Guys,
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[29 Jun 2005|01:05pm]

Needing a little advice/support from you ladies out there...
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Do you think I'm making the right decision?
Any help here is much appreciated.
1 held handheld hand |Take my hand?

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